I'm Not Fine At All
I Need To Fix Things
Calum's P.O.V.
I layed on my bed thinking of how badly I screwed things up. I had already blown up like this a lot in the past two months. Then id go out and drink or do something i later regret. Our relationship is rocky as it is, one thing could send us over the edge and I didn't want it to.Did I want to walk around without a care if people saw us together? Did I want to hold her and tell the world she was mine and I was hers? Of course I did, but id rather have it like this then not see her at all. I groan before checking my phone to see the time. 2:30a.m. I had a flight to Australia at 6a.m. which gave me about three hours to fix things. I get up and put on the closest jeans and shirt I can find before quickly running to the living room of the house we were staying at. I look around for the keys but I couldn't find them. Ashton must have them so I wanted to just sneak in his room and grab them but he had to leave his door locked. So, I did what anyone in my situation would do, I banged the door as hard as I could while yelling his name. "its like two in the morning what do you want?" He groaned opening the door. "I need the car keys."I stated. "What is all the yelling about?" A groggy Luke asked as he came toward us. "I need to fix things I only have three hours untill I go to Australia and I'll be damned if im gonna leave the love of my life without telling her how much I love her." "Get in the car, I'll drive you."Ashton said. "Thanks." I smiled. Luke came along and I had texted Michael telling him that we were on our way. *skip drive* Mikey opened the door for us and I saw Leslie asleep on the couch.I walked up to her and took in her features. She looked As if she hadn't slept in a while.As gently as I could I picked her up and took her to her room. She moved around slightly so her back was facing me. "Thanks Mikey. And don't tell Cal." She said. I stayed there for a minute processing what she said before turning around and carefully closing the door. I walked up to the guys who were whispering on the couch. "What did she say?" I asked Michael. He looked at me confused. "I know she said something about me because she said 'Thanks Mikey Dont tell Cal'" "Nothing don't worry about it. "He said shaking his head. "Of course im going to worry. Just tell me" "Just drop it" "Just fucking tell me!"I said louder than I should have. "Fine, you wanna know? She fucking hates herself for putting you through this. She thinks she doesn't deserve you and that you can move on and find someone so much better.Which I think is bull. Less drama sure but you'll never find someone as good as her.So, I suggest you start taking this like a man instead of blowing up and leaving one of us here for her while you get wasted, then when you come to your senses come back and beg her to stay with you." Michael said. I gulped. I may be his bandmate but she's closer to him than I am so I do not underestimate his ability to punch me. "I-I.... you're right."I said.
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I grabbed the fire extinguisher and quickly put out the fire. "What the hell?"I looked up to see Leslie. "Im so sorry. I-I wanted to make you breakfast to apologize and then I left the oil in to long an-" "Calum" she said making me shut up. She looked angry and stressed, I expected her to yell at me but she just sighed. She walked over and hugged me. I let the fire extinguisher go and held her tightly. "I hate you all for waking me up. " she said letting me go."And for almost burning down my new house."
I layed on my bed thinking of how badly I screwed things up. I had already blown up like this a lot in the past two months. Then id go out and drink or do something i later regret. Our relationship is rocky as it is, one thing could send us over the edge and I didn't want it to.Did I want to walk around without a care if people saw us together? Did I want to hold her and tell the world she was mine and I was hers? Of course I did, but id rather have it like this then not see her at all. I groan before checking my phone to see the time. 2:30a.m. I had a flight to Australia at 6a.m. which gave me about three hours to fix things. I get up and put on the closest jeans and shirt I can find before quickly running to the living room of the house we were staying at. I look around for the keys but I couldn't find them. Ashton must have them so I wanted to just sneak in his room and grab them but he had to leave his door locked. So, I did what anyone in my situation would do, I banged the door as hard as I could while yelling his name. "its like two in the morning what do you want?" He groaned opening the door. "I need the car keys."I stated. "What is all the yelling about?" A groggy Luke asked as he came toward us. "I need to fix things I only have three hours untill I go to Australia and I'll be damned if im gonna leave the love of my life without telling her how much I love her." "Get in the car, I'll drive you."Ashton said. "Thanks." I smiled. Luke came along and I had texted Michael telling him that we were on our way. *skip drive* Mikey opened the door for us and I saw Leslie asleep on the couch.I walked up to her and took in her features. She looked As if she hadn't slept in a while.As gently as I could I picked her up and took her to her room. She moved around slightly so her back was facing me. "Thanks Mikey. And don't tell Cal." She said. I stayed there for a minute processing what she said before turning around and carefully closing the door. I walked up to the guys who were whispering on the couch. "What did she say?" I asked Michael. He looked at me confused. "I know she said something about me because she said 'Thanks Mikey Dont tell Cal'" "Nothing don't worry about it. "He said shaking his head. "Of course im going to worry. Just tell me" "Just drop it" "Just fucking tell me!"I said louder than I should have. "Fine, you wanna know? She fucking hates herself for putting you through this. She thinks she doesn't deserve you and that you can move on and find someone so much better.Which I think is bull. Less drama sure but you'll never find someone as good as her.So, I suggest you start taking this like a man instead of blowing up and leaving one of us here for her while you get wasted, then when you come to your senses come back and beg her to stay with you." Michael said. I gulped. I may be his bandmate but she's closer to him than I am so I do not underestimate his ability to punch me. "I-I.... you're right."I said.
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I grabbed the fire extinguisher and quickly put out the fire. "What the hell?"I looked up to see Leslie. "Im so sorry. I-I wanted to make you breakfast to apologize and then I left the oil in to long an-" "Calum" she said making me shut up. She looked angry and stressed, I expected her to yell at me but she just sighed. She walked over and hugged me. I let the fire extinguisher go and held her tightly. "I hate you all for waking me up. " she said letting me go."And for almost burning down my new house."
Notes
Im so sorry I haven't updated My family came over and its been very busy (also NEVER volunteer for summer school if you dont need it you'll hate yourself, I learned that the hard way) Also sorry that this chapter is all over the place and not that good but its 3 a.m. and im falling asleep. Its not letting me edit or delete my last chapter any ideas what I should do? (I noticed the spacing got messed up and its bothering me)
ZAYN'S COVER OF NO TYPE IS KILLING ME (I hate the original but love his ♡♥♡♥)
STILL NEED A NEW CHARACTER
okay now end of long boring author's note Thank you all my Amnesiacs :) ♥♡♥♡
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7/9/15