Her (Louis Tomlinson Punk)
Chapter 7 – Her Nightmare
I woke up when someone started banging on the bedroom door, "Flower you got an hour before we go out. So get your lazy arse up!" I heard Harry shout. Lilly shouted back that she heard him and I groaned. As I slowly opened my eyes I just realized that harry said an hour, "so you got an hour," I smirked. Lilly shook her head, "yep and I want ten more minutes," she tells me. As Lilly closed her eyes I ran my hand down her back. I rolled onto my side to look at her properly. I carefully moved her head to my arm before I kissed her forehead, "please Lou," she begged. I chuckled at how cute she is when she sleepy, "not nice is it," I smiled. Lilly smiled as I drew circles on her stomach with my finger. I wanted to go lower since I remembered what she did to me before we went to sleep. Lilly kissed my neck, "what are you up to?" she asked. She looked at me as I smiled, "just thinking that I still need to give back," I replied.
"No you don't," she smiled back. I took that smile as a yes. I started kissing her neck to the top of her chest. I ran my hand over the top of her knickers between her thighs. I rubbed her through her knickers, "remember don't be loud," I smiled. Lilly bit her lip as she smiled a little, "lay on your back babe," I tell her. Lilly rolled onto her back and I got harder at rubbing her. I started kissing her neck again as I ran one of my fingers under her knickers through her slit. I played with her clit and she held back a moan. She covered her mouth with her hand to help keep quite. I moved my arm from behind her, so I could pull her knickers down. I kissed down her chest to her belly button to move her knickers down to her feet. Lilly kicked them off and I threw them on the floor. I hovered over her as my fingers kept playing with her clit, "babe can I put a finger in again?" I wondered. Lilly nodded her head, "what about two?" I questioned. Lilly bit her bottom lip, "I'll go slowly," I promised.
"Ok," she whispered. I slowly put two fingers inside her and it was tight. I saw pain came across her face, "babe you alright?" I asked her. Lilly gave me a small nod, but I took my fingers out of her. I didn't want to hurt her right now. I kissed her nose, "I think we should try that for another time," I reassured her. Lilly smiled as I kissed her, "do you want to keep going?" I questioned on her lips. Lilly kissed me, "please. I'm half way there," she tells me. I kissed her as I started rubbing her button again. I was harder and faster after a little bit. I moved from her lips to her nipple. I sucked on it and a moan escaped her lips. I smirked at how good I was making her feel. I kept sucking her nipple as Lilly moved the pillow to cover her face. The pillow muffled her moans, but I could still hear them. I kept going until she came trying not to scream. I watched her as she came down from her high. Lilly let the pillow go when she came down. I kissed her, "that was fun, but now I think we need another shower," I smirked.
"I'll like that, but you are pushing it," I smiled. I kissed her quickly, "remember bad boy," I say. I sat up before I got out of bed. I knew Lilly was watching me, "I'll cheek were everyone is while you get into the shower. Then I'll join you," I tell her. I put my jeans on without putting on a pair of boxers on. I kissed Lilly before I left the room. As I was walking to see where the others were. All I kept thinking I would like to come up here with just me and Lilly.
I found everyone outside on the front porch smoking. As I was going to turn around and run upstairs. Harry stopped me, "where do you think your going lover boy?" he smirked. He looked me up and down, "no where," I say. I walked closer to him, "I thought that," he smiled. Fuck Harry knew what I was up to. Sorry Lilly I won't be joining you in the shower. I joined everyone outside and I stood next to Niall. I grabbed my smokes out, "your face looks great Lou," Niall smiled.
"well that's what happens when you touch Lil without Harry's permission," Zayn smirked. I gave him the rude finger, "maybe someone should have learnt to control himself," Liam says. Harry grabbed me before I could walk away, "I think that's enough with the teasing boys. Lou has learnt his lesson," Harry tells them. I smiled at Harry, "and it's a lesson for all of you," Harry added.
We talked about random things as Niall left us to go get a drink. As we were talking about school we heard a scream. Harry and I straight away recognized that it was Lilly. We ran to the front door to see Niall had her in his arms, "wow someone got some lungs," Niall laughed. Lilly turned around to hit him and I smiled at them, "don't scare me like that," she tells him. Niall hugged her to calm her down. I was alright with it. Well maybe, "I'm sorry that you scare easy," Niall smiled. As Lilly pushed him away I noticed that Harry was smiling big, "don't be like that princess," Niall added. Lilly turned around and noticed me and Harry. She shook her head at us, "thanks for saving me boys," she said sarcastically. Both Harry and I held out our smokes to her. I was surprised that Harry was offering since he hates her smoking. Niall whispered something into Lilly ear before she turned around to him. I was going to lose it until I saw Niall gave her a smoke as he smiled. I was disappointed that she chose him and so was Harry. Lilly walked passed us to the others outside. Zayn gave her his lighter, "your hair not curly anymore," Liam says.
"I brushed it," she tells him. When Niall came out I hit him with my shoulder. I just had to do it, but it didn't make me feel better. I smiled as Lilly looked at me, "Lil your man hurt me," Niall pouted as he stood next to her. Lilly wrapped her arm around him, "it ok. He just being a dick," she cooed to him. Niall put his head on her shoulder and I wasn't alright with it. Harry and I got closer to them, "Ni how can you even be next to the person that dared you to kiss Liam?" I asked. Please step away from her, "I forgive her and we made her do stuff to Perrie too," Niall tells me. Lilly smiled, "sounds like you all had fun playing truth or dare," Harry says.
"Yep. Lil gave Perrie a lap dance. Then Perrie kissed her again. We also found out that Zayn wet dream is Lil and Perrie fucking," Liam smiled. Harry raised an eyebrow at Zayn, "what I am a man," Zayn smirked. Harry shook his head, "is there anything else I should know about last night?" Harry wondered. I started to think of last night with me and Lilly and I knew I was smirking, "Perrie licked Lil chest. Um Lil wanted to know how big my dick is. Louis stripped and Zayn climbed a tree naked," Niall tells him. Lilly hit Niall in the back of the head, "ow. What? You did," Niall asked. I held back my laugher as Harry quickly looked at them, "do I have to keep Niall away from you?" Harry faked smiled. Why was Harry fake smiling? Does he really think Niall a threat? Lilly shook her head, "yes," I say. I pulled Niall away from Lilly to Harry before I got closer to her, "jealously don't look good on you Lou," Zayn laughed. I gave him the finger, "who said I wanted you?" Lilly questioned. I wrapped my arm around her and placed my head on her shoulder. I just need to be close to her right now.
Lilly didn't wrap her arm around me as she finished her smoke and put it out, "you got ten minutes until we leave Flower," Harry tells her as he ran inside. Niall and Liam followed him, "we should leave too," Zayn tells Perrie. She didn't want to move, so Zayn picked her up and carried her inside. I kissed Lilly cheek and she still didn't react. I wonder if it was because I didn't join her in the shower, "I'm sorry I didn't join you in the shower. I got trapped and couldn't get away," I apologized.
"I thought that, but that not it," she tells me. She looked at me, so I moved my face in closer to hers, "then what is it?" I wondered. Lilly put her hand on my neck. I was worried about what she was about to say, "you need to stop getting jealous, because it starting to feel like you don't trust me," she admitted.
"I do trust you, but I," I started. Lilly moved away from me before I could finish, "are you saying that you don't trust the boys with me? Their your friends Louis and we are all meant to be friends," she interrupted. I sighed trying to get rid of my anger, "I know that," I snapped. I guess that it didn't work. Lilly shook her head, "you sure," she whispered. I ran my hand through my hair trying to get my anger under control, but it wasn't working, "I don't want to get into another argument, so I'm going to walk away right now," I tell her. I knew it was the only way right now. I kissed her quickly before I walked away, "run away again," she mumbled before I went inside.
I walked straight passed Perrie and Zayn making out in the hallway, "god there are plenty of rooms to do that," I spat. I kept walking until I got to the kitchen. Liam, Niall and Harry were in there, "it's not even been ten minutes," Harry pointed out. I went over to the fridge and grabbed a beer out, "Lou what's wrong?" Niall asked. I took the cap off the beer as I shut the fridge. I threw the cap into the sink, "you guys," I say. I didn't really want to say it, but I couldn't stop, "what have we done?" Niall questioned. I drunk half of my beer in one go, "just leave me alone," I tell them.
I ran up the stairs into mine and Lilly's room. I sat on the bed looking at my beer. I hated feeling like this. I hate how upset I get when I get jealous. Eleanor did this to me. I can't really trust anyone, because she cheated on me. I found out at a bad time too. That when I found out my dad Mark wasn't my real dad and that it was Troy. I believed my whole life that he was my dad and I still do. Troy don't care about me. I drank the rest of my beer to get me out of my thoughts, "Lou?" I heard Niall questioned.
"I said I want to be alone," I reminded him. I looked at him, "and you're not going to find the answer in a beer bottle," he tells me. He grabbed the empty beer bottle off of me and looked disappointed as he learnt that it was empty. He put it down on the bedside table before sitting down next to me, "talk to me Lou. Why do you blame us? Are the jealous thoughts back?" Niall asked. I nodded my head, "you know Lilly not her. You can trust her," Niall reassured me.
"I do trust her, but now I don't trust you guys with her. I'm worried something going to happen to her. I know you guys would never do anything like that. I just have these strange thoughts now and they won't stop," I rambled. Niall put his hand on my shoulder, "I think Lou in love," Niall teased. I pushed him, "I don't believe in love," I whispered. I remembered last night when I admitted to myself that I love her, "you can lie to me, but don't lie to yourself. I've seen the way you look at her. She makes you happy," Niall pointed out.
"and how do I look at her?" I wondered. Niall just stared at me with his mouth open wide for a little bit, "like that," he joked. I shook my head, "you look at her like she most beautiful thing in this world," Niall says. That because she is, "your lucky to get her Lou. I don't want you to throw it away, because you can't admit that you fell for her. Lilly makes you happy and I can tell you make her happy. Don't let them bad thoughts consume your relationship. I won't touch Lilly. I already have someone else in mind, so you don't need to worry about me," he added. I knew he was right, "who do you have in mind?" I questioned.
"just someone I can't have, but don't you worry about it. Worry about you and Lilly," Niall tells me. I looked down, "how do I make it up to her?" I asked. I looked at Niall and he was smiling big, "tell her the truth. Tell her that you have this voice in your head that makes you a jealous prick," he tells me. I smiled back, "I will," I promised. I grabbed my phone to message Lilly:
Hey I'm sorry. I'm always saying sorry to you so it going to lose it meaning. Anyway can we talk when you get back please? Xoxo
"I see the kisses and hugs. That's so cute," Niall teased. I pushed him, "anyway I'm proud of you for that message. I read the whole thing and your right about saying sorry too much. It will lose it's meaning. So don't do stuff that you have to say sorry for," he added. I laughed a little bit, "where the dirty bastard Niall I know?" I joked. Niall laughed, "his still here, but he knows when to shut up," Niall smiled. I hugged him, "thanks tho. I don't know what I would do without you," I whispered. Niall hugged me back tight, "well since you can't go to Harry for girl problems now. You can always come to me," he tells me.
"you sure you're not going to run off to Harry?" I wondered. Niall shook his head, "I don't want Harry to kill you," he smirked. I raised an eyebrow at him, "anyway I leave you be, but no more beers," Niall says as he stood up. He picked up the empty beer bottle, "thank again Ni. I owe you," I tell him. He gave me a small nod before he left. My phone went off:
Beautiful Lilly Belle
I didn't know how to take that message. I was happy that she put the xo's on the end, but the ok what was worrying me. Maybe she having a bad time with Harry. I wonder if she told him what happened to her at her old school. I wonder what she tells him about that. I need to distract myself from my thoughts.
I ran downstairs to the lounge room. No one was in there, so I straight away went to the PlayStation and put FIFA in. I sat on the lounge with the controller, "I thought you want to be left alone," I heard Liam say. I looked at him, "if you want to play. Grab a controller," I tell him. Liam quickly got a controller, "get over you dummy spit?" he asked. I nodded my head, "now I want to distract myself with kicking your arse," I smiled.
Liam and I played FIFA until I heard a car turn off. I quickly gave Zayn the controller before I ran off. Harry stopped me as he walked into the door, "Flower taking to Pear right now and I want to talk to you," he started. I looked at him, "Flower might need some cheering up after what we talked about today. I know you're the only one that can do that. So please do," Harry tells me. I gave him a small nod, "but nothing sexual," he warned me. I started walking, "and I know what you wanted to do this morning. And if I catch you trying again. I will rip your eyes out," he added. I gave him another small nod before I kept walking. Perrie ran passed me crying, "Pear," I say as I grabbed her. She looked at me, "why you crying?" I questioned. The only person out there was Lilly, "your girlfriend is too nice. She knows the right words to say. I need my boyfriend right now," Perrie tells me. I let her go to see Zayn. I wonder what was so nice that Lilly said to Perrie to make her cry.
I stood at the front door watching Lilly put the last bits of clothes on the line. I was trying to work out how to talk to her about my fucked up jealous thoughts. I thought that I'll just come out with it, but my mind kept wondering. I don't know why I was so captivated watching her hang washing out. I've seen people do it before, but she made it look good.
When Lilly was done she came over to me and I pointed to the outdoor lounge. Lilly nodded her head as she put down the laundry basket. We walked over there and sat down at separate ends of the lounge, "I'm sorry about before," she apologized. Why was she apologizing? She did nothing wrong. I looked down, "you have nothing to be sorry about. You were right," I reassured her. When
Lilly grabbed my hand I knew I had to say something before she did, "I do trust you and the others, but I have this voice in my head telling me that it not," I confessed. Lilly ran her thumb over my busted up knuckles. I don't think she realized it's that hand, "I wish I didn't, but truth be told I have been betrayed too many time," I added. Lilly moved in closer to me, "Louis I know what I'm about to say might mean nothing to you, but I never cheat on you. I'm yours for this thing we are doing," she promised me. When that promised came out of her mouth I couldn't help, but smile a little, "when you say it I believe it, but I still go that voice in my head. I'm sorry I'm a jerk," I tell her.
"We all got our own problems and you're not a jerk," she reassured me as she smiled back a little. I pulled her close to me, so she would lay across my chest. I just need her closer to me, "you are amazing," I tell her. I kissed the top of her as she wrapped her arms around me, "no you are," she says. I laughed a little at what she said. To me she is the most amazing person in this world and I can see where Harry gets it, "only to you," I whispered. Lilly beautiful green eyes looked straight into mine, "that because you are my superhero," she smiled. I kissed her lightly as I though about why this girl thinks I'm amazing, "well your superhero was wondering if you like to stay at mine tonight? Since we are not getting back until late," he asked. I just didn't want her to go home to that bitch, "I'll like that," she replied. I kissed her again, "but what about my school stuff?" she questioned. I ran my fingers up her arm, "we don't go tomorrow," I joked. Lilly raised an eyebrow at me and I knew I had to tell the truth, "we will pick it up in the morning," I tell her. Lilly kissed me, "good, because I got to keep my studies up or Harry will stop me seeing you," she warned me.
"Well then you're never missing a day then," I say. Lilly started laughing, "you better be there too," she tells me. I hugged her tight, "for you I will," I promised. Harry came out before I could kiss her, "do you two want a cuppa?' he asked us. Lilly tried to move away from me, but I made sure she didn't move, "yeah," I replied. Harry smiled at us, "Flower this is all right," he tells me as he pointed to Lilly and I.
"But this is not," I smirked before I kissed her. Lilly shook her head, "pushing it Lou. I can still change my mind," Harry warned me. I just smiled at Harry since I knew he won't change his mind, "sorry," I apologized. Harry went back inside and I swear I saw a smile on his face, "you know you are pushing it with him," Lilly tells me. I kept smiling as I kissed her, "I thought you like being difficult," I remembered. Lilly poked my chest, "only to you," she smiled. Lilly kissed me before she got up off of me, "where are you going?" I pouted. Lilly leaned over as she put her hands on my thighs, "to get my cuppa," she replied. I kissed her nose, "and you also said we could spend time with the others today," she added. Lilly looked over my face before she lightly kissed my nose. I knew she didn't want to hurt me, but her kiss is worth all the hurt, "why is one of us always hurt?" I questioned. Lilly placed her hands on my neck as she kissed my forehead, "it only been a week, so give it time," she tells me. I grabbed her by her thighs to pull her onto my lap. She straddled my lap as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I looked over her face and it looked sad. Then I remembered what Harry told me, "is everything alright babe?" I wondered.
"Yeah," she whispered. I knew she was lying to me. I kissed her, "now who lying," I tell her. She started thinking to herself and she looked disappointed in herself, "I'll be fine," she tells me. I ignored her as I pulled her closer to me, "do you want to talk about it?" I asked. Lilly shook her head as she placed it under my chin. I rubbed her back as I thought to myself, "did you tell Harry what happened to you at school?" I questioned. Lilly slowly nodded her head, "did you tell him more then you told me?" I wondered.
"Yep," she whispered. I kissed the top of her head as I hugged her tighter. I just need to reassure her, "um he bashed me up before he um," she started. I stopped her, because I couldn't hear what comes next again, "I know what comes next," I tell her. I looked at the lake trying to calm my thoughts down. I was picturing a guy touching her and her crying for it to stop, "you're going to be safe from now on. I won't let anyone hurt you again," I promised as I looked at her. Lilly kissed me, "cuppa ready," we heard Liam say. Why do the boys have great timing? We looked at him standing at the front door, "please Lil put you clothes on and get off of Lou!" Liam shouted. Ha ha very funny Liam. Lilly walked over to him and punched him in the arm, "Lou she needs to learn how to punch," Liam laughed. I came up behind Lilly, "I know maybe we could teach her later?" I suggested. Liam nodded, "she can go up against Niall. He should be easy for her," Liam smiled.
I went into the kitchen as Lilly went into the lounge room. Liam decided to go the bathroom for something. Harry was in the kitchen, "Harry what Lilly told you about what happened to her at her old school. She doesn't want people to know about it," I tell him. Harry quickly looked at me, "you knew before me?" he questioned. I nodded my head, "I'm the one that told her to tell you," I say. Harry came in close to me, "how did you find out Lou?" he asked. I looked down, "I was playing around with her and she rolled her eyes. I snapped before I could stop myself. I pin her against a tree and she cried. I let her go, but she broke down. I made sure that I stayed with her instead of running off like I do. I knew someone has done that to her before, but I didn't think it went that far," I confessed. Harry looked at me like he wanted to kill me, "I'm going to have a talk to you later about this, but right now you will take her cup of tea in," he ordered. I picked up mine and Lilly's tea before I started walking out, "I want to hit you Lou," Harry admitted.
When I walked into the lounge room Lilly was sitting in the corner of the lounge again. Zayn and Niall were playing FIFA as Perrie watched them. I put our tea down on the shelf behind Lilly, "here you go babe," I say. I sat down next to her, "I play winner," I tell the boys. I need to take my mind off of Harry. I knew me telling him how I found out about what happened to Lilly. That he wasn't going to be happy. I think that's why I told him. I also really wanted to tell Harry about Lilly's mother, but I want her to do it.
I didn't know the boys finished the game until Zayn was handing me the controller. Niall and I started a match and I was winning, "Lil can you distracted Lou for me," Niall begged. In the corner of my eye I saw Lilly looking at me. She ran her hand up my thigh slowly, "babe if you know what good for you. You'll will stop," I warned her. I needed her to stop before I had to take her somewhere, "don't stop," Niall says. I quickly saw Lilly look at Niall, "I bet you want me to touch you," she teased as she squeezed my thigh. I knew she was reassuring me by squeezing my thigh. It was working too, because I do need to trust her, "you need to stop teasing me," Niall tells her. I noticed Niall wasn't looking at the game, so I got the ball off his player and scored a goal, "that not fair. Your girl was distracting me," Niall whined. Zayn and Perrie laughed, "I know," I smiled. I really did like how Lilly helped me then. We started playing again, "Niall," Lilly says. Niall didn't say anything as he kept playing, "Niall," she said a bit louder. He ignored her, "Niall!" Lilly yelled. And again Niall didn't do anything. I noticed Lilly grabbed a tea towel and threw it at him, "Niall I'm topless," Lilly says. Niall looked at her and I took the opportunity to score another goal, "you're a bitch," Niall spat.
"Language Ni," I tell him. Niall never liked losing and he gets really upset, "game over," Zayn says as time was up. Niall threw the controller next to him, "that not fair," Niall pouted. He crossed his arms, "I'm sorry," Lilly apologized. Niall looked at her and I kept an eye on him, "too late now," Niall tells her. Lilly hugged him and my jealous thoughts came straight back. I tried to push them away since I really did trust Lilly and the boys, "Lou made me," Lilly says. Niall started to laugh, "I did not," I tell them. I pulled her off of Niall to help with my jealous thoughts, "for lying you need to be punished," I added. Lilly started to wiggle out of my grip, "but you won," she pointed out.
"I know, but you lied," I smirked. Lilly got out of my grip and off the lounge, "get back here," I ordered. I knew I had a smile on my face. Lilly shook her head, "never," she smiled. Niall grabbed her before she could run off, "get her Lou," Niall smiled as well. I tickled her, "please stop," she giggled. Lilly dropped to the floor as Niall still had a hold of her. Perrie pushed me to save Lilly from us. They ran off to the kitchen, "Liam, Harry grab the girls!" Zayn shouted. Where they even in there? Zayn ran into the hallway, "we got you now," he says. I heard the girls runaway, "their going to go through the laundry window," Zayn tells us.
We all ran outside, but the girls were no where to be seen, "were did they go?" Harry wondered. Harry got his phone out of his pocket, "you guys look for them. I have to take this call," he tells us. We all walked away into the woods, "so what did you and Lil get up to last night?" Niall asked. I noticed Liam and Zayn far ahead of us. I smiled as I shook my head, "how was your hand this morning?" I asked back. Niall went bright red, "so you really weren't going to back to bed. You went to wank. What fantasy was in your head?" I questioned. Niall smirked at me, "don't you dare say it Niall," I warned him. He smiled big at me, "Lil and Pear," he says.
"I'm going to hit you," I tell him. I stopped myself from hitting Niall, "Lou what did I say to you today?" Niall asked. I remembered when we talked, "I know, but still don't mean you get to say shit like that," I smiled. We noticed that Zayn and Liam stopped to look around, "you know I have a funny feeling that the girls aren't out here," Zayn says. We all agreed with him, "maybe we should slowly head back. It should give the girls sometime together," Liam suggested.
"or Liam wants to talk about something," Niall pointed out. Liam leaned on a tree and got his smokes out. He gave us all one, "yeah I do," he started. We all lit up our smokes, "it's about what we're going to do after school?" he asked. I knew I wanted to be a football player, but I still didn't know how to tell the boys. I noticed everyone looking down, "I want to become an art teacher," Zayn tells us. We all smiled at him as I remembered Lilly also wanted to become a teacher, "I want to write music," Niall says.
"well you do have the talent for that. I think you and Harry be a good writing team," Zayn pointed out. Niall shook his head, "Harry wants to become a history teacher," Niall tells us. I could see Harry being a teacher, but how does Niall know that, "I want to become an engineer," Liam admitted. We were all shocked, "but you really need high grades for that shit. I hope your going to study more than partying," Niall smiled. Liam nodded his head before everyone looked at me, "I still don't know," I say.
"come on Lou. You must have some sort of idea," Niall tells me. I shrugged my shoulders, "I still don't know if I can do anything with my life after last year," I pointed out. I threw my smoke onto the floor, "well if you pull your finger out this year. I think you can do anything," Zayn reassured me. I looked up as I sighed wishing the boys would change the subject, "well Lilly got a nice rack," Liam says. I quickly looked at him, "what did you just say about her?" I snapped.
"I was just making sure that you were paying attention. I also thought that you would like to talk about her since Harry not here," Liam smirked. I gave him the rude finger, "so did you get up to anything last night?" Niall asked. I smiled as I shook my head, "like I said. I'm not telling. All I'm going to say is. That last night was fun and that my girl can drink to more in I never," I tell them. They all smiled at me, "you went skinny dipping. It was freezing last night," Niall pointed out. I nodded my head, "I know," I smiled.
When we got back I noticed Lilly sitting on a deck chair near the lake. As I walked over to her I noticed that her knees were pulled up to her chest, "there you are babe," I say. She looked at me before she looked at the other boys. She looked at me again as she gave me a little smile, "where did you go?" I wondered. I stood next to her, "we jumped out of the window and hid," she tells me. I kissed the top of her head, "careful we could end up in a bed fucking since I'm easy," she snapped. What the fuck did she just say? I was shocked that them words just came out of her mouth, "what?" I questioned. Lilly looked away from to look at the lake, "nothing," she mumbled. I sat down in front of her, "what wrong babe?" I asked her as I put my hands on her knees.
"Nothing. Just leave me alone," she tells me. I shook my head, "please since I spend too much time with you," she added. I moved in closer to her as I was trying to understand what was going on, "where is this coming from?" I wondered. She didn't say a word to me as she looked away from me. I was getting worried since we were just having fun and now this. The only two people that where here were Harry and Perrie, "did Harry say something to you again?" I questioned. Lilly shook her head, "Perrie?" I questioned further. She gave me a small nod and my mind went crazy, "what did she say to you?" I wondered.
"I don't want to talk about it," she whispered. I could see how hurt Lilly was by this, "babe whatever she said to you has hurt you," I pointed out as I pulled her face towards me. I stopped a tear before it fell, "so please tell me," I begged. I hated to see her like this from someone I trusted. I moved next to her and pulled her closer to me. I just needed her to know that she can talk to me, "please Lou. I don't want to talk about it and I want to be left alone," she tells me.
"I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what she said to you. Lilly she hurt you and I want to know why. I don't like to see you cry since I promised you that I wouldn't let anyone hurt you again," I begged. I just wanted to know what happened. Lilly hid her face into my chest, "she said that we should stop spending so much time together since I'm becoming easy," she admitted. I tensed up with anger, "she said that," I said angrily. Lilly nodded before I got up, "I'll be right back babe," I tell her. I kissed her quickly, "Louis just leave it," Lilly says. I didn't listen to her as I ran into the cabin.
I found Perrie in the lounge room talking to Zayn. She was acting like nothing happened as she cuddled up to Zayn. My anger went through the roof when she smiled at him. Why is she happy and my girl so sad? It's just not far, "I want a word with you Perrie," I tell her angrily. Perrie and Zayn looked up at me, "watch your tone Louis," Zayn warned me. I shook my head, "Perrie knows what she did wrong," I pointed out. Perrie was confused, "come on Louis tell me what my girlfriend did wrong," Zayn snapped.
"she called Lilly easy," I spat. Perrie looked down at her hands, "she also told Lilly that we spend too much time together," I added. Perrie looked at me, "well when you go from dry humping on Friday to wanking each other off last night. I do think you are spending too much time together," Perrie sneered. Harry walked in, "what happened last night?" Harry questioned. I looked at him, "him and Lil went to his spot and got drunk. As they were drunk they watched porn and when they got horny. They decided to play with each other," Perrie tells him.
"is this true?" Harry asked me. I nodded my head before Harry walked out. I knew he was mad at us for not telling him this morning, "why do you have to be a little bitch Perrie?" I snapped. Zayn stood up, "Lou," Zayn warned me. I ignored him, "is it because she doesn't want to be like you. Not everyone believes in love Perrie. Maybe you should just accept it. Lilly is her own person and still finding her way. So what that I let her touch me last night. It has nothing to do with you. Lilly trusted you tell her these things since you're the only girl that she knows. And you have a go at her for it," I started.
"shut up Lou," Zayn interrupted. I glared at him, "I'm only getting started. I want her to feel bad for what she said. I want her to feel what Lilly feeling right now," I spat. Zayn pushed me, "I think that's enough Lou!" Zayn shouted. I pushed him, "I don't think it is. That girl out there is in tears, because your girlfriend called her easy. She not the easy one. I am," I tell him. Zayn pushed me again, but I grabbed his hands. He starched my chest, "wow that was a bitch move. Just like your girlfriend," I spat.
"at least I get to call her my girlfriend," Zayn smirked. I pushed him away and Zayn went to attack me again. I managed to push his hands away, but one of them hit my nose. It hurt like a bitch and it started bleeding a little bit, "that's enough you two!" Liam yelled. We looked at him and he was pissed, "Louis right now you need to be out there with Lilly and Harry," he tells me. I nodded my head, "and Zayn I know you were defending Perrie, but she in the wrong here. Louis right," Liam added. Liam looked at me to leave so I did.
When I got outside Harry was hugging Lilly away from where I left her. I moved in closer to them as Harry rubbed her back, "why does Louis hate people rolling their eyes at him?" Lilly asked Harry. He kissed the top of her head, "because my mother and my teachers used to do it all the time since they never believed me. So I started to hate it and then it became a trigger for my anger," I confessed. They looked at me and Lilly looked over me. I knew she was looking at the marks that Zayn gave me, "I'm guessing the three of us need to talk," I say. Harry nodded his head, "were do you want to start?" I asked. Harry points over to the long deck chairs as he pulled Lilly towards them.
We all sat down on the same one as Lilly and Harry sat at the top. I sat by Lilly's legs before I put my hand on her knee, "um did Perrie really call you easy?" Harry questioned. Yes, she did Harry, "she said I'm becoming easy," Lilly replied. I drew circles on Lilly's knee trying to stop my mind going dark, "where were you two last night?" Harry asked us. Lilly grabbed my hand, "we were at my spot," I tell him. Harry nodded his head, "did you both get drunk last night?" Harry questioned. We both nodded our heads, "is that why you two played with each other?" he wondered. I squeezed Lilly hand trying to get what just happened out of my mind. Lilly was telling Harry what happened last night, but I couldn't pay attention. I kept questioning myself if I was the one that pushed it last night. My mind was telling me that I always push her. I'm the one that went into the bathroom yesterday to see her naked. I'm the one that always kissing and touching her. I'm the one that's going to hurt her, "maybe we should um end this," I mumbled. I pulled my hand away from Lilly, "what?" Lilly whispered. I looked at her and her eyes were so sad and scared, "I'm done. This thing were doing creating too many problems for all of us. I just got into a fight with Zayn, because of what we do," I tell her before I got up.
"No," Lilly says. Why is she making this harder than it should be? I looked around everywhere part from her, "I'm going to go home too," I tell them. I don't even think I would see anyone again. I saw Lilly shook her head as she started crying again. I really do hate to see her like this and I know I'm the one that's doing it, "Louis maybe you need to think about this," Harry tells me. I looked at the floor trying my hardiest to think about this. I don't want to think anymore, "I know you got into a fight with Zayn, because Perrie called Flower easy. But I'm not happy about that too. I know there been a lot of fighting this weekend between all of us, but we also had fun this weekend," Harry started.
"I'm done with everything," I interrupted. I was really done with everything and I know I was going to do something stupid. Lilly stood in front of me and I had to look away, "Louis will you look at me," she begged. I walked away as I felt tears in my eyes, "Louis please!" she yelled. I stopped and turned my face slight to her, "it alright Lilly Belle your secrets are safe with me," I promised. I could feel my tears run down my face, "please don't," Lilly cried. Harry stood up, "Louis I don't really care about what you and Flower are doing. All I care about is the both of you being happy and safe," Harry admitted. I looked down at the floor as I was trying to take Harry words in, "and right now your both upset and I know you really don't want to do this. You promised Lilly that you would protect her, so no one would hurt her," Harry added. I knew his words then had double meaning about suicide. I ran my hand over my face to wipe away my tears, "I have to, because I'm the one hurting her," I tell him before I started running.
When I got into the cabin Niall and Liam looked at me. They looked upset, "just don't right now," I warned them. Niall looked down, "I hope you know what your doing," he whispered. I ran up the stairs all the way to the room I shared with Lilly. Everywhere I looked in this room reminded me of her. I quickly wiped my face with my top to get rid of the blood and tears. I sat on the bed looking at the floor as I tried to get my own thoughts back. All I could think about was her and the heartbroken face. Why did she have that face? I heard the door shut, so I looked up to see it was Lilly. I knew it would be her, "Lilly please don't," I say. Lilly walked straight over to me and kissed me. I was shocked, "if this is over I want what I promised you last night," she reminded me. I knew she was talking about her virginity, "Lilly I can't," I whispered. She kissed me again, "I promised you that you can take my virginity. I keep my promises," she tells me. Lilly kissed me again, "Lilly I won't," I say into her mouth. I pushed her back a little, so she would stop kissing me. I was more afraid to give in to her promise. I grabbed her hands as she knelt down in front of me, "is this all worth it?" I wondered. Lilly kissed my busted knuckles, "I really don't know, but all I know I don't want to lose you," she admitted.
"I really don't want to lose you too," I smiled a little. I pulled her to between my legs as I wrapped my arms around her. I put my chin on the top of her head after I hugged her tight. I can't believe that Lilly's words about not wanting to lose me. Can get rid of all the bad thoughts in my head, "what are we going to do now?" she asked. I kissed the top of her head, "well if I leave you now. We got to have sex, so I'm going to stay with you," I pointed out. I pulled her up, so she would sit on one of my legs. I just need her closer to me, "what are we going to do about Zayn and Perrie?" I questioned.
"I might have overreacted," she admitted. I laid down on the bed as I brought Lilly with me. I kept my arms around her tight as I started thinking. I was thinking about her mother when I first met her, "I remember your mother calling you a slut on the first day I met you and you didn't say anything to her. Then today when Perrie said that your becoming easy you snapped, because I know that your mother has said it to you," I started. I ran my hand up her back as I tried think about what to say next, "you always kept your mouth shut with her, but you never thought Perrie would say it too," I finished. I kissed the top of her head, "so I should say sorry to Perrie?" I questioned. I can't believe Lilly thinks this is all her fault. I pulled her legs across me, "I think you need to talk to Perrie about it. Does she know what happened to you?" I wondered. Lilly shook her head, "do you feel like you could tell her what happened? I be with you if you want," I asked. Lilly hid her face into my chest, "I know it hard thing for you to talk about and I know you told Harry today. You also told me the rest as well. Do you want me to talk to her?" I questioned. Lilly didn't move or say anything, "babe?" I pushed. She looked at me, "um I want you there just in case," she tells me. I kissed her forehead, "but right now can we stay here for a little bit?" she asked. I nodded my head before I kissed her, "I never thought this weekend turn out like this," I say.
"Why are we all fighting with each other?" she questioned. I kissed her again, "I really don't know," I sighed. Because we keep secrets. There was a knock on the door and I had a funny feeling that it was Harry, "come in," I say. Harry walked in and Niall close behind him, "hey," they both say. I moved Lilly and me to the top of the bed, so Harry and Niall could sit at the other end. I wrapped my arms around her again, "you two alright now?" Harry asked. We both nodded our heads and Harry smiled a little. Niall rubbed the back of his neck, "um Liam and I heard when you were shouting at Harry. You don't have to tell me, but did something happen to you?" Niall wondered. So they know something happened to Lilly. She looked at me, "it up to you if you want to tell him," I reassured her. Lilly quickly looked at Harry as he gave her an encouraging smile, "yes something happened to me back at my old school," she started. I could hear how vulnerable she was, so I pulled her closer to me, "there was a guy at my school. He beat the shit out of me, so I couldn't move. Then he started touching me and saying that I liked it since I was a slut, but that how far he got," she explained. She took in a shaky breath, "I'm proud of you," I whispered in her ear. I kissed the side of her before Niall placed his hand on her knee. I didn't have problem with him touching her, "don't bother asking where he is. Flower don't know," Harry tells Niall.
"That bastard is still out there?" Niall asked in shock. Lilly nodded her head, "his father a really rich man, so he paid the school to keep it quiet," she informs us. Niall shook his head in disbelief, "but what about you? Couldn't you say anything?" Niall questioned. Lilly shook her head and I could tell that Niall was getting pissed about this. Truth be told I didn't know this much, "the principal made this bullshit story about him not being there," she says.
"What about your parents?" Niall wondered. Lilly grabbed my hand and I knew she didn't want to talk anymore, "the principal told them his bullshit story and that I got hit to hard. I did try to tell them, but he was nowhere to found," she confessed. Niall shook his head for what felt like the millionth time, "that's bullshit. The prick should be six feet under," Niall spat. Harry put his hand on Niall's shoulder, "we all want him in the ground," Harry tells him. I couldn't agree more with Harry. Liam walked into the room, "um Zayn and Perrie like to see you," he tells Lilly. Lilly nodded her head before Liam waved them in. I pulled Lilly between my legs and entwines our fingers together.
When Zayn and Perrie came into room. It looked like Perrie has been crying when she has no right too. Zayn being the good boyfriend had his arm around her. Niall and Harry moved next to me and Lilly as Liam sat down next to Niall's feet. Perrie and Zayn just stood there, "I don't know where to start," Perrie mumbled. Lilly moved her legs to underneath her, so I crossed mine to keep her safe. Lilly pointed to the bed for them to sit down. Zayn watched me as they sat down, "I should start. I'm sorry for losing my temper, but you had no right calling Lilly easy," I tell them. Perrie nodded her head, "it hit a nerve with her since something really bad happen to her," Niall says. Perrie and Zayn looked at him, "and what was that?" Zayn wondered. I kissed the side of Lilly's head, "one of us can tell them if you don't want to tell them. I know it hard for you and I know you don't want to keep hearing it," I tell her. Lilly nodded, "ok. Fingers in ears Flower," Harry tells me. Lilly put her fingers in her ears as she closed her eyes. I wrapped my arms around her tight to bring her closer to me.
After Harry explained what happened to Lilly and quickly answered their questions. I pulled Lilly's fingers out of her ears, "all done babe," I tell her. Lilly kept her eyes closed as she grabbed my hands, "open your eyes," I whispered in her ear. Lilly opened her eyes slowly and looked at Perrie. Lilly quickly looked at me and I straight away kissed her forehead, "it's alright," I reassured her. She looked back at Perrie, "Lil I didn't know. I'm so sorry," she apologized. Lilly looked down, "I'm alright if no one ever talks about it," she lied. She gave them a fake smile, "babe I know sometimes that it not. You don't have to lie to us," I tell her. Lilly looked at everyone sad faces, so I pulled her closer to me. If I could I would hide her from everyone, "can we talk about something else please?" Lilly asked.
"What do you want to talk about?" Niall wondered. I knew Niall was going to be the one to make Lilly happy. He hates when people are sad. Lilly held her arms open and Perrie came over. Lilly hugged her tight, "I'm sorry for snapping like that," Lilly apologized to her. The others started talking about something, but I was focused on the girls, "you have nothing to be sorry about. I really shouldn't have said what I said," Perrie tells her. Lilly kissed her cheek, "let's forget about it since I want my Perrie back," Lilly smiled. Perrie smiled back, "I like that," she says. Perrie kissed Lilly cheek before going back over to Zayn. I kissed the top of Lilly's head, "I am really proud of you," I whispered. I kissed her neck, "how much I like to stay in bed all day. We can't we all got to go to aunt Fey's," Zayn tells us. Liam, Niall and Harry got off the bed, but Zayn and Perrie stayed, "and I have dinner with dad," Harry says.
When they left the room I looked at Zayn and Perrie, "Lil dose your mum," Zayn started. Lilly stopped him from continuing, "yes she does," she tells him. Zayn looks down, "I think you need to think about living on your own," Zayn says. Why do you think I spend so much time with her Zayn? I just don't do it for fun. Well maybe sometimes, "I know you said your fine, but I don't think you are. Perrie was just watching out for you and you snapped. I'm really worried about you. I'm scared that everything going to become too much and you're going to do something stupid," Zayn confessed. I kissed the top of Lilly's head as the same thought came into my mind, "I can't leave," she tells him. Zayn shook his head, "you can. You're nearly eighteen," he says. I shake my head again as Harry comes in, "well I'm going now," he tells us.
When Lilly, Zayn and Perrie said goodbye to Harry. I went with him to his car after he asked me. I put his bag on his back seat before Harry punched in the thigh. I just looked at him, "you know what's that for," he says. I knew it was because I snapped at Lilly on her first day, "feel better?" I asked. Harry smiled as he nodded his head, "now I need you look after Lilly when I'm gone. I'm don't think she going to be alright tonight with Zayn uncle. So make sure she smiles again," Harry tells me. I gave him a small nod, "that doesn't mean anything sexual," he added. I nodded my head again, "I can't believe she the one that pushes it," Harry whispered.
"I'm just a push over when it comes to her," I smiled. Harry laughed a little bit, "we both are," he says. Harry hugged me, "Lou when you said you were done. Did you mean that," he started. I nodded my head to stop him, "I don't know why I went so dark, but it just felt like I was the cause of everything. It also felt like I was hurting Lilly more," I admitted. Harry looked at me, "you hurt her by trying to leave. I have never seen her like that before and I don't want to see it again," he tells me. I'm so glad that he doesn't know about Friday night, "you know I can't promise that. You know I run when things get too much," I reminded him. Harry just smiled at me, "I think you won't run this time," he says.
After Harry left I grabbed my bag and Lilly's and my clothes from downstairs. I put them in the lounge room before I ran up to the room. Lilly was packing her bag, so I did the same next to her, "did you get the clothes out of the bathroom down stairs and also your bag?" she asked me. I nodded my head, "there in my bag and my bag in the lounge room," I say. Lilly sat on the edge of the bed, "I really hate today," she admitted. I turned around to look at her, "can I ask you something?" I wondered. Lilly nodded her head, "why can't you leave you mother?" I asked. Lilly shook her head, "just something stupid I did," she tells me. I quickly came over to her as my mind was running wild. Why would she try something like that, "how long ago you tried?" I questioned. I need to know Lilly. She looked away from me, "over a year ago," she mumbled. I moved her face, so she would look at me, "that the only time?" I wondered as Lilly looked down.
"I have thought about it, but I haven't tried again," she admitted. I kissed her to let my mind calm down, "so Zayn has a right to be worried," I whispered to myself. Lilly placed her hand on the side of my face, "I'm going to be alright now," she reassured me. She must have heard me if she reassuring me. I kissed her as I pushed her down onto the bed. I hovered over her, "can we stay here?" I asked. Lilly smiled at me and it made me happy, "why?" she wondered. I kissed her again, "because I want too," I smiled. When I kissed her again I stayed against her lips, "guys you... for fuck sake you two. Close the fucken door," Zayn tells us. Lilly and I started laughing at him, "Zayn we just kissing," Lilly says. I helped Lilly back up, "yeah I know, but what if things got more heated?" Zayn questioned.
"We would have closed the door and locked it," I smirked. Zayn just smiled at me, "anyway we have to leave, so are you all packed?" Zayn asked us. We both nodded our heads, "ok cool. Louis get dressed. We don't want to excite aunt Fey," Zayn tells me. He left me and Lilly, so I went over to my bags. I undid my jeans, "aw I was hoping you stay like that," Lilly says. When I looked at her she was pouting and fuck it was hot. I quickly walked over to her, so I could kiss her, "don't forget you staying at mine tonight," I smiled. I walked back over to my bag before I kissed her again. I got out a clean pair of boxers from my bag. As I was taking my jeans off I knew Lilly was watching me, "babe don't get any ideas," I tell her. I put my boxers on, "I was thinking about nothing," Lilly says. I laughed at her lie, "sure you weren't hunny," I smiled.
"not everything about sex," she tells me. I turned around to look at her, "good to hear," I say. I walked over to her, "I was getting worried that you were just using me for my body," I joked. I kissed her, "who said I wasn't," she smirked. I kissed her again, "I wish you could use my body right now, but we got to go aunt Fey's," I admitted. I pouted since I really did wish she could. Lilly kissed me to stop me pouting, "why do we got to go there?" Lilly wondered. I went back over to my bag, "every time we come up here we go to dinner at house before we go home," I explained. I grabbed out my clothes to wear. I put on my black skinny jeans and a white V-neck t-shirt. Lilly came up next to me to put her flip-flops away and grabbed out a pair of socks. I sat on the bed with Lilly as we put our shoes and socks on.
After we were done I went over to our bags. I got a grey jumper out for Lilly as I got my black hoddie out for me, "it getting a bit cold outside," I pointed out. Lilly put her jumper on after I gave it to her, "aren't you being nice," she smiled. I put my hoddie on before I grabbed both mine and Lilly's bag, "ready?" I questioned. Lilly nodded her head as she tried to get her bag off of me. I didn't let her, "no," I tell her. Lilly shook her head as we walked out of the room.
I put our bags near the front door with the rest of them. When I walked into the lounge room Lilly had our clothes in her arms, "hand them over," I tell her. She handed them over to me, "what do you want?" she questioned. I just smiled at her since I couldn't tell her that it was the boyfriend thing, "nothing," I say. She raised an eyebrow at me and I knew she knew that I was lying, "sure," she says slowly like she didn't believe me.
I went to put our clothes in my bag, "Lou can I talk to you for a moment?" Perrie asked. I looked at her as I stuffed the clothes in my bag, "I'm sorry about calling Lilly easy. I was just worried that she might get scared and runaway. I don't want you to lose her over lust," she tells me. I nodded my head, "I don't want to either and I get where you come from too. I just wish you told her better. Now I'm worried about her," I admitted. I stood up after I got the clothes into the bag, "if it's anything Lou. She is a strong girl and she has you," Perrie smiled. I hugged her, "sorry about before. I should have calm down before I spoke," I apologized. Perrie kissed my cheek, "at least I know that you'll protect her," she reassured me.
When Perrie and I walked into the lounge room. We saw Zayn and Lilly hugging and laughing, "hi," Perrie says. I will admit that my jealous thoughts were trying to get through, but I pushed them aside. They looked at us, "wrong girlfriend," I tell Zayn. Lilly walked straight over to me as Perrie went over to Zayn. Lilly wrapped her arms around me, "I have blonde hair," Perrie points out to Zayn. Perrie put her arm around him, "come on," Niall says as he walked in. we all looked at him, "I hate being surrounded by couples," he added. We laughed a little, "were your boyfriend?" Lilly asked him. Niall looked at Lilly and I, "well my real boyfriend in your arms. My secret boyfriend is somewhere," Niall smirked. Niall came over to us and wrapped his arms around us both. I wrapped my arms around him and Lilly, "you always be mine Ni," I say. Lilly looked at me and I swear I saw jealousy in her eyes, "sorry babe you have to share me," I smiled. I kissed her to reassure her, "Niall you cheating on me with Louis," Liam pouted as he walked in. Niall smiled at him, "you know that your my mistress," Niall laughed. Liam walked over to Zayn and Perrie, "can I have a hug?" Liam asked. Perrie and Zayn give Liam a hug, "so are we all packed?" Zayn asked. We all nodded, "well then load your cars up," he added.
After we all put our bags in out cars we decided to have a smoke near the lake. We just stood near the lake smoking, "it been an interesting weekend," Niall says. We all agreed with him, but I kept thinking about what me and Lilly did. Also kept thinking about the fights, "now we got to focus on our last year of school," Perrie tells us. I looked down wondering how I was going to pass this school year, "but it going to be filled with fun and adventures. It going to be a year we won't forget," Perrie added. We all smiled as I wrapped my arm around Lilly. She did the same to me as we all were in thought. All I knew that I had a chance for a good life if this girl next to me stays. I kissed the top of her head as I said I love you in my head, "well we better go," Zayn tells us.
When we got to the cars Lilly was looking at this lake, "it always hard to leave this place and go back to normal life," I say. I wish we could stay here for a little bit longer with everyone. I really wanted to redo this weekend, but not change the best bits, "sometimes I wish I could stay here forever and forget about my life back home," I admitted. Lilly nodded her head as she kissed me, "it like nothing can touch you here," Lilly tell me. I knew she was talking about her mother and I wish we could stay here. I smiled as I kissed her just to show her that I care. We got into my car and she was still staring at the lake.
As we were driving to Aunt Fey's Lilly was worrying me. She was just looking at the window as the world went past, "is everything alright babe?" I wondered. Lilly looked at me and she looked tired, "yeah," she lied. I grabbed her hand, "you lying again," I pointed out. Lilly looked away from me to back out of the window, "I'll be fine," she mumbled. I ran my thumb over her knuckles trying to comfort her, "is today getting to you?" I questioned. A lot has happened to her today that shouldn't. Lilly didn't say anything, so I kissed the back of hand, "or is this about going home to your mother after what Zayn told you?" I added. Lilly looked at me and I knew I was right, "it about my mother," she sighed. I kissed her hand again, "she not going to touch you again," I reassured her. Lilly smiled at me a little I thought of a great idea, "how about I met her tomorrow? We could say that were working on a project for school, which is not a lie. It also means I don't have to jump through your window too," I wondered. Lilly didn't say anything, "babe?" I questioned. I heard her swallow hard in the silence of the car, "can you not say anything about what you know?" she asked me.
"Yeah," I say. Lilly looked at me closely as I think if I could keep my mouth shut, "you sure?" she wondered. I nodded my head, "I'll keep it shut for you," I promised. I knew I had to keep my mouth shut for her. Lilly squeezed my hand, "only because I don't want you to get in trouble, because of me. However, if she says or tries to hit you again. I will not hold back," I tell her. Lilly kissed my hand, "oh she won't when your there," she says. I squeezed Lilly hand as I pulled up to aunt Fey's. I looked at her, "you are a strong girl Lilly Belle. Sometimes I think you're stronger than me," I admitted. I really did think this. If I was in her shoes I think I would explode. I leant over to kiss her, "that only because of you my superhero," she whispered on my lips. I smiled as I kissed her again. I wondered what she said was true, because I hope it was.
After we got out of the car Lilly looked at aunt Fey's house. Aunt Fey's house was bigger than mine and over the top for three people, "Lou!" I heard aunt Fey shout. She was walking out of the house to us. She hugged me, "aunt Fey," I say. Aunt Fey hugged Lilly next, "Lilly," she says. I laughed quietly at the face Lilly was pulling. I knew Lilly still didn't know what to do with people touching her, "where are the others?" aunt fey asked as she stepped back from Lilly. Lilly looked at me to tell her, "there right behind us," I replied. Aunt Fey smiled at us, "well come on in," she tells us. I grabbed Lilly hand to reassure her that I was going to be right next to her.
When we got out the backyard uncle Omar and Veronica were standing next to the barbecue. We stopped before getting any closer to them just in case they were talking about something. The looked us before waving us over, "it be alright," I whispered to Lilly. We slowly walked over to them "now dad this is Lilly. Louis girlfriend," Veronica tells uncle Omar. Lilly smiled a little and I hoped that it was, because Veronica called her my girlfriend, "I'm uncle Omar," he introduced himself to Lilly as he held out his hand. Lilly shook his hand, "nice to meet you," she says. Uncle Omar laughed, "she still got her innocents. That will be gone soon," he smiled. I wrapped my arm around Lilly before I yelled at him, "I don't think so," I tell him. I shook his hand, "but it is good to see you tied down Lou," uncle Omar says. Lilly wrapped her arm around me and grabbed the back of my hoddie. I think she was scared of uncle Omar, "want a beer?" uncle Omar offered. Lilly and I both shook our heads, "no thanks," Lilly tells him. I kissed the side of her head trying to calm her down, "so how did you get this beautiful lady?" uncle Omar asked.
"We go to school together and she is Harry childhood friend," I replied. Uncle Omar smiled at us, "hey," we heard Liam say. I turned around to see Niall and Liam. I wanted to run up to them to thank them, "oh no trouble here," Veronica smiled. Liam and Niall come over to us, "which one of us is trouble?" Niall asked. Oh god Niall's trying to flirt with Veronica again. Veronica points to Niall, "I'll take that as a complement," Niall smirked. I leant in closer to Lilly, "Niall wants to get into Veronica pants," I whispered in her ear. Lilly giggled, "but she keeps telling him no," I added. Lilly bit her lip to stop her laughing, "she reminds me of Zayn. Does Niall not see that?" she whispered in my ear. I couldn't contain my laugh when Lilly told me that. I never realized until she said it, "what so funny?" uncle Omar asked. Everyone was looking at me, but Lilly was looking at me to say something, "just something about Zayn," I lied.
"what about me?" I heard Zayn asked. Zayn and Perrie came over to us out of nowhere, "just about you're driving," I lied again. Zayn started laughing, "says the one that fell off his bike," Liam pointed out. Aunt Fey joins us, "how did you fall off your bike sweetie?" she asked me. Lilly wrapped both arms around and I did the same to her. I think she was reassuring me for once, "just being an idiot," I tell them. I kissed the top of her head, "is that how you broke your nose?" Veronica questioned. I shook my head, "Harry did that," Niall tells them. Aunt Fey and Veronica looked shocked as I tried to think about what I should tell them, "it was an accident," Perrie lied. Aunt Fey and veronica smiled, "playing around I'm guessing," aunt Fey says. I nodded, "what have I said about you boys playing around like that? Someone will get hurt," aunt Fey reminded them. Niall smiled, "we know," he says.
I stayed with the boys and uncle Omar around the barbecue. The girls went to sit around the table and I thought it would be nice for them. Niall went over there to see what going on. He sat down next to Veronica, "so Lou have you and Lilly fucked yet?" uncle Omar asked. When uncle Omar was alone with us boys he seemed to try to act like us, "nope and we are a long way from that," I tell him. I didn't want to talk about me and Lilly sex life with him, "why not? She is hot," uncle Omar wondered. Liam and Zayn quickly looked at me, "girls are mean," Niall says as he came back. He wrapped his arms around me, "what did they do this time?" Liam asked.
"Veronica told me that she was going to chop my dick off. I'm attached to that," he replied. We all laughed at him, "all I wanted to know what Lil got done at the salon," Niall pouted. He looked at me, "do you know Lou?" he wondered. I shook my head quickly, "oh yes he does," Liam smirked. I shook my head again, "all I can say is we can't see it," Zayn pointed out. I glared at him, "well dinner is ready," uncle Omar says.
After Perrie and aunt Fey came to grabbed the food. I went over to the table to see Veronica and Lilly talking, "hey babe," I say as I kissed the top of her head. I sat down next to her, "so Niall asked me what you got done at the salon," I tell her. Lilly looked at me, "and what did you tell him?" she asked. I just smiled at her to hid the fact that I think the boys worked it out, "nothing," I say. Lilly kissed my cheek to probably say thank you. Everyone sat down and Niall sat down next to veronica across from me and Lilly. Liam sat down next to Niall while Perrie and Zayn sat down next to Lilly. At the top of the table was uncle Omar and aunt Fey sat next to him.
After Liam and Niall told uncle Omar what they were doing at school. He turned to Lilly, "so you take art with Zayn?" uncle Omar asked her. Lilly nodded her head, "that subject get you nowhere. I keep telling Zayn that. You need a strong lesson like Liam and his engineering. This art fancy crap won't get you anywhere in life," he strictly says. I grabbed Lilly hand to reassure her that I was there, "actually the arts in schools help people express their emotions. Which makes them focus more on other lessons and in life," she started. I knew everyone was looking between Lilly and uncle Omar since he was glaring at her. It took all my will power not to say anything to him, "some people can't express their emotions with talking. So they grab a pencil or a paint brush," she tells him.
"But what can a stupid picture tell you?" uncle Omar questioned. I squeezed Lilly hand to calm her down, "a picture speaks a thousand words," she replied. I knew this wasn't my Lilly. I knew she wouldn't talk to an adult like this. Uncle Omar looked at me before he looked at Zayn. Was he telling me to shut her up? He has another thing coming, "but can it put a roof over your head and food on the table?" uncle Omar asked. Lilly took a deep breath and I knew she couldn't stop, "it can, but you're saying that we shouldn't take art at school. I don't want to become an artist when I leave school. I want to become a teacher," she tells him. I squeezed her hand trying to calm her down again, "what do you want to do after school Zayn?" uncle Omar asked him. Zayn looks down, "an art teacher," he mumbled. Uncle Omar sighed, "it not like you're going to pass," I heard uncle Omar whisper.
"Don't," I whispered to Lilly. I knew she wanted to say something, but it's best we leave it where it is. She looked at me and I gave her a small smile to reassure her, "anyway. Niall how that football team you go for?" uncle Omar asked him to change the subject. Niall and uncle Omar talked about football, however Niall looked like he didn't want to. Perrie leaned into Lilly and whispered something to her. Lilly gave her a small smiled as Niall kept talking to uncle Omar, "so you think they will win the cup this year?" uncle Omar asked him. Lilly got her phone out and read the message. She then looked at Liam as he mouthed 'girl power'. The message must have been from him, but what did he send?
When dinner was over I took Lilly to a corner in the backyard. I just need her away from uncle Omar, "is everything alright with you today? You keep fighting," I wondered. I got my smokes out and lit one up. I gave it to Lilly, "I don't know," she admitted. She took a big drag of her smoke, "but I worked out why Zayn hates what my mother does," she added. I lit up my own smoke, "he only gets it when he sees his uncle," I tell her. I wrapped my arm around her after I put my smokes away, "I can't wait until I get you home," I say. I kissed the top of Lilly head, "why?" she questioned.
"So you can release some of this anger on me," I smiled at her. Lilly raised her eyebrows at me, "I don't have an anger problem today," she snapped. I knew she had a lot of anger built up and I was wondering why she was letting it out now. I kissed the top of her head again to calm her down, "it ok. Lot has happened today," I reassured her. She hid her face into my chest, "can we just go, before I lose it again?" she mumbled into my chest. I kissed the top of her head for the third time, "just got to get threw cake and we can go," I tell her. I noticed everyone coming over to us, so had a look. Everyone got a smoke out, "um thanks Lil," Zayn tells her.
"I'm sorry if I got you into trouble," Lilly apologized. Lilly hugged him tight and I was really alright with it. Zayn smiled at her, "it won't be nothing I haven't heard before," he tells her. Lilly smiled as she kissed his cheek. I quickly pulled her to me, "hey kisses are only for me and sometimes Harry and Perrie," I tell him. Lilly laughed a little bit at me, "hang on where is our kisses?" Niall questioned. I let Lilly go, so she could give the others a kiss. I watched her give Niall, Liam and Perrie a kiss. I will admit that I did have the jealous thoughts, but I pushed them aside. Lilly came up to me and kissed me on my lips, "you alright?" she whispered on my lips. I nodded my head as I kissed her, "I'm alright," I tell her. Lilly wrapped her arm around me after she stood next to me. I wrapped my arm around her too. I loved how she asked if I was alright, "we can nearly get out of here," Zayn says. Veronica joins us, "congratulations Lilly for standing up to my dad," she says.
"Sorry," Lilly apologized as she looked down. I rubbed her back, "don't be. I've been trying to tell him that. I see you have a passion for the arts," Veronica tells her. Veronica smiled at Lilly as she looked at her, "art helped me," Lilly admitted. I kissed the side of the head as I remembered earlier today. When she told me that she tried to kill herself, "Zayn, Veronica!" uncle Omar yelled. Zayn puts his smoke out in a tin before him and Veronica left.
"Maybe I should have kept my mouth shut," Lilly sighed. Lilly leaned into me, "no someone had to put him into place. I was getting sick of the way he talked to Zayn, because Zayn don't want to be like him," Perrie confessed. We all agreed with her, "I just wished it was me and not you," she added. I knew it should have been Perrie and I knew I should have stuck up for Lilly, "like I said before you got some balls girl," Liam smiled. I looked at Liam, "she doesn't have any balls," I joked. I knew I had to lighten the mode as Zayn got yelled at, "girls have balls. They right here," Perrie says as she points to her boobs.
"There a bit soft and big," Lilly says. I quickly looked at her boobs before I looked at her face, "oh I know," I smirked. Lilly shook her head slowly at me, "and there all mine," I added. I wanted to grab them, but decided against it. Liam and Niall pout, "maybe we should get girlfriends," Niall says. Liam smiled as he looked at Lilly, "I actually thought about asking a girl out," Liam admitted to Niall. Shock goes over Niall, "so you're finally going to ask Sophia out," Niall says. Liam nodded, "about fucken time mate. I swear you getting blue balls from her," Niall smiled. Lilly looked at me, "blue balls?" she questioned. I smiled at how serious she was, "it were a man get so sexual aroused but can't release. It hurts like a bitch," I explained. Lilly gave me a small nod, "have I ever done it to you?" she wondered. I bit my bottom lip as I was thinking, "um sometimes you get me near there, but you haven't given me blue balls," I tell her. I kissed her, "like Friday night when we were watching the movie and you decided to tease me. I ran off before I got blue balls," I added. Lilly smiled as she kissed me. We went back to paying attention to the others, "Lil going to talk to her for me," Liam says. Niall and Perrie looked at her, "are you?" Perrie questioned. Lilly nodded her head, "but I can't promise anything," she tells them. They smiled at her, "at least it a start," Liam smiled.
Once we finished our smokes we went back to the table, "so what about you Niall? Do you have any girl on your mind?" Lilly asked him. Niall shook his head as we sat down in our pervious spots, "don't mean I won't find one," Niall tells her. It felt like Niall was reassuring her and I don't know why he was. I also didn't know why he was lying too. He told me today that he was interested in someone, "what about May? You said she was a good fuck," Liam smiled. Niall smiled back at him, "nah she got a boyfriend now and I only fucked her once," he says. Lilly looked at Perrie, "is he talking about May in English?" she asked her. Perrie nodded her head, "Niall and her fucked in an empty classroom. He went on about it for weeks," Perrie tells her. Lilly looked at Niall, "she let me do anything to her. She loved the whole slave and master thing," Niall smirked. Lilly raised her eyebrow at him, "I know you like the whole slave and master thing too," he added. Lilly hit me, "I didn't say anything to them," I smiled. I couldn't help but smile at the fact that she embarrassed. She hit me again, "kinky. You know I liked to be spanked," I smirked. Lilly crossed her arms, "we know because Louis is teaching you. So your master and slave thing is more like teacher and student," Liam tells her. Lilly look straight at Liam like she was staring into his soul, "Lilly Belle been in control before," I tell them. They all looked surprised, "wow. Just wow. Louis you're a lucky bastard," Niall tells me.
"what are we talking about?" Zayn asked as he came outside. He sat down next to Perrie, "just Lil being in control," Liam tells him. Zayn looked confused at Lilly, "in control of what?" Zayn questioned. I noticed Lilly's cheeks went bright red and I wish they would drop the topic now. I know I started it, but now we're making Lilly uncomfortable, "in the bedroom," Niall replied. Zayn looked shocked, "wow," he says. Lilly shook her head and I was waiting for her to snap, "is that all you guys can say?" she smiled. I relaxed when I saw her smile. I was just worried that after today that everything might get to her, "it just we didn't think you be in control yet," Liam admitted. Lilly bit her lip, "Louis is easy to control," she teased. I like this playful side of Lilly. I looked at her, "not my fault that I like you on top," I smirked. I felt Lilly hand go up my thigh and I was glad that the table hid it, "god. I think I'm the one that's going to get blue balls," Niall groaned. I looked at Niall, "what is your thing with Lilly Belle?" I questioned as I leant on the table. Lilly started rubbing me through my jeans and I wish we were alone. I would have pin her onto the table, "I don't know," Niall smiled. I looked at Lilly as she got a bit faster. I was getting lost in her touch, "what the deal with you and Veronica?" Lilly asked Niall.
"She the only girl to say no to him," Liam tells her as Zayn looked at Niall. I leant back in my chair as Lilly kept going, "you know she looks a bit like Zayn," Lilly pointed out to Niall. Everyone laughed at Niall. I grabbed Lilly to stop her before I got fully hard. I knew I had a semi and it was hurting thanks to my jeans, "you need to stop," I growled into her ear. I kissed under it hoping to turn her on, "so Niall got a thing for Zayn," Perrie laughed. Niall went deep red and I thought it was strange. It was like he did have a thing for Zayn, "do not," Niall snapped. Ok now I was more sure that Niall had a thing for him. Was Niall really gay? If he was. Why hasn't he told us yet? To keep my mind off it and to get Lilly back. I put my hand on her thigh, "it ok man if you do," Zayn teased. Niall looked at Lilly, "why did you have to say that?" Niall asked her. Lilly just smiled at him. I moved my hand higher on her thigh, "because I wondered if you noticed," Lilly replied. I ran my fingers between her legs and I really wish she wasn't jeans, "well now every time I think of her. I'm going to see Zayn," Niall mumbled.
"Good," Zayn tells him. I started to really rub Lilly through her jeans, so she could feel it, "just remember I like being on top," Zayn added. I wasn't really paying attention to the others. I was noticing that Lilly was bitting her lip. I knew she wanted to moan, so bad. In the corner of my eye I saw Liam pull Niall to him, "it going to be alright. Just find someone else to masturbate over," Liam tells him. I got a bit harder, but Lilly stopped me, "I'm going to get you later," she whispered to me. I just smirked at her since I really did hope she get me later, "I'm looking forward to it," I winked. Lilly held my hand tight. I couldn't help but smile at her, "maybe you can use May," Perrie tells Niall.
"Or maybe I should use you and Lilly since last night was hot," Niall smiled. It felt like Niall was just saying to cover up that fact that he likes Zayn. I really shouldn't jump to conclusions. Maybe I should just ask him when it's just us two, "I thought you already did that today," Lilly says. I laughed as I remembered what she told me this morning. Everyone was looking at Lilly, "what are you talking about?" Niall questioned as he went red again.
"I heard you this morning," Lilly informs him. Niall was shocked and I forgot to tell him that Lilly knew earlier today, "how do you know what I was doing?" he questioned. Lilly looked at me, "because I have heard Louis," she admitted. I nodded my head as I remembered the first morning that we spent together at my house, "you're a dirty girl," Niall sighed. Lilly started laughing, "said the one that was playing with himself," she pointed out. Veronica comes out with a cake, "cake," she says. Zayn looked at her, "I can see that," he sarcastically says. Veronica hit him in the back of the head before sitting down in her chair.
We started eating the cake after Perrie cut it up for us, "so what you guys were talking about?" Veronica asked us. We all looked at Niall, "nothing," Niall mumbled. Zayn started to laugh, "it not our fault Lil killed your fantasy," Zayn smiled. Lilly shook her head, "you couldn't help yourself. About telling Niall about Veronica," I whispered in her ear. Lilly was smiling as she looked at me, "I'm a bad girl," she smirked. I raised an eyebrow at her flirting, "starting without me," we heard aunt Fey say. She came out of the house, "yep," Zayn smiled. She kissed Zayn on the top of his head, "cheeky," she says as she sat down. Aunt Fey always reassured Zayn after uncle Omar yelled at him.
Lilly went inside with Veronica to help clean up after we finished the cake. Niall and I were having a smoke, "Lou had did you really get Lilly? I'm only asking since I know that you knew about what happened to her," Niall wondered. I looked down, "because I promised her and myself that I won't let anyone hurt her. I knew I had to protect her," I confessed. Niall smiled at me, "you are really in love with this girl," Niall smiled. I looked at him, "I will have known her for a week tomorrow. I can't be in love," I tell him. I knew I was in love with her, "it is scientifically proven that it takes a man eight point two seconds to fall in love," Niall informed me.
"and were did you learn that shit from?" I questioned. Niall just smiled at me, "the internet and it's not bullshit. I read about three articles on it," Niall replied. I nodded my head slowly, "don't look at me like that. I was bored," he defended himself. I smiled big at him, "I think Niall looked it up, because his in love with someone," I pointed out. Niall cheeks went pink, "you could say that," he mumbled. I knew this was my chance to ask him about if he was gay, "so why don't you ask them out?" I questioned. Niall put his smoke out and I do the same, "I wish it was that easy," he whispered.
We sat back down with everyone else part from Lilly and Veronica still wasn't out. Liam was telling everyone a story that I really didn't care about. I was just waiting for Lilly to come back out, so we could go home. Lilly walked outside with Veronica, "there you are," I say. I hope I didn't sound too excited. Lilly sat down next to me before she put her head on my shoulder, "I think we should go home. It been a long day," I tell her. I kissed the top of her head, "hey Lilly Belle and I are going to head off now," I tell everyone. We said our goodbyes to everyone expect uncle Omar.
On the drive home I turned the radio on since I didn't like the silence. I knew today got to Lilly and that was worrying me. I wonder if she talked to Veronica about what happened to day, "um what took you and Veronica so long to come back out?" I asked. Lilly looked at me, "um we talked about sex," she replied. I was surprised that it was that topic. I didn't take my eyes off the road, "what about it?" I wondered. I saw Lilly playing with her fingers, "just that I've been pushing it with you," she admitted. I grabbed her hand to stop her, "she tells me that my body is liking it and that it normal, but I should learn how to control it. She also thinks I should play with myself more," she added. I ran my thumb over the back of her hand trying to calm her down, "um so is she telling you to slow it down with me?" I questioned. Lilly looked at the window, "I don't know. It not the first time I heard it today. Perrie told me that I should stop spending so much time with you. I think they're worried that I might push you into something and I might regret it," she admitted. I kissed her hand, "so they told you what I've been telling you. You know this is why I tell you no a lot?" I wondered. Lilly looked at me, "I know. It just Perrie thinks I moving so fast, because you already did it all. But I really want to know what it is like," she tells me.
"And last night happened because we were drunk," I pointed out. Lilly pulled her hand away from me, "do you regret what we did last night? Because you didn't seem to mind this morning in bed," she asked me. I sighed trying to think how to say the next part, "I kind of do. It just we promised we would talk about it and we didn't. I know you said you don't regret it and I believe you. It just tomorrow we known each other for a week. Zayn and Perrie didn't get up to what we get up to in their first week," I admitted.
"We are not them. We are not in a romantic relationship," she snapped. Why did that hurt? I griped the steering wheel tight before I get angry, "so stop comparing us to them. We will never be them," she added. I ran my hand through my hair, "I know that," I spat. I took a deep breath trying to stop myself from saying something stupid, "it just I don't want you to be a slut," I tell her. Fuck why did that come out of my mouth? I knew what I just said to her. Really hurt her, "so your saying is when you're done with me. I sleep with everyone at school?" she questioned. I could hear the tears in her voice without looking at her. I didn't want to look at her. I didn't want to see how much my words hurt her. I pulled the car over to the side of the road, "then maybe I should have let you end it today then," she cried. Lilly got out of the car before I could look at her, "Lilly," I called after her. I knew I said what I did, because she hurt my stupid feelings that I have for her. I quickly got out of the car and ran after her. I pulled her around to face me and her whole face was covered in tears, "where are you going?" I asked.
"Away from you and the others," she tells me. I looked down, so she couldn't see my face. I was holding back tears, "don't," I begged. I pulled her to my chest, "I'm sorry for what I said. I can't even believe it came out of my mouth since I had a go at Perrie for it," I started. Lilly wrapped her arms around me, "I was going to say is that your new at this and it a great feeling. A feeling that you can get addicted too," I continued. I rubbed her back trying to calm us both down, "I'm worried about you," I confessed. Lilly looked at me, "worried about what?" she asked. I wiped away her tear that I caused before I kissed her lightly. I held her face in my hands, "that you think what we do with the playing and that. Will stop the hurt you feel," I tell her. Lilly shook her head, "baby I do it," I reassured her. oh god baby I do it all of the time. Lilly kept shaking her head as more tears fell from her eyes. I pulled her head to under my chin, "hey it ok," I cooed. I kissed the top of her head, "Lilly I've seen it when you get hurt. You tell me that you're fine. Then we end up in a make-out session. It just when you're hurting you should talk about it. I know I don't, but all of us will listen to you," I tell her. I kissed the top of her head again trying to work out how to make her smile again, "but I do like kissing you better, because you smile," I added. Lilly looked at me, "I do too," she admitted. I kissed her, "how about we talk when we get to my place?" I wondered. Lilly nodded her head as I wiped away her tears. I kissed her, but I was worried about our talk.
When we got back to my car and put our seat belts on. Lilly looked so tired, "it going to be alright Lilly Belle. This day will be over soon," I reassured her. Lilly didn't say anything as she got comfy in the seat. I didn't know what to say. My mind was all over the place. I hurt Lilly again. Maybe she was right. Maybe I should have ending it today, but for some reason I can't let this girl go. Even when I fuck up. She comes back to me. I just wonder how many times can I fuck up before she has had enough? When am I going to tell her how I really feel about her? I looked at her and she as fast asleep. I stopped the car after I checked if someone was behind me. I took my hoddie off and put it on her. I moved her hair out of her face, "I love you," I whispered.
Lilly did wake up until I pulled up the driveway at home, "hey," I say. Lilly smiled at me as she rubbed her eyes, "were here already?" she asked. I smiled at her at how cute she looked, "yep, stay there. I'll be back," I tell her. I got out of the car before I ran inside. I turned off the alarm and checked the house for anything.
When I got back to car I opened Lilly's door, "let's get inside," I smiled. I picked her up bridle style as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I carried her carefully all the way to my room. I put her down on my lounge, "you stay here. I'm going to make us a cup of tea," I tell her. I kissed her before I left my room.
When I was in the kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil. I called Troy, "hey," I say. I got out two cups, "what do you want Lou?" he asked. I knew he wasn't happy that I called him, "I was just wondering when your coming home?" I questioned. Every time I talk to him I get snappy, "why do you care?" he questioned back. I sighed, "because I want to see Georgia. I haven't see her for about a month," I tell him. Tory laughed a little, "and who's fault is that? If you didn't try to kill yourself. You would have seen her," he spat. I gripped the kitchen bench, "when are you coming home?" I asked through my gritted teeth. I was so close to throwing my phone across the room, but I remembered Lilly was here, "end of the week maybe, so make sure that your sluts are out by then," he tells me. He hung up the phone, "well fuck you too," I whispered.
After I made my and Lilly's cup of tea I went back up to my room. I knew I was still pissed at Troy, but I knew Lilly was the only person to calm me down. I walked in with a fake smiled, "hey," I say. I put our cups of tea down on my TV unit. When I turned around I noticed Lilly had her legs on the lounge. I moved them as I sat down and put them over my legs. I kicked my shoes off, "you alright Louis?" Lilly wondered. She must have heard me on the phone to Troy. At least she couldn't hear what he was saying to me. I played with her toes as I stared at them, "you heard?" I questioned. Lilly nodded her head, "I was talking to my father and he was telling me that he won't be home for another week. So that means Georgia can't come over and I haven't seen her for over a month," I confessed. I kept playing with her toes as I was lost in thought, "why don't you go see her?" Lilly asked. I looked at her, "her mum doesn't like me," I tell her. Lilly looked down, "my family a fucked up thing," I say. I drew circles on the top of her foot, "you know I'm playing with your feet and I know you hate it," I smiled. Lilly moved in closer to me, "I know, but it something I only let you do," she tells me. I kissed her nose to say thanks, "so I was thinking maybe we should talk about our first week together," I suggested. Lilly nodded her head as we started talking about our first week.
After we finished talking I didn't realize that a lot has happened in a week for the both of us. I couldn't still wrap my head around how much this girl has changed me, "I wonder what the rest of the year going to bring us," I say. Lilly smiled as she shrugged her shoulders, "oh I need to tell you something," she tells me. I looked her up and down as I was worried about what she had to say, "and that is?" I questioned. Lilly kissed me, "I lied to you about something," she started. I raised an eyebrow as I was getting more worried, "wide awake is not my favourite song of all time," she admitted. I poked her nose as I relaxed, "so what is it then?" I asked.
"Wanted by Hunter Hayes," she smiled. I smiled as I kissed her. I knew who Hunter Hayes was since I looked him up. After I saw his CD in Lilly's room, "you like country music?" I questioned. Lilly shrugged her shoulders, "I like him," she admitted. I laughed a little, "I still told you the truth about mine. Now I wonder what else you lied to me about," I say. Lilly kissed me, "nothing that comes to my mind," she tells me. I played with her hair as I was thinking she a least tells me everyday at school that she not hungry. When I know she is, "I think we should go to bed," I tell her. Lilly shook her head no, "let's have a shower," she smiled.
"You already had two today," I pointed out. Lilly poked my chest, "and you were supposed to join me for one of them," she reminded me. Only if she knew Harry stopped me. Lilly got off of me and walked to my bathroom. I followed her, "you sure you want me to come in with you?" I asked as I stood behind her. After today I had to make sure this is what she wanted. Lilly turned the shower on, "yep," she says. I pulled her to me, so she would look at me, "you sure?" I questioned. Lilly kissed me, "who said anything going to happen?" she asked. I kissed her, "no one, but can I undress you still?" I wondered. As soon as Lilly nodded her head yes I pulled her jumper over head. Lilly pulled my top off, "who said you can undress me?" I smirked. Lilly moved away from me and took her top off, "then you can't undress me," she smiled. I pulled her back to me, "stop teasing me," I say. I undid her jeans as she done the same to mine. I pulled hers down before she pulled my down. I ran my hands over her back as I kissed her. I was thinking it be a great time to show her how I really wanted our first time touching each other should go. I undid her bra and it fell to her hands, "now only making out," I tell her on her lips. Lilly smiled as she dropped her bra, "why?" she asked.
"Because I want to try something with you in my bed," I admitted. Lilly gave me a small nod as she played with the waistband of my boxers. Lilly bit her lip and I wondered if I was pushing it, "do you wanna try that before we have a shower?" she wondered. I moved as fast as I could to turn the shower off and to pick Lilly up. As soon as Lilly wrapped her legs around me I kissed her.
As soon I got close to my bed. I threw Lilly to the middle of it before I hovered over her, "this time I'm going to make you cum more than once," I tell her. Lily bit her lip as I kissed down her neck, "while you scream my name," I continued. I kissed across her chest before I gently bit one of her nipples, "I'm going to leave marks all over you," I kept going. I massaged her other breast, "so people know your mine," I growled. I don't know why I was acting like I never touched this girl. I gently bit down her belly to the top of her knickers. I wanted to go lower, "do you trust me?" I asked. Lilly nodded her head, "I need you to say it babe," I tell her. I played with the sides of her knickers as I waited for her to say it, "I trust you," she tells me. I kissed down the front of her knickers. I went all the way back up to her lips, so I could kiss her. I knew I was being rough as I stuck my tongue in her mouth. I ran my hands over body as I kept kissing her. Lilly wrapped her arms around my back, "now this is how we were meant to move to the next level," I say against her lips. I kissed down her neck until I got to her sweet spot. I knew where is was from the first time I found it. I sucked on it and I knew I was going to leave a mark. She moaned as she dug her fingers into my back. I kissed the top of her boobs before I slowly sucked on one of her nipples. Lilly moaned as I bit gently down on her nipple. I moved to the other nipple and started sucking it. I looked up to see Lilly bitting her lip, "don't hold back babe. We are the only ones here," I tell her against her skin. Lilly shook her head as I bit her nipple. I moved up to her face, "why not?" I questioned.
"Because I'm not going to last," she admitted. I kissed her, "that what I want," I smirked. I moved back, so I could pull her up to me, "I want you to let go and cum more than once. I want to make up for last night," I tell her. I massaged one of her boobs. Just so I could feel her heart beat. It was going fast, "so let go," I added. Lilly kissed me as she ran her hands down my chest to my boxers. She started rubbing me through my boxers, "fuck," I groaned. I kissed along her jaw trying to control myself. Lilly pulled my boxers down to my thighs before she ran her fingers up my member, "slowly babe," I whispered. I didn't want to rush tonight. Lilly played with the tip, "like this?" she smirked. I bit her neck gently, "that teasing," I growled. Lilly wrapped her hand around my member before she slowly started pumping me. I stuck my hands in her knickers to grab her arse.
Lilly kept her pace for a little bit until I ran my hands up her sides, "I think it your turn," I tell her. I turned her around, so her back was against my chest. She knelt in front of me as I knelt behind her. I ran my hands up her back to her hair. I pulled her hair out of the ponytail before I mover it to the side of her neck. I kissed her neck as I played with her boobs. Lilly moaned as she started grinding against me. Lilly wrapped her arm around the back of my neck to grab the back of my hair. I moved one of my hands down her body to her knickers. I rubbed her through them as I kissed under her ear. Lilly grabbed my thigh tight with her other hand, "remember no holding back babe," I whispered in her ear. I started playing with her clit through her knickers and she moaned. I ran my finger up and down between her legs. I could fell how wet she was through her knickers, "your soaked babe," I smirked. I slowly moved my hand down the front of her knickers. I played with her clit, "oh god," Lilly moaned. I kissed along her shoulder as I kept going, "I'm going to put a finger in now," I tell her. Lilly nodded her head slowly as I put a finger inside of her. I moved my finger in and out slowly, "can I try two again?" I wondered.
"Yes," she puffed. I took my finger out and slowly put two finger in her. I saw pain come across her face, "it ok," I cooed. I know if I stopped now she wouldn't be used to it next time, "please move them," she begged. I slowly moved my finger in and out of trying not to hurt her. I could see the pain turning into pleasure on her face. I swear I could of cum from her face and what I was doing to her, "does it feel good babe?" I groaned. As she nodded her head I grabbed on of her boobs. We moved up and down with each other as Lilly grinded against me. I curled my fingers inside of her and she moaned loudly, "I found your g-spot," I smiled against her. I did it two more times, "fuck," she whispered. I sucked on her sweet spot as I moved my other hand into her knickers. I played with her clit with my thumb. He legs shook a little bit as she screamed my name a little. I kissed up her neck to her lips, "you're really enjoying this," I smirked before I kissed her. Lilly threw her head onto my shoulder as I felt her tighten around my fingers. I noticed that she was holding back, so I pinched her nipple, "cum for me baby, because you're going to cum for me again," I tell her. I rubbed my fingers against her g-spot as my other hand played with her clit. Lilly came onto my fingers as she screamed my name. I kept going, so she could ride out her high. I could have came from her screaming my name, "fuck you really enjoyed that," I say. I wrapped my arm around her, so she wouldn't fall onto the bed. I moved my other hand out of her knickers too.
I held her as she caught her breath. She looked so happy and her cheeks were a nice pink. I couldn't believe how hard she came then. I can't believe that I nearly came, "you ready for round two?" I asked. I turned her around to face me. Lilly wrapped her legs around me which took me by surprise. Lilly moaned at the contact with my member and I knew she was still sensitive, "I want you to ride me," I tell her.
"Ok," she whispered. I took my boxers off before I laid down on my back. Lilly started grinding against my member slowly. I love her on top and I wish she would do it more often, "fuck," she puffed. I ran my hands down her thighs as she placed her hands on my chest. She kept the slow pace and I started to moan, "bit faster babe," I groaned. Lilly got faster, but it still wasn't enough for me. She ran her hands down my body to the tip of my member. She played with it and I couldn't take anymore, "fuck," I moaned. I flipped us over, so Lilly was underneath me. I started grinding against her as I kissed her, "fuck Lou I'm already close again," she tells me. I grabbed her hand and pin it above her head. I entwines our fingers before I kissed down her neck, "just a little bit longer," I groaned. Lilly wrapped her other arm around my back. I got harder and faster and Lilly dug her fingers into my back.
We kept going until my dick twitched between her legs. We both couldn't hold it anymore, so we came together. I kept going as we both rode our highs. I fell onto of Lilly gently before I rolled next to her. I still hand a hold of her hand and I didn't want to let go, "come here babe," I tell her. I pulled her to me as I wrapped my arm around her. Lilly looked so out of it, "you alright?" I wondered.
"Yeah," Lilly whispered. I ran my hand up and down her back as she was trying to catch her breath, "you still want that shower?" I asked. Lilly nodded her head, "just need a minute," she tells me. I smiled as I kissed her forehead, "was it a bit much for you?" I questioned. Lilly shook her head no, "it just," she started. I kissed her nose, "that was your first time cumming twice," I smiled. I was proud at the fact that everything I do with her is her first time. Lilly blushed as she nodded her head, "better get used to it," I tell her.
I kissed her for little be as we laid there. I ran my hair through her sweaty hair, "let's go have that shower, so we can go to bed," I say. I get off the bed and picked her up. I carried her all the way to the bathroom. I put her down on her feet near the sink before I turned the shower on. When I went back over to her. Lilly still seemed out of it, "you alright babe?" I wondered. Lilly nodded her head, "legs are just sore," she tells me. I smirked at the great job I did with her. Lilly turned around to look at herself in the mirror. I wrapped my arms around her from behind. She noticed the hickey that I left on her neck. She ran her fingers over it, but pulled them back. I kissed her shoulder as I pulled her knickers down. She kicked them off before she turned around to me, "nice hickey," she smiled. I kissed it, "I told you I would mark you," I smirked. I moved us over to the shower, "now people know your mine," I added. Lilly looked so in love as the water hit her skin, "I think you like showers too much," I pointed out. Lilly kissed me, "it a nice place to forget everything," she admitted. I kissed her nose as she ran her hands down my arms.
When we were done washed ourselves. I wrapped my arms around Lilly from behind, "can we talk about something?" she wondered. I nodded my head as I kissed her shoulder, "I think your right," she admitted. I turned her around to face me, so I could see her face, "right about what?" I questioned. Lilly looked down, "about getting rid of the hurt I feel," she tells me. I pulled her close to me and kissed the top of her head. Lilly wrapped her arm around me. I was worried that what we just did was to cover something up, "I'm not saying what we just did was to cover up the hurt, because it wasn't. It just on Friday when my mother hit me and you lost your temper. I just wanted to feel something else," she confessed. I kissed the top of her head again, "ok from now on. If I see you hurt and you tell me your fine. I'm not going to do anything sexual to you until you tell me what going on in your mind," I tell her. Lilly nodded her head, "thank you," she says as she looked at me. I kissed her gently, "I'll do anything for you," I promised.
I didn't want to get out of the shower, but we did. After we dried ourselves we went into my bedroom, "um you didn't get my stuff out of the car," Lilly pointed out. I just smiled as I walked into my wardrobe. I put on a pair of black track pants after I threw my towel on the floor. I grabbed out a black t-shirt and pair of my boxers. I went back out to Lilly, "here," I say. I gave her the clothes in my hand, "I do have my own clothes," she smiled. Lilly started to get dressed in front of me, "I know, but there something about you in my clothes that I like," I smirked. Lilly shook her head as she finished getting dressed. I grabbed her hand before I pulled her out of my room for a smoke.
As we were smoking I couldn't help, but look at Lilly in my clothes. I don't think she would ever have to dress up for me to get a hard on. I just need to see her in my clothes, "we really need to go to bed after this. We have school in the morning," I say. Lilly smiled as she nodded her head, "what happening to my bad boy? He going to lessons now," she joked. I smiled back as I shook my head, "only to the ones you're in," I replied. I kissed her, "because you're a great reason to go," I admitted. I kissed her again before we finished our smokes.
As we were going back up to my room. I made sure that everything was locked up. When we got to my bedroom I went over to my bed. I noticed a wet patch where Lilly was. I smirked to myself before I picked up Lilly's towel and put it in the bathroom, "oh babe. Your right next to me tonight. You made a mess of the other side of the bed," I tell her. I walked back over to my bed and turned my bedside lamp on. When I looked at Lilly her cheeks were red, "can you get the light babe," I tell her. Lilly turned the bedroom light off as I got into bed. I leant against the headboard. I noticed Lilly's hair was messy and curly, "you going to brush your hair?" I asked. Lilly shook her head as she came over to me, "come here," I smiled. I pulled her down to between my legs before I pulled the cover over us. Lilly was looking at the wet patch, "did I do that?" she asked. I kissed the side of her, "yeah. Well you did cum twice," I smirked. I don't know why I keep smirking when I think about us in bed together. I noticed Lilly was still embarrassed, "you know that normal? If there isn't a wet patch after what we did or sex. It means it was great," I reassured her. Lilly looked at me, "but I don't remember getting that wet this morning or last night," she tells me.
"Well this morning was quick and last night I was not with it since I was drunk," I admitted. Lilly kissed me, "so from now on I'm going to leave a wet patch behind?" she questioned. I played with her hands as I tried to think, "not all the time, but when you're in my bed yes," I tell her. I changed my train of thought to me and Lilly. I was thinking this was going to be our fifth night together. I also didn't know if I could sleep without her now. Lilly grabbed my hands, "so how many nights have we been in bed together?" I wondered. I knew the answer, but I wanted to see if she knows, "um this would be five," she replied.
"And tomorrow I've known you for a week," I smiled. Lilly nodded her head as I rolled over, so we would lay down, "I'm so glad that you walked into Physics that day," I confessed. I felt Lilly smile, "I'm glad that I met you," she says. I covered her body with mine for some sort of protection, "thank you for everything so far," I whispered. I kissed her neck, "thank you for everything too," Lilly tells me. Lilly turned her head to look at me, "goodnight hunny," I say. She smiled as I kissed her, "goodnight sweetie," she tells me.After a little bit when I knew she was asleep. I ran my hand up and down her arm. I kissed her neck, but left my face there, "I love you," I whispered against her skin. I kissed her neck again, but she moved in her sleep, "go to sleep Lou," she mumbled. I knew she wasn't awake, "ok babe," I say. I pulled her even closer to me before I closed my eyes and went to sleep.