Changing My Life

Liam's POV
We left her flat with all her stuff. I was so happy she's moving in with us. This way I see her all the time. I'm so happy that Simon signed her now we can work together, I can help her with her career since me and the lads are on our hiatus. Yeah I have my solos but I will still help her.
I was so upset though when I went to clear her bathroom and found that blade. How could someone as beautiful as her be insecure. Sure she may have chosen to do it since she was left alone I mean I don't know what I would do if that happened to me. But now her life is turning around, she got a job working at what she loves the most and she has me and the lads so she's not lonely anymore. She has us and she will have us around all the time. I'm going to make sure to keep a smile on her beautiful face at all times, I refuse to see her upset I will make it my mission to remind her of how beautiful she is.
It took all my confidence and courage not to cry when I was holding her while she was sobbing. She felt so good in my arms. It's like we were two puzzle pieces that fit just perfectly. I'm so glad I helped her with the first step to stop cutting. I was so proud of her when she dropped it.
We are currently on our way to Nandos and I can't take my eyes off of her. Maybe I should though I don't want her to think that I'm creepy, or on her neck now that I know that she cuts.
She's so quiet, I just love every part of her, outside and inside. We're so alike, it's just crazy how I feel towards a girl I just met. But I guess that's love right ? Maybe it is, I don't know. I really wish she feels the same though.
I still haven't heard her sing yet and I just know that she has the perfect voice. I can't wait to sing with her. That way I would be doing what I love most, my passion with the one that I love. Did I just say that ? Do I love her ? I'm so confused. I'm definitely attracted to her and I like her and care for her for sure, if today didn't show that I don't know what would. But love ? Maybe.
I think I should confess to one of the lads and ask for advice on how to deal with this, I can't take my mind off of her. She's so beautiful.
Amy's POV
We are on our way to Nandos in Louis's car, Liam is seated between me and Niall while Harry is in the passenger's seat. I keep looking out the window thinking about how lucky I am to have these boys to care about me. They showed me they really do care about me for sure today after the whole 'cutting' scene. But I feel like I should tell them that I haven't thought about cutting anymore since I came here. I think I should do it. Just do it.
"Umm.. guys ?"
They all turned to face me while Louis gave me a 'go on' look from the rear side mirror since he was driving.
"I-I really want to tell you that since I got here, I haven't thought about cutting or anything because life felt different here, I felt different here, I felt like I was starting fresh and then I met you, which was a dream of mine so I was really happy that something good was happening in my life for once, and I'm so grateful for all of you. I was also happy about my job and that I had enough courage to sing in front of someone and got the job that I always wanted but was afraid I would never get. So yeah, I felt like I needed to tell you that". It felt so good to tell them that and to get it off of my chest because I was feeling kind of guilty for some reason. When I mentioned cutting, Liam grabbed my hand which helped me to continue even more. God I love him. He may not know it but he's the reason I'm alive. He always kept me sane when he didn't even know that I existed. I will tell him that someday just not today.
"Thanks for telling us, we're happy that we were a part of making your dreams come true and keeping a smile on that beautiful face of yours" Liam said and immediately he started blushing, like he said something he regretted. All the others were smirking I just shrugged it off. I squeezed his hand reassuringly and he smiled so I smiled back. His smile could melt my soul.
We only let go of our joint hands when we arrived at Nandos, It felt so right to hold his hand but we let go. We got a booth we sat with me and Liam on one side while Louis, Harry and Niall on the other side. I guess they noticed how fat I was so they left us sitting alone.
"So, Amy what's your favorite thing to eat here ?" Niall asked me really excited. That boy and his food.
"Umm .. actually I never had Nandos before because we didn't have it in my country" I said.
"What ?! What country is this ?! You must eat Nandos this instance young lady or you will die before tasting heaven. The poor child, growing up without Nandos. How did you survive ?!"
Everyone was laughing at Niall's serious reaction. I guess I was the dumb odd one out.
"Ummm.... well Niall I come from Malta a small island in Europe just under Italy, we don't have Nandos nor Starbucks, I would really like to go sometimes."
"You never had Starbucks" They all exclaimed like I was some alien or a fish out of water.
"Nope we only had Costa and KFC and McDonalds and Burger King"
"Poor child, don't fear you will taste the goodness" Niall said in a superhero tone.
We were all just laughing. When we ordered and ate we were just talking about our home towns and different traditions. Realizing we were brought up in different cultures it was really interesting.
When we finally left and got to their flat we unloaded my stuff from the car. They wouldn't let me carry anything, such gentlemen.
We got in and Louis declared a tour of the penthouse so that I would know were everything was. I was given a really large room with my own bathroom in it. It had a huge T.V. ,an apple computer, a macbook, an iphone, ipod, everything. I had a walk in closet ! I was looking around my room like a little girl at the toy store.
I remembered to text the limo driver telling him to pick me up the boy's house instead.
After a while of unpacking and settling in my new room, I went downstairs to find all the boys in the living room. I joined them and they decided to show me the Music Room since I would now use it as well and I love music, but I guess it was their kind of excuse to hear me sing.
Since Nandos I had let loose more around the boys and I was even joking around. I think I can handle singing in front of them.
Just as if they were reading my mind Niall started playing 'You and I' and they were looking at me like 'sing or we will kill you in your sleep'. So I decided I would sing Zayn's parts without telling them since they never told me in words to 'sing'. It would sure surprise them, especially hitting the high note.
I figured it out
I figured it out from black and white
Seconds and hours
Maybe they had to take some time
I know how it goes
I know how it goes for wrong and right
Silence and sound
Did they ever hold each other
Tight like us
Did they ever fight like us
You & I
We don't want to be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between
You & I
Not even the gods above
Could separate the two of us
No nothing can come between
You & I
Oohh You & I
I figured it out
Saw the mistakes of up and down
Meet in the middle
There's always room for common ground
I see what it's like
I see what it's like for day and night
Never together
Cause they see things in a different light
Like us
They never tried like us
You & I
We don't want to be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between
You & I
Not even the gods above
Could separate the two of us
'Cause You & I
[All:]
We don't want to be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between You & I
Not even the gods above
Could separate the two of us
No nothing can come between
You & I
You & I
Oohh You & I [x2]
We can make it if we try
You & I
Oohh you & I
You & I
They just stood there dumbfounded. The fact that I sang was a shock but they seemed to settle through the song but when I hit the 'I' high note they were literally gonna explode.
They ended up cheering and Liam hugged me. I had to admit it I enjoyed singing with them.
"I enjoyed singing with you, I mean I sing with you all the time on my phone alone in my room but doing it literally in person was really great". I said blushing.
"That's great, it means that you're warming up to us" Harry said hugging me.
"Yeah but I still have to face Little Mix and 5SOS on Saturday, I don't know how I'm gonna manage not to pee my pants, firstly I'm a huge fan and second I have terrible stage-fright. Being the center of attention is not my thing" I admitted. I was surprised of how open I became with them in just a couple of hours.
"You don't have to they're really cool once you get to meet them no need to be shy" Liam said.
They all agreed. Then Niall asked me a question which I didn't usually want to answer but surprisingly I did.
"Why don't you like to be the center of attention ?"
"Well, I was always bullied and had no friends nor siblings and my parent never gave that much attention to me we weren't even close so I never had anyone, so when a teacher or someone, literally anyone, even a shopkeeper, talked to me I would freeze and just stay in shock."
"Oh wow ! we saw that you were shy earlier but you look like you're warming up to us" Louis said.
"Yeah I surprised myself actually. But you guys have always had that affect on me. Like I can be myself and no one would care. Without knowing sometimes you saved me from cutting because I decide to watch your video diaries over and over again instead of doing it. So, yeah" I said admitting everything to them. They literally know everything about me now except for my feelings for Liam but I guess Louis sort of knows.
"That's great that we helped you, even though we didn't know. At least goofing off on the internet screaming 'SUPERMAN' and saying stupid stuff helped someone" Louis said and we all laughed nodding in agreement.
"Yeah every time I was sad I would watch 'The Best Of One Direction' seeing you goofing off on stage and would crack up laughing in seconds. You guys saved my life and I really am grateful for that, I hope someday I would return the favor."
"That's great, now you have us 24/7 every time you need a laugh we're here" Niall said.
"Thanks guys" We all huddled in a group hug until Louis's phone rang.
*ring
"Hello-Oh hey Briana-Yeah-sure-on my way-bye" Louis said.
"Um, I have to go get Freddie because Brianna has some things she needs to do, I'll be back soon. Guess you're meeting mini me!" Louis said.
"Yay! I love kids, I can babysit whenever you want, if you trust me. What am I saying ? Um .. never mind -" but he cut me off.
"Of course I'll let you babysit !" Louis said.
"Won't Briana be mad ?"
"He's my son too so I don't mind, I don't question her when she leaves him with her friends so yeah"
"Oh okay thanks then, can't wait to meet him"
"Sure thing love I'll go get him and prepare him for aunt Amy which he'll loooooooove" He said emphasizing love.
We all chuckled and he left. We started making our way to the kitchen to prepare dinner and I decided to text Simon to tell him my progress.
Hey Si, I wanted to tell you that I moved in with the lads and hung out with them more. I got to know them and they got to know me. I even managed to sing with them. Thanks for believing in me. ;)
I felt really proud texting that. We decided on spaghetti for dinner and I convinced them to let me cook after minutes of arguing they let me. I started with the sauce since it takes more time to make when that was boiling I started on the pasta itself. While I was waiting for them to cook I got out plates and utensils and cups and stuff and made the table. When that was done I mixed the sauce with the pasta and just in time Louis arrived.
He entered the kitchen with the lads and little Freddie. I was in awe at the look of such a cute baby. He looks so much like Louis. I glanced at the stove and the food was done so I directed them to go sit down and wait for me to come out with the plates. He set Freddie in his playpen and they were all seated at the dining room while I put the food in plates and took them out to them. When we all had our food they immediately started eating and 2 seconds later all I heard was a huge moan.
"Oh my god I think you top Nandos" Niall said.
Everyone looked at him like he had four heads hearing that coming out of his mouth while agreeing themselves that my food was great.
"Is it really that good ? I mean it's nothing special just basic steps" I said surprised at their reaction. I knew it tasted good but not that good. For me it was normal to cook this.
"YEAH" they all agreed in excitement. I finished first so I excused myself and asked Louis if I could play with Freddie and he immediately said yes. I skipped to the living room after washing my plate and the pots I used to cook, my eyes fell on the really cute baby who was sitting in his playpen watching 'Baby TV'. I picked him up gently and he started giggling. I sat on the sofa and started watching TV with him while occasionally tickling him making him laugh in such an adorable way. Soon after all the boys joined us and complimented me on how good I am with kids and my cooking.
Freddie started fussing after half an hour so I rocked him gently while Louis heated up a bottle. Liam was sitting next to me but sort of behind me since I was sitting sort of tilted and my back was facing him. He was cooing Freddie while rubbing his back. I could feel his breath on my shoulder, we were really close. Louis returned with the bottle and I offered to feed him myself. Freddie took the bottle immediately while we watched in awe. He soon finished so I burped him and was rocking him to sleep. He was such an easy baby.
I took him to Louis's room and sat on the rocking chair that he has there. I sang Freddie 'Little Things' and soon enough he was asleep. I put him in his crib and was about to exit the room but I was startled by Louis leaning against the door frame with a smirk on his face.
"Thanks for helping with Freddie, he really likes you"
"You're welcome, I will do it anytime I love babies." I said.
"You know Liam wouldn't shut up about you when you left to prepare dinner and when you left to play with Freddie".
"Oh.... really ?" Wow is this actually happening.
"Yeah, he kept rambling about how amazing your food is. He is right though"
"Thanks, well I did learn that a way to a man's heart is through his stomach so yeah" I said proudly poking his stomach laughing. I was trying to impress by the dinner but I couldn't believe I just admitted that to Louis.
"Well you made your way through his heart before that but tonight just helped more" he said with a smirk.
I just blushed and made my way downstairs. Did Liam really like me ? No way. It's already crazy that they like me as it is let alone Liam having feelings for me. Why would he love me ?
I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and washed the dishes and cleared the table. Then joined the lads in the living room.
"Hey, I finished the dishes so I'm gonna call it a night since tomorrow I have to go to the studio"
"You didn't have to do the dishes. You cooked for us that was more than enough and you took care of Freddie" Liam said getting up walking towards me.
"It's fine really I don't mind. Goodnight and thank you" I said before hugging all of them.
"Goodnight and stop thanking us" Niall said and they all chuckled.
I made my way to my room and put my hair up and changed into pajamas. I laid on my bed thinking how great my life is and how I never want it to change since I like this change in me.
But I couldn't help but rethink what Louis said. Does Liam really like me ? That can't be right ?
*ding
From Liam The Payne Train :*
Good night love, sweet dreams xoxo
I was going to burst out of happiness. I quickly replied back.
From Amy :D
Good night Liam, sweet dreams xxxx
I quickly sent a screenshot to Louis because I was too happy I had to tell someone.
He replied soon enough,
From Louis The Tommo Tomlinson ;)
I told you so #Liamy<3 xoxo
I smiled at his cheeky comment and drifted off to sleep wondering how Liam might have feelings for me.

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