Tour had continued on as usual for the boys and the girls and I. It was almost like that first day never happened. No one had brought it up and I don’t think anyone would.

Luke and I had been spending some one on one time together. It was really nice getting to know him on a deeper level. I knew I shouldn’t be letting him in but I couldn’t help it. He was a great kid. It had only been a week since the first day we snuck off together but I felt like I knew him so much more.

On the other hand, I had also been hanging out with Calum. He was also as sweet as possible. I felt like I had barely seen anyone other than those two boys since starting the tour and I was weirdly okay with that. I knew Ashton and scar were really hitting it off, although I was worried about that, I let it happen. Skylar and Mikey had been hanging out but Piper was always around so I wasn’t sure that was going anywhere. I had tried to get Cal to go hang out with Piper but it never worked. He’d always be like ‘why when I could hang out with you?’ it was frustrating and I felt really bad but I couldn’t help it.

I knew I would end up leaning one way more than the other but right now I couldn’t be sure. If I felt right with Luke, I’d end up with him and winning the bet. If Calum was more right, I would end up with him and lose the bet. It didn’t matter to me at this point. I just wanted myself to be happy. Sure that seems selfish but I can’t help it. I needed to do what was best for me and right now that was seeing who was better to be with.

“Earth to Kenz?” Ashton was snapping his fingers in front of my face.

“What? How’d you get in here?” I said. I was in my hotel room, alone.

“Scarlett let me in. we had just went out for a bit.” He shrugged. “I asked her to let me in so I could talk to you.”

“You fancy her, don’t you?” I wiggled my eyebrows.

“Not really, she’s cool to hang out with.” He said.

“Give it time.” I chuckled. “So anyways, what’s up?”

“I don’t know, just worried about my sis.” He said taking a seat next to me on the bed.

“Why the fuck are you worried?” I rolled my eyes at him, resting my head on his shoulder.

This is something I had missed while he had been gone for the past couple years. I hadn’t been able to just sit down and talk to Ashton like we used too. We were always so close growing up, we were still close now, it was just harder to have these moments.

“Well for starters, you’ve been hanging out with Calum and Luke, a lot, separately.” He snickered.

“Yes, point?” I sighed.

“Be careful, okay?”

“Is this the part where you give the whole ‘they’re more than bandmates they’re like my brothers don’t hurt them’ type of speech?” I giggled.

“No, this is where I give you my ‘you’re my real sister and you mean more than they ever could to me so be careful and don’t hurt yourself because I love you too much to have you breaking your own heart’ type of speech.” He smiled down at me.

“I’m not going to break my heart Ashton, I’m just having fun.” I punched him softly in the gut.

“Well then in that case, don’t break their hearts, okay?” he eyed me seriously. “I know Cal really likes you. I’m not entirely sure what the scoop on Luke is but I’ll figure it out.”

“Great, when you do let me know cause I can’t either.” I sighed, falling back onto my bed.

“What do you mean? You’re the one who’s always hanging out with him.” Ashton chuckled, falling down next to me.

“Ash, do you remember when we were young and we used to stay up and sneak into each other’s room because we thought the monsters would get us? And then in the morning mom and dad would find us passed out together?” he nodded yes, letting me know he was still listening. “Why can’t we still be like that? With the only worry in the world being monsters that don’t even exist?”

“Monsters do still exist, Kenz, they just are in different forms.” Ashton sighed next to me.

“I’m confused Ashton, I know it’s only been a week but I’m confused.”

“About the guys?” he questioned.

“Yes, it’s like I came on this tour expecting things to just go perfect with Calum and then Piper…” I stopped myself.

“What did Piper do?” he sat up to look at me.

“Nothing, never mind.” I caught myself.

“Kenz, you have to tell me now.” He said sternly.

“She had to go and say how cute Luke is and how he we’d be cute together.” I mumbled, thinking on my feet.

“Hmm, I never thought of you and Luke but I could see it.” Ashton said. “Either way I’ll be happy. I don’t think they see each other as competition yet either. Calum said the other night that he thinks you two are just good friends.”

“We are, I guess for now. I have to figure out what he thinks.” I shrugged. “It’s only been a week; we have a whole tour ahead of us.”

“I know sis, do what you think is best. I won’t be mad at you either way. It might be weird at family functions though later down the road in a couple years.” He chuckled.

“What do you mean?”

“Oh hey, this is my bandmate/brother-in-law/father to my nephew, don’t worry he was my friend first though.” He laughed.

“Gross. I don’t even want to think about getting married and having babies.” I rolled my eyes. “It’ll be the same thing when you’re off banging Scarlett.”

“I’m not going to be banging her ever.” It was his time to roll his eyes.

“Yes huh. Give it time, or when you’re hammered.”

“I feel like she’s been with every dude in our town though.” He groaned.

“No, she gets the rep but she really hasn’t. If anyone knows, it’s me.”

“Are we in single digits, teens, triple numbers?” he looked at me concerned.

“Single digits you perv.” I slapped his arm. “I bet you’re higher.”

“Nope. Single digits.” He chuckled. “You’re probably the highest here.”

“So what if I am?” I nudged him.

“Calum doesn’t like them easy.” He joked, pushing me off the bed.

“HEY! I’m not easy!” I stuck out my tongue. “I’m only in single digits too. So ha.”

“Whatever helps you sleep at night Kenz.” He said, as his phone began to ring. “Yeah?” I watched as he had a conversation. “I’m in Mackenzie’s room.” He paused. “EW! She’s my sister you perv.” Another pause. “Yes, I’ll let you in.” he hung up. “My friends are fucks.”

“I don’t even wanna know.” I said, holding my hands up still on the floor.

He got up and opened the door for whoever called. I rolled my eyes as Calum strolled in casually. I swear these two are never apart.

“Hey Kenz.” Calum smiled. “Enjoying our off day?”

“It’s an off day every day for me Cal.” I stuck my tongue out.

“Then why aren’t we doing anything!” he shot back.

“I’m tired, I don’t feel good. That’s why I’m in here in my room. Alone.”

“Hey, I’m gonna go eat I’m starving.” Ashton said walking towards the door. “Be safe.”

“What a shit.” I said.

“I’m always safe, I don’t know what he’s talking about.” Calum winked.

“Perv.” I threw the closest thing to me, which happened to be a balled up sock.

“Whatever, you like it.” he wiggled his eyebrows, still leaning against the desk.

I groaned getting up off the floor and crawled onto my bed. I patted the spot next to me. He moved slowly, sitting Indian style facing me. I really didn’t know what do or say. I figured he would leave with Ashton.

“Kenz.” He said looking over to me. I bit my lip nervously.

“Yeah?” I said, making eye contact.

“Never mind.” He shook his head.

“I’m cold.” I said randomly, trying to keep the mood light. It seemed like he wanted to talk about something serious but I just wasn’t in the mood for that. “Come keep me warm.”

He chuckled softly, before looking over at me. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, why?” I said as I scooted under the covers, pulling them back so he could get under too.

“I suppose I could use a nap.” He smiled, crawling under next to me.

I sighed as he pulled the blanket back up over us. I turned on my side, facing away from him. He scooted up behind me, letting his arm fall over my waist. We fit perfectly together. I giggled for no reason. What is it with me giggling? What are these boys doing to me?

“What’s so funny?”

“I don’t know. We fit.” I said. I didn’t mean for it to come out so ‘relationshipy’ but it did.

“We do. I would agree to that.” He smiled. “Kenz, do you like me?”

I rolled over a little so I could face him. I wanted to be able to read his expression.

“What are you talking about? Of course I like you Cal.” I said, finally facing him completely.

“No Kenz.” He paused. “Do you like me?”

“Calum, I told you it’s not that easy.”

“Forget whatever the reason that you ‘can’t’ like me is. Do you like me?” he leaned his forehead against mine.

“Calum.” I sighed again. “Yes.” I finally gave in. I liked Cal, but I also liked Luke at the same time, it was only the first week of tour! I decided I should probably mention that. “It’s only been like a week though Calum.”

“Yes, but we’ve known each other for how long! And we’ve been talking way before the tour even started.”

“Cal.” I sighed. I wanted to like him, I really did.

“Kenz.” I felt his lips on my forehead. “Let make me take you out on our next free night.”

“Take me out?” I questioned.

“Yeah, as in on a date.” He smiled down at me.

“Calum Hood, I will not go on a date with you.”

“And why not Mackenzie Irwin?”

“I like it better then you call me Kenz.” I blurted out, quickly covering my mouth.

“OH yeah? Is that right, Kenz?”

“Stop and because I should start hanging out with the girls more. I’m always with one of you.”

“They won’t notice you’re gone for a couple hours, Kenz.” He smirked.

“Calum.” I said sternly. He stared down at me, never breaking eye contact.

“Kenz.” He smiled.

“Stop saying my name like that.” I said.

“Why Kenz?”

“It almost sounds like you’re trying to be seductive.”

“And what if I am, Kenz?” he placed another kiss on my forehead. “Just go out, one night that’s all I’m asking. Please Kenz?”

“Fine. One night.” I said firmly so he knew I wasn’t messing around.

“You just made me the happiest guy alive, Kenz.”

“You could make me the happiest girl alive right now, if you wanted too.” I bit my lip. I looked up at him only to be met by his big brown eyes already looking at me. I suddenly had the urge just to kiss him. I wanted to kiss him and never stop. I had no idea where the feeling came from but it was here. Maybe I did like Calum more than I originally thought.

The bet crossed the back of my mind again. I really wanted to win but at the same time I really wanted to go on dates and make out with Calum without feeling guilty about it. Maybe I would tell the girls I quit tomorrow. It was already getting late and I didn’t feel like getting up right now and ruin the moment. It could wait.

“How could I do that, Kenz?” he smirked, as if he already knew the answer.

“Kiss me.” I said and without hesitation our lips were melted together.

His hands roamed up and down my side as I deepened the kiss. I wrapped my free arm around his neck, playing with the hair at the bottom of his neck. He gently tugged on my bottom lip causing a light moan to escape from my mouth. He took this as his opportunity to slip his tongue into my mouth. He was the perfect kisser; this was the best kiss I’ve had in my 18 year of existence. He shifted his weight so he was leaning over me more. I laid flat on my back as he moved the rest of the way over top of me. I realized what was happening and needed it to stop. I couldn’t do this with Cal right now. I wasn’t ready for that. I wanted to build a foundation, not just hook up.

“Cal…” I moaned as he nipped at the bare skin along my neck. I wrapped my arms around him tightly pulling him as close as I could. I know I should try harder to stop this but I couldn’t. He felt so good. He was straddling my waist, running his hands along my torso. I felt his fingers lift the hem of my shirt. ‘Stop him Mackenzie’ my conscious yelled at me. Instead, I lifted my body up so it would be easier to get my shirt off. I laid back down and looked up at cal. his eyes were wide open, scanning up and down my body.

“You saw me in my bathing suit.” I giggled at his face.

“But this, this is so much better. It’s so much less fabric.” He kept his eyes glued to my chest. “Kenz, you look, wow. You’re perfect.”

He smiled as he ran his hand from my waist to my breasts. He ran the pad of his thumb over my clothed nipple. I closed my eyes with excitement. I’ve have had sex before, I had guys touch me but I never had the sparks and excitement like I did with Calum. From our kiss to right now, everything I was experiencing with Calum was way better. He brought his lips back down to mine. It was my turn to run my hands along his body. I tugged at the bottom of his shirt, quickly removing it in one swift motion. I smirked, tracing over his defined muscles. I suppose you couldn’t run around on stage every night and be out of shape. I licked my lips before he returned his to them. Our bodies moved in perfect harmony before I broke apart to catch my breath.

“Calum.” I said softly.

“I know Kenz.” He sighed, lowering his head.

“It’s not that I don’t want too.” I reached up to cup his face.

“ME either.” He smiled down at me.

“We should wait.”

“I agree.” He leaned down, pressing his lips to mine.

“Stay?” I asked as he repositioned himself into the big spoon position.

“Yes, of course.” He kissed the top of my head. “But if I’m staying I can’t sleep in shoes and my jeans.”

“Yeah, I probably don’t want to either.” I chuckled.

We quickly spread apart to remove the tight fabric from our lower halves. We tossed them messily onto the floor. I’d worry about it tomorrow morning.

“Hope you don’t mind my cute boxer briefs.” He wigged his eyebrows pulling me in close.

“Hope you don’t mind my cute thong.” I smirked pressing my practically bare bum to his crotch.

“Ignore that.” He chuckled nervously at his ‘excitement’. I’m sure it was there before he took his pants off from earlier but was just now noticeable to me.

“How am I supposed to ignore something so…big.” I whispered.

“Kenz, don’t tempt me.” He growled into my ear.

“Sorry. We can save that for after a few dates.” I joked.

“So I get more than one?” he asked, excited.

“Maybe, let’s see how the first one goes.” I smiled even though he couldn’t see me in the dark room. “When’s your next night off?”

“Three nights from now.” He sighed. “We have back to backs tomorrow and the next night.”

“I love watching you guys, you’re so cute and fun.” I smiled as he gripped me tighter.

“I’m singing to you sometimes, you know that?”

“What? During Good Girls? Cause I know that’s totally about me.” I joked.

“Kenz, you are the farthest thing from a good girl that hasn’t been caught. You give the name ‘bad girl’ its meaning.” He snickered.

“Whatever, you like it.” I pressed my butt back into him again.

“I do, maybe too much.” He laughed nervously. “It’s late, get some sleep.”

“Goodnight Calum.” I snuggled in tighter to his grip.

“Goodnight, Kenz.” He chuckled, kissing my bare shoulder.

Our breathing fell into a shallow rhythm as we both let sleep over come us. It was nice falling asleep wrapped in Calum’s arms. I definitely could get used to this.


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“What is that obnoxious noise?” I asked, rolling over to hit a hard body.

“Good morning beautiful.” He smiled, still not fully awake either.

“Someone’s pounding on the door.” I groaned. “Scar get it.”

When there was no answer I lifted my head to look over Calum’s body. She wasn’t in there. What? Whatever. I wasn’t getting up to answer the door. I looked over at the clock. 6 in the morning? Everyone can fuck off.

“Fuck off!” I yelled at the door.

Suddenly the door came bursting open and someone flew to the curtains pulling them wide open.

“Fuck off mate.” Calum said as he pulled the blanket over our heads.

“CALUM?” I heard Ashton shout. “CALUM HOOD ARE YOU IN MY SISTERS BED?!”

“Yes, what do you want?” Calum asked popping his head out from under the blanket.

“AND WHY DON’T YOU HAVE A SHIRT ON?” Ashton looked between the two of us. I noticed I had let the blanket fall to my waist as I sat up. I was in only a bra and my underwear. Calum was in only his underwear. Great, this looked so great.

“Who doesn’t have a shirt on?” Luke came into the room with a huge smile on his face, it falling when he saw the sight before him.

“It’s nothing like it seems.” I rolled my eyes.

“Yeah, seriously.” Calum backed me up.

“Really? Cause it looks like you two got it on! Half naked with clothes all thrown about!” Ashton raised his voice.

“WE DIDN’T.” I raised my voice back.

“Could have fooled me.” Luke said looking hurt as he turned to leave the room but stopped when Calum started talking.

“Seriously, we were talking and we fell asleep.” Calum said.

“You fell asleep in your underwear?” Luke rolled his eyes this time.

“We took everything else off so we’d be comfy. Get real. I wouldn’t have sex with your bandmate and then not kick him out before someone saw.” I crossed my arms over my chest.

“Stop staring at her boobs, Luke.” Ashton rolled his eyes.

“What…her what? No…no I’m not.” He stuttered.

“Okay champ.” I shot back. “Believe what you want, Calum and I did not have sex last night.” I stated flatly.

“I conquer. We did not. Wouldn’t I be way more excited if we did?” he raised a valid point.

“I guess.” Ashton shrugged.

“Whatever.” Luke looked pissed as he left the room.

“LUKE!” I shouted. I didn’t need him mad at me. This was all just a misunderstanding.

“Whatever, let him go Kenz.” Calum said.

“Yes, he’ll get over it, if I did.” Ashton said following behind Luke. “OH yeah, we’re going to breakfast in a half hour if you two want to join.”

“We’ll be ready.” Calum said.

“Shower separately, please.” Ashton looked like he was begging.

“Planned on it.” I flicked him off before he disappeared. Calum stood, picking his clothes scattered up off the floor, putting them on piece by piece.

“Well I should go get ready.” Calum chuckled. “I had a nice night even if we didn’t ‘get it on’ as Ashton so elegantly put it.”

“Me too. Let’s do that again sometime. You’re a proper snuggle.” I laughed, hopping up out of bed.

“See you at breakfast, Kenz.” He said in that tone.

“Yes, see you then.” I smiled as he leaned into kiss me. I was confused. Wasn’t that something people who dated did? We weren’t dating.

“Sorry. That might have been weird.” He laughed, nervously.

“No you’re okay.” I couldn’t keep the stupid grin off my face.

I watched as he walked out of the room closing the door behind him. I gathered up an outfit for today and headed into the bathroom. I couldn’t stop smiling. I was badass Mackenzie Irwin, what was I doing smiling? Fuck everyone and especially fuck feelings. I decided I needed to distance myself from both Calum and Luke. I couldn’t deal with this shit. Feelings weren’t an option. Winning the bet was.

Notes

heeeeyyyyyyyyy. i promise the next chapter will have more than just Kenz in it! I just had this idea and had to share. OOPS.

She's so confused with life. Is this going to affect her and Calum, her and Luke? Oh no. We'll have to see.

Let me know what you think and I love you all so much xx