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Behind Closed Doors {Larry Stylinson}

Chapter 10


When Harry and I rejoin the girls, they are sitting on opposite ends of the couch, looking at their phones in silence. If this is going to work, they need to find something in common so that Harry and I don't feel so bad about slipping off and leaving them alone.

"So, what should we do tonight? We should probably go out so that they can get plenty of pictures of us all together."

I look at Eleanor and her eyes are pleading with me to not leave her alone with Cara ever again.

"Yeah, Louis, what's the name of that restaurant we went to the first night we were here? It was pretty good."

"Oh, umm. I think it's called Le Cafe de Minuit!"

"Yeah! I'll look up the number and make a reservation."

I nod to her and look at Harry for his input.

"Sure, sounds good to me. Cara?"

"I'm cool with whatever! We should go dancing after!"

I don't dance and Harry isn't a fan either. Anytime I've gone, it's with Eleanor for publicity, but I make sure I get wasted before. It couldn't hurt to be seen grinding with girls, though.

"Uhh... Yeah, that's actually an alright idea."

Eleanor's eyes shoot up to me and over to Cara.

"Wait. Did you just convince Louis to go dancing? THANK YOU! I love it but he hates going and if I go with someone else, paparazzi goes crazy! Ahh!!!! This is going to be so much fun."

Well, that's one way to get them to like each other. I look to Harry and shrug, as if to say, 'that was easy.' They continue to talk about television shows and music now that the doors have opened their conversation. Eleanor calls to make reservations while Harry and I walk back to the bedroom, just to talk. I sit on the loveseat and he joins me, laying across my lap so that I can play with his hair like I love to. I start to run my fingers through his messy curls and he rubs his hand on my thigh.

"Lou? Do you ever think about what it would be like if we could come out?"

"It's about all I think about. What would be the first thing you would do? Like, what do you wish we could do the most that we can't because of our contract?"

"That's a tough one, but I'd have to say kissing you in public. There are so many times I've felt the urge to just push you against a wall and kiss you while were walking about, and holding that in kills me. Second, would be just holding your hand. I never really get to do that. What about you?"

"The first thing I'd do is take you on a proper date. I want to take you out the way I take Eleanor out, the cameras following us, trying to get a good shot of us holding hands across the table, having a deep conversation. Oh, and of course living together. Really living together; not just sneaking into each other's flats. I would want to get a new flat that we pick out and decorate. We'll pick out a bed and stuff for the kitchen; things couples normally get to do."

"Isn't it funny how they make it seem like us coming out would be such an ordeal, when all we want is to have a regular relationship? Just like Zayn and Perrie. Why can't we have that when we've been together for so long? It infuriates me."

Harry starts to tense up but I continue to stroke his hair. soothing him.

"I know, love. It pisses me off so much."

I've always been the more angry one but in the past month, Harry seems to be holding some major grudges against management for keeping us apart. It seems like he's going to explode. I don't want either of us to have a break down and if it weren't for Harry, I would have had one years ago. He's my anchor, my conscience. He knows just what to say to calm me down, but him getting angry is just going to fuel my fire even more. I hate seeing Harry emotional like that. He get's so down on himself, too and even though he isn't saying it, I think he's really depressed without me there all the time. I miss him and all, but his depression is more than just missing me. He needs someone to pick him up from these slumps and I'm really the only one that does the trick.


"Yeah, Lou?"

"I love you so much. You know that, right?"


"Don't 'yeah' me. I don't think you realize what I'd do for you. Sometimes I want to just say 'fuck
it all' and just run away with you. I wouldn't regret it for a second if it didn't affect our best mates."

He turns so that he is laying on his back, facing me, but still laying on my legs.

"You mean that?"

"Yeah! I don't need anything but you, Harry. I don't need fame. I don't need money. Only you."

"I love you, too. I wish we could do that- just run away. At least our contract is getting closer to being up."

"Yep, and thankfully we have amazing friends that are going to stick by us through it all."

He turns back to his side, curling his arms into his chest, sighing deeply.

"You know, I try to seem like I don't care what people will say when we come out, but, Lou... I'm
terrified. I don't want people to hate us. Hate me."

"I know, Harry. You've always cared too much about what other people think. But, do you feel like it's worth it to really be together?"

"Anything is worth that."

I lean down and kiss his forehead, turning him onto his back again. I push him forward so that I can lay down next to him and he faces me. I place one hand on the side of his face and just admire his emerald eyes for a moment before slowly and purposefully kissing him on the lips, nipping lightly on his bottom lip. I could cuddle with him all day, every day. I know that for the first few months we live together, we won't get anything done. He pulls away from my kiss and nuzzles his face in my shoulder, breathing deeply through his nose. I can tell that he's still down about everything. He puts on such a good facade but I knew the second I saw him that he wasn't doing well. Not because he looked sad; just because he was there. He doesn't take risks when it comes to our relationship the way that I might. For him to come to France when I was exiled here to stay away from him, meant that he was more depressed than ever.

"Harry, are you okay?"

"I am now."

"I couldn't sleep thinking about how miserable you had to have been."

"It's been bad, Lou. The worst ever, I think. The meds aren't enough, so I've just been drinking so I can sleep."

I don't like hearing that. I don't want to know, but I need to know.

"Harry, please don't do that. At least we'll both sleep this weekend."

"Can we promise to never spend that much time apart for the rest of our lives? I don't think I can take it."

"Promise." I pause and think about our future. It always makes me happy to think about Harry and I being together in the future, when things can be right. "I'm gonna marry you one day, Harry."

I feel him smile against my neck.

"I can't wait."

"Louis! Harry! Wake up, sleepy heads!"

My eyes flicker open to Eleanor waving her hands in front of my eyes. I guess we fell asleep on the couch and I shake Harry a little to wake him up.

"What time is it?"

"7 and our reservation is at 8 so you guys should take a shower. We're about done getting

I nod and sit up, forcing Harry to move. He sits up but immediately lays on my shoulder, kissing it before pulling back and making himself stand up. We walk toward the bathroom and Eleanor calls after us.

"Please take separate showers! We don't have time for you two to have fun."

I smirk at her and smack Harry's butt, shooing him into the bathroom to go first. I walk to the mini-fridge and pull out a beer, popping off the cap and chugging half of it in one gulp. Tonight's going to be awful. The worst is always being with Harry and not being able to touch him. At all. Especially tonight. It will be all about convincing the public that we are straight and happy with two lovely women. Alcohol is going to be a necessity.


Sorry if this chapter is boring or short. I'm so tired... but I wanted to update today. Also, I really wanted to give off more of a feel for their relationship. What do you think is going to happen next? Will Eleanor and Cara continue to get along? Will Cara keep the secret? What will Louis and Harry do for the next year and a half that's left on their contract?

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Omg I've been reading ur story for 2 days now trying to get thorough it and it's amazing i love Larry more now then ever before and that was a lot before

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Omg its 5 a.m. where I live. I've been reading your story all new night. Its AMAZING! You are a brilliant writer. I've fallen in love with Larry... More than I already was lol I hate to stop reading but I should probably get to sleep. I can't wait to finish this story tomorrow and start the other one.

JessStylinson95 JessStylinson95

this should be made into a book !!!

this is the best chapter ever

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