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The End is Approaching [PAUSED]

Twenty-Two - Dishonesty & Justice

*Neal’s POV*
*Same Day/Lunch*

With a sigh, I sat myself down in the corner of our lunch table. I run my hands over my face, and through my hair, as I tried to collect myself before the bell rang and my friends joined me.

My knuckles turned white from clenching my fists too hard, and my teeth began to ache from gritting them too hard from an effort to remain silent. My hunched form radiated a hatred that was like acid – burning, slicing, powerful. With a single touch, I was bound to explode.

The closest thing next to me was a plastic bottle of water. Gripping it tightly in my hands I swung it across the room, in anger. “Fucking hell!” I screamed before I rested my head against the wall and silent tears trailed down my cheeks.

*Earlier Today*

“Next time, don’t screw with me, Neal. You should know that by now. I don’t let go that easy.” Destiny glares at me, demandingly.

To worried to care much about Destiny, at the moment, I called after Amanda and run after her, pleadingly her to wait for me.

“Amanda! Wait! Please!” I called after her, my feet pounding the hard-concrete sidewalk. Eventually, I found her crying, on a park bench.

“Don’t Neal. I don’t want to see you right now.” Amanda says, through her tears, as she sees my approaching her.

“Amanda. Please. You gotta listen to me.” I quietly say, getting on my knees, at her feet as I gently place my hands on her knees.

“No!” Amanda demands, pushing off my hands, as she gets up and starts walking away from me.

“Listen to me. I swear I was going to talk to you about it. You gotta understand it's not easy for me to change my habits. I wasn’t going to leave you. I love you, damn it!” I slip out, in frustration as I jump on to my feet.

“What?” Amanda says, startled, freezing in her stop, “What did you say?”

“I love you. I said I love you. I don’t care if it’s too soon because it’s true. I love you, Amanda.” I slowly say, walking towards her. Gentle I cupped her face in my hands and gazed into her eyes.

“No …” Amanda started mumbling. “No one’s ever said that to me.”

“What?” I questioned her, not understand what she was saying.

“No. No.” Amanda continued, murmuring.

“What? What happened? Why are you saying that?” I questioned her, worried. I uncapped her face and stared at her through narrowed eyes.

“Neal …” Amanda says, looking up at me through glassy eyes.

“What, Amanda? What?” I asked again, slightly irritating, but mostly worried.

“I’m so sorry. I love you too. I swear I do …” Amanda says, starting to cry.

“But? What happened?”

“I thought you didn’t love me. And …”

“Amanda, what did you do?”

“Neal. I swear it was a mistake.”

“What did you do, Amanda?”

“I didn’t mean it. It wasn’t supposed to happen. I was just so angry. I lost control and -”

“Damn it, Amanda! What did you do?” I snapped, screaming at her.

“I slept with someone …” She says in voice, almost inaudible. I wish it were inaudible. I wish I never heard that.

I slept with someone. I slept with someone. I slept with someone. Suddenly my mind became an icy wasteland, the wind howled in my soul and wrapped icy tentacles around my heart so tightly it almost stopped beating.

“Neal, please say something. I’m sorry.” Amanda starts, still crying. Why the hell is she crying? She had her fun. I’m the one broken. All I could do was stare at her and try to process what I just heard. “Please. Neal. Neal. Neal!”

“Who was he?” Is all I could come with.

“Neal. I’m sorry. I don’t remember.”

“Who was he, Amanda?”

“I don’t remember.”

“Liar!” I snapped, punching the wall hard. “Amanda! Who was he?!”

“Josh. Josh. It was Josh.” Amanda quickly spits out.

Her comment was so out of character, so far from reality, all I could do was stare at her open mouthed. My brain formulated no thoughts other than to register that I was shocked. I closed my mouth, then looked at my toes before glancing back up to catch Amanda’s eye. "What?" was all I could say. The words passed through me like a hurricane.

“It was Josh,” Amanda repeated.

“Shut up! I heard you the god damn, first time!” I snapped at her. I didn't just raise my voice, my muscles tensed and I was ready to break something or anything.

“Neal …” Amanda quietly says, her eyes bloodshot and puffy, as she tried to gently touch my arm.

“Don’t touch me, Amanda. I loved you. How could you be so cold?” I demanded, angrily, snatching my arm away from her.

“I’m sorry, Neal. I just so angry.”

“That’s my best friend, Amanda! Just because I wouldn’t answer a couple of your calls, doesn’t mean you can you can go around fucking my god damn best friend!”

“Neal. I’m sorry. I wasn’t in control. Please, people, are starting to stare.” Amanda pleaded.

“Does it look like I give a fuck about the people. Are you’re saying this is all on Josh?” I shout, even louder.

“Neal …” Amanda continued to beg me.

“Is this all on Josh?! What? Did he rape you? Amanda, answer the fucking question, and don’t you dare lie to me.” I shot at her, again, unable to lower my voice.

“N- No …”

“Fucking hell, Amanda.”

“I was drunk. We both were. We were feeling lonely. I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Neal.”

“I don’t, fucking care, if you two drank yourselves to death, you’re my girlfriend, and he is my best friend. How could this even happen? How could you let this happen? You’re such a liar!”

“Neal …”

“Don’t touch me. Don’t you dare touch me, Amanda? I’m going to school. I already missed the first period because of you. I can’t afford to lose anything else.”

“Neal. Please.”

“No. Amanda. No more! Get out of my face!” I pushed her aside, trying to get on my way towards school.

“Neal. I love you, too.” Amanda quickly said, trying to get to my stop.

“You love me?” I questioned her, stopping in my tracks. I turned around to face her. “Fine. Then tell me. When were you going to tell me about this?”

“Neal …”

“Don’t, ‘Neal’ me. Answer the damn question. Were you ever going to even tell me?”

“Yes! Of course, I was.”



“You’re a liar.” I spat at her.

“I’m sorry.” Amanda pleaded, started to cry again.

“You were never going to tell me, were you?”

“It didn’t seem logical, Neal.”

“Yeah, okay. And I was going to tell you about my issue. I should be the one mad at you Amanda, you have no reason to be pissed at me. Guess we aren’t on the same page right now.” I spat again, starting to walk off again.

“Neal. Please. Please don’t leave me.” Amanda begged me, not moving.

“I just need a break, right now. I just can’t. Not right now.” I demanded and walked off.

I trudged along the pavement at a sedate pace, trying to focus my mind on the gentle footsteps that seemed to echo throughout the desolate street, but it kept going back to Amanda. All I could imagine was Josh’s hands all over Amanda. My face has become rigid, jaw clamped tight, teeth grinding.

Suddenly my anger transformed into sheer despair and heart broken feelings seeped in through my pores.

Walking closer to the school, I decided against it and went home, where I took a shower and collected myself, before going back just before Lunch started.


“Neal?” I hear a familiar voice call me. My eye flutter open to see Elizabeth and Ally looking at me worried. I must’ve dozed off and not heard the bell rang.

I rubbed my eyes and sat up straight, kicking my feet off the seats so they could sit down, “Yeah. Hey.”

“You alright? What happened?” Elizabeth asks me, sitting next to me, as Ally seats on the other side of the table, across from Elizabeth.

“Yeah. I’m fine. Don’t worry.” I murmured the lie.

“No, you’re not. You were crying. What happened?” Ally demanded.

“I was not crying.” I huffed.

“What happened, Neal?” Ally asked again. “Did you find Amanda?”

“Yeah, I found her. Talked to her. Yelled at her. And walked away from her.” I shrugged.

“Why? What happened?” Elizabeth exclaimed, worried.

“She cheated on me.” I chocked out, just then the rest of our friends joined us, alongside Josh, all except for Antwon and Allen.

Fires of fury and hatred were smouldering in the small narrowed eyes, as my eyes were trained on Josh. Anger boiling up in my system, I got on my feet and stormed to Josh.

“How could you?” I snapped at him, my eyes were narrowed, rigid, cold, hard, as I pushed Josh backwards.

“The fuck, Neal! How could I what? What did I do?” Josh exclaimed, confused as he stumbled back.

“Neal! What are you doing?” June exclaimed, as all our friends watched us worried.

“You slept with Amanda.” I spat at him, as I heard gasps sprinkle around the lunch room. Now everyone’s eyes were trained on us. Just at the moment, Destiny and Owen came into the lunch room as well. After shooting her a dirty look, I decided against attacking her at the moment.

“Have you gone fucking mad? No, I didn’t.” Josh demanded, more confused than ever.

“Yes, you did! She told me!” I shouted at him, pushing him back again, ready to throw a punch at him.

“Dude! No, I didn’t you’re my best friend-”

“Liar!” I shot at him, throwing a punch at him, but just before my fist impacted his face, Niall had grabbed me from behind and held me back. Liam went next to Josh, ready to hold him back if he was going to attack me, but Josh just raised up a hand telling him it was all right.

“Why the fuck would I do that, Neal? Listen to yourself!” Josh snapped at me.

“Then why would she say that? Why would she give me your name?” I cried.

“Because, have you ever considered the fact that she really doesn’t like us being friends.”


“She really hates me, Neal.”

“No, she doesn’t.”

“Yes, she does, Neal. And also, it's probably because she saw me the same night. I found her on the sidewalk, wasted. I didn’t know she just had sex with some dude, that night. I just figured she only drank herself to oblivion. I took her to her place, where her Mum took care of her. That’s all she saw of me that night. Anything else I don’t know about. Or else I would’ve told you.” Josh explained, calmly.

“Why wouldn’t you tell me about her drinking that night?” I shot at him, still boiling with anger.

“You already had your hands full with your own issues. And this didn’t seem important enough to bug you about.” Josh says.

“What do you mean not important enough? She was fucking wasted!” I screamed at him.

“Yeah, as she is usually when she hangs out with her old friends,” Josh explained.

“It’s true. Whenever she’s out with Tia, Hayley, Casey and Jessica, they kinda just leave her at the end of the night. This isn’t the first time she would’ve been wasted on the sidewalk, but usually, she calls one of us to go and help her afterwards. I really don’t understand why she still hangs out with them.” Ally pipped up, supporting Josh.

“You really didn’t sleep with her?” I asked, sincerely.

“No. I didn’t.” Josh says, coming closer.


“I promise.”

“Okay, good. Good.” I nodded.

I took back my seat in the corner and leaned against the wall, across from Harry, who did not seem assumed at all. Everyone else sat back down as well, calmed.

“How’d you know to be there, though?” Mabel quietly questioned Josh. “You never do anything. Especially at night.”

“That’s actually so true, Josh. How’d you end up being out in the dark? You never disturb yourself sleep time for anything.” Louis added.

“Oh! Right! I forgot to tell you guys, I got a text from the Guardian Angel.” Josh quickly exclaimed.

“What? Really?!” Ally jumped up excited. She was the first to get a letter from the Guardian Angel, and since then she’s been so super keen on finding out who the person was.

“Yeah, they messaged me through some anonymous number, just before I went to bed that night,” Josh explained.

“Oh my gosh! Show us!” Ally squealed, happily.

“Okay. Okay. Calm down.” Josh says, pulling out his phone, and handing it to her, “Here.”

“Okay. It says,” Ally started, as everyone paid close attention, “Hey Josh. I know you’re probably getting ready to fall asleep, but you should probably not. Amanda isn’t in much of a good state of mind right now. I mean, she’s pretty wasted right now. Naturally, I would do it myself, but if you haven’t noticed already I’d like to keep my identity a secret, and I would call Neal, but you must’ve seen how stressed he has been lately. So, I’m asking you to get your lazy ass up and help out a friend.


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