Changing My Life

Liam's POV
Yesterday was amazing. When I heard her sing, I couldn't help but listen in awe. It felt so good to sing with her and I was happy she felt the same way.
Then when she cooked for us, I have to admit, the girl can cook a mean dish. I can't believe she made us breakfast this morning as well. I don't want her to feel like she has to cook and stuff for us though just because she's the only girl. Luckily I stopped her this morning from doing the dishes because she had to leave, I even kissed her cheek and she blushed, I couldn't resist she looked so beautiful. Seeing her with Freddie made me picture what our future could be like together. Having her cook and take care of our kids, but first I have to ask her out. I'm moving too much ahead of myself but I can't help it, I never felt like this before.
I'm so scared to ruin our friendship, but I still can't help the feeling inside of me that she feels the same way. Remembering how she felt in my arms, how it killed me to see her cry and how it felt to sing with her. It's like the world stopped and it's only me and her. I wish it would last forever but that would deny us of anymore memories together. I want to experience everything together. I had to text her last night, I couldn't stop myself from typing the message. It was a simple goodnight but when she texted back I slept at ease. I have slept with a smile on my face every night since I met her. It's only been 3 days but I have never felt this happy.
But I'm still afraid of how she will feel about it. I have to talk about this with someone. I think Louis would be great to talk to since he has more experience in this than the other lads.
It's just a question. I have to ask. I hope they won't think I'm going too fast or that I'm some pervert. But what I feel for her is new to me and I want to know what it means. I have to ask Louis, now's my chance since she left this morning to meet her crew.
"Louis, can I talk to you?" I asked him while he was giving Freddie his bottle.
"Sure mate, what's on your mind ?" He asked me as he turned to face me and I sat beside him.
"I don't know how to say this because I don't want you or the lads to hate me or make things awkward between us-" He cut me off.
"Oh my god Liam, are you leaving the band ?" He asked.
"Heavens no, that will never happen" He looked relieved. "Oh, sorry I interrupted. Continue." How do I put this, Okay here goes. I took a deep breath. "I like Amy, I never felt this way before but I don't know what to do. I'm so scared to ruin our friendship if she rejects me or even worse ruin our friendship is she says yes, because I would be dating her." I said rambling my thoughts.
"Liam, lad. Listen to me, we all know you like her. I saw that from the first time you looked at her. Wasn't I the one pulling you to her table ? It was kind of obvious mate. Don't worry we won't hate you and don't be scared to ask her lad, she likes you too." He said with a grin and I started blushing.
"How are you so sure she likes me ?" I asked because he seemed convinced that she likes me.
"I see how she looks at you, she likes you mate trust me" He said but I'm still not sure.
"Um, okay. I'm still scared but how do I ask her without making it all awkward between us. I really want her to say yes. I know it will be her first date if she says yes and that puts a lot of pressure on me." I said.
"How about at the party tomorrow. You can pull her outside and ask her when you're alone. It could be romantic under the stars and all. And when she says yes you can take her for a picnic under the stars at the beach or the park or something" Louis said. He's a genius. Where does he get all this from ?
"That's great, thanks mate. I owe you one." I said grinning like an idiot he saved me the trouble of wrecking my brain thinking of ideas, I'm pretty sure I would have come up with stupid ones and end up ruining it.
"Anytime mate, I'm rooting for you guys. You make a cute couple and you're so alike." He said.
"Yeah, thanks" I said slightly blushing. I can't wait till tomorrow now all I have to do is practice what to say.
"Hey lads, what's up ?" Niall asked joining us with Harry.
"Liam here, has a crush and I was helping him out." Louis said. I shot him a playful glare and rolled my eyes.
"Ooooh who's the lucky lady ?" Harry asked wiggling his eyebrows. Him and Niall were waiting for me to answer.
"Amy" I whispered scared of their reaction. I looked up to see them grinning widely at me. I sighed in relief.
"That's great mate I was rooting for you guys. You're so alike." Niall exclaimed.
"Yeah you're perfect for each other. Plus your affections for one another are pretty obvious."
How does everyone notice but me ? And am I that obvious ?
"Thanks guys, is it that obvious ?"
"Well, you blush every time you see her or hear her name or talk about her so yeah" Louis said nudging me while the others nodded in agreement.
"Oh" I said blushing again. Wow, they're right she does make me blush, I hope she doesn't notice that much. It would be so embarrassing.
I can't wait to see how her day went.
Amy's POV
I got up at 8 and took a shower and got ready for today.
I went downstairs and made breakfast for everyone. As if on cue, everyone came downstairs and I gave them the food. They started arguing with me again for cooking for them and I rolled my eyes.
"If you want me to stop thanking you, you have to let me cook and do the dishes. I really don't mind" I said.
"But you are not our maid, at least let us clean up afterwards." Harry said.
"Nope not gonna happen." I said grinning at them and they just groaned.
It was 8:45 when we were all finished so I got up and took all of their plates to the sink when Liam came up to me and stopped me.
"You have to leave soon and you look too pretty to be doing the dishes" He said as he started doing them himself. I sighed in defeat and blushed at his comment.
"Do I look okay or am I too plain ... " I started trailing off.
"You look perfect" He said and he kissed my cheek. I was blushing like mad and I swear sparks were flying, heck make that fireworks. A honk of a car interrupted us from staring at each other meaning the limo was here.
"I have to go, see you later Liam, Bye guys" I said smiling as I broke our gaze and left.
When we arrived after an hour drive, Ms Turner showed me to a dressing room.
I met a woman in her early 20's called Ashley, she said she's my stylist for hair, makeup and clothes. She looked really pretty. She had perfect make up on her compared to my failed attempt to make an line with my eyeliner, her hair was perfectly styled and she wore pretty comfortable clothes but they where still stylish. I greeted her and we talked style and stuff that are my taste. She complimented my look and I thanked her. She was really nice. She said she is going to come over on Saturday and help me get ready for the party. We even exchanged phone numbers.
Then I met my music instructor who is also my manager, he wore a black suit and looked like he was in his mid 40's, his name was Alex. He showed me where we would practice and record. He told me I would record a cover of 'In Case' today since Simon told him I can sing that. I blushed at the fact of someone praising me at something. I haven't gotten used to that yet.
Then I met my choreographer, Mackenzie. She was very fit and was in her late 20's. I told her about how I can't dance and she told me we would work on it and that I don't have major choreography just moving around with the background dancers and doing some moves to look combined. I felt relieved for that.
I was lead back to the practice room and we recorded 'In Case' thank god the glass was tinted so I felt like I was singing alone. They complimented my singing and then I heard my recording, I was blushing the whole time. I had to admit that I did sound good. That may be the first time I complimented myself.
When it was 1pm we left home after stopping to grab some takeaway for me and the guys.
I arrived home and found them in the living room. They turned to face me when they heard the door open and close. I grinned at them and showed them the food. They sighed because once again I defeated them. Niall came rushing after me to eat. We ate and I told them about my day then they pulled out their wallets to pay for the food but I refused and told them it was my treat since they paid at Nandos last time.
Then we were just sitting on the couch I was playing with Louis and Freddie. While the boys were on their phones but Liam was no where to be found.
I jogged upstairs and heard something that broke my heart into million pieces.
'Hey Jessica, will you go out with me tomorrow? I really like you'
'That's great, pick you up at 7 ?'
I can't believe that Liam asked a girl out. It's not my business but it hurts like a bitch.
What were you thinking you bitch ? That he likes you ? As if. My inner thoughts started to taunt me which would only lead to one thing.
I hurried to my room and cried myself to sleep. But before I dosed off I texted Louis.
To Louis The Tommo Tomlinson ;)
You were wrong he likes Jessica. :'(
Then I drifted off to sleep.
Louis's POV
Amy left to go upstairs and I was sitting with Niall and Harry on the couch playing with Freddie when I got a text.
From Amy :D
You were wrong he likes Jessica. :'(
I felt so bad for her, if only she knew how he felt. But who's Jessica and why does she think that?
She must be devastated I mean it's clear that she likes him, she may have not admitted it but she sent me a screenshot yesterday and I can see how she looks at him and acts around him. I had to find out what happened. I put Freddie down for a nap and jogged down the hall to Amy's room. I knocked on her door but there was no response. I instantly thought the worst so I opened the door quickly without permission only to find her asleep. I sighed in relief that she wasn't cutting and that I didn't wake her up. I closed the door and went to Liam's room.
I heard him talk but I just went in not bothering to listen. He jolted up, startled that I had just barged in. He sighed once he realized it was me.
"Hey Liam, who's Jessica ?" Going straight to the point.
"Oh, no one, I was practicing how I would ask 'you know who' out tomorrow and not wanting her to over hear in order to surprise her so I made up a name" He said shrugging and I sighed in relief.
"Oh Liam, you have gotten yourself in a huge mess. You better ask her out and make it special." I said then I got up and left his room.
I went to Amy's room again and laid next to her on her bed. She shifted facing me and opened her eyes slowly.
"Louis ?" she asked, her voice hoarse and her eyes red from crying.
"Hey don't worry about Liam, Jessica doesn't exist I promise" I said comforting her, I felt so bad for her.
"What ? I heard him ask her out, I know what I heard" She said sitting up.
"Just trust me, she's no one" I said smiling at her reassuringly and getting up so that she won't argue. She half smiled at me and I left.
I couldn't ruin Liam's plan and I couldn't expose Amy's feelings, like this morning when he asked me about asking her out and he said he's scared that she would reject him I wanted to assure him but I didn't want to expose Amy's feelings, but I had to make it right. This way it's better, I told them the truth leaving out a little detail.
Liam's POV
Louis confused me when he said I was in a huge mess and I had to make it up to Amy. I did nothing wrong as far as I know. I was only practicing what to say. I hope I won't mess this up.
I went downstairs for dinner and found all the lads there but Amy wasn't there. I asked where she was and Louis said she was in her room and that she didn't want any dinner and wasn't going to join us tonight. I frowned and ate my dinner but made sure to go see what's going.
Why wouldn't she eat ? Is she upset ? But why ? She said it herself that she was okay with the whole choreography thing and that the studio was great. What could be upsetting her ?
I went upstairs and heard her sing, her voice is too beautiful. She was singing 'In Case' practicing for tomorrow I guess. I waited outside her door for her to finish the song so that I won't interrupt knowing how nervous she is for tomorrow.
She finished and I knocked on her door. I went in and saw her on her bed with red eyes. She must have been crying. I hurried next to her and pulled her in my arms. I soothed her with kind words, she was tense but soon relaxed, sobbing silently on my lap. She pulled away and thanked me. I asked what's wrong but she didn't want to talk about it.
"Are you going to be alright ?" I asked her, worried about seeing her like this.
"Yeah I'll be fine, it's stupid anyways" she said shrugging.
"You can tell me anything you know that, but I won't force you. Come to my room if you can't sleep, you can wake me up anytime" I offered.
"Thanks Liam, I just want to be alone if you don't mind. Don't worry I'm not going to cut, it's not worth it" She said and I sighed in relief. I was proud of her for thinking like that.
"I'm glad you're thinking like this. I'm happy for you. Maybe a bath will help you relax. If you need anyone of us just tell us okay ?"
"Yeah thanks Liam" she said. I left her room even though I didn't want to. It hurt me to see her like this I wanted to help her but she wouldn't let me. I just hope everything goes alright tomorrow. Maybe she's just stressed that she'll mess up.
I tried to shake the scene of her breaking down in front of me and drifted off to sleep, nervous of how tomorrow will change everything but I kept telling myself that there is no going back.
Amy's POV
I can't believe how I'm dealing witht this, this way and that he saw me yet again crying except this time it was about him and he didn't know it. He didn't even know that he was soothing me about himself. I never reacted like this when I heard he was in a relationship, maybe because now we're living together and Louis made me think that I had a chance. Maybe Liam was just nice and it was not flirting.
I warned you not to get your hopes up you ugly slut, but you wouldn't listen. I'm always right and you know it.
Why won't she shut up, maybe she's right but I was still confused. Why did Louis say that she didn't exist ? I know what I heard. I need to move on. He's going out with a girl tomorrow, just great. Why did he have to go out tomorrow though. I'm stressed enough about the party and now I have to deal with this.
I got up and tried to look presentable in case I bump into anyone but my eyes were still red and puffy.
I went downstairs and got a glass of water. Everyone had left to go to bed.
I went upstairs and tried taking deep breaths to stop myself from crying. I soon calmed down and tried to occupy myself with good thoughts even though I can't ignore my feelings. Maybe admitting them to him will help get over it. I don't know it won't change anything for sure and with that thought I drifted off to sleep.

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