2:04pm||June 2nd

Jana’s POV
‘’C’mon Tay Tay, behave for Mommy.’’ I sigh to Taylor as he continues to cry.

I had to bring him to the doctor for a checkup. Once every two months. Niall was supposed to be here too, but he had to do something that was apparently more important than the baby’s health.

Lately, I’ve been letting Tori stay over at his house, just to assure my self she’s safe. I have horrible nightmares where Alex breaks in and ties me up and abuses and rapes the kids. Its horrible.

But I’ve been seeing a therapist about it. She continues to tell me that its just the memories of the situation and the events. But I try not to let it bother me as much as I know it will.

Finally, Taylor decides he’s going to stop crying. The door opens and a nurse in pink walks in.

‘’Taylor Horan?’’ She calls out, curiously looking around the waiting room, it was almost filled up.

I get up and go to her at the door where I soon follow her down a hallway and into a room. She kindly takes Taylor from me and sits him on a table, she holds a hand on his side to steady him and keep him sorta still.

‘’Okay, I’m just going to check a few things.’’ She says as she reaches for all of her stuff.

My phone goes off in my purse, I was kinda embarrassed.

‘’I’m sorry.’’ I sigh out as I search for it.

‘’Its okay. You can step out into the hall if you need to, hon.’’ She tells me.

‘’Oh, no. Its just.. Its no one.’’ I reply, not knowing what position Niall is in my life right now.

I didn’t let myself say boyfriend, because he’s not. I didn’t want to lie and say it was any one else. So I just went with no one..

‘’hello?’’ I sigh out as I answer, not in the mood to talk to him right now.

‘’Hey, Love. Did you want me to come pick up Taylor? Or not?’’ He asks.

‘’Um, no its fine. I can bring him over later on.’’ I tell Niall.

‘’Okay, well are you in the room yet?’’

‘’Yes. Can you please leave me alone? I have to ask the nurse something.’’

‘’Yeah.. um.. just call me if any thing’s wrong.’’ He tells me.

‘’Don’t I always?’’ I ask, knowing that we both know the answer to that.

‘’Yeah.. alright, well bye Love.’’

‘’Bye Niall..’’

I hang up my phone and stick it back in my purse. I watch as she checks Tay’s blood pressure, temperature, and looks in his ears and at his eyes.

‘’Can you help me for a second? I don’t want to upset him. I have to weigh him,’’ she asks me.

‘’Yeah, no problem.’’ I smile as she smiles at me.

I pick him up and take him across the normal sized room to the counter where the scale is. I sit him on it, getting him to be as still as he can. But he is Niall’s child, and trust me, Niall isn’t the most laid back person I know. He constantly moves, whether its just something simple, like flinching, or something big, like rubbing his fingers over his chin.

So I knew for sure Taylor got that from him, not me.

‘’Good… he’s doing very good.’’ She says once she done.

‘’So, in a few minutes, the doctor will come in, ask a few things and maybe check for some more stuff. But thank you for letting me check up on him. He’s so cute,’’ She smiles as she goes to the door with her clipboard.

‘’Okay, and thank you,’’ I smile back kindly before she walks out, shutting the door.

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Niall’s POV
“Daddy! Daddy!’’ Tori squeals as she looks out of the huge living room window, ‘’Mama’s here!’’

‘’Alright, well, come sit down,’’ I say.

‘’No.’’ She protests as she runs to the front door and opens it. Soon after, she’s gone. Damn it, Tori.

I love her so much, but she’s got to learn to obey sometimes. And plus, its raining and she might get sick.

She’s already got too many problems going on and she doesn’t need a cold of the flu to be piled on top of everything else.

So, because I forced my self to, I get up and walk to the front door. I stand in the door way, the rain was just getting started so it wasn’t completely pouring, barely sprinkling actually.

Jana looked amazing, she always did. Taylor looked cute, like always. Tori had Taylor’s diaper bag over her shoulder, it weighed more than her so it was causing her to walk with a lean, the bag almost dragging on the ground.

I haven’t noticed how long Jana’s hair has gotten, the tips reaching the small of her back.

She changed so much, but at the same time, she was just like she’s always been. Short, beautiful, sexy.. Perfect.

Tori walks past me as she goes up the steps. Jana had a NIKE duffel bag on her shoulder, along with her purse, as she carried Taylor from the car. We had arranged for her to stay here when it was coming a bad storm. I didn’t prefer her to be in that apartment building when it was storming, and its supposed to pour down for hours later on and through the night.

She gets to the door and I offeringly take Taylor from her. She smiles gently as I let her walk in before me. Once we’re all in side, I close and lock the door. I watch as she goes straight to the stairs, to put her bag in the guest room I assume.

I take Taylor into the kitchen with me. I was in the middle of making dinner, a surprise for Jana. I sit him on the counter as I kiss his forehead. I loved him so much, and Tori, too, of course.

Jana’s POV
I switch on the light in the guest room. It was just like I remembered, everything in this house was exactly the same. Even the decorations and stuff I had picked out with Niall are still in their same places. All of the pictures and wall decor, still the same.

I sit my bag and my purse on top of the bed. Quick after I had stepped out of my shoes and put them in my bag, I made my way to our, I mean Niall’s, bedroom. Its hard to not refer to things as “ours”. Except Tori and Taylor, that’s about it.

The covers and pillows were exactly the ones we had picked out together a little over a year ago. I was five and half months pregnant with Taylor when we got this house, if I can remember correctly.

Now Taylor’s ten months old and Tori’s five. God.. its been a while I guess since we made this changed and moved here, but its been good for the most part.

I find myself sitting down on what used to be my side of the bed. You could tell that Niall never slept on this side, the cover was straight and the pillows had no evidence of any one ever sleeping on them. The lamp was off, it probably stayed off all the time now.

The clock was in the same exact place as it was before I left. The book I was currently reading at the time was still there, I forgot what it was even about though. Oh well, I wouldn’t read it anyways. Niall’s laptop was sitting on top of covers, he had probably been doing stuff a little earlier.

I look at the bathroom, the door was open and the light was on. I get curious to look around some more, so I get up and go in there. The brand and scent of soap I always got was still what he used, Dove ~ Japanese Cherry Blossom. I look over at the shower. Apparently I had left shampoo here, because there it sat. A pink razor, mine, was also on the side of the bathtub.

I look under the sink. I was surprised to see it was still organized. On one side, was our emergency stuff. Pregnancy tests, extra tampons and pads. And on the other side, was our protection stuff. Condoms. And what looks like an empty birth control pill box, I had probably left it there.

I stand up after closing the cabinets. I go back into the bedroom, hoping I wouldn’t leave a sign that I had been here, but never say never I guess. There’s a chance for anything to happen.

Releasing a sigh, I slide open the huge curtains that covered the balcony doors. I opened them and walked on to the balcony.

The view was still the same, a nice sized pond that was near the home, the back yard was fully visible, Tori’s playground set, trampoline, and other outside toys sat in the same spots, I knew she still went out side with Niall a lot though.

The pool, oh how I miss it. I barely got to use it. Maybe once or twice. I was pregnant, so it was a little hard for me to do anything at the time. It was still the large, amazing size I remember. I just can’t believe this was my life. Was..

“ ‘Member when we used to sit out here and stare at the stars?’’ I hear Niall’s beautiful voice say.

I turn around, in shock and sort of embarrassment, and I see him, leaning against the balcony door way, his ankles crossed, hands in his front pockets, staring at me.

‘’I..’’ I couldn’t find anything to say at this moment.

‘’You miss it? Cus I do,’’ He mumbles, same position, not moving anything but his mouth and his eyes.

‘’Sometimes,’’ I reply, turning back around, leaning my hands on the white railings, the breeze blowing my hair as the rain slowly came down, I knew the lightness wouldn’t last long though, it’ll pour soon.

‘’It gets lonely here.. just me and this huge house..’’ I hear him say.

‘’I bet.’’

‘’I noticed… that you.. looked around,’’ Niall says.

‘’Yeah, I did.. just a little.’’ I gulp slightly, trying to swallow the lump in my throat.

‘’Were you afraid.. that I had changed something?’’ He asks me.

‘’I was.. a little.. but.. I just wondered… if you..’’ I stop myself with a sigh.

‘’If I moved on?’’ he asked.

‘’Yeah.. that.’’ I nod, knowing he was looking at me, even though I wasn’t looking at him.

“I haven’t.. I haven’t changed a thing. I don’t wanna risk.. losing what I have left of you,’’ He tells me.

‘’Why not? Its not like I’m worth anything,’’ I mumble, hoping he wouldn’t hear it, but I knew he probably did.

‘’You’re worth a lot to me.. I dunno about any one else, but to me.. you’re everythin’.’’

I don’t respond in any way what so ever. I was sorta speechless at this point. He and I always talked about this with out actually talking about it. He would just ask how I was, and then if I still liked my place.. but I knew he just wanted me to admit I didn’t and come back here.

Which I often thought about doing some times..

“Apparently.. I’m worth something to do you.. you are still wearing that ring,’’ He adds on.

I turn to face him, my eyes slightly watering. I gulp again, hoping I had the nerve to talk, or respond to him. But I just couldn’t. Not to that.

I walk to him, standing in the door way beside him, facing opposite though.

‘’Where’s… Tay?’’ I whisper.

‘’Downstairs.. in the play pin.’’ He tells me.

I nod, walking off towards the bedroom door. I stop one I reach the door. I look over my shoulder, and I almost let a tear fall as I see Niall sitting on the edge of the bed, holding on to a picture of me and him that had always sat on his beside table…

And on the bottom of the frame it said….

Forever and Always

Notes

I decided to stop the lyrics thing, it was too much of an extra struggle. AND SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!! i got caught up with stuff. Anyways, I really want to see your comments and please subscribe and rate. And i sorta made up for the long wait by giving yall this longer chapter, its actually suposed to be the next two chapters, but no anymore!!
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