Some secrets are worth speaking, while other secrets should be left to die.

February 21, 2012
Headmaster Styles’ Office

“Don’t you beg me to stay because you’re the one who practically begged me to leave.” I tried to walk away but he moved closer to me.


“I’m sorry Ana. I was being an ass.” He shook his head and I laughed.


“You think? God. I don’t even know why I came here in the first place. I could have stayed at my parents’ house no matter how much you scared me. But I’m going there now, and I don’t want you standing in my way.” He tightened his grip on my arm.


Then I gasped when his hands landed on my cheeks and he wiped away my thick tears. “Please stay with me.”


“I don’t get why you would want me to stay! You’re always yelling at me and accusing me of being like other women when really I’m not! And you’re never going to talk to me, so what’s the fucking point-” He put his hand over my mouth and my knees began to lock.


“Shh. I swear to you I will tell you everything about me if you stay.” I looked into his eyes to make sure he wasn’t lying and he nodded his head. “I promise.” He placed his hand on my hip and I closed my eyes. “Please…” The word echoed through my ears and I took a deep breath.


He’s never had this effect on me before…


“Okay.” I mumbled, my eyes still closed.


But then he grabbed my hand in his and I was pulled into the house. My legs were jello and I was dazed, but then I came to realize that he was pulling me somewhere I’ve never been before.


We stopped in front of a door, and he opening it slowly. His office. He’s bringing me into his office? Well I must be pretty damn special.


He sat me down in a chair behind his desk and sat down across from me, almost like he was using the desk between us to avoid contact.


“Okay. Ask me any question. I’m prepared to answer.” He clasped his hands together and I blinked a few times.


“I’m sorry, this is just a lot to take in at one moment.” I took a deep breath and smiled, situating myself in my seat.


“Just ask me any question you want.” His voice trembled, as if he was nervous about the questions that I might or might not ask.


“Why do you want me to stay?” I leaned forward and he looked to his hands, smiling.


“You had to ask me that question, didn’t you?” He laughed and I smiled.


“I wanna know. And you said any question.” I crossed my legs and he cleared his throat.


“I like having your company.” He said dryly and I frowned.


“That’s it?” I looked down and he laughed.


“What do you mean that’s it? What more could you want? Am I supposed to say that I enjoy fighting with you 24/7? Is that what you want?” I fell silent and he sighed. “I want you to stay because believe it or not, you make me feel… Happy. When my dad died, I thought it was the end of the world for me. But now I have hope… Because you make me happy.”


“Oh my gosh.” I couldn’t hide my rosy cheeks. “I didn’t think that would be the answer to that question. I figured you’d say something like-”


“Something like ‘I want you to stay because I hate being alone and the only way for me to stay occupied is if I have a little seventeen-year-old brat running around to interrupt my studies’. Something like that?” He raised his eyebrows and I shyly nodded my head. “Wow.”


“I didn’t mean for it to sound offensive. I just thought that’s what you’d say…” I trailed off and cleared my throat. “Why do you think all women are the same, including me?”


“Miss Greene, I’ve already told you the answer to that.” He shook his head and I sighed.


“But there has to be some kind of back-story.” I clamped my hands down on the edges of the table, too excited for my body to handle.


“Oh my gosh, Ana.” He looked down and started wringing his fingers. “When I was eighteen, I met a girl. Her name was Sarah, and I loved her. And I thought she loved me. But little did I know, there more lust than there was love. In fact, I think that word love was just a lie. Anyways, when I turned twenty, I asked her to marry me soon after and we got engaged. Three months later, I found out that she was cheating on me and I asked her why. She told me the truth, and I’ve never trusted another woman since.”


“What was the truth?” I asked and he looked up at me.


“Have you ever fallen in love, Miss Greene?” He squinted his eyes and I looked down.


“Of course not, don’t be silly.” I shook my head and he sighed.


“Do you know what’s wrong with falling in love with someone who is only in it for the power of being able to control the other person? You realize that power is the only thing they want. They don’t want your love, the don’t want your careless hugs and affectionate smiles. They just want the power to know that they can throw you around like you’re a worthless piece of shit that’s filled with a lot of money. But the lust, the lust is something different. Especially if you’re young and vulnerable. If the person who wants power is full of lust, you get hurt worse because they end up taking your damn money after they’ve pleasured themselves with your vulnerable, tender body. And then what happens? What happens after that person has taken all you’ve got? All your money, all your dignity, all your happiness?” Tears flooded his eyes like a tsunami, and I covered my mouth.


“I’m so sorry.” I looked down and he let out a sharp breath.


“Nah. I’m glad you got me to talk about it. If I didn’t, I would probably have to see a therapist or something like that. And I wouldn’t make it a minute with a therapist.” He leaned back in his chair and put his hands on top of his head.


“Um. Why don’t you like to be alone?” I asked and he smiled.


“Because I got left alone in a big ass mansion when I was a toddler and got scared out of my mind. So I’ve hated to be alone ever since.” I gave him a Are you serious? look and he shook his head. “I’m just kidding. I’ve just never liked the thought of being alone.”


“Then why are you always sitting up here all the time? Alone?” My curiosity was honestly getting the best of me.


He sighed. “Because Ana. I have to pay bills on this big ass house, and I read up here sometimes. I can’t read down there because it’s too distracting. And sometimes being alone… Is more comforting than it sounds.”


“It doesn’t sound comforting, it sounds alone.” I giggled.


“No shit Sherlock.” He laughed a little and in one awkward moment, we locked eyes.


We didn’t say anything, we just looked at each other. And I was the first one to turn away quickly.


I squinted my eyes and bounced my fingers on the table. “How am I like other women?”


His exhale was deep and ragged and I saw him lean forward in the corner of my eye. I hope he explains my differences instead of my similarities.


“Anastasia, I’m just going to say this simply,” Oh here we go. Moment of truth. “You’re not a woman yet.” My mouth dropped. “I am not trying to say this as an insult, but you’re not a woman. You’re a girl. You haven’t-”


“I have hit puberty Harry. If that’s what your saying. Puberty is the first sign of a woman.” I sat up straight and he cleared his throat.


“But you’re still a virgin.” He cleared his throat again and I scowled.


“What does that have to do with anything?!” I raised my voice and he glared at me. “You don’t have to have sex with everyone to be a woman, Harry. That’s insanely ridiculous that you would think that!”


“I have the right to think like that.” He grated and I closed my eyes. “You are like other woman because you are self-”


“Don’t you dare say that I’m selfish. Your head may be so far up your ass that you can’t see it, but I am not the selfish one in this situation.” He was looking at me like he was proud.


“You’re arrogant, and you’re demanding like most women. And that doesn’t take but a minute to figure out.” He picked at something on his pants.


“So… My appearance isn’t good enough? Is that what you’re trying to say?” I ran my hands through my hair and sighed. “Yeah, I thought this would work out but it wouldn’t. I am leaving because I’ve had enough of you already.”


The look on his face made me stand up and walk towards the door, but he grabbed my hips and slammed me into the wall, making me grab for something. And I grabbed for his shoulders, afraid of what he might say.


“You can’t run away from something that you care so much about.” He muttered.


“You can’t push something that you care so much about to the point that they want to run away. And who says I care about you?” I snapped and he bit his lip, but I was afraid to look into his eyes. I’d be spellbound if I did.


“Your eyes…” I let out a breath when his hand met my jaw and I turned my neck away, trying to shimmy from his touch, but his fingers gripped my chin. “Eyes can say so much, especially feelings. Your feelings aren’t supposed to bounce off of you like they are right now Ana, and I don’t think it’s normal for a girl to act like that around me. So you do care for me in some way. I know you do.” His breath was getting closer, and it trickled down my cheek.


Wow there really is such thing as too close for comfort… Too close that I am about to have a heart attack. Too close that I just might collapse to his feet. Oh…. Boy.


“Can I ask you a question, Miss Greene?” He said in my ear, his hips finally touching mine and making me grab the wall for support. Hell, if I go down, the world goes down with me. And I ain’t going down without putting up a fight that’s for damn sure. I just gotta resist from these feels… Like right now.


I nodded my head and he moved left an inch, his hip bones chiseling against mine, making my eyes flutter.


“Why did you stay when I asked you to?” Way to kill the bird while it was trying to fly.


“Um.. I… Because I wanted to stay. Did you really think that Malina’s parents’ would let me stay with her. I wanted to stay because I had nowhere else to go.” I spat and he chuckled.


His hand landed on my thigh and I bit my tongue so I wouldn’t scream out. I’ve never been touched like this… “You’re not a very good liar, Miss Greene.” Breaths shook out of my mouth and I closed my eyes again. “The breakable virgin doll shakes too much…” He said in a voice that made me shudder.


“If you’re not going to kiss me, then please stop this.” The. Hell. DID I JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD?!


He put his hand on my chin again and I opened my eyes. “What made you think that I wasn’t going to kiss you, Miss Greene. You’ve got to lead up to that.”


Oh my God he’s going to kiss me. Wait..


“I-” I stopped myself from saying something else and he used his free hand to open his office door. To go to his bedroom? Oh no. NO.


“But we’ll save that for another time.” He whispered in my ear and pulled me to the doorway. What a tease.


“Well fine. Your loss, you tease.” I scoffed and walked towards the end of the hallway.


“Oh, and Anastasia?” He called for me and I turned towards him.


“Yes, Headmaster Styles?” I laughed at myself and he grinned wickedly.


“If you ever try to leave again without my consent,” He held up his hand. “I will tie you to a chair with chains and make you scream my name until you choose to stay.”


My God. You’ve got a strange way of making girls love you, Headmaster Styles.

Notes

Alright im_just_a_directiner... Might as well get your kidnapping gear because this chapter sucked... like a lot.
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