Back For You

"You haven't talked to him since then?" Zoe asked from across the living room floor.

"No, nothing. It's been almost 2 weeks," I said as I tied the ribbon on the present I was wrapping. After the night Harry found out about what happened, myself and Louis cleaned up the mess on the floor that I made, before he left to go back home, telling me to call him if I need anything. I watched Harry on the balcony leaning out to look at the London Skyline, when I finally built up enough courage to walk out there and tell him I was going to bed, all I received back was a nod, his eyes locked on the sky above.

The next morning I woke up to an empty apartment, and a plate of warm pancakes on the counter.

"I mean I get why he's mad, but not talking to you for 2 weeks…" Zoe said as she turned up the Christmas music. "That's a bit extreme"

"I know, I don't know why I didn't tell him sooner"

"Maybe because you knew he would react like this" Zoe said smiling at me, "You sure my mum will like this?" Zoe said holing up the baking set that she got her mum for christmas.

"Of course" I said, "Your mum is a baker" I said rolling my eyes at her.

"Which is why I don't know if she'll like it or not…like maybe she has a specific brand or something?" Zoe said looking down at the presents.

"I still haven't got Harry's gift yet" I said looking down at my phone.

"You know what you want to get him right?" Zoe asked as she continued to wrap the rest of the present she was struggling with.

"No, No idea" I let out a frustrated breath, "I can't wait to get home" I said just before Zoe's phone started ringing.

"Hello?" She answered, "Oh hey Harry" She said making eye contact with me, "Tomorrow at 3, okay! Yeah we'll be ready. See you later, bye" She said hanging up the phone. "He said he'll be here at 3 tomorrow,"

"urrrg" I said throwing myself on the ground "I hate him, so much" I screamed covering my face with a pillow.

-

"I'll be right back I forgot Anne's present," I said as picked my handbag off the ground heading back towards the elevator. It was the day we were leaving back to Holmes Chapel for Christmas, Harry was coming to pick us up and I knew this was going to be awkward considering we hadn't talked since the incident.

"Okay, hurry! He should be hear soon," Zoe said as the elevator door shut. I walked as fast as I could into my apartment, straight to my bed room grabbing the package I had ordered from Tiffany's for Anne that arrived this morning; along the way knocking over my jewellery box.

"Shit" I mumbled as I stuffed the package into my purse beginning to shove the jewellery carelessly into the box with the little ballerina in it.

That's when I saw it. Our old friendship bracelet I had made back in grade school for Harry and myself. It was made out of the string, that I used to be obsessed with. Holding the faded, limp band in my hands I shoved it further into my purse, before grabbing my bag and heading out the door.

I walked downstairs to Harry placing the last of the bags into the boot of the car.

"Hi" He said stopping what he was doing to look at me.

"Hey," I replied back, as a cool breeze blew past us. "Ready?" I asked as I walked past him to the passenger door.

"Yeah, Ry actually-" I heard Harry say, before I was greeted with happy face and long blonde hair.

"Hey Rylynn, I bet you're excited to be heading back home" Laura said from the passenger seat.

"Oh hey Laura. I didn't know you were getting back early?" I said as I awkwardly moved to open the backseat of the range rover, sliding in next to Zoe.

"Yeah I got back early, Im so glad! I can't wait to get back to Anne's" Laura said as she faced the front.

"Everyone ready" Harrys said getting into the driver seat in front of Zoe,

"Let's get home" Zoe said as I shoved my ear phone in to my ears, before catching Harry's concerned look in the review mirror.

-

"Ry, we're here" I felt Zoe shake me awake

"Huh?" I got up groggily rubbing my eyes, "Already?"

"Yeah, Laura went inside, My parents and your dad are inside waiting for us," Zoe said as she opened the back door of the car getting out.

Letting out a long breath, I pulled my head phones out of my ears and re-tied my hair back in to the high pony tail it was in. I opened the door of the car only to smack right into Harry.

"Sorry" I mumbled as I went to the boot of the car to retrieve my bags.

"It's alright" I heard a whisper from behind me as Harry grabbed my bags from the back of the car before I could even reach for them.

"I was going to get those" I said as I followed behind Harry up the familiar steps of his mother's house.

"I've got them" He said quietly as we walked inside.

"Darling," I heard my dad's voice from next to me.

"Dad" I said as a smile stretched across my face as I made my way into his opened arms, "I missed you" I said realizing how true those words sounded after they left my mouth.

"I missed you too, my girl," My dad said as she let me go, turning his attention to Harry, "Son, how are you" He said extending a hand to Harry the way he always did.

"I'm good, It was a good drive, no traffic. How's everything" Harry asked as I made my way towards Talan.

"What's wrong" He asked me as soon as I got in front of him, before opening his arms to give me a hug.

"That obvious" I said smiling up at my little brother.

"You're a open book Ry" He smiled "We'll talk after"

After everyone settled, Anne served dinner. Myself, Talan and Zoe were sitting outside in the glass sunroom, that was connected to Anne's House, as the last bits of daylight escaped behind the clouds.

"It's funny, you know. I never thought I would miss Holmes Chapel as much as I do now that I'm back" Zoe said from her chair across from Talan.

"I know what you mean" I said agreeing with her. As much as we all hated growing up in the smallest town in the world, we loved it here. It was the one thing we could always count on whenever we left home. It was always something we could come back to, something we knew would always be the same.

"I'll take our plates inside," Zoe said after a few moments of silence, before getting up and walking back towards the house.

"So what happened" Talan said from the opposite side of the table.

"He's mad at me" I said looking towards where Harry and Laura were outside by the small frozen pond. "I didn't tell him about Jackson" I said referring my gaze back to Talan. "I had another panic attack 2 weeks ago, Harry stayed the night and I was having a conversation with Louis and he heard it, he was so angry, Talan. I've never seen him so angry." I said shaking my head looking at my brother.

"Well I know Harry, just as well as I know you, and you need to go talk to him" Talan said as he nudged his head towards Harry.

"I know,"

-

"You guys suck" I said as I wrapped the blanket tighter around me. It was just past 11pm, and myself Talan and Zoe were still sitting outside in the sunroom with a couple warm blankets wrapped around us. The parents were inside, and the music they were listening to could be heard from the house. I hadn't seen Harry or Laura since they walked inside the house after dinner.

"No, Rylynn you just suck at UNO" Talan said grabbing the cards from my hand, "I think I'm going to head inside, it's getting a bit cold" Talan said as he stood up, looking between myself and Zoe

"Me too," Zoe said yawning, "suddenly joining the parents in front of the fire place sounds like a good idea" She said as she began walking away with Talan, "You coming?" She said as I gathered my things. Making our way inside the house, I walked into the kitchen to dispose of thethree mugs of hot chocolate Anne brought out to us half an hour ago.

"Just, give me a sec Laur" I heard Harry whisper asI watched from the kitchen door as he walked up the stairs.

"I just need a minute, gonna call my dad" I heard him say.

"Go" I turned around to hear a quiet voice from behind me. "Just talk to him, you don't want things to be awkward around christmas" Talan said looking at me, a small smile across his face.

"Fine," I said as I tied my hair back up, making my way upstairs, to his room. "Haz" I whispered as I walked inside.

His rom was the way it always was. Navy blue sheets dressed his twin sized bed that was pushed up against the side wall. His desk was across the room separated by a window that overlooked the large backyard. His clothes were thrown across the room. It smelt just like him.

"Haz" I said again as I watched him rub his palms across his eyes, from where he was lying on the bed.

"What Ry," He said as he finally made eye contact with me.

"We need to talk" I said closing the door behind me.

"Ry," He started, but I cut him off. I needed to tell him my reasoning, he needed to hear my side first.

"I couldn't tell you" I said before I could stop the worlds from spilling out. "I knew how you would react, I couldn't have you worried about me. I didn't want to hold you back from anything ok? That's why I couldn't have you knowing. I needed to recover, I needed time to think about…about where my head was…I didn't know what else to do" I said, now standing in front of him.

"That's Bullshit Rylynn, I could've been there….I could've, helped. " Harry said, an angry expression taking over his face.

"Harry, I didn't want you to drop everything for me. The boys, the band. I couldn't ask you to do that" I yelled back at him, annoyance taking over my face.

"That's not up to you to decide," Harry's voice raised, as he stood up in front of me, his emerald eyes filled with sadness as he looked down.

"I can't keep relying on you, I don't want to be someone that relies on other people to pick up their broken, messed up relationship." I yelled back aggravated

"You could've at least told me, Rylynn. For fucks sakes," Harry said as crossed the room, pacing in front of his closed door, leaving me to sit on the edge of his bed alone. "Do you understand, how much It hurt the whole god damn 18 hours on the flight to Australia after I received that call from Zoe?" Harry said as his voice got louder "Do you understand how much It hurt seeing you like that, crying night after night, panic attacks and do you remember that time I went to hug you and you flinched away?" He was red in the face now, tears filling his eyes, but he wouldn't cry. Harry had never cried in front of me- he wouldn't let them fall not now, not ever. "To know that piece of shit made you that way, Rylynn. I would've killed him" He spat, anger still evident as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Did you really expect it to be over? Did you really think he wouldn't try something after you left? Harry do you not think I wanted to call you every sing day….EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN DAY, of course I wanted to," I said as tears poured down my face, I was shaking.

"Why didn't you? Why didn't you pick up the phone and call me" Harry said as he screamed in front of me "I would've been on the next flight out,"

I was crying, I could barely see Harry anymore, the tears blocking my vision.

He crouched down till he was eye level with me, letting out a deep breath.

"Rylynn," He whispered as he wiped away a fallen tear from my eyes, "when are you going to realize I would do absolutely anything for you,"

Notes

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