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Gabriella's pov
I have cuts all along my arms. I cut every place possible on the inside of my arms. I wear long sleeves all the time anyways. They won't notice. I go into the shower. Did I shower already today? I go in anyways to take all the blood off my arms. The water stings my arms. A lot actually. Fuck. Oh well. The pain pleases me. I like pain. I smile. This makes me feel better. Pain. I get out of the shower. The cuts aren't bleeding anymore. I'm cutting over a stupid reason. People have it worse than I do. I walk to my room and see Jackie on my phone. "Get the hell off of my phone!" I tell at her she drops it and runs out of my room. Little bitch. I go to my phone and see texts. To Harry.
H: hey b
J: hey l
H: wyd
G: nothin much just thinking of you and how idk if this is working
H: what do you mean Gabriella?
G: I think we should split
H: why?
G: I don't feel anything anymore
H: okay. I just want you to be happy.
That bitch! I'm gonna kill her. No. Get even. I quickly text Harry.
G: Harry L I'm so sorry she was on my phone when I was in the shower.
H: oh thank fucking God! I was really sad.
G: :) ilu
H: ilu 2 b
H: so why did u take so long in the shower u don't usu take tht long
G: nothing I just wanted to be in there longer
H: you're lying b
G: what do you mean? I'm not lying.
H: you're typing full sentences L what's wrong
G: I told you nothing's wrong Harry
H: don't tell me you did something stupid
G: I didnt do shit Harry. I didn't do anything.
H: tell me Gabriella. Now.
G: just shut up! I didn't do anything!
H: tell me bby plz
G: no.
H: please.
I hate when he begs.
G: you know I hate you right?
H: nope but tell me what's wrong
G: I used a blade.
H: what the actual fuck Gabriella!?
G: this is why I didn't want to tell you! I didn't even do them deep so calm tf down
H: as soon as we are done with the last show which is next week I'm coming.
G: Harry I won't do it again. Promise.
H: okay. Ily u know.
G: I love you too.
H: :)
G: ok I gtg bye.
H: bye l
That is the only time I've ever lied to Harry. I feel so bad about it. He always believes me when I say promise. I put the blade back into the drawer. And I don't forget to put a password on my phone. I walk to my bed and go to sleep.
<<NextDay>>
I walk to the front of my mirror. How does Harry love me? Look at me. I love how he makes me feel though. I giggle. I'm so weird. My phone vibrates in my pocket. Kik? Oh it's probably someone from Twitter. I put my kik on there. it's him. I haven't talked to him since we fought. Im scared. It's been so long. He was the best friend I could ever ask for. My everything. I'd do anything for him. How can I still be like that with him? He hasn't texted me since then. Well I haven't texted him because I always text him because he never texted me. I don't know what to do.

Notes

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