All I ever wanted

Harry's p.o.v

I had been sitting in the waiting room for an hour when doctor Jacob's finally came out. ''How is she?'' I stood up, ''first we did a blood test and some other tests, it showed that Lucy has gotten pneumonia'' I sat down in my chair again. I barely know what pneumonia is, only that it can be bad. ''Usually it can be treated with antibiotics at home, but since she has been having trouble breathing the hospital suggested she should come there for a night or two. For observation'' ''you're sending her to the hospital?'' I said with a low voice avoiding her eyes. ''Harry, she will get the best help at the hospital. She's gonna be fine'' I nodded slowly, desperately blinking away the tears in my eyes. ''That's not all, though'' she said a little quieter making me snap my head up locking eyes with her. ''I don't know if you were aware of the situation ,but, when we did the blood test it showed that...that Lucy is pregnant'' my jaw dropped. This was too much information to take in all at once.

It was scary. Scary looking at her laying in a hospital bed with a needle in her arm and things in her nose giving her oxygen. I knew they told me it wasn't that bad, but I can see with my own eyes it's bad. They gave her oxygen to help her breathe, something was seriously wrong with her lungs, otherwise she would have been able to breathe on her own. I stepped out of the room to take a breather and to call our families. ''Hello sweetheart'' my mum answered ''mum?'' I said feeling the tears fall down. ''Harry? What's going on?'' ''it's Lucy. She's in the hospital. Mum, I'm really scared can you please hurry?'' I didn't even care I sounded like a desperate five year old. I had called her earlier today and she offered to bring some soup. I was grateful because I didn't want be here alone ''I'll get there as soon as I can, and I called her parents too, they...they aren't coming. But I'm there soon, hang in there, baby''. I texted all of our friends what's going on but I told them not to come. But they are who they are so of course they came. Eleanor and Niall immediately walked in to Lucy, Louis gave me one look and then pulled me away. ''She had a cold, she had a fucking cold'' I sunk down on the floor wrapping my hands around and pulling up my legs to my stomach. I filled him in on everything regarding her pneumonia while letting the tears fall. I wasn't sure I should tell him about the pregnancy. I had yet to digest the fact. I really wanted to talk to someone about it but I wasn't sure it was fair to Lucy. She didn't even know she had a human being in her stomach yet. ''Is there something you're not telling me? I can see on your face that you're debating'' Louis said, I looked away from him and wiped my tears. ''They did a blood test'' ''okay?'' ''she's pregnant'' I mumbled. ''What?'' ''she's pregnant'' I said a little louder and a smile spread across his face. ''Mate, congrats'' I just stared at him blankly before shaking my head. ''Why are you not happy?'' he frowned ''uh I don't know maybe because she's currently laying in a hospital bed getting help to breathe'' I snapped. ''Look I get that you're under a lot of stress right now but the doctor's have said she will be fine. We just need to trust them. Okay?'' I nodded at his words ''do you wanna go for a cup of coffee, you look exhausted'' ''I can't leave her''. ''Niall and El is in there right now, I think you need to step away for a minute'' ''okay'' I sighed.

Lucy's p.o.v

I woke up to two familiar faces. ''You're back'' I said with a raspy voice and smiled at my Irish guy. ''I'm back'' he smiled but I could see he was exhausted. ''How are you feeling?'' Eleanor stepped forward and stroke my arm, ''better, I think it's the antibiotics''. We were quiet for a moment before I spoke again, ''where's Harry?'' ''he's with Lou, he just needed some air'' Niall said, ''I scared him, didn't I?'' I suddenly felt sad. I didn't want him to be scared because of me. Niall nodded slowly. ''So can I get a hug or no? I haven't seen you in a month. Someone ran away to America'' Niall let out one of his bubbly laughs and pulled me in to a hug. I had really missed him. ''What about me?'' Eleanor whined, ''I saw you like yesterday'' I chuckled but stopped when she frowned. ''I saw you Sunday, today is Friday'' ''oh. I must have really been out of it then'' ''yeah. I'm gonna go find the doctor, they told us to call them if you woke up'' she said and left the room. ''What have you been up to, Leprechaun'' I said and pressed a button to make the bed lift up a bit. ''I've been hanging out with my family and friends mostly'' I nodded, ''so am I dying?'' I blurted out. Nobody had told me anything, I literally woke up in a hospital bed with a needle in my arm and tubes in my nose. I saw Niall's eyes widen and he opened his mouth to speak but closed it when the door opened. A male doctor walked in and asked Niall to step out, ''no he's staying'' I said and grabbed Niall's hand. Harry wasn't here so Niall is sure as hell not leaving me. The doctor gave me a quick nod, ''I'm doctor Perkins. How are you feeling, Lucy? Has anything changed the past few days?'' he smiled politely at me, ''Well I don't have a blocked nose and sore throat anymore. The coughing and heavy chest is the same. Can you tell me why I'm here?'' ''you've got pneumonia. Usually you just get antibiotics for it and is sent home, but since you had breathing troubles we wanted to keep you for observation'' ''so I'm not dying?'' ''you're not dying'' oh thank god. ''There is something else though. Your house doctor has already informed your fiance...you might want him to step our for this one'' he looked at Niall who looked at me. ''He can stay'' I said ''go on''. ''We don't know if you already knew about this, but when we took a blood test we saw that you are pregnant'' what is this person saying to me right now? ''I'm what?'' ''you're pregnant'' fuck fuck fuck. I drank so much on New Years Eve that baby must be fucking ruined by now. ''How long?'' ''about two weeks''. ''New years eve?'' Niall snickered and I gave him a glare. So the baby must have been made that night, and I haven't been drinking since that night so I should be fine. Doctor Perkins gave me some more information and set me up for a doctor's appointment regarding the baby. ''I believe congrats are in order'' Niall grinned when my doctor had left. ''Thanks'' I muttered. All I wanted to do was talk to Harry but he wasn't here. I was going to finish Uni. We were going to get married. THEN have kids. Not the other way around. And on top of all this I have pneumonia. This was all too much to take in all at once. I really wanted to speak to my mother. ''Are you okay?'' Niall asked, I must have done a face. ''I....I..'' I couldn't form the words. My breathing got heavier and my heart started to pound faster. I didn't even notice Harry and his mum walking in the room until Harry wrapped his arms around me trying to calm me down. ''Is this a panic attack?'' I hear Niall say before I started screaming at Harry. ''No, no, no. Please, I just want my mum right now. Please I want my mum'' I sobbed and Harry took a step back. ''Boys, step outside for a minute I'll take care of this'' Anne said and Niall and Harry left the room. She climbed in the hospital bed with me wrapping her arms around me and started singing. Within a few minutes my breathing got slower and my heart returned to normal.

Harry's p.o.v

Seeing Lucy freak out like that had made me so scared. And the fact that I couldn't calm her made me sad. I'm her fiance, I should be the one who can calm her at all times. It had been an hour since I left the room when my mum texted me I could come back in. I walked in the room just to see Lucy sleeping in my mums embrace. I sat down on a chair next to the bed. My mum reached for my hand and I let her grab it and she started rubbing her thumb on my hand. ''She had a panic attack. I don't know if you remember but she had it a lot as a child'' I leaned back on the chair trying to take in what she was saying. ''I don't remember'' I whispered, because I didn't. This was something new for me. ''I think it started when her brother ended up with the wrong crowd, having people over when their parents were out of town. She used to come to our house in the middle of the night hysterically crying. She was so scared of those people'' mum spoke with a low voice to not wake up Lucy, ''how come I didn't know about this? That she used to come to our house'' ''she didn't want you to know, she was embarrassed because she didn't know why she was freaking out. She always slept in Gemma's room and when you woke up in the morning we'd just say that she had come over for breakfast'' I just shook my head at her words. I had been with Lucy for four years now and she has never told me about this. ''I guess you're wondering why she hasn't told you. Truth is I don't think she remembers. I read somewhere that if you've been through hard stuff in your childhood you usually suppress it. I think that even if she fixed things with her brother, his actions was still a big part of her life'' ''what do I do? I feel so helpless mum, when she pushed me away before. I don't know what to do'' I broke down in tears putting my hands up to my face. ''It's gonna be okay, baby. Lucy will be okay, you guys will be okay'' she whispered and stroke my hair. ''We need to focus on the positive things, like Lucy getting better. And the little human that is on its way'' I looked up to see her smile. I had not really understood that I was going to be a father. I had been too busy worrying about Lucy. ''Can't believe I'm gonna be a dad'' it finally sunk in and a smile spread across my face. ''Does she know yet?'' she nodded against Lucy, ''yeah, Niall said that the doctor was in earlier and told her. A couple minutes later....that's when all of this happened'' ''I think she just got a little overwhelmed with the information she got. She'll be alright''.

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