It Never Ends

*Louis’s POV*

I slumped down into my chair as my teacher; Ms. Owens discussed the chapters from ‘The Great Gatsby’. I was supposed to read three chapters last night, but instead I was Face timing illianna; who I broke up with twenty minutes ago.

Maybe I overreacted about the whole Nathan situation and was a bit harsh towards her, but she did not to explain in detail the way Nathan treated her.

Yes, illianna deserves to be treated like a princess and feel loved, but throwing her and Nathan’s relationship in my face was something that I shouldn’t have known about.

Nathan was her ex-boyfriend, and I am her current one. Or used to be current boyfriend.

I was upset because illianna sounded as if I never made her happy the way Nathan did. And sure we haven’t dated for a long time, but to me, it seemed like I was never going to please her the way Nathan did.

illianna walked away crying from me and called me an asshole. It’s what I deserve. I got angry at her and raised my voice, something I never imagined myself doing to her.

All I wanted was to date her and when I finally got the chance, I ruined it. My brain completely shut off and words just escaped my mouth. And those very words cost me my relationship.

And I want to get illianna back. But will she come back to me after the way I snapped at her and insulted her. I threw Nathan back into her face and that is what seemed to set her off. If she doesn’t take me back, it would be my fault.

“Louis?” Ms. Owens calls my name. I perk my head up.

“Ma’am?”

“Answer the question.” Ms. Owens orders.

I peek at the blackboard and my desk to see if there is a question somewhere. When I don’t see one, I look back up at Ms. Owens.

“How do you feel about the love triangle going on between Gatsby and Daisy?” Ms. Owens asks, referring to ‘The Great Gatsby’.

I think I have an answer to this one.

“Well, Gatsby is a man who is determined to get the women he loves, which is Daisy Buchanan. Daisy is Gatsby’s passion who Gatsby spent his life trying to win. Mr. Gatsby deserves Daisy after all the things he has done just to get Daisy to notice him.” I clarify, proud with my answer.

The rest of the students look at me with quizzical expressions. Some of them don’t agree with me, as I can tell. I cross my arms and get ready to defend my stance.

In reality, I’m playing the role of Gatsby, a mysterious individual while illianna is Daisy. Daisy, who doesn’t know what she wants and is very stubborn, fits illianna’s profile thoroughly. Of course, Nathan is Tom, the man who is stopping Gatsby from getting Daisy.

“Mr. Tomlinson, you do realize Daisy is married to Tom right?” Ms. Owens asks me in curiosity.

“Yes. But Tom Buchanan doesn’t love Daisy, he never did. Tom told Daisy things to make seem that he loves her, but both Tom and Daisy have no love for one another.”

“Can you explain the obsession that Gatsby has toward Daisy?”

“It’s not technically as an obsession. Both Gatsby and Daisy used to be very much in love. Gatsby got caught up in a few things which left Daisy to marry Tom. Daisy doesn’t love Tom. She should just admit that she loves Gatsby.” I defend.

Ms. Owens looks at me suspiciously.

“Very well then Mr. Tomlinson.” She eyes me, walking to the front of the classroom.

I snicker and slump back into my chair. The time is ticking by slowly, but all I can think about is illianna. For sure, she will tell Zayn what happened between us and she will definitely tell Ariana.

The whole team will find out and they will all be upset. I know that I broke up with her out of jealousy, but I’m confused on how I got so rounded up about hearing about Nathan. I let him get the best of me and I should’ve just let it alone.

I know that this will bug me all day. And I need to be focused for tonight. I have a game tonight and it’s the first round of playoffs. But where will be my girl when all the girls are with their guys?

Who will I get a hug from or a congratulations kiss from when we win tonight?

There were about twenty five minutes left in class and we left to read the next three chapters for tonight. I’m not going to read it, I can’t. I don’t know why illianna had such a strong effect on me.

Maybe it was our first time talking, our night at my party, our night in her bed, or the time we admitted our feelings; I don’t just ‘like’ her. I have feelings for her that a teenager should never have towards someone else while in High School. I don’t know what made her so different.

Perhaps this is my punishment for when I dated and hooked up with Jenna. But then again, anybody would be upset if someone told them they really liked them, but didn’t want to date them.

The bell rings escaping the thoughts from my head. Time flew by as was thinking about illianna. I stepped out of class and ran into Niall.

“Why do you look so down?” is the first thing he asks. He’s obviously isn’t aware of the break-up yet.

I shake my head dismissing him, but he doesn’t budge.

“Please don’t tell me you and Lily are having troubles already? Or that you two didn’t break-up already?” He wonders.

I guess Niall realize what he said, as he puts his hand over his mouth in shock. He knocks on the wooden banister standing next to us and whispers something.

“Knocking on wood won’t do any good Niall. We broke up.” I confess.

“Why?! Was it because of the Clements incident?” he slightly yells in anger.

“Yes.”

Niall shakes his head in frustration and looks at me in disappointment.

“Well what was it? It had to be a good reason for you two to break up that quick.” He considers.

“She threw her memories between her ex-boyfriend in her face and made it seem that no one will ever compare to him. I wasn’t going to put up with that. If she wants him back, she could go get him.” I shrug, leaving Niall behind.

“You don’t mean that.” He calls after me.

He’s right. I don’t.

“You were so fascinated with her and had this obsession with her. You always found excuses to get near here and threw so many parties hoping she would drop by. You want her back, and you just don’t want to admit that.” Niall tells me.

I sigh and turn back. Niall has never spoken to me like that. He was always quiet when it came to me breaking up with someone because he never liked the girls I dated. Why was he defending illianna all of a sudden?

“Okay Niall. I get it.” I wimp, still walking away.

”You get all butt-hurt when she brings up her ex-boyfriend. You should have known better than to get mad at her for that. Who just ruined your chances of ever getting back with her!” he shouts.

“Oh what do you know?! You weren’t even there!” I retaliate.

“I’ve know you for eight years. I’ve known you long enough and I know exactly what you are capable of saying, thinking, and doing! You have just lost the most important girl who cared deeply for you. You asshole.” He growls, bringing me back to what illianna told me.

My hearts starts to slowly beat. What Niall said is true. I am an asshole. And I did just ruin everything. I am losing the perfect thing.

“There’s nothing I can do anymore. She won’t take me back.” I whimper.

“No.” Niall shakes his head. “You need to go find her, and you need to talk to her.”

“But what do I do? What do I say?”

Niall limps his way towards me.

“You go and find her, and you hope that she will talk to you. Do it when Zayn or Ariana aren’t around.” he starts. “You tell her how you really feel, and you don’t give up until she admits the way she feels.”

“I can’t let her leave?”

“Not until the differences are settled.”

I grin a bit and straighten myself up. You have to love Niall. He’s a best friend anyone would want. He’ll help you in the most difficult situations because he knows what it’s like to feel burned down.

I extend my arms out to hug him. I know that he has yet to let me down.

“Go get her back Lou. It will do you both good.”

I went on to my next class, hoping the time will pass quickly. I had my quest all planned out.

I knew that for sure illianna would be at the game tonight. She would watch me play, and I will play my hardest just for her, like I did the last game.

And after, I will find her and take Niall’s advice. I won’t let her get away from me until I get her back.

If she wants to be friends, I won’t allow it. Our relationship is not going to be a ‘friends with benefits’ one.

Besides, you could never be ‘just friends’ with someone you fell in love with.

And I do mean love.