When I'm Gone

Louis' POV

Shit.

It's been just two weeks since Thanksgiving and Kate and I have been out a few times. Well, to be honest, I've been at her house everyday. I've picked Olivia up from school twice. Kate and I have been out a total of three times. And I should have known people would pick up on it. It's been over a month since Eleanor and I broke up but it wasn't really publicized, we never addressed the rumors about the break up. I don't really care about what people think or if they think they need to know about me.

But don't drag Kate through the mud.

I fucking hate Sugarscape.

I sit at my computer reading the article over and over again, looking at the pictures over and over again. Kate and I, huge smiles plastered on our faces, holding hands. I don't want to expose her yet. We're still just “friends”. I remember that day well, it was like a Christmas craft show outside, it was actually a nice day and Kate had been talking about it for days. She said I didn't have to take her, that she would go by herself but I don't want her to think I'm ashamed of her in any way, when in fact it's quite the opposite, I want to show her off constantly but I'm afraid of what people will say and do to her. I can take it.

Our secret will be out.

LOUIS TOMLINSON'S NEW FAMILY??

One Direction's Louis Tomlinson has been fueling the fire that him and Eleanor Calder have officially broken up yet again.

We reported weeks ago how Eleanor was spotted in Rome where we also found out that she's been living and working with an up and coming new fashion designer, Leopard. What's been missing from Eleanor's side? Louis Tomlinson, that's what.

Inside sources have informed us that Louis and Eleanor have in fact broken up, leaving Eleanor to flee to Italy hiding her heartbreak. Obviously Louis hasn't wasted any time moving on as he's been seen out and about with a new raven haired beauty.

Louis and said mystery girl has also been spotted leaving his house recently, and holding hands, shielding themselves from the waiting cameras. The unnamed woman has also been spotted with Louis quite a few times with a young child who we are assuming is her daughter. The “new family” has been out and about picking up the daughter from school, shopping at the supermarket, and stopping at the winter craft fair.

Sources have also told us they are really close, with Louis staying at her house several times a night. We're hoping to find out who this woman is soon because it seems like Louis has quite the fascination with her.

All though many of us will be heart broken if the rumors of Louis and Eleanor are actually over.

I shake my head and push away from my desk. I knew this was going to happen. Sooner or later we would be outed. I've yet to actually tell people that don't know me that Eleanor and I are over and I've moved on with Kate. I'm pissed this actually came out. Kate has a daughter, a daughter whose in school and whose vulnerable to how terrible people can be.

The last thing I want to do is put them in a place where people can hate them. For no reason.

I sit at my desk for what feels like hours when it's actually just minutes before I catch my phone vibrating off the desk. Eleanor. Great.

“Hello.” I already roll my eyes.

“Louis. So you do have a new girl?” She takes that snappy tone.

“I don't know what your talking about El.” I try to play it off.

“Don't be coy with me Louis, I saw the pictures, it's all over twitter. This mystery woman. And with a child? Who are you trying to be, Harry now?” Jeez she's angry.

“Don't be rude Eleanor. She's a friend, who has a child. Don't jump to conclusions.”

“Well who is she? Its been said that you've been staying at her house.”

“Why do you care? We're not together anymore. You left for Italy. Remember?” I spin around in my chair.

“But I asked you to come with me Louis. I've given up quite a bit for your dream, and you couldn't give up your London residence for me.”

“Eleanor!” I take a pause to try and calm myself. “We're not together. I can hang out with who ever I want, whenever I want.” I try to remind her.

“But we've been texting and chatting like constantly for the last two weeks. And you've never mentioned anything about her. You made me believe that we were going to get back together.”

“I never said we were getting back together.” I emphasized the word never. I can't believe her.

“Well you're really good at not telling me that. You know I could tell everyone that we're still together. They would believe me. We've gone months without being pap'd together. This could be just another lazy rumor.” She tries to make me worried.

“Don't try to threaten me El. Your not good at it and you know that all I have to do is post to twitter and everyone will believe me.” I'm getting anxious talking to her for some reason, me legs are starting to jump.

“I just miss you Louis. I miss being friends with you and being close with you. I can't pretend this didn't hurt. We've only broken up like six weeks ago and you've already moved on. It's like what we had didn't even matter.” I can her her voice tremble through the phone.

“Eleanor.” How can I word this properly. “What we had was special. I'll always love you but I'm not in love with you. Breaking up was the right thing to do. You know that.” I wish she would realize it, I wish I would realize it. I'm not lying when I say that I do miss Eleanor sometimes.

“Can you just say that you miss me?” She asks.

“I do miss you. I'll admit it.” I can't believe this is happening.

“So you'll come visit me in Rome on a few weeks?” I can almost picture her biting her nails and twisting around as she usually likes to do when she's nervous.

“Look, I'll have to check my schedule and get back to you okay?” I ask trying to brush this topic under the rug.

“Thank you Louis. I love you.”

“Bye Eleanor.” I hang up quickly and throw my head back, I can't believe I just allowed this to happen. I just told Eleanor that I might possibly go visit her when I've been staying the night with Kate. When I've been in love with Kate. Playing house with Kate. My phone starts ringing again and I see it's Kate.

“Hey.” I calm myself.

“Louis! Olivia wants to see you. And I kind of do too. Can we stop over and invade your kitchen?” She sounds so happy and I'm just so upset.

“I'd love that.”

“You okay Lou? You sound a little down.” She quick catches my emotion.

“Oh, yeah, I'm just really tired. Long day.” I try to laugh but I'm just upset that I'll be breaking someone's heart again. And maybe my own in the process.

“Oh no. I'll have Olivia pick out some of those awesome Disney movies you love and maybe you can take a nap while I make something.” I take a deep breath. I don't deserve her.

Notes

Hello Hello!! Hope everyone who celebrates Thanksgiving had a fantastic one! We had over 20 people at our house, things got very loud. My presentation for school went well, so glad it's over, one less thing to worry about!!

Welcome tc all the new subscribers, we're so close to 60 votes, that's just crazy to me! Thank you for everyone who has voted, subscribed, and commented. Love you all.

What do you guys think about Louis' internal struggle as it continues? Poor guy can't seem to catch a break.

Happy Friday!!

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