I’m Sorry.
Rose’s Letter.

Hi Nialler, I don’t really how to start nor how to begin. I guess I’m pretty much in a daze by what’s going to happen.

I’m scared, I have no idea what waits me. I wish you could hold me right now like the time there were thunder and I hid behind under the blanket. You came in with a cup of tea and had me in your arms until it was over.

I’m so grateful I got to meet you and the boys, my life was pretty plain before you came around. I don’t know where I would have been if I haven’t met you that one night.

I’m glad I did, I’m glad you left that one note on my desk. I’m so happy you wrote to me. I really am.
If I’m right then your crying, please don’t. Don’t stain this pretty paper, are you smiling now? Good.

I understand if you hate me, I hate me too. Did anyone come to the funeral? I hope you didn’t bring Rosalie, she should see dead so early in her life.

Oh hey, never ever blame yourself or anyone else. If you need to blame anyone then blame me. Shout at me now, punch the wall even!

Actually don’t do that, don’t hurt your knuckles.

Niall, I know you don’t think you’re attractive or even the best singer but let me tell you that you are. You are the closest you could get to perfection and if you don’t believe me or ever doubt yourself then read this again.

You can have the whole world if you wanted, everyone is dazzled by you and your amazing personality.
I hope Rosalie get that trait from you, how loveable you are.

How do I even begin or end this letter? I don’t have a lot of time so I’m sorry if my hand writing is a bit sloppy.

Please take care of Rosalie, you’re an amazing dad and she needs you to protect her.
What I love about you?

Everything, there’s not one thing I dislike. Okay that’s a lie, there was a few things I didn’t like. The partying and everything. Don’t look guilty.

I love the face you pull when you try your hardest not to laugh, you look absolutely adorable.

I love how you surprises me with the cutest thing, like pancakes! I wish I could have them now.

Your laugh is something I’ll miss the most, it could cheer anyone up and your smile would light up the whole room.

I sound cheesy, I’m sorry. It aint easy being cheesy, did that make you smile? Good.

I love everything about you, I love your voice and I love your scent.

You are nothing more that angelic.

You know, I really love how I would wake up in your arm just taking your warmth to me. Even the days I wouldn’t wake up beside you then I could feel you.

I really love you, and if I could choose then I would want us to stay together forever. Like in a fairy tale.
But life isn’t a fairy tale and I’m not a princess.

I guess we need to move on, I have a few things I would like you to tell everyone.


Tell Emily that she’s absolutely beautiful and she shouldn’t settle with a player but get the real deal because she deserves.

Remind her that I love her more than I could ever explain and let her know she was the reason I was alive so long. She made all these years easier.

Tell her to keep smiling, because with her smile she can concur the whole world.

Tell Liam that he was the closest I ever got with any guy in the band except for you. Tell him I always felt loved, safe and beautiful when he was near.

He was the sweetest guy I ever met, and he shouldn’t never change for anyone.
Any girl would be lucky to have so tell him to be more confident.

Tell him I loved him and I’m going to miss his bear hugs.

Oh and tell Matthew I’m sorry.

This is to Rosalie, I want you to give it to her when she gets older. In her teenage years please. Oh and only let her read her part, clip it out if you’d like.
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Hi Rosalie darling, I’m writing this to you so it’s more personal.

I’m sorry I’m not here to see you bloom into a young beautiful woman but one thing for sure you were the most beautiful little girl I have ever laid my eyes on.

You probably hate me for leaving you and I understand. I’m sorry. I will always love you and even if you’re mad then yell at me. I don’t mind. I think you already have.

If things get tough then you know you have me to guard over you and you have your amazing uncles and your godmother. They all love you Rosalie Ann, they all adore you.

You were the most loved baby I had ever met, even I loved you with my whole heart.

It breaks my heart knowing I would be able to see your face again or your smile but I need to think of the good things.

You’re going to be just alright, I know it. I’m sure you have the voice of a lion.

Don’t rush yourself into a relationship take your time, if he loves you he’ll wait or her? I don’t know, I don’t care who you like as long as you’re careful.

Your happiness comes first.

Hey and if anyone makes you feel like anything less than perfect then fuck them. You are me and Niall’s daughter and you’re the most perfect being on earth.

I’m proud of you or I’m sure I would have been no matter what choices you made so is your dad.
We both love you very much.

You are everything to me, so please talk up to me some day your lonely or need to?
I’ll always be here.

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Clip it out Niall and give it to her when you think the time is right please?

I don’t have much time now, you remember never stop smiling or laughing.
And don’t blame yourself.

I love you and even in death I will love you.
I’m leaving my heart with you.
Yours always, Rose.

Notes

There you go! Now we only need the Epilogue that you will get next time.
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