What could I do? I wasn't sure, I was still mad as hell, but seeing him like that it tore my apart, my mind said to spit on him, my heart said to comfort him, my body said to run for him. What could I do? I wasn't sure, I was still mad as hell, but seeing him like that it tore my apart, my mind said to spit on him, my heart said to comfort him, my body said to run for him. What DID I do? Obviously what would clear my mind but challenge my heart, I went for a run. I simply walked back into my room, laced my shoes, and ran. I told El I'd probably wouldn't be stupid but if I was, to spend all money on spoiling Dutch, but added a grin to show the light heartedness of the comment. As soon as I stepped out of the flat, soon as the cold air pricked my nose I was gone, like the old pull back cars, once you let go, their gone. I ran, Dutch kept time with me. She was confused as I was, her and Meg, sense she had lived an equality rough life, I trusted her,no, not trusted, shared similar issues with her. We claimed we could be messed up, with trust issues for example, together. Meg was a crucial part of keeping my sanity in tact some what. As I ran I mentally went over who I could trust, and better, how I could get sweet revenge, not only from Niall but Emily too, then I had my lightbulb moment. Harry. He was, flirtatious to say the least, and I'm sure, even if Emily was back, I could surely take care of that problem. Going back to the flat I started step 1 of my evil plan: Set up and sympathy. I quickly found El in the living room, "Hey El, can we talk?" I asked sadly. "Course" she said leading me to my room. "Wasup?" She asked, sitting on the foot of my bed. "I- I don't know, I, I fell like, suddenly, I really need someone in my life, like romantically, I was running and the loneliness hit me like a ton of bricks!" I cried, dramatically. "Oh honey, how bout we go out, all of us girls, we can find you some one, won't even have to walk in the club and you'll have guys askin for your number!" She cheered my "bad mood" up. "So will you, the guys should come, I can just avoid Niall, it'll be a date night. Ill take Meg as a date" I giggled at the last part. "As long as your okay with it." Eleanor assured. "Oh my God! Are Emily and Harry an item still? After all that?" I exclaimed. "Well Emi's trying to crawl her way back into his life, Harry, frankly, is a a cross road like you. He was crushed by the ordeal." She explained. Perfect, he's weak, crushed and desperate for answers. "Too bad, it really sucks." I said with a fake sympathy, I felt bad for Harry but with my plan, I could only focus on one thing, and that one thing is not Harry, not yet at least. "Okay well, girls night out, ima get some sleep, been fighting that pill my whole run" I said, slipping under the covers, it was true I was tired. Ill be sure to let meg in on my plan, she's a large part of it. With devilish thoughts, I went to sleep, I visioning my plan. I do? Obviously what would clear my mind but challenge my heart, I went for a run. I simply walked back into my room, laced my shoes, and ran. I told El I'd probably wouldn't be stupid but if I was, to spend all money on spoiling Dutch, but added a grin to show the light heartedness of the comment. As soon as I stepped out of the flat, soon as the cold air pricked my nose I was gone, like the old pull back cars, once you let go, their gone. I ran, Dutch kept time with me. She was confused as I was, her and Meg, sense she had lived an equality rough life, I trusted her,no, not trusted, shared similar issues with her. We claimed we could be messed up, with trust issues for example, together. Meg was a crucial part of keeping my sanity in tact some what. As I ran I mentally went over who I could trust, and better, how I could get sweet revenge, not only from Niall but Emily too, then I had my lightbulb moment. Harry. He was, flirtatious to say the least, and I'm sure, even if Emily was back, I could surely take care of that problem. Going back to the flat I started step 1 of my evil plan: Set up and sympathy. I quickly found El in the living room, "Hey El, can we talk?" I asked sadly. "Course" she said leading me to my room. "Wasup?" She asked, sitting on the foot of my bed. "I- I don't know, I, I fell like, suddenly, I really need someone in my life, like romantically, I was running and the loneliness hit me like a ton of bricks!" I cried, dramatically. "Oh honey, how bout we go out, all of us girls, we can find you some one, won't even have to walk in the club and you'll have guys askin for your number!" She cheered my "bad mood" up. "So will you, the guys should come, I can just avoid Niall, it'll be a date night. Ill take Meg as a date" I giggled at the last part. "As long as your okay with it." Eleanor assured. "Oh my God! Are Emily and Harry an item still? After all that?" I exclaimed. "Well Emi's trying to crawl her way back into his life, Harry, frankly, is a a cross road like you. He was crushed by the ordeal." She explained. Perfect, he's weak, crushed and desperate for answers. "Too bad, it really sucks." I said with a fake sympathy, I felt bad for Harry but with my plan, I could only focus on one thing, and that one thing is not Harry, not yet at least. "Okay well, girls night out, ima get some sleep, been fighting that pill my whole run" I said, slipping under the covers, it was true I was tired. Ill be sure to let meg in on my plan, she's a large part of it. With devilish thoughts, I went to sleep, I visioning my plan.

Notes

Words

Sticks and stones may break my bone but you words will never hurt me
what a lie, a lie that is
Gossip, rumors, lies
All painful as sticks or stones
But the wounds caused be these

They take longer to heal
Some will take eternity
Pray, pray, pray
I pray for them, for Gods forgiveness to extend to even them
As I, I will forgive, but forgetting, another matter.
A matter better unheard, better unsaid
But as their words the same unheard and unsaid
They still did, not knowing how it could effect
A scar, mentally to me, at least for now, consideration, taking in
The simply try to match the pain
To swipe a wrist, swipe away the pain,
The pain of your words

boo people can be totally rude! Life sucks, alot, right now. Figures ill vent apon request