one last dream(just an innocent darkness)

The weather is thick, I can feel little rain drops on my bare shoulders, as I breath in and out heavily, harry stoped looking at me amazed, yea for sure I'm acting wired but it's like I'm drunk, drunk of the beautiful things I was missing for a long long time, I'm amazed myself!
How could I hold my self back for that long!?
how could I close my eyes and not see the fact that I was breathing that the sky was still blue, that it still rains and that I can love all this little things around me.
"so you like the rain??"he asked.
with a childish grin on his face looking away.
I smiled, do I like the rain? If I was 16 or so I just would think it's depressing to love the rain, but now?
it makes me warm, shows me I can still feel.
"yea, I think I love it." I said.
I'm discovering new things...inside my soul, simple small things I didn't know a person can find, maybe I wasn't ash after all, maybe I could still be a little like fire, burn and enjoy, then I'm okay if I turn to ash again...
"so why are you in England, I'm sure it's not just the rain!"he smiled again looking at me, his eyes are beautiful, his voice is familiar but...
" I'm here to see a friend." I said.
"a boy friend ?"he asked with a raspy voice.
A boy friend?yea right, like normal girls...
I never needed that, of course I needed love but not to drag someone into my life, into this life...
It was hard enough, there was no need to add more drama to it.
"nah, just a good friend of mine, so...why are you here?you live here?"
he said he was from England and well his accent pretty much shows it and a royal name...
"no, I don live here, just here to see someone."he said.
"a girlfriend?." I couldn't help but to ask.
"you know how to turn things around!...no my mum." Oh sweet, I think I miss mine too but I love her even more for giving me wings to fly, to be here and to have a normal conversation this time not about medication...
"oh nice!so what do you study at uni?you are at uni right?."
he seems 21 or so...
he stoped again, looking at me strangely like I'm from another planet!
"l...um...do you know...."he couldn't finish his words and just put his black sunglasses on, when I looked at the direction he was looking...ok just breathe Rosa, maybe teenagers run together in special days!!!!!um okay and cry while they are running to other people?...To us??!!!
"just look forward."harry took my hand in his then leaning me closer.
"just run." What?why? I don't think it's a good idea for me!!
"um okay...." am I crazy??
well maybe because now I'm running.
The rain turned to almost a shower, just perfect!
I couldn't catch my breath anymore as we turned left to almost a dark place.
I couldn't help and just coughed heavily asking for the air to just find it way to my lungs.
I felt a hand placed on my shoulder.
"are you okay Rosa?!" Well I'm alive after running!! That's a good thing!!
I think I'm ok, it was...a great feeling...apart from my breathing difficulty it's a strange good day after all!!
taking off in London, still smelling like coffee, running with a British cute boy in the streets on a rainy day...
"yeah, I'm good...What was all of that about??."
I looked up at him who was caring my bag, he is...looking directed to my lips??!!his hair seems longer when it's wet...
I can't help it my arms are around his neck, slowly leaning him closer never losing his eyes.
He comes to look at my eyes, his green eyes meet mine and it's crazy! How I can feel butterflies, how I'm melting...
our lips crush and I'm lost...
it's like this moment is all I have...
it's good to be able to feel...
to be able to hold...
to simply be able to kiss...
To be normal...
But this wasn't normal...
it's magic...
Who are you harry?!
what are you?!

Notes

Hello!!
:))
I think sometimes we just forget what an amazing gift we have...
That we can breath, live, love and feel...

Luv u all to the moon n back:)