We Took A Chance

Niall refrained from asking any questions about Andrew on the ride to the hotel. He stayed unusually silent during the drive when he's usually joking or singing along to the radio. This time he seemed to focus on the road more. I did catch him tap his finger to the music against the steering wheel a few times. That made me feel a bit more at ease for some reason.

When we reached our floor, I began walking towards my room but Niall grabbed my hand and pulled me to his. I figured he probably wants to know what the hell was up with Andrew. I follow him and am surprised when he pins me against the door taking my face in his hands and kissing passionately. Although unexpected, I kiss him back just as eager as him.

His hot breath against my lips drove me crazy. My hands immediately find their way to his golden locks, a gesture I know makes him even more turned on. He presses his hips tightly against mine, making me aware of his growing erection. I couldn't help but move my hips against him in response. His lips twitched against my own as small moans escaped him. I would be lying if I said I didn't want him right this second. I wanted him, I craved him.

It is then when he abruptly pulls away from form me, his defeated expression caught me off guard. He let's his hands fall to his side and turns to walk a few feet away from me. I stand back trying to catch my breath and wonder what's wrong. We were just kissing and his sudden change of mood worried me.

"Niall?" I ask closing my eyes to compose myself.
"Zoe... What the fuck are we doing?" his voice holding a certain quake.
"What do you mean?" I start walking closer to him, his back still turned towards me. Just as I was about to place a hand on his shoulder, he turns around to reveal a very serious face.
"This! Everything!" he snaps making my eyes go wide, I had never seen Niall this upset. I stay silent letting him continue, "I don't know how else to show you how much I care about you, how much I LIKE you, Zoe. I fucking like you so much and... Shit, why can't you see that?! I don't want to be just your friend anymore." he goes to sit at the edge of the bed resting his elbow on his knee and bringing his knuckles to his mouth. He has a habit of chewing on them when he's thinking about something, "Friends don't do what we do." he finishes off his thought.
"But..." I manage to choke out.
"But nothing, Zoe." his tone a bit calmer, "I have done so much to show you how I feel but it seems like this is just a game for you. I don't want to mess around with you, I'm not someone that does that. I want to be with you, so either you want to be with me or not." he states his ultimatum, making my heart drop to my stomach.
"I'm sorry... I... I don't think I can do that." I muttered not able to meet his eyes.
"Well, I don't think I can keep doing what we're doing." he gulped turning his face the other way.

I stood there a minute, hoping he'd stand up and kiss me and tell me everything will be ok. But he didn't and I understood him, it's wrong for me to string him along knowing that it can never evolve to anything else. I didn't want to use him but I also couldn't give him my heart. I turned slowly, giving him an extra seconds to stop me, then continued out the door when I realized he wasn't going to.

Notes

Raise your hand is you think Niall is right! MAYBE double update today, but it's a 50/50 chance I'll do it. Weekends are usually crazy in this household and I kind of want to update The Spring Semester first. I haven't worked on it since the last update at all. :(

Anyway, what should Zoe do? Will she fix things before dinner with her dad and Martha?