Stephanie's POV

I check my appearance in my mirror, I've applied my make up a little heavier than usual today as I'm feeling quite nervous and insecure. Giving Harry the letter is going to be quite weird, I've never wrote anyone a letter like this before.

I brush my hair once more and fix it into place as it falls loosely pass my shoulders and towards my stomach. I really should get a hair cut soon, it's become so long.

Once satisfied with how I look overall, I take my bag and stuff it with my keys, phone and purse before heading downstairs. I walk into the kitchen and see my Mum already preparing our Sunday roast.

"Off out so soon?" She asks as I take a can of Pepsi max out of the fridge.

"Harry's going back to London today, so I'm going to see him." I say as I look down at my can. My Mum stops what she's doing and looks to me.

"Do you want me to drop you over? I'm not sure if he's leaving early." Mum says as she washes her hands and wipes them into her apron.

"You don't have to, I can catch the bus." I smile and Mum shakes her head smiling.

"Come on its fine. It's not everyday I give you lifts." She says as she takes her apron off. My Mum rarely drives, before Jed and I were born she experienced a minor car crash. She was okay as she escaped with a few cuts and bruises but it was enough to destroy her confidence. I don't think she's ever felt safe since, that's why I'm surprised she's offering me a lift.

"Thanks Mum." I say as we walk to the hallway and she puts her coat on. I open my can and take a sip, maybe it's not a good idea to have fizzy first thing in the morning.

"So how are things between you two?" Mum asks as we get into the car. I put my seatbelt on and explain to her that I've not really spoke to Harry. She sighs as we pull out of the drive.

"You two are so alike, but you both need to realise you're both so young. You've got plenty of time to worry about relationships, it should be fun and exciting at your age." Mum says and I look away from her and start to look out of the window. I know she's right, but she doesn't understand how serious my feelings for Harry are. They're too strong to ignore.

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Harry's POV

I sit on the edge of my bed with my head in my hands. How did I ever get myself so messed up. I don't know what's right or wrong anymore, I don't even know if I'm making the right choice.

I'm glad to be going back to London. It gives me time to really think about everything that's happened this weekend. I think in future I'll stick to plans and not try to do surprises anymore. They seem to throw me completely off.

Naomi wanted to say goodbye to me but I'm not sure if that's such a good idea. I do like her and I've enjoyed spending time with her, but I'm not sure I want to rush into anything. It's still hard to accept that I have to move on from Steph and I know I have to do it one step at a time. Sometimes rebounds work, sometimes they don't. I personally think having Naomi as a rebound isn't fair on her, even though the way she makes me feel is something I need right now.

I try to block out any further thoughts about her and Stephanie as I begin to get dressed. I really hope Liam and Louis are both off today as I could do with a chat with them. I need some opinions and advice on what's happened.

I quickly sort my hair out and fix it into place, it's so much better like this. Once I've finished I grab my phone and check the time, it's half ten. It doesn't take me long to get ready, I head to the bathroom and I brush my teeth. My Mum still leaves my toothbrush here which is quite sweet.

After I've finished I check that I have everything and I take my bag downstairs, I leave it by the front door.
I wander into the kitchen to see Mum washing up. She turns around to face me as she hears me walk in, I smile as I start to grab some cereals.

"Morning sweetie." Mum says as she continues to wash up.

"Morning Mum." I say as I take the milk from the fridge and it to my shreddies.

"How are you feeling about going home?" Mum asks as she turns to face me whilst drying her hands. I take a seat at the table and look up to her.

"Shall be good to get back to normality." I answer with a smile. She smiles as she walks over and sits opposite me.

"It's been good having you here Son. You know this will always be your home aswell, don't you?" Mum asks and I nod. My phone vibrates but I ignore it for now, whoever it is can surely wait a couple of minutes.

"Thanks Mum." I smile and she looks a little sad. It's always hard saying goodbye to my family, it must be weird as they've kept my room exactly the same to how I left it.

We both look up as the doorbell rings, Mum quickly gets up and leaves the kitchen. I wait to try and hear who it is.

"Hi Stephanie!" I hear Mum say and I instantly feel sick. Shit, she can't be here! I quickly leave my cereals and stand up. I make my way to the hallway where Stephanie and Susan are talking to my Mum.

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Stephanie's POV

I notice Harry behind Anne and he looks really worried. I frown as I say hello and he just puts his hand up to wave. That's odd, he's never quiet.

"Susan, come and have a coffee." Anne smiles as she walks off to the kitchen with Mum. Great, thanks for leaving me with a really awkward Harry.
I look to Harry and he looks away from me as he places his hand in his pockets. I look to his bag on the floor, confirming he's leaving soon. What's with the frosty greeting?

"What's up?" I ask as I look at him warily. He slowly looks back at me and shakes his head whilst mumbling, this hasn't exactly kicked off in a great start.

"Nothing."

"I'm not as stupid as you think Harry." I sigh as I walk closer to him, he watches me and runs a hand through his hair.

"Come on.." He says as he heads upstairs, I follow him whilst trying to think what on earth is wrong with him. He's usually happy to see me.

I walk inside and sit on his bed as he shuts the door, he sits down on the floor. I frown again as I've no idea why he's sat down there and not next to me on the bed like he usually does.
I look down at the letter in my hand, the way he's being quite cold makes me question whether I should even give it to him. I fold it over again and just hold it before I make my mind up.

"I'm sorry Steph.." He says and I glance over to him. He tilts his head back and closes his eyes confusing me even more, I just watch him.

"For what?" I ask and I'm starting to feel a little nauseous. Have I made him wait too long for me? Has he changed his mind?

"I'n just not in the right frame of mind at the moment." He says as he looks down in what looks like shame. I start to quiz myself to what he means, I thought I was the one who's messed up in the head; not Harry.

"Well obviously something has happened for you to be like this." I look at him and notice my legs are trembling from nerves. I have a horrible feeling something has happened.

"I can't do this." He snaps as he stands up and walks to the window and leans forward.

"Do what Harry?" I snap as I'm so lost right now. I wish I could just get into that head of his. He stays quiet as he continues to have his back to me. I can feel myself getting more and more frustrated with him. "Harry! What can't you do?" I snap louder and I stand up. I touch his shoulder but he quickly moves away and turns to me.

"Us Stephanie! I can't do us anymore!!" He says loudly and I step back from him. I can't believe he has just said that.

"Why?" I ask but I quickly continue, "Because I had to take some time out to myself? It's not even been long? We've been living in different cities leading different lives for half a year Harry! So why have you given up now?" I ask and that bloody lump appears in my throat. He shakes his head and turns away. I can't stand this.
"Stop leaving me in the dark and tell me why you've changed your mind Harry! You were so keen to want me back but now that's suddenly not the case for you?" I say through gritted teeth. I know any moment now my voice is going to crack and I'm going to cave in.

"Maybe I can't put my life on hold for you Steph? I have needs and feelings just as much as you do okay?!" He shouts as he runs both hands through his hair.

"I never asked you to put your life on hold Harry, all I asked for was your patience. If things were bothering you so much you should have talked to me." I say softer as I really wasn't expecting it to go this way. I'm completely thrown off.

"I had to deal with you being with someone else, that completely fucked me up. I even tried dating someone else but I couldn't do it because of you. Then when I think I have the chance to make a go of things with you, you blow me off. Now I'm completely fucked myself over!" He shakes his head as he sits down on the bed. I never knew he tried dating someone else, my heart sinks but I need go focus on exactly what's going on with him now

"I don't understand, you haven't fucked yourself over Harry because I am here." I say puzzled as I crouch down infront of him, I'm startled to see tears in his eyes. He shakes his head and lowers his head into his hands.

"You don't have any idea." He mumbles. I quickly jump up as his bedroom door opens, but I freeze as it's the girl I seen on Facebook. She's beautiful. Everything about her is perfect, I suddenly feel really small and vulnerable. I'm in this room with two beautiful people. Harry looks up and quickly stands to his feet.

"Sorry, I didn't realise you had company." She says and I've suddenly forgot her name. The way she's looked after her appearance is rewarding. I could see what Harry would like her. I shake my head as I get back into reality, why is she here?

"What are you doing Naomi?" Harry asks and his eyes look at her with panic. She looks from me to him. I watch them intently.

"Sorry, your Sister let me in." Naomi says as she looks at Harry.

"Steph can you give us a minute?" Harry asks as he opens the door and pulls Naomi out with him. My heart starts to beat fast and I can't stop myself going to the door and pressing my ear up to it.

"I said I'd let you know when I'm leaving.." Harry hisses and I frown at the harshness in his voice.

"I didn't realise your ex was going to be here, I wanted to say goodbye properly." She hisses back. Say goodbye? So they've obviously met up. My heart is going into over drive.

"Neither did I. I'll come and see you before I go." He sighs and suddenly it all starts to add up. He's done something with Naomi and that's why he's in a state. God, I feel sick I need to get out of here. But I need to stand my ground and tell him exactly what I think.
I take a deep breath as I hold the door handle, my heart is be breaking into two but inhale to stay strong for my sanity.

I swing the door open making them both jump, my face let's Harry know exactly how I feel as he sighs shamefully.

"So this is why you're so fucked in the head?" I ask trying to keep my cool, I look to Naomi but she looks at Harry.

"Steph.." Harry starts but I don't want to hear it. I shake my head and cut him off.

"No Harry, save your breath. I'm not dumb okay, I know exactly what's going on here. You're a disgusting person that I don't even know anymore. I ask for space and that makes you run into her knickers? Is that how things work with you?" I say harshly with such hate in my voice.

"Of course not, it wasn't like that okay? You need to let me explain, we're not even together it's not like I've cheated on you!." He says as he looks at me with sadnness and frustration.

"You are just unbelievable Harry! We may not be together but that's really not the point. I'm not shagging around because I love you and I've been trying to quickly sort my self out for you. I thought you would have respected me at least." I cough to push the lump away that's lingering in my throat.
"I don't want you to explain anything to me because I know exactly what's happened. I can't believe I thought you were being so cold with me because I thought it was my fault." I laugh sarcastically as I shake my head. "I actually felt sorry for you, I felt bad for treating you like I did. But although I did nothing wrong my heart still went out to you, but not anymore. Not only are you fucked in the head, you've fucked us up." I have to walk away from him as I'm so angry.

"Stephanie wait!" Harry shouts as he chases me down the stairs. I turn to face him by the front door.

"Don't ever think you're welcome at my house again. I don't want to speak to you or see you again Harry, go back to her and fuck her life up. Because I am done!" I shout frustrated, hurt and devastated. All these feelings that roam my head and heart make me feel so I'll.

"Stephanie!" My Mum gasps as she walks towards us with Anne, they both look puzzled.

"Please don't leave like this." Harry says ignoring them and I shake my head.

"Fuck you." I cry and I throw the letter at him, he bends down and picks it up. Mum quickly looks at me and scolds me for my language.

"What's happened?" Anne asks as she looks at us. I look up and shake my head in disbelief as Harry looks away.

"I'll let your son fill you in with the disgusting details. But to put it bluntly he's slept with Naomi whilst supposedly trying to slowly work on us." I snap and my Mum looks at me and sighs.

"Come on, I'm sorry Anne." Mum says as we leave and I quickly walk to the car. "Are you alright?" She asks and I nod as the tears begin to fall. She walks towards me and pulls me into her.

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Harry's POV

Mum looks at me with hurt and anger in her eyes. She doesn't have to say anything as her expression speaks louder than words. I walk up stairs and find Naomi sat on my bed. I fold the piece of paper Stephanie gave me and put it in my pocket.

"Sorry Harry." Naomi sighs as she looks at me. I don't look at her as I just stare ahead. I feel numb, I have lost Stephanie. I've never seen her be so angry at me.

"I need to leave." I say as I stand up knowing there's nothing keeping me here now. I feel so shit I don't care about saying goodbye to anyone.

"You'll keep in contact won't you?" She asks and I just nod. I don't really care about her at the moment, I've lost interest in nearly everything that's related to me. She walks up to me and kisses my cheek. "Bye Harry" She adds as she leaves my room.

I quickly take my coat, phone and keys.I hear the front door shut so I quickly make my way downstairs and I meet my Sister and Mum at the door.

"Are you going?" Gemma asks and I nod. She pulls me into a hug. "Whatever has happened, just remember we are only human and we are built to make mistakes." She whispers in my ear. Her words make me tighten the hug as I thank her. I eventually let her go and I look at Mum.

"I don't know what's going on with you but just stay on the right path okay?" Mum says and I nod. I kiss her cheek and hug her. "I'm here if you need to talk." She adds as she kisses my cheek.


"I didn't mean to be a prick and mess it up." I say as I pick my bag up.

"Please don't call yourself that Harry." Mum sighs as she pats my back. "Please don't ever think it's okay to call yourself such horrible things. I can't bear to hear that Harry." She adds with tears in her eyes.

I nod as I open the door and I say goodbye. They walk me to the car, I place my bag on the passenger seat and then climb in. I wave to them as they wave whilst walking back inside.
I remember the piece of paper in my pocket, I shift my bum up and I take the paper from my right pocket and slowly unfold it. I take a breath as I read:

To Harry,
I've never done this before so I apologise now if this doesn't make any sense.
The purpose of this letter is to tell you how much you mean to me. I know that asking for space isn't a great way to show you how important you are too me. But you really are Harry.
I can't imagine being with anyone else but you. You make me the person that brings the best out in me. We have our issues and we can drive each other insane, but I love you too much to care.
Being without you for six months was worse than I ever made it out to be. I was hurt and angry at you because I just wanted you here with me, I guess I never thought you'd still want me.
I don't want to waste anymore time waiting as I just need you Harry. I've wanted you from the day you left me for London. The truth is I was scared that I'd lose you again and I couldn't go through all that heart ache like I did before.
Hopefully you waited until you got back to London to read this, I can't have you turning up at my door explaining your undying love for me. That was a joke by the way.
But there you have it, l love you Harry and I want to try again. This time I think it could be different.
Lots of love,
Steph X

Notes

So I've posted twice today :) that's something I very rarely do!
but I hope you enjoy this chapter,
Everything really has turned messy, not only have these two discovered how to hurt each other, they now know what it's like to feel hate towards each other. Obviously Harry's hating himself for his actions but poor Stephanie really dislikes him right now.

Do you think Stephanie had the right to react the way she did?
What about Harry ? Do you think he's gone too far or do you of think he's not really in the wrong this time as they're not together?
Please let me know what you think :)

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