This Is Us
21. Sleep Around
Two Days Later
Niall’s POV
My patience was slowly drifting away. Jana was taking forever upstairs. How long does it take to put on a dress. Damn. I roll my eyes as I hear her voice from the top of the staircase, she was fussing at Taylor, as always.
‘’Jana, c’mon, now!’’ I say loudly, just so she will understand I’m not in the mood for any stalling. Jana and I were going to a very important event tonight and I would be ever so happy if she didn’t make us late. Because this event revolves around me, so I’d rather not be the last one there.
My eyes wonder back to the staircase. They widen as I see Jana’s presence. My throat dry, my heart stopping, my lungs dying. She looked.. beautiful. The color of the dress just complimented her perfectly. She was gorgeous.
‘’Sorry babe, I was trying to get Taylor to… what are you staring at?’’ She laughs a little as she notices my stern gaze on her beautiful body. ‘’You.’’ I say simply as she gets closer and closer to me. ‘’I’m sure not, I look stupid.’’ She shakes her head from side to side lightly, assuring herself that it was true. However, it surely wasn’t.
‘’No, you look amazing. Last time you dressed up like this was.. like.. November.’’ I laugh a little as I hold my hands out to her, she finally reaches the bottom of the stair case. Jana takes my hands and I pull her to me, knocking her against my chest.
‘’Yeah, for the award show. But this just seems too much.. for such a simple thing.’’ Jana mumbles as I brush my lips against hers, smirking as her hands hold onto my waist, mine on her hips, just keeping her against me.
‘’Baby, this is important.’’ I laugh a little at her for saying that, this was in fact very important for the both of us. ‘’A book release isn’t important.. not in your life. I mean, look at you, you’ve got-‘’ ‘’Look at me? Please,’’ I scoff lightly, ‘’look at you.’’
‘’Niall-‘’ ‘’No, babe, you and I wrote the book together.. it’s not just about me.’’ I remind her. ‘’I know, I just.. everyone always.. you know, pays more attention to you, than to me.’’ She tells me. ‘’No baby, I assure you after people see you tonight.. and how beautiful you look.. that you’ll be the top of the talk tomorrow. Besides, they always see you.. they might hate on you, but they see you. Trust me. They’re just jealous.’’ I assure her.
‘’Because I’m with you.’’ She sighs. ‘’No, because you’re beautiful.’’ I correct her judgement on those people. Yeah, okay, so they were a little jealous because she’s my wife and they can’t be, but c’mon.. she’s breathtaking, more than anything.
‘’I love you, Jana.’’ I whisper as I press my lips to hers, waiting for her reply before I continue on. ‘’Love you too, Ni.’’ She mumbles back, smiling a little as I close the tiny distance between us, getting a nice taste of her toothpaste and her lip gloss.
The limo smelt like smoke and vanilla. I had the end of the cigarette out of the slightly cracked window, letting the ash bud blow away before pulling it back to my mouth. It’s a bad habit I’ve picked up, but I don’t do it all the time. Just on a stressful night like this one.
Jana’s hand gripped my tight, her head leaned against my shoulder. ‘’What if they say things..’’ She mumbles with a disappointed sigh. ‘’Baby, they won’t. If they do, then I’ll take care of it.’’ I assure her with a squeeze of her hand, the cold metal of her engagement and wedding rings pressing against my skin.
Soon she won’t be wearing those, she’ll have them on a necklace around her neck. I will have mine on the same too. I’m going to get us new ones, just to show her that we’re going to make it to the end. Like before, I’m going to have a helping hand during the picking-out process.
Instead of Tori, I’m going to go with someone that’s the similar age as Tori was… Tinley. Besides, she’s good at doing things like that. She likes the ‘’pretty’’ things like Jana, they’re a lot alike, so that sorta gives me an assurance that she can pick the best one.
I’m not picking favorites. Tori picked out the dress and Terra chose the flower arrangements. I had asked her what she wanted to help with, and she said the flowers, so I let her. Besides, the girls want more to do with it than the boys do, so I don’t bother asking them about anything.
‘’Do you love me?’’ Jana’s voice cut off my thoughts, and it sort of scared me a little that she would ask this, already knowing the answer. ‘’Of course I do, Jana.’’ I say, furrowing my eyebrows to myself, confused on why in the world she questions that.
‘’Are.. are you ch-cheating on me, Niall?’’ Her head leaned up from my shoulder, the loss of contact killing me inside, her hand letting mine go. I look over at her, just to see her eyes staring at me. ‘’God, no. Why would you think that?’’ I shake my head as I ask this, very worried now.
‘’Because.. you’ve.. you’ve been.. keeping away from me.. and I.. and you.. you’re always at the label or in the office at home.. or.. or just.. no where near me.’’ She sniffs lightly. ‘’Jana, baby, I swear to God I’m not cheating on you. I never have, and God knows I never will. I love you, so much that you can’t even measure the amount. I would never, ever, ever do that to you.’’ I say, my voice cracking because off the tension and pressure.
‘’But..’’ she her voice trails off, she doesn’t keep her sentence going. ‘’Jana, I’ve been madly in love with you since the day I laid my eyes on you. And you know I will always feel that way. I will never hurt you like that. Because if I did, I wouldn’t just be ruining your life, I’d be ruining mine, and the kids’, and everything we’ve accomplished would be just.. gone. You know I don’t want that. I love you, you know that. I love you, no one else baby, I love you.’’ I gulp lightly, praying that she will believe me. It was true, we both know it.
‘’Okay.’’ She nods lightly before taking my hand again, getting a tight grip from me. ‘’I love you.’’ I whisper one last time as she lies her head back on my shoulder, getting as close as before. That scared me, really bad. I knew I couldn’t tell her why I’ve been distant, that would ruin everything. It’s hard to secretly plan something amazing, especially when I know that she’s thinking those things know.
But she’s just going to have to think them, because March 31st has come yet, and I can’t just let this all go down the drain. I’m going to go through with it, I have to. Jana just needs to gain some trust, I know she trusts me, she just hates to show it sometimes. Besides, she’s the only one who doesn’t know about it.
It has to be this way, just for a little longer. Then we can be up each other’s asses all the time, as Harry would say at least.
Diana’s POV
My eyes scan over the list of things Niall and Jana left for me and Carolina. I mentally check off the first few things, we’ve already taken care of those demands. ‘’Terra’s on the phone with Niall, she’s not feeling good.’’ Tori tells me as she stands beside me, her hand on her hip.
‘’You’re not feeling good either, aren’t you going to talk to your father?’’ I ask curiously as I sit the paper down on the kitchen counter. ‘’No.. he knows I’m like this.’’ She sighs as she glances down at her stomach, which has no elevation at this moment in time, but not for long.
‘’Dee, can I ask you something?’’ Tori asks me as she looks up at me, she was a little shorter than me, not much though. ‘’Anything sweetie.’’ I nod lightly to her. ‘’How come.. you never had any kids?’’ She asks me, glancing down at her stomach again.
‘’I never wanted any. And I can’t seem to find the right guy either, so that rules the options out too.’’ I shrug lightly at that reply of mine. ‘’You never.. slept around.. when you were younger?’’ Tori mumbles her question.
‘’No.. and neither did you. The term ‘’sleep around’’ refers to someone who’s constantly in bed with a different person all the time. And you weren’t, so don’t go labeling yourself as one of those people.’’ I remind her.
‘’I’m not.. it’s just at times.. I get this feeling inside of me.. that Mom and Dad are.. are ashamed of me.’’ She sighs, gulping lightly. ‘’Tori, they’re not ashamed. If anything, they’re proud.’’ I assure her. ‘’Proud..’’ She laughs in shock, rolling her eyes as she steps away from me, heading towards the door.
‘’How can they be proud of their whore of a daughter? They’re slutty little kid.’’ Before I could even say a word, Tori was gone from the room. She and I both knew good and well that she was not a slut, or a whore, and Niall and Jana certainly are not ashamed of her, nor do they think that she’s what she called herself.
But I guess they’re just some things parents have to assure their children of. And this, well, this was definitely one of those things.
Niall’s POV
My patience was slowly drifting away. Jana was taking forever upstairs. How long does it take to put on a dress. Damn. I roll my eyes as I hear her voice from the top of the staircase, she was fussing at Taylor, as always.
‘’Jana, c’mon, now!’’ I say loudly, just so she will understand I’m not in the mood for any stalling. Jana and I were going to a very important event tonight and I would be ever so happy if she didn’t make us late. Because this event revolves around me, so I’d rather not be the last one there.
My eyes wonder back to the staircase. They widen as I see Jana’s presence. My throat dry, my heart stopping, my lungs dying. She looked.. beautiful. The color of the dress just complimented her perfectly. She was gorgeous.
‘’Sorry babe, I was trying to get Taylor to… what are you staring at?’’ She laughs a little as she notices my stern gaze on her beautiful body. ‘’You.’’ I say simply as she gets closer and closer to me. ‘’I’m sure not, I look stupid.’’ She shakes her head from side to side lightly, assuring herself that it was true. However, it surely wasn’t.
‘’No, you look amazing. Last time you dressed up like this was.. like.. November.’’ I laugh a little as I hold my hands out to her, she finally reaches the bottom of the stair case. Jana takes my hands and I pull her to me, knocking her against my chest.
‘’Yeah, for the award show. But this just seems too much.. for such a simple thing.’’ Jana mumbles as I brush my lips against hers, smirking as her hands hold onto my waist, mine on her hips, just keeping her against me.
‘’Baby, this is important.’’ I laugh a little at her for saying that, this was in fact very important for the both of us. ‘’A book release isn’t important.. not in your life. I mean, look at you, you’ve got-‘’ ‘’Look at me? Please,’’ I scoff lightly, ‘’look at you.’’
‘’Niall-‘’ ‘’No, babe, you and I wrote the book together.. it’s not just about me.’’ I remind her. ‘’I know, I just.. everyone always.. you know, pays more attention to you, than to me.’’ She tells me. ‘’No baby, I assure you after people see you tonight.. and how beautiful you look.. that you’ll be the top of the talk tomorrow. Besides, they always see you.. they might hate on you, but they see you. Trust me. They’re just jealous.’’ I assure her.
‘’Because I’m with you.’’ She sighs. ‘’No, because you’re beautiful.’’ I correct her judgement on those people. Yeah, okay, so they were a little jealous because she’s my wife and they can’t be, but c’mon.. she’s breathtaking, more than anything.
‘’I love you, Jana.’’ I whisper as I press my lips to hers, waiting for her reply before I continue on. ‘’Love you too, Ni.’’ She mumbles back, smiling a little as I close the tiny distance between us, getting a nice taste of her toothpaste and her lip gloss.
The limo smelt like smoke and vanilla. I had the end of the cigarette out of the slightly cracked window, letting the ash bud blow away before pulling it back to my mouth. It’s a bad habit I’ve picked up, but I don’t do it all the time. Just on a stressful night like this one.
Jana’s hand gripped my tight, her head leaned against my shoulder. ‘’What if they say things..’’ She mumbles with a disappointed sigh. ‘’Baby, they won’t. If they do, then I’ll take care of it.’’ I assure her with a squeeze of her hand, the cold metal of her engagement and wedding rings pressing against my skin.
Soon she won’t be wearing those, she’ll have them on a necklace around her neck. I will have mine on the same too. I’m going to get us new ones, just to show her that we’re going to make it to the end. Like before, I’m going to have a helping hand during the picking-out process.
Instead of Tori, I’m going to go with someone that’s the similar age as Tori was… Tinley. Besides, she’s good at doing things like that. She likes the ‘’pretty’’ things like Jana, they’re a lot alike, so that sorta gives me an assurance that she can pick the best one.
I’m not picking favorites. Tori picked out the dress and Terra chose the flower arrangements. I had asked her what she wanted to help with, and she said the flowers, so I let her. Besides, the girls want more to do with it than the boys do, so I don’t bother asking them about anything.
‘’Do you love me?’’ Jana’s voice cut off my thoughts, and it sort of scared me a little that she would ask this, already knowing the answer. ‘’Of course I do, Jana.’’ I say, furrowing my eyebrows to myself, confused on why in the world she questions that.
‘’Are.. are you ch-cheating on me, Niall?’’ Her head leaned up from my shoulder, the loss of contact killing me inside, her hand letting mine go. I look over at her, just to see her eyes staring at me. ‘’God, no. Why would you think that?’’ I shake my head as I ask this, very worried now.
‘’Because.. you’ve.. you’ve been.. keeping away from me.. and I.. and you.. you’re always at the label or in the office at home.. or.. or just.. no where near me.’’ She sniffs lightly. ‘’Jana, baby, I swear to God I’m not cheating on you. I never have, and God knows I never will. I love you, so much that you can’t even measure the amount. I would never, ever, ever do that to you.’’ I say, my voice cracking because off the tension and pressure.
‘’But..’’ she her voice trails off, she doesn’t keep her sentence going. ‘’Jana, I’ve been madly in love with you since the day I laid my eyes on you. And you know I will always feel that way. I will never hurt you like that. Because if I did, I wouldn’t just be ruining your life, I’d be ruining mine, and the kids’, and everything we’ve accomplished would be just.. gone. You know I don’t want that. I love you, you know that. I love you, no one else baby, I love you.’’ I gulp lightly, praying that she will believe me. It was true, we both know it.
‘’Okay.’’ She nods lightly before taking my hand again, getting a tight grip from me. ‘’I love you.’’ I whisper one last time as she lies her head back on my shoulder, getting as close as before. That scared me, really bad. I knew I couldn’t tell her why I’ve been distant, that would ruin everything. It’s hard to secretly plan something amazing, especially when I know that she’s thinking those things know.
But she’s just going to have to think them, because March 31st has come yet, and I can’t just let this all go down the drain. I’m going to go through with it, I have to. Jana just needs to gain some trust, I know she trusts me, she just hates to show it sometimes. Besides, she’s the only one who doesn’t know about it.
It has to be this way, just for a little longer. Then we can be up each other’s asses all the time, as Harry would say at least.
Diana’s POV
My eyes scan over the list of things Niall and Jana left for me and Carolina. I mentally check off the first few things, we’ve already taken care of those demands. ‘’Terra’s on the phone with Niall, she’s not feeling good.’’ Tori tells me as she stands beside me, her hand on her hip.
‘’You’re not feeling good either, aren’t you going to talk to your father?’’ I ask curiously as I sit the paper down on the kitchen counter. ‘’No.. he knows I’m like this.’’ She sighs as she glances down at her stomach, which has no elevation at this moment in time, but not for long.
‘’Dee, can I ask you something?’’ Tori asks me as she looks up at me, she was a little shorter than me, not much though. ‘’Anything sweetie.’’ I nod lightly to her. ‘’How come.. you never had any kids?’’ She asks me, glancing down at her stomach again.
‘’I never wanted any. And I can’t seem to find the right guy either, so that rules the options out too.’’ I shrug lightly at that reply of mine. ‘’You never.. slept around.. when you were younger?’’ Tori mumbles her question.
‘’No.. and neither did you. The term ‘’sleep around’’ refers to someone who’s constantly in bed with a different person all the time. And you weren’t, so don’t go labeling yourself as one of those people.’’ I remind her.
‘’I’m not.. it’s just at times.. I get this feeling inside of me.. that Mom and Dad are.. are ashamed of me.’’ She sighs, gulping lightly. ‘’Tori, they’re not ashamed. If anything, they’re proud.’’ I assure her. ‘’Proud..’’ She laughs in shock, rolling her eyes as she steps away from me, heading towards the door.
‘’How can they be proud of their whore of a daughter? They’re slutty little kid.’’ Before I could even say a word, Tori was gone from the room. She and I both knew good and well that she was not a slut, or a whore, and Niall and Jana certainly are not ashamed of her, nor do they think that she’s what she called herself.
But I guess they’re just some things parents have to assure their children of. And this, well, this was definitely one of those things.
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His mom, remember it was a whole chapter about it before??
10/18/15