Summer Sky | L.T.

I stepped into the shower, feeling so dirty again. I hadn't felt like this since all those months ago but here I was scrubbing it all of again. I only could think about those filthy hands on my body and the way they caressed me. I couldn't forgive Louis for this, he said he would help me get over what Mike and Lindsey had done to me but instead of helping he had led me right back into their hands and he had done absolutely nothing but sit there staring into the void and having sex with Lindsey.

I put on my workout clothes after I got out of the shower and grabbed the car for a second time today. I really needed to punch some bags or maybe I could step into that ring already because the only thing I wanted to do was hurt someone.
I walked into that gym on a mission. 'Jamie is there a way for me to go into that ring?' He didn't need to know the real reason I wanted to be in that ring. I just wanted to get hurt so that I didn't have to deal with the mental pain. 'I don't think you are ready for that yet.' I shrugged as I put on my gloves. 'Damn, okay you can fight me if you are so set on getting hurt.' I climbed into the ring and took my place. I put my feet the way he has thought me and waited for him to join me.

'Alright, there are three rounds, you know the rules?' I nodded, already jumping at my spot. We circled each other for a while when he did his move firstly and he got me right on my cheek. I know I should've stop right then but it only made me angrier. I took a swing myself and to my surprise I actually hit him on the side of his head but than again he could have let me.

He took another swing, which I blocked and this went back and forth, when round three came up, I was even bleeding. He had hit me on my nose (he didn't break it luckily), my eye was black and I had a cut on my lip and left cheek and I had never felt better. This was way better then cutting or taking Xanax. 'Did you get it out of your system now, Sky?' I nodded whilst lying on my back after another hit. He was crouched at my side and helped me get up. 'Let me help you get cleaned up.' He walked to his office and sat me down in one of the chairs. He disinfected the cuts and gave me ice for my nose and eye.

'You still don't want to talk about it?' He asked worried. I shook my head because I didn't want to think about any of that shit and to be honest I only wanted to know when I could step back into that ring. 'Jamie, when can we do that again?' His mouth dropped. 'Didn't you had enough? I mean you look like shit.' I shrugged. 'I don't really care about the way I look.' I said honestly. 'Well I do, as you are a beautiful woman but we can workout a bit more intensive.' If that was the only way I could escape the pain, it was fine with me.

'Sure, when do we start?' I asked way to eagerly. 'Tomorrow at 5pm at the beach, I will send you the correct spot tomorrow.' I thanked him and walked back to the car. I walked into the house so I could shower and put on some clean clothes. 'Sky are you in there?' I heard my aunt ask. 'Yes Marie I'm taking shower, I will be out in a bit, why?'

'No reason Chéri but dinner will be ready in 30 minutes and we have visitors, so please put on something nice.' I heard her leave my room and that's when it hit me. I hadn't think this through. I stepped out of the shower and looked into the mirror and was a bit shocked when I saw how I looked and I can tell you this I looked bad. It looked like I was beaten up by at least 5 guys. 'Shit' was all I could say. There was no way to cover this up.

I took a deep breath before putting on a nice black navy blue dress. I let my hair loose so I could hide behind it, not that it could cover up much but it was all I could do. 'Sky, dinner is ready, please come down.' This time it was Lucian who called me. 'I'm coming.' I yelled back. I took one final look in the mirror. 'Nothing I can do about it now.' I said to my reflection. I walked into the dinner room and all the conversations stopped as they took in my appearance. I noticed Lucians boyfriend and to my shock Louis was here with his father and his mouth dropped right to the ground.

'Sky, what happened to you?' Marie was at my side at once, trying to touch my face, to check my injuries. 'It's nothing Marie, I just stepped into a boxing room when I just wasn't quite ready for it, that's all.' I quickly explained. 'Boxing ring? Since when are you taking boxing classes'? She asked astounded. 'Since yesterday, I just felt the need to protect myself and this seemed to be the best way. Can we just eat now please, I'm perfectly fine' I said whilst taking a seat at the table. 'Oui of course but are you sure that you are okay?' I know she was just worried but I was perfectly fine.

'God damnit Marie, I'm FINE! Stop worrying about me, please!' I know it was rude to raise my voice but I didn't need this right now. She hurried back into the kitchen when I noticed Louis taking a seat next to me. I looked into his eyes to see if the were clear and to my surprise they were. 'So the drugs have worn out?' I know I was being bitchy but to my defense I was in actual pain and I really didn't like that he took a seat next to me. 'Sky, I'm so s.' I hold up my hand to stop him. 'I really don't give a shit Louis! It's none of my business what you do with your life. If you want to mess it up, you go right ahead. You know I could give you Lindsey's number so you can call her and bother her with your stupid apologies.' I was even shocked when I said that but there was no way I would take it back as he had betrayed me deeply.

'Wow, Sky that was low.' He mumbled but I just shrugged. Halfway through dinner I excused myself as I was really in a lot of pain. I let myself fall on my bed after locking the door, I even had locked the window, so no one could bother me. I closed my eyes and let myself drift away only to be sucked into a horrible nightmare.

*Nightmare *
I found myself back in Mike's apartment. 'Hello' No one answered but I could here them, talking. I walked towards Mike's door and opened it, which only led me back into his house in America.

'There she is, how was it Sky?' I didn't quite know what Mike was talking about. 'What are you talking about?' He then pointed to my body so I glanced down and was shocked to see that I was completely naked. Mike got up from the couch and started to walk to me. I walk backwards but hit a wall of course. He trapped me into his arms and caressed me.

He kissed me against my will but I couldn't do anything about it and he carried me back to the couch and to my horror, Louis was sitting there watching me with a dirty and drugged up smile on his face. I turned my face back to Mike and I spit him right in his face. He slapped me for doing that and he slapped me hard. 'Playing hard to get huh, both can play that game princess.' He smiled and started to kiss me.

After what felt like hours he started to shake me. 'Sky, WAKE UP!' What the hell was he talking about, I was already awake right, this was just my hell and there was no escaping from it. 'SKY, YOU ARE HAVING A NIGHTMARE, WAKE UP!'

*End Nightmare *

I shot up from my pillow, I was sweating all over my body and not because it was so warm but because of what had happened. Louis was holding my arms, looking really scared but as soon as I recognised him I backed away from him. I felt like he had burned me. 'It's okay Sky, you just had a nightmare.' He tried to hide the hurt in his eyes but he failed miserably. 'How did you get in?' I asked as that had been impossible due to me locking the door and the window. I looked over at the door, which was open and it showed my aunt, Lucian, Nicholas in it. 'We heard you scream so we broke down the door, I'm sorry but we thought you were being killed.' Louis explained whilst caressing my face carefully but it didn't calm me down.

'Please leave.' I said softly but he shook his head. 'No we have to talk Sky and I'm not leaving before we have done that.' I pulled up my knees so I could get out of his reach. 'I don't want to talk to you.' I mumbled against my knees, 'I know but you have to let me explain, please?' I shook my head. "I just want you to leave.' He stayed quiet for a second and sighed deeply. 'No I'm not going so just listen okay?' I didn't respond as I looked outside. 'Sky I know what you saw today, hurt you badly even if you don't want to admit it. Did I use drugs, I did and to be honest I'm not quite sure what has happened while I have been with her but we didn't have sex, that's something I know for sure.'

I had already put my hands over my ears because I really didn't want to hear it. Louis wasn't having it though as he pulled my hand away from my ears. 'The only reason I went back to her was because of you.' That made me open my eyes but now I was feeling angry again. How dare he blame his shit on me 'I know what you are thinking and I'm not putting the blame on you but I needed to know why she was here, after you told me she was the one that made your life a living hell.'

Was he being serious right now? 'So you went there to find out why she was here?' He nodded but there was still guilt in his eyes. 'If that is true, why did you use drugs?' he shrugged. 'It was the temptation, I'm sure you noticed the drugs that was lying around. I couldn't resist but I had never expected you there and when you came through that door, I felt so ashamed of myself and the situation I was in because I did let them touch me.' By now he was not looking at me anymore, which told me he was really telling me the thruth.

'Do you want to know, what I had to do to find you?' I needed to let him know what had happened whilst I was looking for him. 'Tell me please?' He said turning his attention back to me. I took a deep breath before facing him. 'I had to call Mike and when I got to that apartment I had to let him touch me intimately, that's what happened whilst you were getting high on your precious drugs, so next time you try to help me, just don't. Will you please leave now?' I was sick of him and just wanted to sleep again.

I know he was shocked to the core when I told him that but it was his own fault and he had to deal with it himself. I didn't have room or time for his guilt. 'Did you really have to go through that, just to find me?' he said slowly, I only nodded and pointed to the door, he knew it was pointless as he got up but instead of walking out of my room he grabbed my face gently as I was black and blue and he kissed me softly on the lips, I really wanted to push him away but my heart didn't as I kissed him back.

'I'm so sorry Sky for putting you through that.' He whispered against my lips, this brought me back to the reality and I pushed him off, of me. 'Just go already!' I raised my voice a bit, when I said that because he was probably just using me and I was sick of it.

'Before I leave, I want to know, why you let yourself get beaten up at that gym?' Who does he think he is. 'That is non off your business' I turned my back to him and waited till I heard him leave my room. I know he stopped before he walked out of the room, just to give me one more look but I didn't care.

I got up and shut the door as much as I could, since they had wrecked it. I walked into my bathroom to see if I had some innocent painkillers, as I wasn't allowed to take anything heavier than a normal painkiller. After taking one I went back to bed as this day had really worn me out. I closed my eyes and let the darkness take over.

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