I'm Not Fine At All

Leslie's P. O.V. After my little encounter with Justin I lock the door and turn to the boys. "And you let him in why?" I asked. "We didn't let him in he just opened the door."Ashton said. "He doesn't have a key?"Luke questioned. "No, you losers probably left it unlocked." I answered. I sighed before quick going back to my room. I found Calum laying on my bed with his hands over his eyes. He looked tired and stressed and I instantly felt guilt. "I hate this." He said making me jump out of my thoughts. I slowly closed the door and walked to the edge of my bed, sitting by Cal's feet. "I know Cal, I'm so sorry. I hate it too." "Well you don't act like it!" He said standing up. "Calum please-"I said standing up to face him. "Oh, im so sorry little Miss Perfect has something to say.She wants to tell the world how in love she is with Justin Fucking Bieber.Happy and in Love Leslie is going out to interviews, premiers, and dates with her boyfriend that everyone loves, right?" "That's not it,Cal, and you know it." I said. "Oh, okay so you just want me to act like everything in the world is fine? You want me to lie to everyone and tell them I'm okay? Newsflash Leslie I'm not like you.I cant pretend things are fine when they're not." He yelled before leaving my room. I quickly followed him to the living room and lightly touched his shoulder. "Calum, im so sorry." Was all I managed to say. "Have fun with Bieber on your next date."he spat, quickly leaving and slamming the door in the process. "C-can you guys please go with him and make sure he doesn't do anything stupid?"I asked.I heard the boys whisper a bit but I didn't really pay attention, instead I stared at the door. I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to find Luke.He gave me a small smile and hugged me, then Ashton followed his actions and soon it was only me and Michael. We walked to the couch, where the credits to the movie were now rolling. "You know he loves you right?" He said breaking our silence."Yeah, I know" "He just feels..."Mikey stopped to look for the right words. "Angry, frustrated, scared? Yes Michael, I know."I continued for him. "Les, I know you probably feel the same, but for Calum-"I quickly interupted Michael. "Its different, and probably a whole lot harder since he has to see me with someone else and lie through his teeth, even to his own family.And to top it off he was in a car crash and lost his memory.But he regained it.I know Michael. Don't you think I've thought about this a thousand times? Dont you think I worry about how this is all affecting him? I wonder all the time if it's better for us to break up or stay together.I know I'm a terrible person. I'm terrible and selfish and Calum deserves so much better than me" I said, tears falling by this point. "Hey, come on that's not what I was going to say." "But its the truth. I'm not good for him Mikey."I cried. He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. "Everything is going to be okay.He loves you and you love him, that's all that matters. Trust me everything is going to turn out fine, even if there may be some bumps along the way." After I had stopped crying, I just cuddled into Mikey."Will you stay over?"I asked hopefully. "Of course, I don't have a ride home anyway." I looked up and saw him smirking down at me. I playfully hit his chest. I knew he would stay even if he did have a ride, which is why I've always loved him like a brother. "We haven't had a girls night in like forever. "He said mimicking my American accent. "I need more girl friends."I said rolling me eyes and getting up, Michael following me.We went to my room where I quickly grabbed my pjs and threw them on my bed where Michael was sitting. "Um Les? As hot as I'd look in short shorts and a crop top, I think I'd rather keep my dignity."he said. "Those are mine, smart one.You can use Cal's sweats and shirt."I said handing it to him and taking the shorts and crop top, which was actually Cal's shirt.He went to the bathroom while I changed in my room and got ready for a"Girls Night"with him.

Notes

Anyone hear about Michael, ugh my poor baby :'( i really Hope he's doing better.♡♥♡♥ Sorry if there are mistakes its late, im tired and I have school early in the morning and a bunch of other things going on tomorrow. Anyway I hope you guys enjoyed thanks to those of you have subscribed and voted it really means a lot :) Until next time my awesome Amnesiacs :p