This Is Us
20. Nothing At All
Niall’s POV
My brain freezes, my entire body at a standstill. I could hear Jana’s giggles from across the room. I haven’t had to explain sex for two whole years, since Taylor wondered about it. I knew it would come too soon, and trust me when I say it did.
‘’Well, what is it?” Tristan sighs, annoyed at my stalling. ‘’Um.. it’s um.. when you uh, make a baby.’’ I blurt out, quick to shut my mouth once I realized how I said it. ‘’But you said God made the babies, remember?’’ He asks, furrowing his eyebrows a little.
‘’He does, but the scientific way of making a baby.. is through um.. sexual intercourse.’’ I mumble the world like it was a sin to say it any louder, in this house.. it was at times. I’m kidding, it was just a joke. Don’t take it serious, ha.
‘’Intercourse?’’ Tristan says the word confused. Jana continues to laugh across the room, which wasn’t much help to me. As I was thinking of what to say, Talya started to get fussy. I sigh as I pick her up gently and hold her in my arms, rocking her lightly from side to side as I shift my weight constantly, keeping her calm as she sucks on her pacifier.
‘’Yeah. A um, man puts his.. um.. you know, the thing..’’ I motion with my head towards his lower half. He nods, probably getting that part. ‘’In to the um, woman’s.. um.. you know.. what girls have.. whatmakes them different from boys..’’ I sigh lightly, this was so awkward.
‘’Yeah. But why do they do that?’’ Tris asks me. ‘’Because, the man has to get his DNA into the woman’s stomach so the baby can be made.. understand?’’ I ask, praying to God he will just say okay and get on with his life.
Because trust me, he will figure it out more as he gets older and him and his friends get immature and dirty minded, trust me I know. ‘’Yeah.’’ He nods as he spins around and goes towards the door, soon leaving me relieved and washed of all of my nervousness.
‘’Oh, thank God.’’ I sigh out as I tilt my head back, staring at the ceiling, mentally thanking the good Lord for doing this favor for me, thank you so much!
{10:25pm}
Selena’s POV
‘’Hey baby, what you doing?’’ Harry asks as he joins me on the bed while I hold the laptop on my lap. ‘’Doing some stuff for Niall.’’ I mumble as I type in the check-in and check-out dates for their ‘honeymoon’.
‘’And what would that be?” He asks curiously, lying down beside me, propping himself on his elbow as he lied on his side, just to watch me. ‘’The reservations.’’ I sigh, rolling my eyes lightly to myself because I was trying to work on this, and he was messing with me.
Don’t get me wrong, I love Harry. But sometimes I just need to be left alone, you know. We all have times like that, and this was definitely my time.
‘’Niall’s already done the hotel stuff.’’ Harry informs me. ‘’I’m not doing the hotel stuff. I’m doing their honeymoon stuff.’’ I say sharply, not trying to sound all mean but I was just trying to keep focus at the moment. ‘’Dang, sorry. I was just saying. I didn’t know you were doing something else.’’ He huffs, falling on his back, putting his arms behind his head.
I don’t reply, I just try to be calm and focus on this work I must have finished tonight, it’s very, very important too. ‘’You’re not on it, so why are you acting like this?’’ Harry mumbles as I stare at the bright screen, ignoring him completely.
I felt his hand touch my waist, assuming he has his arm around my back now, having it resting on the bed like he usually does. ‘’I’m just.. annoyed. You have got to leave me alone for a little bit, babe.’’ I sigh, moving onto the next page after getting the dates set and the payment set up.
‘’Sorry.’’ He whispers lightly. ‘’It’s okay, just be quiet.’’ I smile lightly, but it soon fades as I realize I have a lot of stuff to plan within the next week, and I promise you that as long as Harry’s rambling around me, I won’t get it done or I’ll either do something wrong.
‘’I love you.’’ Harry says. ‘’I love you too.’’ I mumble, unsure of the words at the moment only because of the fact that he’s annoying me and I can’t focus at all. If I screw this up, Niall will literally kill me, bring me back to life, then kill me again.
{2:45am}
Jana’s POV
‘’Mom, please make it stop!’’ Tori screams out as she throws up in the toilet. ‘’I know, I know.’’ I sigh as I continue to hold her hair behind her head, so it doesn’t fall and get in her way. Her arms were around her self, clutching her stomach as she puked.
I knew how she felt, trust me, I’ve been through his many of times, too many times actually, well more than the average person though, that’s all really. ‘’Babygirl, are you okay?!’’ Niall yells panicked and worried as he slams Tori’s bathroom door open. She just shakes her head, continuing to puke up her stomach acid.
‘’God bless you.’’ Niall whispers lightly as he kneels down on the other side of her, putting his hand on her back, rubbing circles in, just trying to comfort her more than he knows will work. ‘’Daddy, make it stop.’’ She groans as she finally gets to take a few seconds of a breather, her stomach giving her a little bit of a break.
‘’I would if I could baby.’’ He sighs, gulping loudly, I could even hear it. ‘’Mommy, Daddy, what’s wrong with Tori?’’ I look over my shoulder as I hear Tinley’s voice say. ‘’Damn it.’’ Niall mumbles lightly, not wanting to do this. I stand up, knowing that Tori will be just fine with Niall there.
‘’She’s just sick, c’mon, let’s go back to bed, okay?’’ I insist as I pick her up. She rests her head on my shoulder. ‘’Daddy.’’ She calls out as we reach the doorframe. ‘’Yeah, baby?’’ I hear Niall reply. ‘’I love you.’’ She says. ‘’I love you too, babe.’’ I could hear the smile in his voice, even though it wasn’t as much as a happy time as he wanted it to be.
‘’Mommy.’’ Tinley whispers lightly to me. ‘’Yeah?’’ I ask as I shut the bathroom door, letting those two be in private, and to prevent any other person in this house to become curious of the noise. ‘’Will you tell Daddy to come check on me when he gets done with Tori?’’ She says as we enter the hall way. ‘’Yeah, I’ll tell him.’’ I nod a little as I reply.
‘’Can I watch a movie, Mommy?’’ She asks sweetly, using that cute voice she uses when she really wants something, she mostly uses it on me though because Niall already gives her whatever she desires, just like everyone else here, even the animals, which isn’t shocking to me at all.
‘’I dunno, sweetie. It’s really late, you Daddy’s rules.’’ I remind her of the authority Niall supposes he has. Please, I run this house. He just won’t let it cope in his mind. ‘’But, please! Tay gets to watch TV at night time!’’ She whines, not really liking what I told her, as usual.
‘’We’ll see, okay?’’ I say. ‘’ ‘kay.’’ She mumbles lightly as I finally reach her bedroom door. I open it and take her inside, the light was already on from where she had gotten out of bed and became as curious as she always is.
Gently, I sit her down as I reach the bed. She crawls under the covers, snuggling with her stuffed bear that’s about the same size as her, it takes up the small bed mostly though. ‘’What do you want to watch?’’ I ask as I turn my back to her, heading towards the book shelf that’s half way full of DVD’s instead of books actually.
‘’Nemo! Nemo!’’ She squeals from the bed. ‘’Shh, be quiet, love.’’ I say as I smile, grabbing the movie. It was a shock to me at times that I actually knew the DVD’s location on the shelf, between Cinderella and Shrek.
‘’Yay!’’ She says happily as I turn the TV on and put the DVD in the DVD player. The screen lights up with the beginning previews and I return to her bedside. I lean down, smiling as Tinley looks up at me, Niall marked her good. She’s like a female version of him.
Tinley puckers her lips out and giggles a little as I give her kiss. ‘’I love you, babe.’’ I whisper as I tuck her in a little tighter. ‘’Love you too, Mommy.’’ She says as I go back to the door, turning the light off as I shut it. At times all of this really does get to me. I can’t believe that my life is this good, it’s crazy really. But I like it, I wouldn’t change it for anything.
Nothing at all.
My brain freezes, my entire body at a standstill. I could hear Jana’s giggles from across the room. I haven’t had to explain sex for two whole years, since Taylor wondered about it. I knew it would come too soon, and trust me when I say it did.
‘’Well, what is it?” Tristan sighs, annoyed at my stalling. ‘’Um.. it’s um.. when you uh, make a baby.’’ I blurt out, quick to shut my mouth once I realized how I said it. ‘’But you said God made the babies, remember?’’ He asks, furrowing his eyebrows a little.
‘’He does, but the scientific way of making a baby.. is through um.. sexual intercourse.’’ I mumble the world like it was a sin to say it any louder, in this house.. it was at times. I’m kidding, it was just a joke. Don’t take it serious, ha.
‘’Intercourse?’’ Tristan says the word confused. Jana continues to laugh across the room, which wasn’t much help to me. As I was thinking of what to say, Talya started to get fussy. I sigh as I pick her up gently and hold her in my arms, rocking her lightly from side to side as I shift my weight constantly, keeping her calm as she sucks on her pacifier.
‘’Yeah. A um, man puts his.. um.. you know, the thing..’’ I motion with my head towards his lower half. He nods, probably getting that part. ‘’In to the um, woman’s.. um.. you know.. what girls have.. whatmakes them different from boys..’’ I sigh lightly, this was so awkward.
‘’Yeah. But why do they do that?’’ Tris asks me. ‘’Because, the man has to get his DNA into the woman’s stomach so the baby can be made.. understand?’’ I ask, praying to God he will just say okay and get on with his life.
Because trust me, he will figure it out more as he gets older and him and his friends get immature and dirty minded, trust me I know. ‘’Yeah.’’ He nods as he spins around and goes towards the door, soon leaving me relieved and washed of all of my nervousness.
‘’Oh, thank God.’’ I sigh out as I tilt my head back, staring at the ceiling, mentally thanking the good Lord for doing this favor for me, thank you so much!
{10:25pm}
Selena’s POV
‘’Hey baby, what you doing?’’ Harry asks as he joins me on the bed while I hold the laptop on my lap. ‘’Doing some stuff for Niall.’’ I mumble as I type in the check-in and check-out dates for their ‘honeymoon’.
‘’And what would that be?” He asks curiously, lying down beside me, propping himself on his elbow as he lied on his side, just to watch me. ‘’The reservations.’’ I sigh, rolling my eyes lightly to myself because I was trying to work on this, and he was messing with me.
Don’t get me wrong, I love Harry. But sometimes I just need to be left alone, you know. We all have times like that, and this was definitely my time.
‘’Niall’s already done the hotel stuff.’’ Harry informs me. ‘’I’m not doing the hotel stuff. I’m doing their honeymoon stuff.’’ I say sharply, not trying to sound all mean but I was just trying to keep focus at the moment. ‘’Dang, sorry. I was just saying. I didn’t know you were doing something else.’’ He huffs, falling on his back, putting his arms behind his head.
I don’t reply, I just try to be calm and focus on this work I must have finished tonight, it’s very, very important too. ‘’You’re not on it, so why are you acting like this?’’ Harry mumbles as I stare at the bright screen, ignoring him completely.
I felt his hand touch my waist, assuming he has his arm around my back now, having it resting on the bed like he usually does. ‘’I’m just.. annoyed. You have got to leave me alone for a little bit, babe.’’ I sigh, moving onto the next page after getting the dates set and the payment set up.
‘’Sorry.’’ He whispers lightly. ‘’It’s okay, just be quiet.’’ I smile lightly, but it soon fades as I realize I have a lot of stuff to plan within the next week, and I promise you that as long as Harry’s rambling around me, I won’t get it done or I’ll either do something wrong.
‘’I love you.’’ Harry says. ‘’I love you too.’’ I mumble, unsure of the words at the moment only because of the fact that he’s annoying me and I can’t focus at all. If I screw this up, Niall will literally kill me, bring me back to life, then kill me again.
{2:45am}
Jana’s POV
‘’Mom, please make it stop!’’ Tori screams out as she throws up in the toilet. ‘’I know, I know.’’ I sigh as I continue to hold her hair behind her head, so it doesn’t fall and get in her way. Her arms were around her self, clutching her stomach as she puked.
I knew how she felt, trust me, I’ve been through his many of times, too many times actually, well more than the average person though, that’s all really. ‘’Babygirl, are you okay?!’’ Niall yells panicked and worried as he slams Tori’s bathroom door open. She just shakes her head, continuing to puke up her stomach acid.
‘’God bless you.’’ Niall whispers lightly as he kneels down on the other side of her, putting his hand on her back, rubbing circles in, just trying to comfort her more than he knows will work. ‘’Daddy, make it stop.’’ She groans as she finally gets to take a few seconds of a breather, her stomach giving her a little bit of a break.
‘’I would if I could baby.’’ He sighs, gulping loudly, I could even hear it. ‘’Mommy, Daddy, what’s wrong with Tori?’’ I look over my shoulder as I hear Tinley’s voice say. ‘’Damn it.’’ Niall mumbles lightly, not wanting to do this. I stand up, knowing that Tori will be just fine with Niall there.
‘’She’s just sick, c’mon, let’s go back to bed, okay?’’ I insist as I pick her up. She rests her head on my shoulder. ‘’Daddy.’’ She calls out as we reach the doorframe. ‘’Yeah, baby?’’ I hear Niall reply. ‘’I love you.’’ She says. ‘’I love you too, babe.’’ I could hear the smile in his voice, even though it wasn’t as much as a happy time as he wanted it to be.
‘’Mommy.’’ Tinley whispers lightly to me. ‘’Yeah?’’ I ask as I shut the bathroom door, letting those two be in private, and to prevent any other person in this house to become curious of the noise. ‘’Will you tell Daddy to come check on me when he gets done with Tori?’’ She says as we enter the hall way. ‘’Yeah, I’ll tell him.’’ I nod a little as I reply.
‘’Can I watch a movie, Mommy?’’ She asks sweetly, using that cute voice she uses when she really wants something, she mostly uses it on me though because Niall already gives her whatever she desires, just like everyone else here, even the animals, which isn’t shocking to me at all.
‘’I dunno, sweetie. It’s really late, you Daddy’s rules.’’ I remind her of the authority Niall supposes he has. Please, I run this house. He just won’t let it cope in his mind. ‘’But, please! Tay gets to watch TV at night time!’’ She whines, not really liking what I told her, as usual.
‘’We’ll see, okay?’’ I say. ‘’ ‘kay.’’ She mumbles lightly as I finally reach her bedroom door. I open it and take her inside, the light was already on from where she had gotten out of bed and became as curious as she always is.
Gently, I sit her down as I reach the bed. She crawls under the covers, snuggling with her stuffed bear that’s about the same size as her, it takes up the small bed mostly though. ‘’What do you want to watch?’’ I ask as I turn my back to her, heading towards the book shelf that’s half way full of DVD’s instead of books actually.
‘’Nemo! Nemo!’’ She squeals from the bed. ‘’Shh, be quiet, love.’’ I say as I smile, grabbing the movie. It was a shock to me at times that I actually knew the DVD’s location on the shelf, between Cinderella and Shrek.
‘’Yay!’’ She says happily as I turn the TV on and put the DVD in the DVD player. The screen lights up with the beginning previews and I return to her bedside. I lean down, smiling as Tinley looks up at me, Niall marked her good. She’s like a female version of him.
Tinley puckers her lips out and giggles a little as I give her kiss. ‘’I love you, babe.’’ I whisper as I tuck her in a little tighter. ‘’Love you too, Mommy.’’ She says as I go back to the door, turning the light off as I shut it. At times all of this really does get to me. I can’t believe that my life is this good, it’s crazy really. But I like it, I wouldn’t change it for anything.
Nothing at all.
Notes
I know it sorta jumps around a lot in this chapter, but I just wanted to go on and get this posted. Sorry for the short wait ,I've been going non stop for days straight working on the chapters. My Word document has like three hundred pages, and the font's really small, so that's a lot of stuff.
Anyways...
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His mom, remember it was a whole chapter about it before??
10/18/15