Everything I Didn't Say

“Tarah can I talk to you alone?” Ashton asked and I nodded.
“Just stand in the hall.” I whispered to Michael. He nodded before leaving the room.
“What’s up Ash?” I asked and he looked at the ground.
“How stupid can you be Tarah?” he asked harshly.
“What do you mean?” I asked and he smiled.
“You’re such a whore.” he said now i feel like i have been punched.
“Ashton.” I said feeling tears prick at my eyes. I won’t cry. I can’t give him the power.
“You’re just a fucking bitch. You’re being a bitch to all of us. Running to Michael thinking his bitch ass will do a god damn thing about it but he won’t.” he said the words killing me.
“You’re just saying this because I rejected you! Because you’re a fucking asshole.You cry about every fucking thing! You wanna use shit against me! I will use shit against you!” I shouted taking a step back.
“I got nothing to hide.” he said and I laughed.
“What about the fucking cutting?” I shouted.
“Yeah, I cut.” he said mocking me showing me his clean untouched wrists. He did this to mock me.
“You’re such a fucktard.” I said and he laughed.
“Well fuck you too ass muncher.” he said and I thought of something much worse.
“I would MUCH rather fuck Justin Beiber.” I said and his mouth fell open.
“I am pretty sure Justin Bieber dead so I bet you would rather fuck an elephant.” he said taking a step closer to me.
“Suck it Ashton, he is much better looking than you will ever be!” I fired back and he shook his head.
“What are you going to do tell Michael on me? He don’t give two fucks about you or me anymore!” he said and I ran past Michael into the nearest bathroom.
“Tarah!” Michael shouted after me. “Please don’t do this!” he shouted again. I slammed the door. Not trying with the lock. He bursted through hugging me tightly.

Michaels POV
“Tarah are you okay?” I asked worriedly. My hands on her shoulders shaking her out of whatever thought she is thinking. She turned to face me quickly.
“Michael,” she said. My eyes are searching her face for any clear emotion that could tell me what’s happening. My eyes finally landed on a pregnancy test in her hand. I took it from her grip and stared at it for a while.
“You’re pregnant?” I asked in shock. She nodded. “With a baby?” I added taking her hand in my own.
“No with an alien” she said laughing my grip on her hand tightening.
“I don’t believe it.” I said.
“Me neither.” she laughed and stood on her knees to hug me.
“I mean, oh my god this is crazy. Are you okay?” I asked.
“I’m shocked Michael. We’re going to be parents.” I cupped her face with my hands.
“I better ask you to marry me then.” i said and her eyes popped out of her head. “I was gonna ask you after everything. The birthday present. But I will do it now.” I said and pulled her up by her hand. “Act surprised.” I added and led her to the living room, after calling for a meeting.
“I called this meeting for two big surprises. Both for everyone but one special one for Tarah.” I said smiling. I got down after pulling a fuzzy cyan colored box out of my pocket. Tarah’s favorite color.
“Tarah, you are the only girl for me. I love you so much. I want to be with you no matter what. I want to fight with you over stupid things that mean nothing. I want to hold you every night when you are scared, I want to kiss you and comfort you when you’re down. I want to be there through your ups and your downs. You are my world, my forever, my always, my infinity. I love you so much.” I said then opened the tiny box to a small diamond ring made with a bunch of infinity signs with a sparkly dark blue diamond in the middle. “Will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?” by the time I finished Tarah was crying.
“Yes. Michael yes. A million times yes!” she shouted jumping into my arms. We pulled away and I slid the ring on her shaking finger. I kissed her passionately.
“Okay for the next surprise…” I said looking into Tarah’s beautiful ocean blue eyes.
“I’m pregnant.” she said and we heard gasps and hollers through the room.
“OH MY GOD! YOU’RE PREGNANT!” Niall shouted. He and Tarah are so close. I love that she can talk to him.
“I am so happy for you!” they all said in unison hugging Tarah.
“I love you guys so much, but I can’t breathe.” she said and they released.
“Michael I love you mate! I and so proud of you!” all the guys except Ashton said to me. Ashton looked like he was going to cry. He gave her a hug and she started to cry.
“Come here” I said pulling her out of Ashtons grip and into and embrace.
“How are we going to do this?” she asked me and I took a deep breath.
“We will figure it out.” I kissed her passionately. My thoughts driving me nuts. I honestly don’t know how we are going to do this.
“Tarah can we talk alone?” Ashton asked and she nodded.
“Just stand in the hall.” she whispered to me and I nodded before waiting in the hall.
“What’s up Ash?” she asked him. I have a perfect view on everything. I can hear exactly what they’re saying.
“How stupid can you be Tarah?” he asked her harshly.
“What do you mean?” she asked and Ashton smiled.
“You’re such a whore.” he said and I am starting to get the urge to bitch slap his punk ass.
“Ashton.” she said and I can see tears pricking at her eyes.
“You’re such a fucking bitch. You’re being a bitch to all of us. Running to Michael thinking his bitch ass will do a god damn thing about it but he won’t.” he said and my hands go into fists at my sides turning my knuckles white.
“You’re just saying this because I rejected you! Because you’re a fucking asshole. You cry about every fucking thing! You wanna use shit against me! I will use shit against you!” she shouted taking a step back.
“I got nothing to hide.” he said and she laughed.
“What about the fucking cutting?” she shouted.
“Yeah, I cut.” he said mocking her, showing her his clean untouched wrists. I fucking hate him. He did all of this to mock her.
“You’re such a fucktard.” she said and he fucking laughed. Why the hell is he laughing?
“Well fuck you too ass muncher.” he said and I am starting to see red. When my vision went clear again he took a step toward her.
“I would MUCH rather fuck Justin Bieber.” she said and Ashtons mouth fell open as I stifled a laugh.
“I am pretty sure Justin Bieber dead so I bet you would rather fuck an elephant.” he said stepping closer to her. Not making it any better in either situation.
“Suck it Ashton, he is much better looking than you will ever be!” she fired back and he shook his head while I tried not to laugh my ass right here right now.
“What are you going to do tell Michael on me? He don’t give two fucks about you or me anymore!” he said and Tarah ran past me into the nearest bathroom.
“Tarah!” I shouted running after her. “Please don’t do this!” I shouted. She slammed the door but didn’t lock it. I barged through it hugging her tightly.
“If you’re going to cut yourself, I want you to cut me the exact same times in the exact same places.” I told her feeling her warm tears run down her cheeks.

Notes

So this chapter is longer. The goals are going to start with comments. If we can get to 10 new comments by the end of this week, I will do a double update this weekend.