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BBarging out of the door, Niall quickly ran down the stairs and out of the building. He couldn't believe what he'd just done and what he'd said. Nothing sounded more cheesy than that. He should've come up with something more intelligent, more of a come-back kind of a thing. But instead, he'd gone all out to sound cheesy.
Walking around the park, calmed him down as he inhaled and exhaled. As he continued walking, he saw Kelsa with some other guy, making-out. At this point in his life, he couldn't care less. This was typical Kelsa. He couldn't really expect her to stay on one man without having sex. Sex was life for her. But for Niall, that was something else. Just another world for him and he wasn't ready to lose his virginity just yet. And that too, to a slut. A whore. More like prostitute. Bet she was getting paid for sleeping with guys.
He moved on from her and began walking back to his dorm building. He needed a nice bath and to jerk himself off. That's what he needed. Wanted. To do. If there was anything else he could do, he would. But being a Saturday, he didn't have anything to do. But if the boys planned on going to the movies or getting wasted, he would definitely go for it.
As he walked up the stairs, he realized that there was no noise coming from, well, anywhere. But he didn't care. (See, that rhymed!!! LOL. JK)He opened the door to his room and what he saw next was just unbelievable. Harry and Louis were doing it, something that Niall hadn't really expected to see. Quickly, he slammed the door shut. He couldn't believe what he saw and now, he definitely had to get wasted to get that image out of his head.
When did things become so messed up?
His phone buzzed indicating that someone was either calling him or messaging him but he wasn't interested in both. Maybe he could go to Kelsa and get...
Before he had a chance to even think about going to her room, Niall thought better and decided to go to the one place he knew he could do anything. Well, not exactly anything, but...Walking over to his car, he unlocked it and opened the door before sitting, shutting it after he was sat down. His mind wandered off to Kelsa and then to Ashley.
What did he mean by that kiss? The kiss at the party was a dare but the one they shared in her dorm room, what was that? Why would he go ahead and kiss her when he wasn't feeling anything towards her? Maybe he did feel something for her. Maybe that's why he kissed her. Maybe he wanted the feeling of her lips on his to remind him not to mess around with chicks who were out of his league. But she wasn't out of his league. And it wasn't as though he had a type.
Revving the engine, he turned out of the parking lot and onto the busy road-his mind still on Ashley. She'd kissed him back too, that definitely meant something. Something big, maybe. At the moment his life was filled with 'Maybe's'and he hated it with every nerve in his body. Things he wanted to say, he couldn't and things he didn't want to feel, he felt.

He couldn't understand himself at all. Why create a situation where there's no turning back? But the feeling, the rush, the adrenaline-everything, he felt it like never before. The emotions, the feelings, came rushing back to him like it happened just now. He felt himself go hard and had to slow down his driving. Why?
Walking into Joe's, he noticed that Liam, Louis and Harry were sitting together at a table in the corner at the end. He didn't understand how fast they came here. How could that possibly even happen?
"Hey." he said as he sat down next to Liam, trying hard not to let the image of Harry and Louis fucking get back in his head.
"Hey. What's wrong?" Liam asked a disturbed Niall.
"Nothing. " he said, looking Liam in the eye but Liam could sense that something was wrong.
"He...uh...saw us." Louis said, trying not to give too much away.
"So what?" Liam said, not understanding the situation.
"YOu know...." Louis went on, hinting the very best he could.
"Ooooh. Now, i get it." Liam said, running his fingers through his hair. "It's okay mate. I saw them doing it too. " he said and laughed.
Niall too laughed, but a weak one. His mind was still on Ashley and somehow, he didn't want to not think about her. The more he thought about it, the more he wanted her close. The more he wanted to hold her. To kiss her. To make love to her. To do anything and everything with her. Things he'd never thought he'd do, he wanted to do them with her.
He finally admitted it-He liked her. More than anyone else.

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