Please Stay With Me
I took another shot and I felt the same burning sensation that I have been craving every night for the past few weeks. Every single night I have gone out and got drunk and tonight is no different. I honestly don’t remember the last time I went a day being completely sober. Every night I was using random chicks and alcohol to feel this void that hurt so deep with in my chest. I couldn't stay sober because in all honesty it hurt to fucking much. Louis called me and I told him to meet me here. I have been avoiding the boys as well as everyone else for the past few weeks. The paps soon got word that I’ve pretty much spent every night here so there were already countless stories about how I had a drinking problem. That was a bunch of bullshit I didn't have a drinking problem. I could stop drinking at anytime I wanted, I just didn't want to stop. It didn't take long for Louis to arrive. He tried his best to remain unnoticed, the bar has been packed every since people have found out I’ve been coming here every night.
“Louis! Here have a shot with me!” I said as he walked up to me. He shook his head no and I shrugged. “More for me then.” I downed the two shots quickly.
“Woah mate slow down. Are you drunk?”
“A little.” I said as I began filling anther shot with vodka and drinking it.
“Hey lets slow down. You’ve had enough Harry.” He tried to grabbed the bottle from me but I jerked it away from him.
“Who the fuck are you tell me I’ve had enough? I’m a grown man I’ll decide when I’ve had enough.” I downed another shot. I lost my balance and lost my footing and fell on the floor. I laughed as Louis helped me up.
“Harry you’re out of control. You need to stop.” He lifted me up and sat my down in a chair. “Management isn't happy with you Harry. Everyone is worried about you. Your family, the fans, us! Whats gotten into you?”
“It hurts so much Louis.” I said looking down at the floor and I started to feel tears form in my eyes. He sighed at me and rubbed my back.
“We know Harry. We are all here for you, even Liam and Gabriella. I know they aren’t your favorite people right now but they are worried also. In no way, shape, or form am I condoning what they did but maybe this was a sign Harry. That Gabriella wasn't the one you were meant to be with. Maybe this is a sign that there is someone out there better for you.” I downed four more shots when Louis was speaking. I wiped my mouth with the back of my head.
“No! She is the one for me! She is the only one I’ll ever love! That baby was supposed to be my baby! But fucking Liam went behind my back and took that from me! He took away my girl and this experience I was supposed to share with Gabby!”
“Harry I know you don’t want to hear this but Gabriella is madly in love with Liam! She wants to be with him and he loves her more than anything and wants to be with her! You need to take all this hurt and channel it into something good! Don't just sit on your ass and drink away your problems!”
“I’m going to get her back Louis. I don’t know how but I promise I will fucking get her back!”
“Harry you have to stop. I’m not trying to insensitive I’m trying to be your friend. As your best friend I’m telling you that its in your best interest to try and move on. Actually no you need to move on Harry. I don’t want you to get hurt.”
“I’m not going to get hurt. I’m going to get her back.” I was going to get Gabby back. I just needed to figure out a way to. I tried to get up but I stumbled and Louis caught me. I was pretty fucked up at this point.
“Lets get you home.” I was in too much of a drunken state to even argue with him. As we walked outside all the paps started taking photos and asking me questions. “Don’t say anything, just ignore them Harry.”
I listened to him and just kept my head down. He put me in the passenger seat of his car and slammed the door. I fell asleep on the ride to my flat. I haven't had a full night of sleep in a while. Louis woke me up and he helped me walk inside because I couldn't even stand on my own.
“Louis I miss her. I need to call her.” I reached for my phone, I just need to hear her voice. Louis grabbed my phone.
“No Harry its late and she is probably sleeping. You need to leave her alone.”
“I need to talk to her!” I tried reaching for my phone but he still kept it away from me.
“Harry! Stop you need to listen to me. She is with Liam and they are having a baby girl soon. You need to back off.”
“A baby girl? They are having a girl?” It was hard for me to wrap my head around the fact she is having Liam’s child. I didn't want myself to believe it.
“That was supposed to be my daughter not Liam’s.” I couldn't hold back these tears anymore. I just started to cry not caring that I looked stupid. Louis sat down beside me and rubbed my back.
“I know its hard Harry, but we are all here for you. We will help you get through this.” I cried into his shoulder.
“Louis this pain never goes away! Its like no matter how much I drink or how many girls I sleep with the pain is still there! Everything I do I hear her voice and every girl I’m with I see her face. She never goes away. She is all I can think about. She is all that I want.”
I cried even harder knowing that right now she is probably snuggled up to Liam. His arms are wrapped around her holding her close. That used to be, that should still be me.
“Time heals all wounds of the heart Harry. I promise give it time and you will move on and be happy.” I cried for a few minutes until I eventually felt my eyes grow heavy. I got into bed and Louis left.
“Remember we have a meeting with management tomorrow Harry.” I heard him say. I mumbled okay and let sleep take over my body.
I woke up the next morning and I felt like shit. This was becoming my usual everyday routine. I would wake up way too late in the afternoon, I would be hungover, and I would drink away my sorrows during the remainder of the day. I got up and went to my liquor cabinet. Lets see all I have left is Scotch and Gin. Lets go with the Scotch. I know it probably wasn't the healthiest habit but I couldn't give a fuck really. I had a hungover and they say a cure for a hangover is to drink more so thats what I would do. I sat on the couch and had about six drinks. I looked at my watch and noticed it was 1:30. Shit I was late for my meeting. I got up from the couch and scrambled to get ready. I put on the first articles of clothing that I saw. I had to call a cab because my car was still at the bar from last night.
I arrived at the office basically an hour late. Before walking into the room I pulled out my flask and decided to drink the rest of the Scotch. I was already late so its not like it mattered. By the time I finally decided to walk in I had to have one of the assistants help me off the floor because I was so drunk I couldn't get up by myself. I stumbled into the room to see all the boys and a very angry Simon. The boys rolled their eyes at me but i honestly didn't care.
“Nice of you to finally join us Harry.” Simon spoke and I could tell by his tone, I was going to get an ear full.
“Baby stop it.” Gabby giggled as I kissed her neck. I thought it was cute how my scruff tickled her but she still loved it. I kissed her neck some more nipping at the skin. “Babe you have to go. You’re going to be late.” I sighed.
“Ugh fine. Later no excuses.” I smirked which made her smile.
“What’s this meeting about anyway?”
“Well actually I’m planing on telling Simon the news about the baby. Its time the world knows about my little princess.”
“Really you're going to tell them?” She smiled.
“Yes, I want everyone to know about baby Payne.” I put my hand on her bump and kissed it. “Daddy is going to tell the world about you today. I know they will be just as excited as I am.”
“Liam I’m so hap-” She stopped talking and she put her hand on her stomach.
“Babe whats wrong? Is the baby okay?” I asked panicky.
“Liam she kicked. Feel here.” She put my hand on her stomach and I didn't feel anything, which made me feel sad.
“I missed it baby. I didn't feel anything.”
“Talk to my stomach again.” I got down on my knees and put my hand on her stomach again.
“Hey princess, its daddy. I was so happy when I found out I was going to have a little girl. Everyone is so excited to meet you. Grandmum and granddad, and aunty Ruth and aunty Nicola are so excited.” Soon I felt little flutters press against Gabby’s stomach. I felt tears fill my eyes, I couldn't believe my baby was growing and was beginning to move around. “I felt it! I felt her kick!” I said happily.
“She loves your voice Liam.” Gabby smiled at me. “She loves you so much already Liam.”
“I love her too. I love her so much. I love both my beautiful girls.” I said as a few tears slid down my cheek. Gabby wiped them and kissed me.
“We love you so much Liam.” I kissed her again. “Hurry up and go to your meeting so you come back and cuddle with us.” She smiled at me and I kissed her head.
“Okay I just don’t want to leave you. I want to feel the baby kick again.”
“Don’t worry Liam, she will kick plenty of more times. I promise.”
“Okay but I won't be long I promise.”
“Bye babe. I love you.”
“I love you too.” I said as I grabbed my keys off the counter.
“Drive safe!” I heard Gabby shout.
The drive to the office was quick which I was happy about. I walked in to see Niall already there. I wanted this meeting to hurry and be over with. I wanted to spend the rest of the day with Gabby and our baby. I saw the boys were already there, all of them except Harry of course. They all greeted me and we made some small talk. Soon Simon walked in.
“Hey boys.” He said.
“Hey Simon.” We all said in unison.
“I told him last night we had a meeting.” Louis spoke up.
“Well we will wait till he gets here to start the meeting then.”
We all nodded our heads and just started to converse with some more small talk. It seemed forever and I looked at my watch. I have been here an hour and Harry hasn't even fucking showed up yet. I wanted to get home. Simon was growing impatient as well as all of us because he kept looking at his watch. About thirty minutes later Harry stumbled in. He was barely able to stand and he reeked of boos and smoke. He looked rough.
“Nice of you to finally join us Harry.” Simon said with an angry tone.
“Sorry I got caught up.” Harry said as he stumbled to sit down in the chair.
“I see that. I’d say you have had too much to drink from what I can see. And just about every other magazine can see that as well.”
“Fuck what they say I don’t care.”
“That why I called this meeting Harry. You're out of control and its making you look like an absolute nuisance to the public. You’re embarrassing me, the band, and most importantly you’re embarrassing yourself. All of the boys and fans are worried. I cant tell you how many called I’ve received from your mother Harry.” Harry sighed and rolled his eyes.
“Simon I don’t need to lecturing me. I’m a grown man and your not my father. I don’t need to sit here and listen to this bullshit.” Harry said and he began to get up but he lost his balance and fell. I got up to help him but he pushed my arm away. “Don’t fucking touch me you bastard.”
“Harry! Liam was trying to help you.” Simon spoke up making us both look at him.
“I don’t want anything from him! He took everything from.” Simon looked at me confused.
“Whats going on Harry?”
“Ask him.” Harry pointed at me and Simon looked back at me.
“What happened Liam?”
“I’m going to be a father Simon.”
“Congratulations Liam! I didn't know you and Sophia were expecting.”
“Its not with Sophia. I’m having a baby with Gabriella. Gabriella and I have been together for some time and we are very happy. I’m ready to tell the fans and everything. We are having a baby girl.”
“Oh boy.” Thats all Simon could say. “Is that why you’ve been acting this way Harry?” Harry didn't answer, he just started to cry. He pulled out a flask and I guess it was empty because he threw it on the floor and started drinking the Scotch Simon had in his office.
“Harry stop.” I put my arm on his shoulder and he pushed me back and punched me right in the face. I pushed him back and got on top of him and began punching him. Next thing I knew the boys were pulling me off him and Harry’s lip was bleeding.
“Boys this is out of control! You two work together! Harry your going to have to get over this and move on. You are legally bound by contract to this band. So suck it up and move on!” Simon yelled. Harry spit out blood and began to slur his words.
“Of course you would side with him Simon.” He spit out more blood. “You did the same fucking thing to your best friend.” All of our mouths dropped including Simon’s.
“Harry I believe your in need of some special help. You will be attending a three month program in Florida that will help you get through this rough patch in your life.”
“You’re sending me to fucking rehab? I’m not fucking going.”
“I believe its in your best interest interest Harry to stop talking and listen. If you want to remain a part of this band, you will go complete the program and return and will act on your best behavior for the remainder of your contract. Understood?” Harry rolled his eyes and nodded. “I’m glad you agree.” He looked at me.
“As for you Liam. Your actions have put a big strain on this band. But I will not judge you on your actions and congratulations to you and Gabby. I know you will both be amazing parents. We will release an official statement on Monday morning confirming you and Gabriella’s relationship and pregnancy.”
“Thank you sir. I’m not happy about what I caused between the band and between Harry and I, and I apologize for it from the bottom of my heart. I never planned to hurt Harry like this and cause all these problems it just happened. I’m in love with Gabriella sir and I care about her and this baby so much. Despite the current situation I’ve never been happier with someone than I am right now with Gabriella and our baby. I’m glad you understand Simon.” He nodded his head and Harry spoke again.
“Fuck you Liam! You took everything from me! That baby was supposed to be mine!”
“Harry I didn't plan this, it just happened! I love her and she loves me! We are happy! I’m not asking you to forgive me but I’m asking you to put all of it aside while we are at work! We don’t have to like each other but we need to remain professional in public and at work. For the fans sake.”
“Whatever. Fuck you I’m done here.” He walked out and slammed the door so hard on of the painting on the wall fell down.
“Well that went well.” I heard Niall say with a grin on his face, obviously trying to lighten the mood.
This meeting was a total disaster. I only hoped things between Harry and I would get better. Hoping at this point was all I could do.
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