I am Abigail Bennett and this is my boy story...

Well cause its boy problems right now I guess I'll send that :P other wise I could rant for days:

My problems with boys started really early. More precisely when I was 4 or 5 in the form of one of my best friends (a guy). His name was Forest and I often played with him and his twin brother one day while our parents looked on out of the blue he exclaimed

"Abby I'm going to marry you someday."
He didn't ask me but proceeded to ask my dad. Cute story I know but when I progressed into middle school I learned just how cruel boys can be. In 6th grade (well really 5th I skipped) I started to go to a private international school. I'll admit I wasn't the prettiest girl but in 7th grade two boys in my class decided they wanted to make my life a living hell. Every day they would call me ugly, fat, a hag and other names. I tried to ignore them but their words sunk into my brain. My little brother (by two years) heard them bullying me and instead of sticking up for me for whatever reason started it at home. He called me by many of the same names. If anyone has a sibling they are close two they know how this is. When we were young we were inseparable. So to hear him calling me the names cut that much deeper. To this day if someone calls me pretty or beautiful I will not believe them. After a couple months of this one of the boys comes up to me in class and asks me to be his girl friend. Having at least some common sense I turned him down. After class the other boy comes up and asks me out as well. After I turned him down as well he said something about it being a dare and went to laugh about me with the other boy. Now I know were not supposed to find out identity with guys but being told that the only guys that would ask me out would be on dares or jokes hurt because that's precisely what the second boy told me after. A couple months later the first boys asked me out again I guess wondering if my answer would change after months more of bullying. I left the school at the end of that year due to other circumstances.

I didn't have more major boy drama after that till this past summer. I went to a summer camp and there met a guy. I know every girls fantasy. He was two years older (I'm 15 he was 17) and lets call him A. Well after meeting A we quickly became very good friends. He would sit next to me and tickle me (I'm very ticklish) and other things but I didn't get any of the hints apparently. I got a major crush on A. After camp I went on vacation and we texted a lot. One day we got into talking about past crushes and I told him about the above situation and how all the guys that have asked me out are jerks and how im old fashioned and will never make the first move in a relationship. Our conversation then went as such: (from memory I deleted the texts)

A: Am I a jerk?
Me: Of course not
A: If I asked you out would you go out with me
A: I'm not allowed to date just asking
Me: yes......if you were allowed would you ask
A: yes....

Needless to say I was totally confused and over my head. I asked my best friend for advice and she told me to be patient and work it out with him before the end of the vacation he told me he was moving in 3 months. End of story he left.

Now a days I'm putting on a façade. Boys are too much work. I hate Drama. I don't need a man. I'm hoping if I pretend to be cool, collected and confident I will become so. Inside I'm really confused, feeling worthless and still dealing with major insecurity issues. So that's my story...no boyfriends, no first kisses or first times just a girl at the conclusions that there isn't a decent boy in the world for me. I'll admit I'm now cynical and tend to run when anyone gets too close. Hopefully someday a guy will come into my world that will sweep me off my feet and make me want to stay.....

note: Girls don't let a guy define you. Learn from my mistakes. Ignore their hurtful words. Your beautiful and amazing and don't let them tell you otherwise and no matter what some fanfics may tell you if a boy puts you down and makes you feel worthless make sure they've changed before giving them a chance. Your worth more then that........

Notes

Girls don't let a guy define you. Learn from my mistakes. Ignore their hurtful words. Your beautiful and amazing and don't let them tell you otherwise and no matter what some fanfics may tell you if a boy puts you down and makes you feel worthless make sure they've changed before giving them a chance. Your worth more then that........ - Abigail

Thank you Abigail so much for sharing your story with all of us :)


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