I kept my eyes on the road with tears streaming down my cheeks.

I need to go somewhere, I need to get away.

I drove to the closest park and stopped, got out of the car, and walked to the nearest bench.

When end I sat down I put my beats on and turned up the music. The music helps me let go of my feelings. It helps me cope.

Tears were welling up in my eyes and I tried to blink them away. Of course, it didn't work, the stupid tears just fell anyway.

I paused my music, took my headphones off, and tilted my head down. I need to get my shit together. People die, nobody and nothing lasts forever.

I quickly got up and back into my car. I just need to do something to get my mind off of what just happened. I'm not gonna just let myself feel miserable.

I got home and told my dad u was going to leave for a little while and he didn't even say anything, what the heck is up with him? He usually is against me going somewhere. He didn't even protest me leaving earlier. Oh well.

I went to my room and took out my cash I saved up for an emergency and grabbed my phone and looked up plane tickets to San Diego.

"Shit, I don't have enough money." Instead I dialed my best friend, Elizabeth's, phone number.

on the first ring she answered.

"Hey! How's London!" She said enthusiastic.

i started balling into the phone.

"Oh my god! Lily are you okay!?"

"Mum died." I said barely even audible.

"Uh, okay. I'm coming, I'll be there soon." She said then hung up.

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The next day, she came to London to come and see me and my dad.


Me and her stayed cooped up in my room all day crying. Nothing helped. She tried to cheer me up but all I did was lay down on my bed and cry into my pillow.

For two days straight I didn't eat or sleep all I did was go to the bathroom or cry.

"Okay, that's it I'm going back home because you aren't doing anything! You need to get your ass up and deal with it!"

I didn't answer. She slammed the door and left. I cried even more. Now I lost a friend just because I fell horrible about my mom.

I sat up and wiped away my tears.

"I need a distraction." I said to myself. I can't just sit here, Elizabeth was right.

I I hopped into my car and drove back to the park and sat right back down on that same bench. And did the exact same thing as I did the last time. I put my beats on, turned my music on and let go. Tears came running down my face but I didn't stop them. I needed to cry, let it out. I didn't make a big seen though. I just silently let the tears fall down my cheeks with my head down.

In the corner of my eye I saw someone with Saint Laurent boots walking towards me. I look up and he's standing right in front of me.

Oh. My. God. He was tall and muscular but not too muscular. He was very tall. With short brown curly hair. And all I saw were those beautiful green eyes.

Notes

Sorry for making you guys wait.

I had a little trouble trying to explain how sad she felt last chapter when her mom died, sorry about that too.

Im really trying to explain the details.

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