Priceless

The day I was getting out of the hospital Harry was there to get me, after what seemed like hours of paper work for him to go through with me I was finally allowed to leave under one condition...I had to go on depression medicine and had to take it every single day or else I had to stay in this shitty hospital with their shitty food they gave me everyday.

I agreed though I probably wouldn't take my medicine every single day nor did I think I'd take it at all come on doctors killed you with medicine's my thinking was they would get you hooked on medicines so that you become a druggie and end up dying from an overdose on them saves the world one less person to try to provide space for.

"Jessie you do know I will be looking after you no running off when you get mad no stabbing yourself and no hateful attitude either when I am trying to help you"

I nodded not saying anything still half embarrassed of him acting like a father to me even though he was only three years older than me, It wasn't like I was three years old I mean I had been taking care of myself as long as I could remember.

As we made our way towards the boys me lagging behind Harry with my head down and arms crossed over my chest

"Hey Mate" Liam said to Harry giving him a pat on the shoulder and the rest of them talking to him and laughing

I went and sat on the curb near me and put my headphones in my ear blasting my heavy metal music through them drowning out my pain and heartache.

Harry didn't even want me here I wish I wouldn't have dialed Louis' number that night and just bled to death saved everyone the trouble of knowing me I guess.

I felt a light tap on my shoulder for me to look up and see Louis standing above me I turned away from him which only made him sit down next to me and smile at me.

"So are you doing good now love?"

I didn't answer him I looked ahead of me with a blank stare and music on full volume

"Is this your way of cooping?"

still I said nothing till I felt my earphones being pulled out of my ear which pissed me off

"what the fuck is your problem you see my earphones in that means fuck off and don't bother me!"

He looked at me shocked and lowered his head I knew I had hurt his feelings really it wasn't his fault it was mine or well it was the world who was beating me down and I really had know right to yell at him like that

I sighed loudly and looked down calming myself before I spoke softly this time

"I..I'm sorry I just"

"I get it Jessie you don't want to be here, you hate the fact your still alive, you feel like your nothing and on top of all that you don't like us and your being dragged around with us anyway, get a clue Jessie your cared for even if your dad doesn't care for you there are people who do and who are worried about your well being maybe you should check your attitude towards them before you treat them like shit"

He got up quickly and walked away leaving me speechless and lost for words

*A few days later*

We were in London now touring it was none stop from interviews to photo shoots, to commercials to concerts we never got a break and even though I wasn't apart of the band I still had to go go go when they were go go going.

I had made up to Louis and we were on good terms now the boys had accepted me in and little by little I was letting my guard down and opening up to them, Harry was super protective always telling the boys to watch their hands or watch what they were looking at.

I skyped Autumn everyday and she told me about everything happening in school without me which speaking of school I was being tutored on the road my tutor was great very chilled and layed back she was so patient with me sometimes when the boys were doing an interview or something she'd take me off somewhere and teach me and then give me some homework which she helped me with and I was actually passing for once in my life.

Everything was going great till someone from my past called me one day to ruin the rest of my life.

"Hello?"

"hello daughter who decided to turn against me and become famous with her boy's, so which one are you fucking this week the blonde, long haired boy, tattoo boy, or puppy dog eyes?"

"Dad?, are you drunk"

"no i am not I just called to tell you I sold all your things and your phone is being turned off tomorrow and the rest of the things I didn't sold our on their way to the city dump so have a nice life"

CLICK

I started trembling as I accedently dropped my phone crying as I ran past the boys and to the batheroom to cry.

Notes

Lots of love as always <3

Hazzasgoodbye