Envy (Niall Horan) [BOOK 1]

ELIS POV
I rub my tired eyes and I yawn. Why am I so warm? I then look down to my waist to see how Niall's arm is wrapped around it. I then remember how Niall and I fell asleep while talking last night. We ended up sleeping on one of the mini couches. I rub my thumb softly on Niall's hand and just remember last night.
My stomach then grumbles loudly. I am really hungry. I slowly take off Niall's arm and I scoot off the couch. I tip toe to the mini fridge near the tour bus entrance. As I check inside, I see how it's empty. I sigh. I need food now.
I get a piece of paper and a pen and I write a little note.
'Niall,
I didn't want to wake you. I'm going to go get us some breakfast. See you soon.
~Eli'
I fold it and place it on top of Niall's sleeping body. I smile at the sight of him sleeping peacefully...
Well off to get bagels.
As I walk out the door, I decide to take out my phone to check the texts I received last night from Harry.
Wow. Twenty two messages from Harry.
I begin to scroll through all of them.
-Hey sweet heart. I have a surprise for you 
-I can't wait.
-I'm actually kind of nervous..
-It's going to be worth it though
-Meet me at my hotel room
-Can't wait to see you
I keep scrolling down to see how he kept on messaging me about a surprise he wants to give me.
Wow. I wonder what it is. I then scroll to the last messages, and I feel kind of guilty now.
-Where are you? Are you okay?
-I've been waiting here for an hour...
-Liam just told me that you're with Niall...
-We need to talk.
I glance up at the time and see how it's One in the afternoon. Shit. Food can wait, I need to talk to Harry.
I text him back.
Just read your messages. Where are you?
I bite my lip as I nervously press send.
I almost immediately get a text back.
From: Deep voice
Meet me in my room.
I sigh and walk back to the hotel through the back entrance.
At Harry's room
"Close the door." I hear Harry say as I walk in.
"Um o-okay." I shyly reply.
Why are you stuttering? You're just going to make it more awkward for yourself.
I shut the door and walk up to him.
"Sit down." He states while pointing to the edge of the bed.
I do as he says and I sit. He walks closer to me and I see how his hair is a mess. He must've been putting his fingers through it a lot.
"W-what do you want to talk about Harry?" I ask nervously.
"Us." He simply retorts.
I feel my stomach drop and I swallow hard.
I'm not so hungry anymore.
"What about us?"
He then takes out a box from his back pocket and opens it in front of me. There's a silver ring band in it.
My eyes widen and I don't take my gaze off the box.
"Calm down. It's not what you think it is. It's a promise ring. I was going to give it to you after the concert yesterday. I... I wanted to tell you that I loved you..."
He sighs and puts the box back in his pocket.
I can't help but look at the floor. I feel crappy right now.
"Loved? As in not any more..." I whisper.
He stares at me for a while and bites his lip.
"Ya... The thing is that last night got me thinking." He says.
I look up slightly at him to hear him continue.
"I don't think I ever have...loved you."
I sniffle as I try to hold back the tears but one escapes.
"So everything... wasn't real?" I ask regrettably.
He walks up to me and bends down. He wipes my tear with his thumb and looks straight at me.
I can't look at him. I'll just cry more and embarrass myself.
He grabs my chin and points it up to him.
"Look at me Eli. It was real. I did have feelings for you but they we're just for the wrong
reasons." He whispers.
I look up at him confused.
"Wrong reasons?" I ask.
He slowly nods and let's go of my chin.
"After you didn't show up last night a realization occurred to me... I asked you out because
I was envious of what you and Niall have."
What?
"What are you talking about? Niall and I ar-"
He puts his finger on my lips.
"Shhh. You may not know it yourself yet, but it's obvious. You and Niall have a love for each other that is rare to see. I even overheard Louis telling Liam one day, that he's never seen two people so in love in his life and he wasn't talking about me and you. You guys have something special. Something real... Something I can never give you...Go to him Eli. Niall deserves to finally get what he's been fighting for, for so long."
"Bu-"
"Go. I'm setting you free." He says.
I feel more tears beginning to form. I stare at him for a while waiting to see if this is all a sick joke. Waiting for him to just laugh and apologize for tricking me, but nothings happening... I just walk out without another word. I can't look at him.
I walk all the way to my room.
"Hey Eli, how'd it go with Niall?"
I don't reply and I just walk to the bathroom and I lock the door. I go to a corner and I slowly sit down.
"Eli are you okay? What's wrong?" I hear Lou say through the door.
I don't answer. I just continue to sob into my hands. I don't want to talk to anyone right now.
"Eli please open up." Lou continues while knocking on the door.
I nuzzle my head into my knees and I wrap my arms around myself, continuing to cry.
Lou stops trying and I hear the room door being closed shut.
She left.
I continue to cry. Harry's words keep on echoing in my head. 'I don't think I ever have...loved you'
Right now is one of those times where I really wish my mother was here. I really want to just cry in her arms right now and hear her tell me that everything is going to be okay... That can't happen. All I have right now is myself.
I take a deep breath and hug myself tighter.
A few minutes later
KNOCK KNOCK
"Eli open the door!"
Niall? Why is he here?
Whatever. I really just want to be alone now. I don't want to sadden him with the details.
"Eli please open the door. It's me." He tries again.
I don't say anything.
"Eli please." He whispers while his voice cracks. Is he crying?
I can't stand it when he cries. He doesn't deserve to cry.
I get up and slowly open the door.
Niall is standing right in front of me observing my face. His face is a red, due to him crying.
More tears form as I see how I made him cry. He quickly pulls me into a hug and squeezes me tight.
"I mess up everything Ni." I whisper.
"No you don't. That's impossible." He replies.
I cry a little into his shirt, making it wet. He begins to rub my back softly up and down.
"Harry broke up with me."
Niall slowly lets of me and looks at me with furrowed eyebrows.
"He did what? That arse! The next time I see him I'm go-"
"No. Ni please don't do anything. Just stay. I need you now." I whisper.
"Eli he made you cry. I'm not going to let him get awa-"
I hugged him tight again and he stopped talking. He wrapped his arms around me tight and I nuzzled my head into his chest.
"Please. Just stay."
He kisses the top of my head.
"Fine." He replies.
Right now I just want to be in his arms for a while. I don't want to focus on anything else other than the warmness of his embrace and the smell of his cologne.
BLERRR BLIIII BLEEERRR
Niall let's go of me and looks at me.
"Um what was that?" He asks.
I mentally face palm because my grumbling stomach just ruined a good moment.
I can't help but blush.
"I'm kind of hungry." I reply.
He laughs a little and grabs my hand.
"Well then let's go get something to calm that monster down." He comments.
I blush even harder and laugh along with him. We then head out the door and walk
downstairs to get some food. Maybe this will help.
Breakfast
"Hi my name is Emilie, I'll be your server this morning. Are you two ready to order?" The waitress asks.
"Well um ac-"
"Yes we are." Niall interrupts me.
"I'll have two fried eggs, sausage, bacon, toast, a biscuit, and a blue berry muffin and she will have a stack of chocolate chip pancakes with a side of sausage and hash browns. Oh and two orange juices please."
The woman writes down everything on a little note pad and smiles.
"Okay. Will be right out." She states before walking away.
I look at Niall with one raised eyebrow.
"What? I'm not going to allow you to eat only a piece of toast. Nope, sorry." He states.
I roll my eyes and laugh.
"You know me too well leprechaun."
He tries to act offended but instead laughs.
"Well this leprechaun is taller than you." He replies.
"Not my fault you're a giant." I defend.
"No, you're just short." He retorts with a smile.
I crumble up my napkin into a ball and I throw it at him.
"Hey! That hurt!"
We both begin to laugh until an elderly woman sitting in the table next to us tells us to lower our voices.
"Sorry." Niall whispers.
The smile on my face begins to grow as I try to hold in my laughter.
"I'm gonna get you for that." he replies.
I chuckle and I see how he stares at me intently, which causes me to blush.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask.
"Like what?" he aks.
"Like how you we're."
He smiles and looks down for a while.
"I'm just glad you're smiling again."
"Me too." I reply.
We then just continue eating our breakfast while enjoying eachother's company.
Back at the room
"I'm so full." I reply while walking inside my room.
"Ya me too. The eggs we're delicious." He replies.
I nod my head in agreement and I walk inside my room and he follows.
I begin to fiddle with my fingers.
"Niall... Can you sing to me? If you don't mind."
He gives me a soft smile and motions me to sit on the edge of my bed with him.
He lowers his head to my ear and begins to sing.
"Someday, when I'm awfully low, When the world is cold. I will feel a glow, just thinking of you. And the way you look tonight."
He kisses my forehead and grabs my hand. He begins to rub it with his thumb, giving me goose bumps.
"You're voice... it's so perfect." I whisper.
I turn to him to see how he's staring at my eyes.
"No one's perfect El." He replies.
"That's what I used to think."
His lips separate a little.
BUZZ BUZZ
"Sorry. Let me just check quickly." He states while taking out his phone.
He stares at the screen and curses.
"Damn." He whispers.
"What?" I ask curiously.
He bites his lip and looks back at me.
"Eli, Simon needs to talk to me and the boys now. I have to go." He states.
I sigh.
"I understand don't worry."
"After we'll hang out okay?"
I look up at him and nod slowly.
"Thank you...for everything by the way." I say.
He pulls me in for another hug and kisses my cheek softly.
"Any time."
I then wave good bye and he gets up and walks away.
Since Lou isn't here I'm all alone. I have to thank her when she comes back. While we we're eating, Niall told me that she was the one that told him where I was and to check on me. I probably would still be crying if it wasn't for her and Niall. Niall... I don't know where I would be right now without him.
Ever since my mom passed away, I haven't been this happy.
I lay down flat on my bed and I just stare at the ceiling, re thinking the words Harry told me.
'You may not know it yourself yet, but it's obvious. You and Niall have a love for each other that is rare to see.'
I mean I love the way Niall smiles, how he laughs, the way he makes me smile when I'm down, and just many things.
Like today, it was already sunny outside, but when he smiled at me it felt like the atmosphere got brighter. I know it sounds cheesy, but it's true...
I can be me around him, and he doesn't judge me.
Last night.. When I held his hand, I didn't want to let go. I just wanted to remain close to him forever.
I suddenly feel my eyes widen. Oh my gosh.. I can't believe I never realized it before.
I take out my phone and dials Sofy's number.
RING RING
"Hello?" she says through the line.
"Sofy, something big happened today."
"What?"
"Harry broke up with me a-"
"He did what?! Oh, I knew he was a complete dirt bag a-"
"That's not the big thing though."
Silence.
"Then what is it?"
"Sofy, I...I'm in love with Niall... and I think I've always been..."

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