A Girl Called 'It'

"YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR ME!" Mum said yelling in my face
"I fake a smile, I hide my problems from you to avoid getting stressed, I cover my scars, I don't talk to you so you don't have to put up with me, and I pretend to be mentally stable." I replied tears welling up in my eyes, and before I knew it, I was pulled into the dark moldy room and locked inside.
I woke up in the morning to find the door unlocked, I searched the hall ways and ran out and walked to school, I'm not the most popular girl. But also far from it, as I opened my locker and letter fell out, curious, I opened it and read it and tears fell down my face as I opened it up.
*Letter*
I SEE YOUR FAKE SMILE.
Because believe me, sweetie, I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply, "I'm good." when someone asks how you are. But not because you are good, because you're used to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question that's being asked. Your response is just so rehearsed, that it comes out with no effort. Just like that beautiful smile, sweetie. It breaks your heart to lie to those you love. It's so hard to tell them everything is perfectly fine. But it's even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you gotta believe me when I tell you, sweetie, you're not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see every night. The one you don't recognize anymore. That same smile you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think you just might be happy. But then, your heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood, and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice. You feel like you're alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, you're not alone sweetie. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand. I'm rubbing your back as you cry on my shoulder. Even if you can't see me or hear me, I'm here. And I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it feels like to just throw it all away and say "Fuck it." I know what it feels like to think, "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So It's my turn. I'm going to be the one to leave this time, and leave them to hurting and alone." But sweetie, you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or if I don't even know you're name. I'm here for you. And I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. Maybe I'm your best friend, maybe I'm your mother, maybe I'm your baby sister, or your father who's never home. I care about you, and I don't want you to go anywhere. I know It's tough, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do it for everyone who's ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear that fake smile every day, but stay strong, sweetie. Stay strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow.
~Anonymous~

1. Chapter One

2. Chapter Two

3. Chapter Three

4. Chapter Four

   NOT AN UPDATE :L

5. Chapter Five

6. Chapter Six

7. Chapter Seven

8. Chapter Eight

9. Chapter Nine

10. Please Read -Important-

11. Chapter Ten

12. Decisions

13. Chapter Twelve

14. Chapter Thirteen

15. Chapter Fourteen

16. Please Read!!

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17. Bye Guys

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