Louis' POV

I felt like I just had to leave this morning. I haven't been home in a while and I just really wanted to see my sisters, my mum, my little brother (always weird to say now that I finally have a brother), and everyone else in my life. It's nice to get away from London.

London is a beautiful place but it's not all England has to offer. London can be full of fake famous people that only care about your status. Quite honestly I'm one of the worst celebrities. I love preforming and writing music but as far as interviews, award shows, being around famous people, it's just not for me.

That's what drew me to Eleanor, she didn't care about that life. She liked me for me, but the more famous I got and the more money I got the more she got used to the money and the perks. I love spoiling her, I have the money to spoil her but when she expects it, it gets frustrating.

Kate has money. You wouldn't know. She as an expensive house, car, and sometimes clothes but I've also seen her shop at Asda, Tesco, and Primark for “cheaper” clothes. I don't think Eleanor has stepped in one of those places for the last two years. And she's doing a fantastic job at raising Olivia. I know nothing about raising children alone but my mum has done it before, I've fallen in love with Olivia.

You're never too old for your mum. That's been the hardest part of everything. I just miss my family. I love my little sisters and my brother, it's hard to be so far away from them. I miss out on a lot. The littlest ones don't even really know me, and I don't really know them. It's terrible that I don't know Daisy, Phoebe, Doris, and Ernest as well as I should. I've tried unsuccessfully millions of times to move my mum down to London but she refuses, says she won't leave Doncaster.

Thankfully Lottie and Fizzy are older and are constantly calling, texting, and snapping me. I don't know Georgia that well, but that's because my “father” is an ass who abandoned my mum and I when we were little. It's not Georgia's fault but even though we have the same dad we don't know him in the same light.

It's a bit of a drive but it's nice to get my mind off of things. Or to think quietly, I find myself doing that quite a lot. It's nice to focus on other things like traffic other then relationship drama.

I'm just arriving in Doncaster, no one knows of my arrival, not even my family so it should be easy to stop somewhere and grab a quick bite to eat. I stop at an EFC ordering a Rock and Wrap, one of my favorite meals. Whilst waiting I hear an all to familiar voice. I just can't seem get away from anyone.

“Louis?”I turn to face her.

“Hannah. How are you?” I haven't seen her in forever. Still looking beautiful, even though now she has brown hair, she was always up for a hair change. I still feel bad about how things ended with us, she encouraged me to audition for the X-Factor and stayed with me during the journey. But the pressure just got too much, we were far apart, everything was new and I felt like it wasn't our time. Then two months later I met Eleanor and started dating her, after I had told Hannah I needed to be single. Smooth Tomlinson.

I really did feel terrible about it. I broke up with Hannah because I didn't think the distance and pressure would work then I dated Eleanor who lived just as far away.

“I'm good! An early congrats on your upcoming wedding!” She was always so cheerful. She works at a preschool and it's quite fitting for her personality. She'll be a fantastic mum one day.

“Ah, thank you.” She gets closer to me and embraces me in a hug. That old, comfortable feeling comes back. You'll always remember your first love. “And how are you?”

“I'm fantastic. Just popped in for a snack. Where's your blushing bride?” If she ever felt it, Hannah never spoke ill of myself or Eleanor. At least not publicly. She took quite a bit of hate on twitter and took it in stride.

“She's back in London, just felt like I needed to see my family for the weekend.”

“Well they'll be extremely excited to see you. I actually just ran into Lottie a few days ago, she was gushing about the wedding and getting to see you soon. They always miss you.” I know they do, I can't even begin to explain how much I miss them. My family always loved Hannah.

“I know, I miss them like crazy, especially now the newest ones have been born.”

“Yeah, your family is getting rather large.” She giggles. “Well, it was good to see you but I must get going, have plans with Josie, Ashley, and Jenny.” She grabs her to go bag and starts to head out.

“It was really good to see you Hannah. Tell the girls I said hello.” I stop her at the door, I forget how much I do miss her.

“I will. It was nice to see you Louis, we should get better about keeping in contact.” I nod and watch her leave. I shake my head at the memories we've shared, crazy to think how that one decision to try out for X-Factor has changed everything.

Makes me realize how much one decision can change everything.

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I arrive at my mum and Dan's house, I do miss Mark, but Dan's a good guy and I still talk to Mark quite a bit. Him and mum got married when I was young and he really was my father figure, way more then my actual dad ever was.

Mum rushes out first.

“LOUIS! What are you doing here?” She opens her arms to me as I embrace her. Every man misses his mum.

“Just thought I'd come up for a visit. It's been a while, needed to get out of London for a while.” I explain as she's still hugging me. She's got quite the bone crushing grip.

“Well, Lottie and Fiz are out right and Daisey and Phoebe are actually with Mark but everyone else is here, they'll be so excited to see you.” I open the back hatch and pull my bag out following mum inside. She's already informed me that Doris, Ernest, and Dan are napping at the moment so it will just be mum and I. It's odd to find this house quiet.

I set my bags down and meet my mum on the couches to chat. She always gives the best advice.

“What's that smell?” I look around for clues.

“Oh, I got a new candle for the upcoming holiday season, peppermint.” Of course, I can't get away from Kate even if I'm hours away from her. “So, how is everything? How is Eleanor? Your mates?” She's buzzing.

I take a deep breath. I should just admit everything. Get everything out and be done with it.“Can I tell you something without you freaking out?” I ask and watch her face change.

“Is Eleanor pregnant? The band breaking up?” She starts shooting of questions.

“No mum, not like that. Eleanor is not pregnant, everyone is still together. But, I met someone.”

“What do you mean, you met someone?” She asks cautiously.

“Well, it happened over a year ago. I met this woman, Kate, at the airport. We sat next to each other on the flight from Chicago to London and chatted the whole time. We parted on good terms, not exchanging information then I ran into her again at the hospital, her three year old had cancer.” I pause and watch mom's face fall, I know this would upset her. “She went to the States and got her daughter treatment and she's all better now so don't get all upset.” I just have to let her know or she'll breakdown in tears for Olivia even if she doesn't know her. “But before she left we kissed, while I was with Eleanor.”

“Louis William Tomlinson. I did not raise you to cheat on your girlfriend. What would possess you do that?” And mum is mad. That mum look, every mum has it as soon as that baby is put in their arms I swear, disappointment mixed with anger, worry, frustration. Pointed at me. I left out the whole Kate and I having sex, I didn't want to make things even more complicated.

“I don't know! We let our emotions take over, I just can't explain how I'm attracted to her, when I kissed her, I've never felt anything like that before. Not even with Eleanor.”

“So what happened to her?” I can tell she's biting her tongue, waiting till I finish my story before she unleashes on me.

“Well, she was gone for a year. And I ran into her, every emotion just flooded back, it's like she never even left. I followed her home, we talked. She feels terrible about about what happened between us, she's not that kind of a girl at all. So we've just been friends. But mum, I think I've fallen in love with her.” I'm spilling my guts. And those words come out before I can even stop them. I lean back against the couch.

“In love?” She tilts her head and asks me cautiously.

“Yes.” My eyes are tracing the thoughts running in my head. “I do. I really do. Mum, what am I suppose to do?” I'm suddenly frantic. I can't marry Eleanor.

“What about Eleanor? I thought you loved Eleanor.” Mum really loves Eleanor, she's been in our family for years.

“I do love Eleanor, but I'm not in love with her anymore. Things are just so different. I've stayed with her because I felt like I had to.” I explain. It's the truth.

“And this Kate, does she like you?”

“Well she told me she did. I'm just afraid that I won't be enough for her and Olivia. I mean, it's not just her mum. She has a child to provide for too.” That is one of my biggest fears. Kate is a team. She comes with someone.

“You can't let that get in your way if you truly love her Louis.” Mom always has good advice. “If you truly love her you'll love and provide for her daughter too. Look at Mark and Dan.” Mum points like they're here with us. “You need to figure things out Louis.”

“I know, that's why I'm here.” I lean back. “Everything is just so complicated.”

“It doesn't have to be Louis.” Mum raises her eyebrows and I just roll my eyes.

“I just don't want to hurt anyone.”

“Quit saying that Louis. You're going to hurt someone, either Eleanor or Kate. Just don't pick someone to make everyone else happy. Because in the end you'll only be hurting yourself.” She pats me on the knee.

“Okay. Should I go home right now?” I stand up adjusting my trousers.

“No, Louis. Think about everything and then make your decision.” She's always so rational. I sit back down and we sit in silence. “So, tell me all about Kate. I have so many questions.” Mum smiles at me and I just can't help but get excited.

Notes

Gushing just a bit at Louis' admission. :) Love when mom's are understanding. For some reason I just felt compelled to throw in that awkward run in with his ex girlfriend, Hannah. Almost to show how much Louis' "needs" someone else with him.

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