Loving Is Not Easy
Blast to the past
I sat in my room feeling like a lifeless i had no emotion except sadness, mum had organised for me to get an abortion and I was going to get this thing out of me, i dragged myself off my bed and made my way to my closet and wore this.
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And walked down stairs looking at my mum getting ready to leave, I saw her getting her keys and purse and I knew that was the queue to follow her.
We sat in the car neither one of us talking but my mum broke the silence first "we're not going to tell jack about our little trip today, he is stressed out with work and he doesn't need this put on his shoulders" I just nodded feeling empty and continued staring at the window.
The drive wasn't that long and I walked into the clinic with mum and sat down on the waiting chairs, mum followed shortly after with a clipboard and she handed it to me, I looked at the sheet of paper and was looking at the details.
it was a sheet on the details on the baby, health etc. one by one i started filling in the details and handed the clipboard back to mum she looked it over, stood and handed it back to the lady. The wait was long and it was killing me.
Everything seemed to slow down and the ticking of the clock got louder and louder when i heard the door open to see the one and only.
Harry Styles
Fuck
He saw me and made his way over to me
Fucky fuck fuck
“hey” he smiled and I just didn’t know what to do, I just gave him the fakest smile I could try and put on my face.
“what are you doing at the hospital?” he asked curiously “I’ve been feeling sick” I lied to him I was glad that this hospital did abortions here or if he saw me at the abortion clinic I don’t think I could ever show my face there again.
“I’m here to visit my grandma” he broke the silence because we had been staring at each other for a couple of minutes “oh?” I said wanting to get out of this convocation quicker.
I didn’t want to lie to him or to seem like I was being rude it’s just that when you’re getting an abortion you want to avoid anyone that might spill the beans that you were at a hospital.
“Brice!” a women yelled and I quickly stood up and excusing myself.
I walked down a long white hallway smelling chemicals and death of the sick people here, I never really liked hospitals the smell always gave me a headache and the thought of people dying here creeped me out.
I walked into the room where it would happen, and the next 3 hours were the worst 3 hours in my life.
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91674084
And walked down stairs looking at my mum getting ready to leave, I saw her getting her keys and purse and I knew that was the queue to follow her.
We sat in the car neither one of us talking but my mum broke the silence first "we're not going to tell jack about our little trip today, he is stressed out with work and he doesn't need this put on his shoulders" I just nodded feeling empty and continued staring at the window.
The drive wasn't that long and I walked into the clinic with mum and sat down on the waiting chairs, mum followed shortly after with a clipboard and she handed it to me, I looked at the sheet of paper and was looking at the details.
it was a sheet on the details on the baby, health etc. one by one i started filling in the details and handed the clipboard back to mum she looked it over, stood and handed it back to the lady. The wait was long and it was killing me.
Everything seemed to slow down and the ticking of the clock got louder and louder when i heard the door open to see the one and only.
Harry Styles
Fuck
He saw me and made his way over to me
Fucky fuck fuck
“hey” he smiled and I just didn’t know what to do, I just gave him the fakest smile I could try and put on my face.
“what are you doing at the hospital?” he asked curiously “I’ve been feeling sick” I lied to him I was glad that this hospital did abortions here or if he saw me at the abortion clinic I don’t think I could ever show my face there again.
“I’m here to visit my grandma” he broke the silence because we had been staring at each other for a couple of minutes “oh?” I said wanting to get out of this convocation quicker.
I didn’t want to lie to him or to seem like I was being rude it’s just that when you’re getting an abortion you want to avoid anyone that might spill the beans that you were at a hospital.
“Brice!” a women yelled and I quickly stood up and excusing myself.
I walked down a long white hallway smelling chemicals and death of the sick people here, I never really liked hospitals the smell always gave me a headache and the thought of people dying here creeped me out.
I walked into the room where it would happen, and the next 3 hours were the worst 3 hours in my life.
Notes
okay guys here is the next chapter not anything special but i tink i can just call this a filleranyways if you like this story please
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im sorry it took me onths but if you're still interested in reading the new chapters up
5/25/14