A Girl Called 'It'

Millie's POV:
I'm back at school and trust me I don't want to be here, Kylie had to move schools and we only see her once a week, Meg and Harry are going on strong and Niall he's gotten better, he's talking again, Zayn left to be with Perrie and Liam and Louis..
Well strangely they are acting normal.
They speak to me sometimes but If I'm at dad's Liam and I tend to act like brother and sister
I was sitting in art when Mr Stark called out my name
"Millie"
I stood up and walked over to him
"Yes sir" I said staring at a girl standing there
'This is Ava Short and I'd like you to show her around" He said just as the bell rung, I made my way out taking Ava with me
"Hey Ava I'm Millie it's nice to meet you" I said softly
"Hi it's nice to meet you to'' She said even softer
"Well do you want to come meet my friends?"
"Umm yeah I'd like that" She said with a small smile
"Okay follow me" I started walking to the back of the oval where we hung out
Everyone loved her but she seemed off so I pulled her aside
"You know I'm here for you, no matter what even if we just met because I see past your fake smile" My voice cracking like I was about to cry
"Please don't tell anyone, I can't handle the pity" She said with tears streaming down her cheeks
"I won't I promise, do you wanna stay the night?" I asked
"If it's okay" I nodded in response
"Come on Liams taking us home"
"Why?"
"Cause he's my step- brother"
"Oh cool"
*At home*
I decided while Ava was in the shower to write in my journal:
The world where my imagination is king and my soul is its servant has been the creator of my false happiness and the keeper of my darkest regrets. This all too familiar retreat steals from me the reality I need to grow in my actual life. It has done this for as long as I can remember. I used to consider it a gift. Now I don't want it. I want to be a true realist where dreams have no function and therefore no control. Then I can be the maker of my own universe where true happiness lies. This place where regret cannot fester because all opportunities would be called upon. This place where control is mine and not that of my conscious. Where the choice to be unhappy stays with me and not my imagination. Where the world can be unkind if fate will have it. Where fate's unkindness can be fought. Where the fight can be won. Where winning would bring to me all things I consider treasure. Where treasure would never be in short supply. Where my life truly ends and begins. Where heart truly breaks and mends. Where my mind focuses. Where my soul strengthens. Where lies have no form and truths have no secrets. Where the choice to happy stays with me and not my imagination.

For the rest of the night we watched movies and talked and then went to bed around three in the morning, sometimes when I have nightmares I sleep in Liams room but tonight my nightmare was bad and I ran to Liams room and snuggled in with him, I drifted to sleep when I felt his arms snake around me and heard a distant whisper
"I love you flower"

Notes

yeah yeah I know SHIT chapter but I'm distracted by Andrew Garfield in the amazing Spiderman like who can ignore a man in a suit *raises hand awkwardly*
there will be a better one tomorrow I PROMISE
btw..
I FEEL MY SPIDEY SENSES TINGLING!!!