I disrupted my own sleep many times during the night and hindered my self with thoughts like: 'How long will this last, days, weeks, months, forever?' that particular question obviously hung in the air, I almost saw the words floating in the empty space above my head like birds, flying around, just being bothersome. I would go back to crying and falling asleep, and cry IN my sleep. Sun rays woke me early, I was stifling back tears, trying not to start crying again, so I cozied next to Niall and Ignored the morning light. Though I weeped silently, and began to talked to him "I'm so sorry, it's all my fault please forgive me" or begged "please wake up, please you have to" and many more variations. I was crying nearly audibly, and a groan escaped, what I thought were my lips, until a loving hand rubbed the top of my head and tried to calm me down, I looking up I saw his brilliant blue jewels peering down at my "N- Niall?" I asked, shakily. "Sarah?" He asked me "do you really blame yourself, for ALL this?" Tears welled In his eyes. "It is my fault Niall, none of this would have happened if it weren't for me, I was stupid and selfish, and- and" I tried to go on but tears wouldn't have it. "No, no, no, no more! We agreed on this, it's not you fault, if anything it's mine, I should've given you space, I shouldn't have let Emily tricked, me damn that bitch," he cursed her name under his breath. I could only look up at him, we shared the same teary eyed expression of forgiveness and he went and gave me a famous Horan hug, he hugged me for a long time, stroked my hair and sang. For that while everything was good, there was no Emily, no Ashleigh, no Mick, no one but Niall and I, it was VERY good for that moment.

Notes

I know it's short but I had my first swim Pratice of the season today SOOO TIRED!!!