The Making Of Us

It’s been about a week since mom was put into Intensive Care. There has been no improvement and it looks like there will be no improvement. I’ve been spending as much time as possible with her. I want her to know I love her and its ok if she can’t fight this battle anymore. It’s ok for her to stop the battle. No matter how hurt or angry or sad I am I want her to know that I love her for trying her hardest to fight this.

Since Niall is still here in the U.S. he missed the live show again this week. Simon and the boys called him on a conference call last night to tell him that they didn’t make it to the finals. He was torn I can’t imagine working my ass off so hard to not get anywhere. Although Simon did call the boys in the next morning and he signed them to his label. They start working on a record in a few months. I’m so excited for Niall he deserves this more than anyone I know.
Christmas is in two days and I have no idea what I am going to do. I didn’t get anyone anything for Christmas except for Niall. I got him a new custom made Rolex watch, its silver and the face of it has the Irish flag on it. I had his initials NJH engraved on the underside of it along with the words ‘You & I-Always’ to remind him that he will always be my infinity.

NEW YEAR’S EVE:
Christmas turned out pretty good, I spent it with my closest family and of course Niall. It’s weird staying in our big house without mom there. It’s just Nate and myself, there’s been a few times Niall has stayed over but my brother has made him sleep in his room while he slept on the couch. He may be younger than me by a year but he protects me like any “big” brother should. Since its’ New Year’s Eve Niall and I have decided to go to a party that is being held downtown on Court Ave.

Before we got downtown though we stop at the hospital so I can see my mom and tell her Happy New Year’s and tell her I love her and will see her tomorrow. The party is amazing I’m having such a good time, it takes my mind off of things for the night. Niall and I accuired some wristbands from someone that indicates that we are 21, when actually we aren’t but Shhh.. no one needs to know that but us. We decided to go to this bar called Liar’s Club the place was packed. We find a place to sit down and Niall goes to the bar to get us some drinks. He brings me a shot of tequila and a corona, he has the same. We make a toast to our relationship and take the shots first, it burns at first but WHEW it feels good.

“Niall hey can you pleaseeeee get some more shots for us those first two were so good.” I say slurring my words a little bit

“Babe, are you drunk?” he asks me smiling

“Not yet but I’d like to be. So how about those drinks Horan.” I say winking at him

Niall goes to the bar and gets four shots of tequila and two more corona’s. After taking the shots and chugging my beer I drag Niall to the dance floor. The alcohol is making me feel amazing I’m dancing on Niall like, well let’s just say it’s very provocative. He’s loving it though I can tell, it’s getting close to midnight so the bartenders are passing out glasses of Champagne; the countdown begins. 10, 9, 8, I’m looking into Niall’s eyes. They are so pretty right now they are very dark with want I can tell he wants me and he wants me bad. 7,6,5 I decided it would be fun to tease him a little bit so I turn around and grind my ass hard on his crotch bending over and looking up at him grinning. 4, 3 I come back up and wrap my arms around his waist grabbing his ass and holding him firmly against me. I lean up into his ear slurring worse than I was.

“I want you to fuck me like you’ve never fucked me before.”

2, 1 HAPPY NEW YEAR the whole bar shouts. Niall grabs my arm and is practically dragging me out of the bar. Before I know it we were on an elevator in some hotel he walked us to, well not walked basically ran. Niall has me against the wall of the elevator kissing me hard. I run by nails down his back making him kiss me more eagerly. The elevator dings indicating we are at the floor we need. Niall grabs my arm is leading me down the hall, I trip over my own feet not realizing how drunk I am and fall to the floor. Niall apparently has had enough of my stumbling around and picks me up carrying me over his shoulder. We get into the room letting the door slam shut Niall sets me down and pushes me against the door his mouth on mine.

“Fuck me Niall I can’t wait any longer” I moan as he is kissing and sucking on my neck.

“Baby I’m gonna fuck your pretty little brains out.” He growls at me

Once we have each other’s clothes off Niall whispers in my ear to jump so I do. He grabs my ass holding me in place we slowly back up against the wall as he enter me, harder than he has ever been before. The instant waves of pleasure going through me are outstanding. I cry his name over and over again the faster he goes.

“I’m gonna come Niall, Fuck baby.. yeah fuck me harder” I moan loudly

“Cassie god, oh yea you like that baby fuckkk” he yells as we both go over the edge at the same time.

I lie my head on his shoulder still pinned against the wall. After a few minutes we finally catch our breath as Niall sets me back on my feet. We both walk into the bathroom and he starts up the shower. After washing up and getting our Pj’s on we climb into bed I don’t even get my head on the pillow before I pass out entirely.

Notes

So yeah New Year's Eve.... fun times