Starting Over

*Liam’s POV*
The lads and I arrive at Heathrow with our security and all of our belongings for tour. The fans and paps are out in force today. I don’t mind that much. Without Samy around I’m less concerned about getting mobbed. That or I’m just too depressed to worry about it. I’m stopping and taking pictures and signing autographs when a fan’s question stops me dead in my tracks. I turn around and face her trying to remain calm.
“What did you say?” I confront her calmly.
“I asked how you’re doing after Samy rejected you. You must be heartbroken. We all know what happened” she says straightforwardly.
“What do you mean you all know? How did anyone find out? It only happened 15 hours ago!” I say louder than I intended.
She looks at me startled, I can tell that I’ve frightened her.
“Someone hacked into the Skype call that you were having with her family and saw you propose. They saw her run out too. It’s all over YouTube. We all saw you cry. We all saw your heartache. Samy is such a bitch. I would marry you in an instant!” she says rather aggressively.
“Samy is not a bitch, it was all my fault.” I respond before storming away to find Niall.
We arrive at our private boarding area to wait for our flight. I immediately find Niall and ask to borrow his laptop. My computer is stored in my luggage at the moment. He agrees after I explain what the fans told me.
“Oh my god” I say after I find what I’m looking for.
All the boys gather around and stare in awe at the computer screen. The fans were right, it’s there. It’s all there. All the events of last night. The humiliation. Everything for everyone to see. For me to relive over and over again.
“Oh for god’s sake” I hear Niall grunt. Before I realize it, my phone is vibrating incessantly with twitter notifications from fans all with aggressive words towards Samy. I notice some from the boys as well telling the fans to delete the videos and please back off for right now. They explain that there is more to the situation but that for right now, it just needs to be left alone. I pick up my phone and respond to some. I also tweet out my own saying
@Real_Liam_Payne: “I appreciate the support but please don’t hate Samy.
There is still love between us but some things are not meant to be”
and with that I turn my phone off and board the plane. First stop, New York.

*Samy’s POV*
The boys are on their way to New York today to start their tour. They won’t be in Pennsylvania until April. That’s 4 months from now. Hopefully by that time, we will be able to at least be friendly towards each other. I would love to see the other boys; I’d love to see Liam too. He will always be important to me, even if we never speak again. I step off the plane in Harrisburg, PA and am greeted by a familiar face. Chas is standing there with a chauffeur sign that says “Sleepy Koala”. I giggle. He used to call me that all the time in college because of my obsession with Koalas and my constant need to sleep. I drop my stuff and sprint into his arms. He lifts me up and twirls me around, obviously excited to see me. Before I realize what’s happening he has his lips planted on mine. I am too shocked and too exhausted to realize what’s going on and I begin to kiss him back longing for it to be Liam. But something is wrong, this isn’t Liam. This feels so different, so wrong. Where’s the scruffy beard he keeps trying to grow? Where are those strong, protective arms that always hold me too tight? I see flashes of light and hear young voices yelling
“What I whore!”
“See?!??! I told you she was cheating on Liam!”
“SLUT!!!!!!”
“Bitch!”
Wait, who are they talking about. Suddenly it hits me. There are fans here. They have seen me kissing Chas. What were those flashes though? Pictures, shit, they were pictures. This is going to be all over the internet now. Good job, Samy. Not even 12 hours after the love of your life proposes and you turn him down before you’re kissing another guy. Worst of all, it’s your best friend who you know your other best friend is in love with. Yep, I’m a class act alright. Seriously, I thought I would have stopped this stupid drama shit in high school. Apparently not.
Chas and I walk to the car and head home. I’m greeted by my parents who look at me with understanding faces. They get why I did what I did. They still think that I will regret it though, I already do but it’s too late now. There’s no turning back. Liam hates me for mangling his heart and now it’s time to get my life in order, again, and focus on myself.

*Liam’s POV*
The boys and I have been in New York for 3 days now. I haven’t even so much as turned my phone on since we’ve gotten here. The concerts have been going really well so far though which makes me happy. I love seeing everyone so excited and happy to see us. It makes it almost all worth it. I’ve been trying not to think about Samy which is easier said than done. Everything in my suitcase reminds me of her, it should, she packed it for me. She picked out all her favorite clothes on me and made sure that they were in my bags. I open up my zip pocket in my laptop case, deciding to Skype with my mom. I see something sticking out of one of the compartments. It’s a photo of Samy and me with a note that says “I told you that I’d never be far. Now all you have to do is look down and I’ll be there with you J Love, Samy” I smile at how perfect it looks. God I miss her so much but she needs her space. I can’t be selfish. I need to let her be. She clearly doesn’t want anything to do with me. She probably hates me now. I see that my mom and Samy are both signed in to Skype and I click on my mom. She and I talk for a little less than an hour before I decide to go find Louis. El has time off from school this term so she is travelling with us off and on. I walk into their room (they always leave their door open unless they’re um… “busy”) and stop dead in my tracks. I hear the giggle, I hear the voice, the voice of my love. The voice of my Samy. I peek from behind the corner trying to catch a glimpse of her before I let them know that I’m here. I sneak a peek at the camera and see Samy sitting on some guys lap in front of her computer. I hear them both laugh and I notice that he has got his arms around her protectively. Suddenly I hear her shriek. I turn my head towards the screen again and see that he is tickling her relentlessly.
Rage and jealously erupt from inside me and I storm out of the room, slamming the door behind me. What the hell is she doing cuddling up to another guy?????? Rationally I know that we are not together and she can do whatever she pleases but the sight of it still makes me sick. After taking some time to calm down and think about the face on the other side of screen I remember hearing about Chas, Raven, Ashly, and Stephanie but I never got the chance to meet them. That must have been Chas or Raven. Samy always said they were best friends and more like some weird flirty brothers and sisters. I relax a little realizing that I was probably just overreacting.
“Liam, you straight now?” I hear Louis’ voice behind me.
“Yeh mate, sorry for storming out, did Samy notice?” I ask.
“Yeh, but I told her that Harry and Niall were rough housing and hit the door. It’s cool.” He answers. He’s an awesome friend, he covered for me.
“Thanks, Lou. I know that I was just overreacting anyway. He’s just a friend.” I say, gratefully.
“Um… Li, you clearly haven’t been on twitter lately” he says hesitantly.
“No, why?” I say as I grab my laptop and head to twitter. It’s quite clear what he’s referring to the moment I’m logged in. There are pictures everywhere from fans, paps, friends, everyone. Pictures of Samy’s homecoming. Pictures of Samy running to him, pictures of Samy being grabbed, hugged, twirled. The worst pictures of all are the ones of Samy getting kissed and kissing him back. They seem to go on forever. My heart shatters. I’m here thinking about her nonstop, praying that she will come back to me after some time. Convincing myself that she loves me just as much as I love her and that all she needs is time to realize that I’m not her ex. That I’m not going to hurt her and all this time she’s been in love with Chas. I wonder if she cheated on me when she was home for that month. Probably. She did hang out with him almost 24/7. I grab my gym bag and my iPod and walk out the door. I put my headphones in and listen to the only song that will make sense to me right now. Fallout by Marianas Trench. The words are perfect for this situation. I’m standing here thinking about how to fix it and she’s acting like it never even happened. She’s abandoned me and taken all of my hopes and dreams of happiness with her. I’m not sure if I’ll ever move on, but as my wrist tat says “Only Time Will Tell…”

Notes

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