one last dream(just an innocent darkness)

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"I think it's your address."he simply said.
It took me a second to take it all in, the place was gorgeous!
small but so classy, with Woden fences and some roses planted in the small garden at the front, near at the door I could see a bell just like those doll houses I always dreamt about when I was a child, lost in my own little world,the time when my father was there with me, he was the only one who knew the door to my secrets, to my dreams and to my childish fantasies.
I looked at harry, who was checking his phone.
"thank you, it was a pleasure to meet you." I thankfully said.
"yeah, I liked the kissing part!" He cheekily said with a smirk.
Yeah it was a new feeling for me, not my first, but the first after my memory faded in many hearts, in his heart.
"you are so full of yourself!!" I said returning the smirk with giggles.
"anyway thank you harry, for finding the address." And for the feeling, but he doesn't need to know that.
"anytime!! so do you think we will cross roads again, while I'm in London??"
I don't think so." Let's see!" I said.
He was something, he had something, deep inside I could feel it, I didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad one but it,was special...
" yeah...so I guess it's the goodbye then..."
"yes, goodbye." I offered him my hand to shake.
whit returning the gesture he placed the black sunglasses on again, digging his hands in his pockets, smiling and just disappearing into the bare streets of London, the London that was holding so many events for me, the London that was my dream, the London that those green eyes were staying for now...
I went to the door and just in seconds I was greeted warmly, it felt so right, just being here, just forgetting everything, at the same time it was so wrong, I was trying to deny the fact that I had pain, the fact that sometimes at nights, sleeping hurts, deny the fact that my clock was being so unfair, it was like time was flying, but I didn't want to care or at least pretend I'm not caring.
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"there's a party tomorrow! You are acting like a hen!! For god sake Rosa how old are you!? 80!!??" Birdy asked, checking herself in the mirror for the last time.
Yeah I'm 80!!but in fact I can't breathe sometimes!! So I don wanna freak you out at a party!!
"parties are not my type." I said, pretending that I was reading the book, I actually knew every part of it by heart!
It was pride and prejudice, my favourite story, the kind we all want, the one we always dream of, just another Mr Darcy...
"oh c'mon Rosa, you'll find your type!" She said, wearing her black boots, zipping them and looking at me.
"ohh I'm sure I won't find my type there!! If he's my type, then he surely acts like me!" I started to read for real this time, it was the part that Mr Darcy was out in the rain, my favorite part, for a second it took my mind to a time, first day here, just some days ago, in the rain..
those green eyes...
Harry...
"okay at least tell me if I'm looking okay." She said, acting like she is hurt.
"you are fine." I said looking at her, her hair curled at the end, with a black dress on, leaving some to imagination.
"have I told you he is a pop star??" She asked with excitement.
I don't listen to music much, I prefer reading, not that confident to start writing yet but I'll do that too, one day.
"a pop star?? Be careful! Pop stars are no Darcy!!" I joked, glancing at the book again.
" he's my Darcy."she smiled. Taking her coat, breathing in and out smiling and looking at her phone screen, I don't need to see the screen to say she's checking the mirror again,I giggled standing up and pushing her out the door.
"just enjoy." I said and she smiled.
"be careful birdy."
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I was alone again but this time it was good, I could think of Darcy...
the ego...
The passion...
The love...
The kisses...
The kiss...
Harry...

Notes

I can't believe it's the second day for this story!!!
it seems more than that!;)
love u all
XoxoxoX
A.m