I'm Here, and I Care
Happy On The Outside, Devastated On The Inside
***Avery's POV***
I was woken up by the sunlight shining through blinds. I groaned, and opened one eye. Ugh! Another day, another cut. I've been cutting since I was 15. I've been trying to stop ever since I started, but I just can't. No one exactly knows -- not even Niall. That's because I always wear long sleeves, or wear ALOT of bracelets. I got up, and got ready for school. I trudged downstairs only to see my mum on the sofa, watching those cheesy, corny, romantic tv shows again. She's been so depressed ever since dad died 2 years ago. I put that thought at the back of my head, and trying to hold back my tears. I put on a fake happy face. "Hi mum!," I said while sitting down next to her. "So, what's up? Have you made breakfast, yet? Because I am starving!" I always try to cheer her up, but she wouldn't budge. She gave me a 'go away, i want to be alone' look. "Oh, that's okay. I'll just make breakfast myself. What do you want?" I said all fake happy again. She just raised an empty tub of ice cream. "Okay then." As soon as I was in the kitchen, she started crying -- HARD. I grabbed an extra tub of ice cream, and gave it to her. I went back to the kitchen, and made me a bowl of cereal. When I finished, I washed my bowl and spoon. I said goodbye to my mum, and she told me to have a great day at school. As if! I kissed her forehead and got out of the front door. I sighed, and started walking to school. I was half-way to school when someone covered my eyes with their hands. I screamed and started squirming out of the person's grasp. When I heard the person laugh, I instantly sighed in relief knowing that it was just Niall.
"Gosh, Niall! You almost gave me a heart attack!" I said while holding my chest trying to slow down my heart beat.
"You should have seen your face," he said while still laughing. "Anyways, I have some good news!"
"Okay? Tell me!"
"Okay, here it goes! I'm auditioning for the X Factor!"
I had a shocked expression on my face. I started thinking about what would happen if Niall got through the next round. I was happy for him -- really--, but what about me? I'll have no one to protect me from my bullies!
"I'm so happy for you!" I tried to sound happy.
"Thanks," he said while getting a bite from his apple. We then started walking in silence.
I started thinking of the things that might happen to me, if Niall wasn't here. A secret came to my mind that I haven't told Niall. No, it's not about my cuts. It's that I was in love with him.
I was woken up by the sunlight shining through blinds. I groaned, and opened one eye. Ugh! Another day, another cut. I've been cutting since I was 15. I've been trying to stop ever since I started, but I just can't. No one exactly knows -- not even Niall. That's because I always wear long sleeves, or wear ALOT of bracelets. I got up, and got ready for school. I trudged downstairs only to see my mum on the sofa, watching those cheesy, corny, romantic tv shows again. She's been so depressed ever since dad died 2 years ago. I put that thought at the back of my head, and trying to hold back my tears. I put on a fake happy face. "Hi mum!," I said while sitting down next to her. "So, what's up? Have you made breakfast, yet? Because I am starving!" I always try to cheer her up, but she wouldn't budge. She gave me a 'go away, i want to be alone' look. "Oh, that's okay. I'll just make breakfast myself. What do you want?" I said all fake happy again. She just raised an empty tub of ice cream. "Okay then." As soon as I was in the kitchen, she started crying -- HARD. I grabbed an extra tub of ice cream, and gave it to her. I went back to the kitchen, and made me a bowl of cereal. When I finished, I washed my bowl and spoon. I said goodbye to my mum, and she told me to have a great day at school. As if! I kissed her forehead and got out of the front door. I sighed, and started walking to school. I was half-way to school when someone covered my eyes with their hands. I screamed and started squirming out of the person's grasp. When I heard the person laugh, I instantly sighed in relief knowing that it was just Niall.
"Gosh, Niall! You almost gave me a heart attack!" I said while holding my chest trying to slow down my heart beat.
"You should have seen your face," he said while still laughing. "Anyways, I have some good news!"
"Okay? Tell me!"
"Okay, here it goes! I'm auditioning for the X Factor!"
I had a shocked expression on my face. I started thinking about what would happen if Niall got through the next round. I was happy for him -- really--, but what about me? I'll have no one to protect me from my bullies!
"I'm so happy for you!" I tried to sound happy.
"Thanks," he said while getting a bite from his apple. We then started walking in silence.
I started thinking of the things that might happen to me, if Niall wasn't here. A secret came to my mind that I haven't told Niall. No, it's not about my cuts. It's that I was in love with him.
6/27/13