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Maddy's POV

I woke up in my own room. Luke brought me home last night because of my parents. I walked out of my comfortable bed and walked into the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and hopped into the shower. After 15 minutes in the shower i got out and got dressed. I did my make to before i walked downstairs.

My parents are already at work. They always are. I made myself breakfast and ate it. After that it was already time to go. i walked out of the front door and closed it behind me. I locked the door and began my walk to school.

I hope i won't see Harry today. Oh fuck. Of course i'll see him today because we sit next to each other in like every class. That's what i get for trusting him again.

Soon i arrived at school. I walked towards my locker. Once i arrived at my locker i opened it. Harry stood next to me by his locker. Acacia walked towards him and he slammed his locked shut.

Harry pushed he against the lockers and kissed her. Fuck. He's really using me. I really hate him but........why do i feel like someone just stabbed me. Why do i feel like i have to throw up!? Why do i feel jealous? Because you love him you idiot! My subconscious said.

No, i don't. I can't. I won't. Yes, you do. My subconscious said again. Fine. Maybe i do. No i don't. Ah fuck it! I walked away towards art class. Let the hell begin!!

***At Lunch***

I sat down at the table where Niall and Brooke sat of course. "Hey Mads. Anything new?" Niall asked and i shooked my head no. "You sure. You seem a little bit sad, down, off?" Brooke said and i smiled at her. "I'm okay. Really. I'm fine." They nodded.

"Maddy? Can i talk to you for a second. Alone?" Brooke asked and i nodded. Why the fuck does she want to talk to me alone? Did i do something?

We walked to an empty table and sat down. "So.......Maddy...." "Yeah? Did i do something!?" She shook her head no and smiled at me. "No. Not at all." "Then why am i here?"

"Do you love Harry? As in i fell in love with you. As in falling for someone?" She asked me and i gasped. "What? Why? No! I-i hate h-him." She smirked at me. Oh no. No no no no. This can't be good.

"You love him huh? I knew it! The way you look at him. It's even more and better then two years ago. Well..........i can tell you you're lucky Maddy." "Huh? What do you mean with i'm lucky and i''m not in love with him. Not after what he did to me." I said and she chuckled.

"Yeah right. I know you are. Anyway........you're lucky because he looks at you the same as you look at him. Love. And lust. But the most important thing is love. He loves you so very much and you don't even realize it! And i know you love him to." I sighed. Fuck.

"I can't love him. He will only hate me and hurt me. Besides...........there is a huge difference between loving someone and being in love with someone. I just don't and he just can't." She laughed at me. What's so funny!? Nothing is funny here! This is serious shit.

"Oh come on! You can't love him or you don't want to love him? Wich one is it? I think i already know wich one it is. You don't want to love him because of what he did to you. Because you're afraid he will to the same thing again. He will cath you when you fall Maddy. He won't let you down again. He's not the same Harry as he was two years ago." Brooke said and i nodded.

She's right. As always. "Fine. You're right but there is one other thing why i dont want to love him and i can't love him." "And that is?" "He's using me. Luke said to me last night that he heard Harry and Louis talking. They made a bet. Louis said if Harry could get into my pants in a month he gets 5 strippers, a lot of money and a lot of alcohol. Luke said that i have to be angry at Harry. He also said he only heard what they said. He asked me to stay away from him. And i nodded." I told Brooke and she laughed. Why the fuck is she laughing, again!?.

"And you really believe that!? I mean.......yeah Harry is a bad boy but he will never ever use you and you know that. Yes he changed his look and everything but there is one thing that didn't change and that is his love for you. He will always love you and that's why he will never ever use you Maddy." Brooke said and i sighed.

I wanna believe her. Believe me. I really do but Luke would never ever lie to me. "Why did Luke say that to me then? Luke will never ever lie to me!" I yelled at her. Whoops. I didn't ment to do that. "Sorry." I whispered and she nodded before she smiled at me.

"I understand what you mean. I'm not so sure if Luke will be honest with you all the time. But-" I cutted her off. "What the hell!? Why do you say that!?" "Well........you know i already don't really like him but this..... Harry is better for you and you know it!" She yelled at me and i sighed.

Everybody was looking at us. Even Harry. He looked shocked. "Brooke. Calm down. Everybody is looking at us and listening." I whispered and she smirked. Oh god.

"NO! I won't calm down! You love Harry and you know it! He also loves you and you know that to!! Luke is not good for you! HE IS BAD!! WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO BELIEVE ME!? You and Harry are made for each other and you two still love each other! Why is it so hard to admit it!?" Brooke yelled almost screamed. Everybody heard what she said. Harry smiled and looked down.

He mouthed come with me and i nodded. I stood up and walked towards the exit. So did Harry. Soon we were walking to our lockers. I have no idea why our lockers or why he wanted me to come with him.

We arrived at our lockers and he looked at me. "So........about what Brooke said huh?" He said and i sighed. "Leave it! It's not true. She just really loved us together and she wants us together again. That's everything! Besides........i would never ever be with someone who's only using me." I said and my eyes widened. "Did i really say that last part out loud?" I asked and he nodded. Fuck. Not really what i wanted.

"You think i'm using you? You really think that!? I would never ever to that! I could never ever use you even if i wanted to." He said and i looked down. "I can't believe you said that about me you little SLUT!!" He yelled and i gasped.

"W-what? D-did you just c-call me s-slut?" I asked and he nodde dwhile he smirked. "I'm not a slut. I don't know why you would ever think that!? You know i only did it once and that was with you! I was waiting for two fucking years!! You never came back to me!! You have no right to say something like that about me while you're fucking some girl every night!!" I yelled and he looked at me in shock.

"You never did it again after we........ Really?" He asked and i nodded. "Two years and you never came back. That hurts Harry. Really bad. I cried and cried for two years straight. Never a break. Until the start of this year. I decided i wanted to be a strong girl who won't cry about something that isn't even worth it." I whispered and he sighed. "I'm sorry Maddy." He whispered.

"Thank you but..........i can't forgive you. What you did was everything you promised me you would never ever do to me. It was nice to have you here but it's time to move on Harry. I did that and now you have to do that to. It's the best for both of us." I said almost whispered.

"Bye Harry." I said and walked away. "NO!! PLEASE!! WAIT!! I need you. Maddy!!! I lo-" He didn't finish his sentence. Of course not. I don't know what he is doing back there but i bet he is kissing Acacia or something.

It's the best to just hate him and forget about him.

Harry's POV

Louis cutted me off by slapping me. She was out of sight. Fuck. Shit! "LOUIS! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT!! I LOST HER!!" "Yeah you did. You lost her. Forever." He whispered and i gasped. "I lost her. Forever. Fuck. I......" "Let's go back yeah? You need to forget her and move on. Just like she said." Louis said and i nodded.

I will never ever forget her and move in. I will do anything to get her back. Even if it's the last thing i'd do. She's mine. She will always be mine. I have to fight. For her. My Maddy.

Notes

Hi guys.
Sorry for the shitty and short chapter... It's so hot here in The Netherlands but i felt like i really needed to update so here it is!!



xx -This_Girl_Loves_Styles