{Three Days Later}

Niall’s POV
My eyes stare out into the sky at the sunset. My arms leaning on the cold metal of the our balcony railing. The breeze felt good against my skin. But cold against the dried, but slightly damp, stream on both of my cheeks, thanks to the tears all day.

I’ve never felt so helpless before. I feel horrible, I feel dead. Completely horrible. I gulp lightly, trying to stay out of my feelings and emotions, but it was hard at this point. It was too hard for me to do.

‘’Ni?” I heard Jana’s beautiful voice say. I don’t move, I just let my head drop, closing my eyes tight as I roll in my lips, trying to keep myself collected. ‘’Baby, are you.. are you okay?’’ I don’t reply to her question.

Soon, though, I felt her soft and comforting touch against my body. Her arms go around my waist, she rests her head against my back. I tightly squeeze my eyes, it was hard to keep myself grounded and collected at a time like this, it was too hard to even try to attempt at all.

‘’Why.. why she’d have to.. to go in that.. way?’’ I whisper, hoping that God will answer me, but I know Jana will. That’s good enough, I guess, for now at least. I only like to talk to God when I’m alone, it’s more private and I have more hope too.

‘’I dunno baby, I don’t know.’’ She sighs lightly, tightening her grip on my body. ‘’All I ever wanted.. was for her to go peacefully.. and she didn’t.. she didn’t, Jana.’’ I mumble.

‘’She’s going to be peacefully nice, she’s in a much better place. She’s watching you right now, I just know it. Just like my Dad is.. she’s there, she’s always going to be there.’’ She assures me.

‘’It’s okay, just don’t.. don’t feel like it’s your fault.’’ Jana adds. Her words I heard, but that doesn’t mean I was completely listening, but just enough though hopefully. ‘’I just.. I just wanted.. it to be different.’’ I admit.

‘’I know, baby, I know.’’ She says soothingly to me. Her voice was calming me, but I will still not be one hundred percent okay, not for a long time.

Notes

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