The Making Of Us

“Niall, I can’t do this alone, I need you to come with me.” I sob into his chest

“Baby I know, I gotta do the live show tonight then I will have a driver take me straight to the airport and I will be in Iowa as soon as possible.”

“Alright” I say still sobbing

Olli is waiting outside to take me to the airport. Niall is carrying both of my suitcases as we hurry through the airport. My flight leaves in twenty minutes. Niall quickly gives me a kiss and heads off with Olli so he can get back to the studios for sound check. I board my plane and sit in silence and cry to myself before finally falling asleep. I wake up to the captain telling everyone they need to buckle up, we are landing in Chicago. That means I have to board another plane to fly into Des Moines.

45 Minutes Later:

We finally touchdown in Des Moines after a 45 minute layover; My dad is waiting for me by the baggage claim, I get both of my suitcases and hurry out to his truck. As we are walking up to the Oncology entrance of the hospital my phone starts ringing. I look at the screen and it says Niall.

“Hi babe I miss you where are you at?” I ask him

“Hey baby, I am in Boston right now. I am flying the rest of the way in a private plane so I should be there in about two hours.”

“Ok baby I love you, I don’t know what I would do without you. I’m at the hospital now so I’m gonna get going so I can go see my momma”

“Alright baby I love you stay strong I will be there soon”

After I hang up from Niall I go with my dad up to my mom’s room. We reach the waiting room where my grandparents and brother and a few other family members are sitting. I hug and kiss all of them then a nurse comes out and says we can go back three at a time so myself, Nate and Taylor decide to go back first. My heart is beating a thousand miles a minute. Before we enter the room the nurse turns to us and warns rather than says to us that mom isn’t going to look the same as she did a few days ago.

“She is very sick and her color is off, she has been heavily sedated so she sleeps about 21 hours out of the day. She also has a breathing tube in to assist her with her breathing.”

Before entering the room I have to take a few deep breaths, I can already feel the tears well up in my eyes. As I walk in I hear the loud beeping of all the different machines. Taylor has a tight grip on my had as we walk in. I can’t imagine how she must feel since seeing her dad like this just a few years ago. I’m so thankful that I have her with me. I don’t even reach the bed yet when Nate turns around sobbing and grabs me into a strong embrace trying to drag me out of the room.

What? What is the matter, what’s wrong?”

When he finally moves out of the way I see her. Mom, she’s just lying there lifeless in the cold dark room with tubes coming out of every orifice. It takes everything I have to not lose it. I take a moment to compose myself silent tears running down my face. Things don’t look good at all mom definitely doesn’t look like herself.She’s slurring a little so I know the meds are wearing off a little bit. She can’t talk due to the ventilator so the nurse made some cards with simple pictures and the alphabet on them so she can point to what she wants or spell out what she wants to say. She’s weak to the point where she can’t hold a pen or pencil and write either. I didn’t realize how exhausted I was, I fell asleep in the bed with my mom while watching T.V.

“Hey baby, I’m here I made it sorry it took so long.” I hear that sweet voice

I turn over to see Niall standing over me, I jump up off the bed and wrap my arms around his neck. That’s when I fall apart, I start sobbing into his chest he is trying to get me to calm down but it isn’t working. He takes me out of the room and walks me out to the waiting area we don’t stop there though. Niall walks me down to the elevator and outside before we stop to sit on a bench under the Magnolia trees.

“Baby you need to calm down, take a deep breath and regroup please. You’re going to start hyperventilating if you don’t calm down.” Niall says to me

“Niall I’m sorry, it’s just I’ve been trying to stay strong all day and when I saw you I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t want my mom to hear me cry but I couldn’t help it.”

“it’s ok baby just take a couple minutes to regroup yourself and we can go back inside and you can introduce me to your family and if you want to we can go back to my hotel to catch some sleep. And in the morning I promise I will come up here and sit with you all day. I love you.”

“Niall, I love you too. You are the best thing that has ever happened in my life up to this point besides Taylor.” I say letting out a small giggle.

After I get myself settled down we go back up to the waiting room. I introduce Niall to my dad and step mom and the rest of my family, then we say our good byes and head home for the night.

“Niall?” I say

“Yes love.” He says glancing over at me.

“What are you going to do about the show? I know the live show was last night but what about tonight? We won’t know what happens, like if One Direction gets through or not.” I ask concerned

“Everything has been taken care of. I told the boys what was happening and they couldn’t agree more that I should come here to be with you. The producer’s understand wholeheartedly as well.” Just as he was telling me this his phone started ringing.

“Harry, hi lad what’s happening?” Niall says excitedly

I can hear a lot of shouting as Niall holds the phone away from his ear

“YES! WOW! That’s amazing.” Niall sort of shouts

I take it they got through to another week. I’ve been so busy with my mom and school I didn’t realize that next week is finals week. Niall hangs up the phone, grabbing my hand and kissing it

“Babe we got through to the top three! It’s One Direction, Matt Cardle and Rebecca Ferguson I can’t believe it! We find out who goes on to finals next week.” he tells me excitedly

By this time we are pulling into the parking lot of the Embassy Suits and climbing out of
Niall’s SUV. We go through the lobby to the elevator taking it to the 105th floor. I’ve cried so much today it really has worn me out. All I want to do is take a shower and cuddle up into bed next to Niall and fall asleep. After our shower it takes about ten minutes before I fall asleep the last thing I hear before drifting off is Niall’s sweet voice singing my song.

Notes

This and the next few chapters are going to be a little hard to write. A lot of emotion going on here. This whole thing going on with Cassie's mom is exactly what I endured with my mom as well, so i'm sorry if there are errors.