one last dream(just an innocent darkness)

It was finally the day I've never thought I would face...
I had to tell him...
But I was nervous, worried...
I was worried, not for him leaving me...
But for his heart to be broken...
For his dreams to be shattered...
For his days to be rainy...
For his light, turning to an endless darkness...
For him turning to the old me...
The old me without his heart...
The old me without those green eyes...
The old me with broken wings...
The old me without his love...
The me without him...
The broken old me...
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" Rosa?! Are you okay in there?!" I heard birdy from the other side of my closed door.
"uh...yeah, yeah I'm good." I said, whipping my tears from my face.
"okay...harry called... I thought you were sleeping, so he said he'll see you tonight when he's back ...are you...are you avoiding him or something!?"she asked sounding sad.
Am I !? I don't know...
it's like I want to run away! Exactly at the same time I want to see him, hug him, tell him how much he matters, tell him the things I never said, tell him that his my air, my everything...
" Rosa!?"
" no birdy, I'm not avoiding him!" Of course, I am.
" I'm not a 6 year old birdy!!" Well, I sure as hell act like one.
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I slowly opened the door as I got into his apartment placing the keys in my bag.
Yeah I have the keys, no it's my first time coming here.
I received this message from him, saying he would come back to his place.
All of them go back home, after the tour is over, I think I'll just tell him that I'm sick and I'll leave!
great plan Arosa!!
Well it's my only plan!I can't think! It's just impossible to think clearly when it's about harry, I'm just impossible when it comes to him!!
I looked around amazed, if I didn't know harry, I would simply say great taste for a guy!
But harry?? he's different, this place is one hundred percent him, different, beautiful...
I looked around, okay I better turn the lights on...
suddenly my attention was dragged to something, candles!?
small white candles on the floor showing me a way to follow!
I couldn't help it my heart beating so fast, so fast that the only thing that I could hear was the sound of it, beating and beating, he was here and this candles?!
I breathed in and out, what are you doing to me, how can I ever let go!?
it guided me up stairs, this place is big!
without knowing and just following the candles I was now standing in front of a room, okay...Rosa just focus, I closed my eyes like a child who close her eyes making a wish asking for it to come true...
I slowly entered the room, empty! Okay are you playing hide and seek?? I giggled.
I'm going crazy one second so upset about everything then I can feel butterflies in my stomach, good ones, feeling alive, so alive...
"hey..." I suddenly heard harry behind me...
placing his lips on the back of my neck, I could freez this moment and just relive it! Over and over again...
Is it too much to ask for something great, for something magical, for time to stop running and leaving me all behind??
" I've missed you..." he said and it's all I needed to let a tear fall...

Notes

Hii!!
I've missed you all so much!!!
thanks for your support!:)luv u all sooooo much!
I think I've made so many good friends here and I'm just so thankful;)
Today is one of those special days!! It's an amazing day, the day that an amazing person was born;)
All I can say and give my friend is just a simple happy birthday and of course if I could give the world to you that wouldn't be enough!!
I wish you the happiness of the world and the life with a lightness brighter than the sun:))

Happy birthday nikkiiii;)
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thank u all again for your support and loving words, luv all of u more and more everyday!
TC:)
luv ya!!!
A.M