Louis' POV

Something in that moment, something in that kitchen compelled me to kiss Kate. I don't know why, I don't know what but I felt something in that kiss that I've never felt before.

We just fit.

I pull away and see her face. I can tell she's surprised.

“I'm sorry.” I mutter. But I'm really not.

I just want to kiss her again.

A lot.

“Um, it's okay.” She tries to hid her smile, I can see it.

“I don't know what came over me.” I stumble backwards pulling at my neck. I really don't know why I did that.

“It's fine, we should get you back.” She pushes herself away from the counter and puts her water bottle on the counter next to me.

“Yeah.” I've suddenly lost all my confidence. I've just ruined our friendship. I've ruined everything.

I quietly follow her out to her car, thankfully people don't know she's one of my friends so no one is around. I fight the feeling to reach out for her hand and lace my fingers with hers. I don't know how long I can fight this feeling.

We climb into the Porsche and she turns the heat on right away to take the chill in the air away.

“Look, Kate, I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking back there, I just got caught in the moment.” I really don't want to lose her friendship. It's unlike anything I've ever felt before, things are just easy with her.

“Louis. It's okay. I mean, ugg. Never mind.” She huffs and puts her seat belt on.

“No, say it.” Please say something. Anything that will make me feel better about this. I can't believe that in the four years I've been with Eleanor, I've never slipped up like this and here I am, I've known a woman for two weeks and kissed her and the worst thing is I want more.

“It's just-It's just. I don't know how to explain this. Do you feel like theirs one person for everyone at that's it?” She asks resting her head on the steering wheel not looking at me.

“What do you mean?” I ask for clarification.

“It's just that I've always thought there isn't just one person for anyone. I think that there are multiple people that you can spend the rest of your life with, you just have to find one of them and make things work. Sometimes it does and sometimes it doesn't.”

“So what does this have to do with what just happened when I kissed you?” I ask carefully, I see it's taken a lot out of her just to admit this.

“I don't know. I just felt something in that kiss that I can't explain. It wasn't like anything I've ever felt before.” She finally turns her head to look at me. “But I'm not that kind of person, I'm not the kind of girl that gets between a relationship. I just can't do that.” She wipes a tear away from her eye. “So I should just get you back to Eleanor.” She puts the car in drive and I can't help myself but put a hand on her hand to pause her.

“I understand. I felt it too.” She looks up at me and we look like two deer in a headlight, just terrified and before I know it, I'm leaning into her and kissing her again. I feel like my lips are just melting onto hers, its a feeling I've never experienced. I quickly pull away when my brain snaps into reality and I think of Eleanor. “Oh my God, I can't believe I'm doing this.” I whisper.

“I just need to drive.” She focuses on the road ahead and pulls out of her parking lot.

We drive in silence.

She stops a block away from my house.

“I don't think I should go any further. I don't want to ruin your relationship with Eleanor any further.” She looks down, ashamed. I should be the one ashamed.

“Yeah. Thanks for the ride. I'm sorry.” I can't believe I kissed her. Twice. And I still want to.

Before I climb out of the car she pulls on my hand. “I don't think we should see each other again.” She tells me. “It's just not good for your relationship.” She's a genuine person that's for sure.

“Is that what you want?”

“I don't know what I want.” She closes her eyes and turns her head away.

“I don't think fate wants that for us.” I whisper as I quickly get out and shut the door, bundle my coat up and walk to my house. It's for the best, I remind myself as I force myself to look forward and not look back at Kate.

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I quickly walk back to the house I share with Eleanor. In my short walk I've decided that I need to just focus on her. She is my girlfriend. I need to spend these next weeks deciding if I want to marry her.

I open the door and slip my shoes off, quickly dispose of my coat on the coat tree and search for Eleanor. I know this will be a fight. I mean, I would be pissed if some guy did that to Eleanor and I watched so I know I'm in for it.

“Eleanor!” I shout out her name and wait for a response.

Nothing.

I search through the house, not in the kitchen, dinning room, any where on the main floor so I walk upstairs and still nothing. I check her closet, thankful that her clothes and suitcase are there undisturbed so I know she hasn't left me.

But she didn't leave a note.

I pull my phone out of my pocket and try to call her, her phone is turned off.

I sit down on the satie with a huff, scrolling through my phone. I check twitter, anxiously waiting for Eleanor to come home so I can apologize. I can't help myself though, when I do a quick search for Kate Tayzen on twitter. Her name is first.

Against my better judgment I click on her name and it opens me up to a little corner of her life. I see she's quite popular already, over 20,000 followers, guess it helps when you're all over the news and basically a motivational speaker. I scroll through her pictures, a few of her and James, lots of pictures of Olivia during treatment and after treatment, a few selfies, I can't help but stare at how beautiful she is. I shake my head as to get my thoughts out and scroll through her tweets. She's super positive, I swear I can her her voice as I read them.

I see one tweet that catches my eye, it's from the day we met. I check the time, I think it's before we even met officially.

What would you do if you had to choose?

That's all it was, simple. I have no idea what she meant by it but it struck me. I lean back, starring then I see a tweet from I'm assuming after the flight.

Fate likes to throw curve balls

From my experience these last two weeks I feel like fate is telling me something. I randomly met her on the flight, at the hospital, at the park, I just can't ignore it. I'm trying with Eleanor, I really am but I just don't feel the same anymore.

And then I kissed her. That kiss was something different. It was just a spark that I've never felt before. I can't describe it, it was intense. I can't hide the fact that I was hurt when she told me we shouldn't see each other anymore, but I'm with Eleanor, I shouldn't be in that situation and Kate respects that. She seems to respect my relationship with Eleanor more than I do right now.

Notes

It's so late right now!! But I feel like I owed ya'll this chapter so here it is! Little Louis perspective. They kissed AGAIN! He's STILL with Eleanor. I mean, they just kissed so...he's trying to sort everything out. You feeling his inner struggle??

You think Kate is doing the right thing?

What do you think Louis should do?


I'll be back to post more before you know it! But I have to be up in like 6 hours to leave for my parents house then off to Georgia! Midterms went well...I had a world lit midterm tonight and jeez...lots of writing. Don't miss me too much! :)

xoxox.

P.S. If you're still awake and you shouldnt' be, like me.,,,Go to bed. Only after you respond with your thoughts. hahaha