Please Stay With Me
I got back in the elevator to go to Louis’s room. I was pretty nervous because his text was so out of the blue, and he happened to send it the night after I slept with Liam. I found his room and took a deep breathe before I knocked on the door. Louis opened up right away and I saw Harry on the couch crying.
“Gabriella what the fuck? He has been trying to get a hold of you all night.” He tried to whisper but his tone was still firm and angry. “He kept me up all night because he was crying his eyes out scared to fucking death that something bad happened to you! Where the fuck where you?”
“I slept in Liam’s room last night. Harry and I had a fight and I turned my phone off, thats why I wasn't answering him.”
“Well you had him scared to death Gabriella!” Harry must have heard what was going on because he walked over and saw me standing in the door way.
“Oh thank God you're safe! Gabriella I was so worried something bad happened to you, and then you didn't come home!” He tried to hug me but I pushed him arms away from me.
“Don’t touch me Harry! I don’t want you hands on me after you’ve been touching that slut!”
“Gabby please! I’m not cheating on you!” His eyes started to fill with tears and he began crying again.
“God damn it Gabriella! Do you have to make him cry even more!” Louis yelled at me. This was surprising because never got angry, especially at me.
“Louis you don’t even know what the fuck is going on! Did he tell you he cheated on me! Why are you taking his side when you don’t even know the full story you asshole!” Louis gave Harry a confused look because he obviously didn't know that part of story.
“I’m not cheating on her.” Harry said sobbingly. It was hard to understand what he was saying because he was crying so much.
“I know what I saw Harry! I’m not stupid!”
“It’s not what it looks like Gabriella! I swear to God! Have I ever given you a reason in the past to make you think I would cheat on you?” I was about to say something, but I stopped myself. Harry never has ever given me a reason to suspect cheating. He has always been so faithful and trustworthy. I took a deep breathe before speaking again.
“If you weren't cheating why didn't you tell me that you were texting her? And why did you lie about it when I asked you?” He sighed trying to stop himself for crying. His eyes were bloodshot, he clearly hasn't slept.
“Because it was nothing. It meant absolutely nothing to me. I didn't want you to get mad about something that wasn't even important to me! Gabriella, for fucks sake I love you so damn much! I would never hurt you like that.”
I suddenly felt guilty, here Harry was practically begging me to believe that he hadn't cheated. When last night I did the exact thing to him. Harry was telling the truth, I could see it in his eyes how sincere he was being. I’m surprised he couldn't see the betrayal and deception in mine.This whole fight was a big misunderstanding, a lack of communication. If I hadn't been such a bitch last night he could have explained everything to me. I wouldn't have cheated on him with Liam, and wouldn't be stuck with these feeling of unrequited love from Liam. I had this sweet and vulnerable guy in front of me, and little did he know I betrayed him in one of the worst possible ways imaginable. I couldn't tell him what happened. I know it sounds selfish of me but I couldn't lose Harry as well. Sophia had Liam and I didn't, which hurt me more than anything, but I couldn't lose Harry as a result of that.
I walked over to him and put my hands around his neck running my fingers through his curly, untamed hair. I kissed him lightly and he soon reciprocated by kissing me back and putting his hands around my waist.
“Its okay I believe you Harry. I love you too.” He smiled at me and kissed me again. I wanted to cry knowing that he would be crushed if he found out.
“Babe whats wrong? Why are you crying?”
“I’m just happy we made up.” He kissed my nose and we interrupted by Louis walking back into the living room.
“Well look at that. How sweet. Is everything okay now between you two love birds?”
“Yea mate everything is fine. We are gonna go back to our room now.” Harry interlocked our hands together.
“Oh makeup sex already?”
“Maybe later, but I’m going to go to sleep first.” He smirked at Louis and Louis winked at me. I was too emotionally exhausted to have any sort of makeup sex right now. Sleep is the only activity that would take place in the bedroom. We left Louis’s room only for him to shout “USE PROTECTION KIDS!” down the hall causing my face to heat up because Harry and I weren't the only ones in the hallway at the time. As we got out the elevator I happened to see Liam outside our room leaning against the wall. What was he doing here?
“Hey mate whats up?” Harry asked before I got the chance to say anything.
“Um I was coming to see if you guys wanted to grab lunch?” I know Liam better than anyone and I knew that excuse was a big pile of bullshit. I wasn't going to ask now but i’d ask him later about what this whole surprise visit was really about.
“Oh no I’m completely exhausted Liam. Maybe Gabby wants to?” He looked to me and I shook my head no.
“Maybe tomorrow Liam? I’m tired also.” Liam looked down our Harry and I’s intertwined hands.
“You two made up I see. I’m glad everything is fine again.”
“Oh me too! I don’t know what I would do without her.” Harry smiled at me and kissed me on the cheek. “Now if you excuse me I’m in need of sleep and the bed inside is calling my name. Bye Liam, see ya later yeah?”
“Yeah. See ya later Harry.” I mad sure Harry was inside before I spoke.
“So whats the real reason you came here?”
“To ask if you guys wanted to get food, I told you already.”
“Really thats it?”
“Yup thats it.” He pulled me closer to him and reached for something in his pocket. “Also to give you these.” He handed me my panties from last night. I felt my cheeks heat up feeling slightly embarrassed.
“Liam! What the fuck is wrong with you? What if Harry saw you hand me these? What would I have said to him?”
“Well I couldn't keep them in my fucking room! What if Sophia found them? Then what would I tell her?”
“You could have said they were hers! The bitch probably has a pair just like them!” I couldn't help but feel jealous at the fact her brought up. Of course I was jealous, she had the boy I was in love with.
“Oh yeah thats real smart Gabby! She wouldn't fall for that!”
“Well maybe she would. Everyone knows she not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed Liam!”
“Have you told Harry about last night yet?” He asked me out of the blue.
“Why would I tell Harry? You know that would crush him. I can’t do that.” He sighed, and looked pretty angry.
“So what, you're just going to keep all of this a secret?” His tone was noticeably angry now.
“Why does it even matter Liam? I know for a fact you not going to tell Sophia, so stop trying to make me look like the only bad person in the situation. It takes two people to do what we did last night Liam. We both fucking cheated and now we are just going to have to fucking deal with it!”
“So thats it then?”
“Yes Liam thats it!"
“Look I didn't come here to fight with you okay? I just came to return those and okay the getting food part was a lie. I just wanted to see you.” Why did he lie about that?
“Liam you know you can see me whenever you want to.”
“I just don’t want it to be awkward between us.”
“ It wont be okay? I promise.” He pulled me into a hug and kissed my head.
“I’ll see you later Gabby.” He said with a sad expression on his face, I saw him get on the elevator and he waved to me one last time before the doors closed.
I don't know how much longer I would be able to hide my feelings for Liam. I just wish I could tell him how I felt, he’d feel the same way, we’d live happily ever after, and nobody would get hurt. But my life isn't that easy, I know Liam see’s me as just a friend and never will see me as anything more. Its hard to have so many feelings for someone and know they’d rather be with some else. Its crazy how one night that I don’t even remember has such an impact on my life. I walked inside the room to find Harry already asleep. I decided to take shower to relax me. The shower is always a good place to cry because nobody can see your tears, and thats exactly what I did. I cried my eyes out, I had so many bottled up emotions that I needed to let out. I stayed in the shower until the water began to run cold.
I climbed out of the shower not even bothering to brush my hair and slipped on one of Harry’s shirt and got in the bed. As soon as I got in the bed I instantly felt his arms wrapped around me and pull me closer to him. I buried my face in his chest and let sleep take over me. I felt so much guilt. I was secretly hurting one of the most sweetest men I’ve ever met. Harry has done so much for me and this is how I chose to repay him. What the fuck was wrong with me? Why did I have to fuck up everything good in my life? I felt myself beginning to cry. I had Harry in front of me and he loved me so much. I cried because deep down in my heart I knew I could never love Harry as much as I love Liam.
That is what truly saddened me the most.
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