Kandice's POV

The main thing I hated most about this 'new me' was the constant party invites.

It was actually exhausting.

I try not to attend them all but the new girls I, for some reason call friends, drag me along every time and then of course a red cup was shoved into my hand every time I stepped foot in the door.

Sometimes it makes me regret the way I've changed but it's too late to go back now.

Letting out a loud sigh, I pulled myself out of the day dreams I was having about my bed and netflix.

Somehow I managed to get seperated from the other girls and was now pushing through sweaty bodies and batting away guys hands from my ass while constantly looking around for at least one person to talk to. It seemed as though all the girls had spilt up and it was increasingly harder to find one on their own so I huffed and gave up my search.

I thought about just leaving without them but knew my mom was on a late shift today and didn't feel like going home to an empty house.

Getting rid of the empty cup from my hands. I slightly stumbled as I risked going upstairs even though Rachel, the host of this horrid party, had made it clear that we weren't meant to be up there.

Once I reached the top of the stairs, I noticed a balcony door at the end of the hallway and sighed while quickly walking over to it.

I opened the door slowly and closed my eyes as a rush of fresh air hit me and I instantly felt relaxed.

"Feeling rebelous are we?" I heard a voice chuckle and jumped as I noticed Ashton sitting on a deck chair in the corner of the balcony.

It's been around a week since we agreed to be friends still but I found myself quite often avoiding him just as much as I avoid Calum.

I don't want to hurt him but Calum hurt me first so I didn't start this.

"You're not just going to stand there are you?" He asked as he brought his cigarette back up to his lips.

I could tell by the smell that it was weed but that didn't surprise me.

What really surprised me was that my calm apperence was completely gone right now, I had no idea what to say or do. I had never used a person before and didn't know how to start this.

"You're not talking to me huh?" He chuckled again and I smiled slightly before slowly walking over to him and sitting in the seat next to him.

"Sorry for distrubing you." I mumbled shyly and he smiled widely showing off his teeth.

"It's fine I could use some company."

I nodded softly and we both turned to look out at the view, the sun had just started to set and the sky was filled with colours of orange and red.

It was rather beautiful to be honest.

I shook my head and turned back to Ashton to see him already looking at me.

"I miss you a lot Kandy." He suddenly blurted out, I couldn't tell if he was serious or stoned but smiled at his words anyway.

I wanted to tell him I missed him too but we weren't best friends any more and couldn't just act like nothing had changed when it had.

"Can I have some of that?" I asked and point to his joint hoping that I had successfully changed the conversation.

His eyebrows frowned as he looked at his hand that was holding the joint before back up at me.

"You never wanted to when Calum offered you, what changed?" He asked still slightly shocked by my question.

"Everything." I replied bluntly and he nodded in understanding.

"Just this once okay?"

"It can be our little secret." I did my best to use my sweetest voice I could manage and he smirked.

He leaned slightly closer to my chair and handed me the cigarette.

I had a small moment where I thought about whether or not this was really the best way to get close to Ashton but I had done it once or twice, granted the last time was like four years ago but I knew I wouldn't make a fool of myself.

I brought the smoke to my lips slowly and inhaled, it felt amazing and I now understood why the boys did this quite regularly.

Turning to face the view again, I exhaled and held the joint out for him to take back but he quickly placed his hands on my cheeks and pulled me into him so our lips met in a hungry kiss.

I was shocked at first and my eyes widened.

This was good though, at least I knew he liked me.

My eyes closed and I moved closer to him to wrap my hand in his curls at the back of his head.

Once we both pulled away breathlessly, I smiled at him and he pulled his lips into a tight line as he looked down at the ground then back up at me.

"Our little secret." He whispered while placing his index finger on his lips.

Notes

Not sure if I want to continue this story any more...