Kill Me

"No, I don't.. But whatever it is.. It won't be pretty..."

I sigh and he leaves. Why does everyone wants me back here? Why is this so important? Do they really think that I'm gonna help them? No way.

I wait until the door opens again and Emily walks in.
"So, are we excited?" She smirks.
"Excited to punch your ugly face yes."
"Why all so grumpy? You know that we'll film everything for you so you don't have to miss out."
"Fuck off." I mumble.
"Awh, are we feeling guilty already?"
"He will be half dead when you're done with him."
"Probably."
"He doesn't deserve this."
"He does."
"He doesn't." I mumble again.
"I'm not going to do this. I wanted to keep you company-"
"I don't want your company."
She stands up and walks with her chin high away.

I roll my eyes and realise that I'm still dirty as shit.
"I WANNA SHOWER." I yell.
"HEY SHITHEAD! I WANNA SHOWER."
"PLEEEAAASSEEE."
"DONT BE SUCH PUSSIES."
"C'MOOOOOONNNNN."
"IM NOT GONNA STAAAHAAAPPP."

After a few seconds Dean walks down while he sighs.
"You wanna shower?" He asks.
"Yes." I smirk.
"You gotta wait until you're out."
"Until tomorrow?!"
"Yeah, but it's the shower here or at Calum's."
"You really want me to choose?"
"Yes, but there's a price on everything.."
"Ow God, what now again?"
"Well, when you stay with us, we will let Calum go.. If you're go with Calum's gang, Calum will die in this room."
"That's unfair!" I yell.
"It's not. It's his freedom, or yours."
I sigh.
"I'll stay here." I mumble.
"Really?"
I nod my head.
"But you'll need to let Calum go."
"We will, after we're done with him."
I sigh, that's the best I could get out of him.

I'm in the dark for a few hours now. I don't know if it's day or night.
I don't know how Calum is, or if he's okay. I just hope that he is okay...

-Calum's POV-
I run my hand through my hair as I walk through my room over and over.
What if they're torturing her? What if she's hoping that I'll burst through the door? And I can't be there for her. I can't do anything.
Fuck this, this is all my fault. I was being an asshole again and she ran away because of me. This is all happening to her because of me. All the scars she maybe is getting now, the pain, the guilt for trusting me, all because of me.
I just should've stayed out of her life, then she would be happy now.
I sigh and slam my fist against the nearest wall. It burns.
That's what you get asshole, the voice in my head says.
I punch the wall again.
And again.
Over and over until there's a hole.
Great.
I sigh and lay my head against the wall.
I hear a knock and look up. At first I thought it might be Lana, but I remember immediately that she's taken.
Fuck.
"Yeah?" I growl.
"And?" I hear Ashton.
I hear that he stands behind me.
"Sooo, that's a nice hole." He says noticing the hole in the wall.
"I'm not in for your sarcastic shit Ash." I growl.
"Sorry, I know you're worried about Lana." He mumbles.
"It's driving me fucking crazy."
"It's gonna be okay."
"It's not. The only time I'll see her is when we have the exchange. I know that I'll die at Dean's."
"And all for Lana?"
I nod my head.
"She's worth it. If I need to die for her life, then so will it be."
"You really gonna do that?"
I nod my head again.
"If it means that she will live..."
"Wow, man you must really like that girl."
"I love her."
"Never thought I would hear you say that you love someone."
I smile softly and nod my head.
"Me neither."
"I'm sure that she'll figure something out. She won't let you die."
"No?"
"She will do everything for you. She loves you."
"You really think so?"
"I could tell it when I saw her looking at you."
I smile and sigh.
"Thanks Ash."
"Any time".
He stands up and leaves.

I spend the day with worrying and trying to take my mind if things. Worrying won't get her free.

When it's dinner time I see that Michael ordered some pizza.
I take a seat at the table and stare at the pizza piece.
"Dude, you need to eat something." Mike says.
"Not hungry."
"You need to eat something, who knows when the next time is that you'll eat?"
"I said that I'm not hungry."
"But-"
"I said that I'm not fucking hungry! Just fuck off and leave me alone!" I stand up, making my chair fall.
I grab the plate with pizza and throw it against the wall. Then I turn around and walk away.

-Lana's POV-
I wake up when I hear someone come down. The lights switch on and I blink against the lights.
"Got you some food." Dean says.
I glare and him.
"No, it's not poisoned." He sighs.
I sigh and he places the plate in front of me.
"How am I supposed to eat that when I can't use my hands?"
"Your mouth."
I sigh again.
"Just eat, you never know when the next time is that you'll eat."
"Does it look like I care?"
"No."
I roll my eyes and he sighs.
"Why do you even want me back?" I ask.
"Because you're important to me."
"I'm important to you?"
"Yes, believe it or not, I care about you."
"Bullshit."
"I mean it."
"Gimme one good reason."
"You lived with me your whole life."
"C'mon, something better."
"I don't have anything better."
"You do."
"I don't."
"You do."
"I don't."
"You dooHooo."
"Lana, I don't."
"C'mooonnnn."
"No."
"Pleeeaaassseee?"
"I said no."
"Dean, don't speak such bullshit."
"Fuck off!"
"C'mon, tell me!"
"You wanna know?!" He yells.
"Yes!" I yell back.
He grabs the railings of my chair.
"Because I'm your brother." He spats.

Notes

Again, this one didn't edit like I wanted :(.

Should I put these on wattpad, because I'm pretty sure that this site will be fucked up for good some day?

Am I the only one who gets annoyed with fan fictions in their own language (if it's not English of course)
Like, Bitch, I'm pretty sure that 5SOS doesn't speak Dutch fluently wtf.


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