Redrum

i dont know how long we sit here for. could me minutes could be hours. "the funerals are tomorrow" harry whispers. i nod my head telling him that i know. "we'll get through this. the three of us will get through this." he says. its the most ive heard him speak in days. his voice isnt controlled like normal its shaky and more raspy than usual for not having spoken in days. i raise my head up and pull his face to look at me. his eyes are blood shot and puffy. hes got a few scrapes on his face and a cut on his lip. i run my tumb across his bottom lip thats cut and slowly pull him closer to me. he takes a breath and crashes his lips on mine and in seconds his tongue is in my mouth. we sit there kissing for a while and it becomes more and more heated. he reaches over and turns the water off and pulls me to stand up and gets out and grabs a towel and wrapes it around me. he sits me on the counter as he takes his wet clothes off and grabs himself a towel.

just after he wraps it around himself he resumes what we left off in the shower. kissing me fiercly and hard as if ill slip away. i reciprocate the force as i know if i lost him or ven liam it would kill me. his hands are all over my body and mine on his pulling him closer and closer to me. i know this is probably not the best time but it feels as if we both need some kind of escape from our own reality. he pulls back and looks me in the eye."are you ok with this" he asks.
"yes" i say and thats all he needs as he picks me up and walks into the bedroom and shuts the door with his foot and locks it continuing to walk towards the bed holding me up and never breaking. theres no foreplay theres no easing into it as he takes the towels off and gets straight to it and pushes inside of me. i wince at the sudden force of it and he stops before he keeps moving. "tell me if you want me to stop" he says leaning over my ear as he sucks right below my ear. i nod as he continues thrusting in and out and a slow pace. after a minute of the slow torturous movements he speeds up and pulls back to look me in the eye. he has tears in his eyes as do i. but i dont want to let them slip. as if on cue they fall slowly from my eyes making his fall.

he leans down and connects our lips and continues his pace with harder and more powerful thrusts making moans come from th both of us. "fuck" he says leaning over me. i know its probably getting harder for him as he gets sloppier. i feel the familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach within seconds its released in the most intense pleasure ive ever had he soon follows and releases inside. his movements stop and his head falls nto my shoulder. he rolls on to his back as we both just stare at the ceiling. i dont know if i should but a sudden thought comes to mind "you know they are probably throwing a party up there now for us." i say and he looks over at me and lets out a laugh. a loud laugh and i cant help but join. its the first time either of us have felt anything other than sadness. and strangely it feels ok. theres a knock at the door that breaks us from our own world and we both throw on clothes and answer to see liam his mom and anne at the door looking confused.

Liam has an idea as to what happens as i see a smile start to spread on his face. ut the moms still look confused. "were fine mum. just thinking of how the boys are throwing us a party up there now." he says with an actual smile. this makes the look on their faces start to lighten up and liam let out a laugh with us. "finally" liam says hugging us making their moms giggle and turn back down the stairs. "lets all go to bed. its gonna be rough tomorrow." i say as we all walk to the bed. just as liam gets to the edge he stops. "uhm lets go to my room. im not sleeping in this bed anymore." he says laughing and we get up to follow him to his room. laying down on the bed ive got the two most important people in my life next to me and in this moment i feel safe and loved.

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