Doin' Dirt

“Just go away, Zayn. I’m sorry I’ve called you.” I push him a little, glancing from where Harry was standing but Zayn’s just blocking the way. I know Harry isn’t there but- ugh. “Please.” I beg, looking at him but he takes both of my wrists. “Zayn, please don’t.”

“I know you missed me, that’s why I came here because I missed you too.” He pulls me closer. “And the secrets we did.” He whispers near my ear, brushing his cold lips makes goosebumps appear on my sensitive skin.

“You weren’t like this. You never were. I know I did something wrong and everything was the very worst but please, we have to stop being this way and just let the good past be again.” I try not to cry but my voice couldn’t stop shaking.

“You made me this.” He simply says.

“And now it’s my fault?” I sarcastically say. I can’t believe him. He’s pinning who he is right now on me. He shrugs. I hate that action. He knows that I hate people shrugging because it’s just a sign of disrespect. I want to fucking punch him right now. I breathe heavily, controlling the anger in me. “Just get out. And to be honest, I did forget about you and it was worth it but you showed up again. Next time, tell me when you’re in hell and I might just say hi to you.”

“You pretty little girl. Who taught you those words?” He removes his hand on my wrist and runs his fingers on my cheek. I pull away.

“Get out!” I suddenly yell.

“Audrei?” My aunt’s voice comes in the room. We both look at her. “Who’s this?” She smiles at him.

“I’m Audrei’s friend. I used to come here.” He smiles. He’s acting nice. I don’t know why but I’m totally pissed right now.

“Oh. Nice to meet one of Audrei’s friends. Food’s in the fridge.” She walks away. “And oh, Audrei? If you need me, I’ll be in my room taking a good rest, okay? Be careful.” And walks off to her room. Is she okay with this?!

“Out now.” I point the door, pushing Zayn towards it.

“What’s the rush, babe? No one is.” He smirks. “Let’s go to your room.”

“She said no. Can’t you understand that?” This is not what I wanted to happened. Why is he here?

“Harry, please. Just go back to your room, I can handle everything here.” I look at him and back at Zayn.

“And who are you, huh?” Zayn pushes me gently to the side as he comes closer to Harry. “You’re not the boss of me.”

“She said get out. I think you should follow what she says. This is her house.” Harry simply says. I don’t know why but I’m thankful that he’s here. At the same time, I’m confused. Minutes ago we were arguing on some things and now, he’s defending me with Zayn. I do owe him a lot. And I don’t know if I should feel sorry or this will be his payment for the things that he has done but I’ve also done some things to him.

“You ain’t telling me.”

“She told you. Now go or else.” Harry threatens.

“Or else what?” Zayn comes closer.

“Stop this!” I barge in. “No one will do anything to anyone!” I went in the middle. “Zayn just go. I’m sorry that I made a choice to let you come here. I wasn’t thinking when I did. I thought what we had was all in the past. I thought you would change. I was hoping you will, forget everything and return the times. But nothing. I was still thinking you were that best friend I’ve never had but-“ I shake my head in disbelief. “Just go.” A tear left my eye. “I’m sorry I made those choices. I never should’ve. Just go and blame it on me.” My voice fades as tears continue to fall.

“Audrei…” I can hear disappointment in his tone.

“Please go.” I can feel arms wrap around me and I know for sure that this is Harry’s. I snuggle in his chest as I continue to sob.

“I’m sorry. I’ll go.” I can hear Zayn walking away as I hear the door closed.

“Please look at me.” Harry takes hold of my chin, letting me to look into his eyes. “I’m sorry." He says and I nod. He wipes my tears with his thumb then hugs me again. “I’m sorry.” He repeats, mumbling against my hair as he kisses it.

I don’t know what I feel about him but I know for sure that I like him but is it only until there?

“I should’ve known. I never should’ve assumed that he’s changed because he wasn’t. I can’t believe that I am so dumb right now.” I sniffle. “I’m sorry.” I try to look at him in the eyes but it seems that I couldn’t.

“Why are you apologizing? Don’t be. You never knew it. You thought he had changed but he hasn’t. You never did wrong except you did the right thing to push him away because you know that he’s just the cause of accidents, okay?” He smiles a little and I also did. “Come with me.” He takes my hand and drags me to my room.

As we’re inside, I don’t know but my heart is beating so loud and fast and I’m just as nervous as I were. I never understand him on who he really is but maybe, he is this. This sweet, caring, and mysterious guy. Just be careful being around him. We’ll never know. My subconscious warns me and she’s right but majority of me believes on what I think might be true.

He grabs my arm, running his hand to my fingers as he steps closer to me and I look at him, mesmerized. “You still don’t know why.” He whispers as he leans in, wrapping an arm around my waist as he pulls me even closer.

“I don’t.” I answer.

“Soon. I don’t want to be in rushed.” His lips brush on mine and the feeling that my stomach holds a lot of butterflies, just wanted to explode. I am in muddled. I don’t know why. I don’t know how. But it just seems that I have this soft spot where I think of him that much. And I don’t know where it all started because everything seems so abrupt.

“But I wanna know now.” I look into his eyes and they hold so much.

“You’ll hate me when I do.” His lips meet my jaw and he kisses it. I tilt my head further giving him access as my fingers find its way to his hair, gripping and playing with it.

“I won’t.” And he didn’t reply as he grabs my thighs and carries me. I wrap my arms around his neck as I can feel my back flat on the mattress and his legs on either on my side as he hovers my body. “Please.” I beg.

Notes

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