You'd think as the days go by it would get easier, but it turns out it's the exact opposite. Harry has made it his mission to date as many girls as possible in a short amount of time. He's completely lost it, he won't even look at me anymore. Every lesson I have to watch him completely embarrass himself as he chose his next victim.

I sat with Louis and Liam at lunch as they planned my birthday party for the weekend. I told them how I wanted something small just a few people. I highly doubt Louis paid attention to any of that. I should be happy I will finally be 18, a legal adult. But a number doesn't define an adult, I turned one when my parents died. I had to take on responsibilities no child should ever have to do. Harry joined us at lunch with a different girl to yesterday, I don't even care what their names are. There will be a different one tomorrow.

"Guys this is Kelly" he introduced her to everyone.

Everyone gave her an awkward smile then pretty much ignored her. I didn't even bother to make an effort, Harry was especially moody today.

"So what you guys talking about?" he asked.

"Morris's birthday" Louis said.

"Oh Morris, that should be fun maybe I could give you a birthday kiss" he joked.

I felt Liam tense beside me, I rested my hand on his to comfort him.

"Damn you know how much I hate it when you ignore me Morris" Harry moaned.

"I don't know how many times I have to say it, stop acting like an asshole and then I won't ignore you, simple" I stated.

"But I know how much you love it" he joked.

"Oh yes the constant jokes it really does turn me on" I mocked him.

"I bet it does" he winked at me.

I rolled my eyes and decided to talk to Liam.

"Have you done the homework for Mr Tubbs?" I asked him.

"No, come round mine tonight and we can do it together" he smiled.

"And by together you mean you do mine for me?" I joked.

"I've done that for you every time, you are doing it this time" he ordered.

"Fine" I groaned.

I could feel Harry's eyes on me, I dared myself to look at him for one second. They chose the wrong moment to look, he was staring at me from the corner of his eyes smiling. The smile however didn't quite match his eyes, he was sad.

"So where shall we have the party?" Louis asked.

"How about at yours?" Niall joined the table talking to me.

"Yeah that wouldn't really go down well..." I shuffled in my seat uncomfortably, I don't want anyone near Zach.

"Have it at mine" Harry suggested, all eyes turned to face him.

"No I don't think that's a good idea" Liam said concerned.

"Why not? My house is the biggest it will be fine" Harry shrugged.

"Okay" I agreed stopping another argument between both of them.

"Sorted" Harry smiled. "I got to go do some stuff, see you guys later" he smiled at us leaving Kelly at the table.

"So Kelly is it?" Niall asked.

She nodded her head unable to speak.

"Nice to meet you" he smiled.

She continued to nod her head not muttering a word.

Niall raised his eyebrow "So how are you and Harry?" he asked.

"Well we err well yeah" was all Kelly could say, I felt sorry for the girl.

"Right" Niall smiled.

"That's good to hear" Zayn added sitting down.

I noticed Louis didn't bother to communicate with her, I wonder why he is so cruel to new people?

"So guests" Louis said to me. "Who shall we invite?" he asked.

"Honestly Louis I would just prefer you guys, you're all the people I need" I smiled.
"We can have a sleepover after" Niall shrieked making me laugh.

"Good idea, we invite everyone from this school besides Ashley" Louis winked at me before continuing. "Then us guys can have a sleepover after how about that?" he asked me.

"Do I really have much of a say in it?" I asked tilting my head.

"Not really" he shrugged.

"Then why ask" I laughed.

"Fair point" Louis shrugged.

After school Liam forced me to do my homework. I managed to finish it within 2 hours...
"Finally" I shouted relieved.

He laughed "I finished mine over an hour ago" he shook his head.

"Not everyone is as clever as you Liam" I reminded him.

He began to read one of the books that he has to study for English. I took it out of his hands and threw it on the floor. I sat on his lap and leant my head on his shoulder. He smiled wrapping his arms around me pulling me closer. I kissed his collar bone, up his neck, to his ear. He moaned as he brought my lips to his. I put my hands under his top tracing my fingers over his abs. He pulled his top off so I could have a better access. I kissed his stomach, I sucked hard at an area by his belly button. He groaned as he tried not to laugh.

"And what was that for?" he asked smirking.

"Marking my territory" I smiled.

He pushed me on to the floor and pulled down my jeans along with my knickers. He took off his jeans and boxers before sitting on my legs. He lifted my top over my head and undid my bra. He put on a condom before pushing himself inside of me. I groaned as I kissed his stomach, my hips moved in sync with his. We both let out small moans as we got closer and closer, I cried out as I exploded around him. I pulled him back to me so I could kiss him

"I will never get tired of that" I smiled shaking my head.

"You're going to regret saying that" he laughed rolling off of me.

I stretched out "Hey can I stay here tonight?" I asked.

"Course" he smiled.

I liked that he didn't ask questions, I never had to explain myself and that was a huge relief. He held me close that night, I pulled his arms tighter so he was almost squishing me. The constant need I have for comfort, I need to feel safe. The closer I am the safer I feel.

Notes

super fucking sorry for a little late update. its just that i have been trying to make a trailer for the book, and damn i have failed alot of times. if you wont mind reading my other fanfiv Separated At Birth, thank you xx